Dancing with the Old Lady, the Journey continues...
04-25-2021
, 01:39 AM
Let the Races Begin 
Great end to this poker lull stretch with a 5 digit week (just cracking the 11k mark) During these 11 weeks of partial grinding, we managed to book 12.5k, averaged 18h a week and an hourly of 63.50$. Which are all on the low side, but still fine for a non-grinding stretch. In our next lull, I would like to decrease the volume and double my focus on my book - wrote a mere 3 short chapters during this period, I believe - and perhaps a mini-meditation retreat of something like 15h in 2 days would be required... Anyhow, on we go grinding for the next 5 weeks, aiming for 30-35h/week yo
She is definitely a happy little one
Which does not come as a big surprise, considering how much time and luv 
we dedicate to her
A very interesting question and one that touches an issue that has been on my mind recently (see comment about spreading myself too thinly). Tbh, I think I would take the pill, hence giving me more time to focus on other forms of studying, yet the bumpy journey is not something to frown upon neither.
As far as languages and communicating in general goes, I believe that the ease with which you ultimately express yourself, transcends whatever benefits the learning process might provide. After all, as far as general development goes, cognizing is an early stage in the development of most children and a simplistic - relatively speaking - tool with which to interract with/perceive the outside world.
I doubt that my Spanish will ever reach the levels of my French or my English. After all, I plan on writing/deepening the latter two, as opposed to my Castellano. Also, I personally contrast what is the superficial understanding of a dialect to the deep work I put in my French in my literature Uni days.
I remember being 20, devouring 2 books a week, underlining and looking up each word that the definition escaped me. Innumerable were also the Aha moments where a certain word, term, phrase or expression would open up a new and refreshed perspective of the world - sorta speak -, as if as my newly acquired insight would somewhat redefine the world as I saw it. I don't know, there are several examples of expressions that carry so much weight and astuteness in them... Think black swan, nihilistic, existential, muse, cultural FOMO, paradoxal... And then words that are HEAVILY charged of significance like inexorable, conundrum, unforeseen, pinnacle etcetera and etc.... Anyhow, when you find yourself writing a report and you find yourself doubling down on your literary polishing efforts without affecting the flow/concision, magic happens, sorta speak. Well, perhaps not magic, but you feel that you reach HIGHER cognitive heights, or at least that the creative process is hinted with touches of the divine, you know
Which is probably why that at this point in time in my linguistic journey, that I have this temptation to get back into exploring the depths of the French language yo 
Nevertheless, there is something to be said about deliberately putting yourself in the awkward social situations that comes with communicating like an 6 year old, you know, like going on a date with a pretty Peruvian lady and trying by all means to not screw up too badly
And yup, there is definitely something to be said of relearning all the nuances of communicating adequately while facing our own social awkwardness and realizing that in the end, it is quite trite and benign.
Moreover, learning a 2nd/3rd language will also shine light upon how dialects are constructed, something that might of escaped you when you were learning your Mother tongue as an infant. Or the root of certain words like break-fast (de-jeuner/des-ayunar) where you never actually noticed that it logically signifies to break a fast AKA to start eating again... Or sur-vive (sur-vivre/sobre-vivir) that elucidates that one must put themselves above life in order to not, you know, die
And sooooo many more examples.
Final thoughts : yeah, I am proud of having put in the effort twice in my life, a process in which the difficulties most likely remain foreign for a monolingual peep ; nonetheless, next time around , please give me a god damn pill
Final-final thoughts : L enjoys much more the process of learning English that I do (with Spanish) and it is actually one of her favourite activities during the week (she has an hour of zoom twice a week). In fact, before getting one-on-one courses and watching 90% of our movie/series content in English (with Spanish subtitles), she would grind the duolingo app nonstop
Final-fina... ehhh, whatever : A BIG lack throughout my life, has been the absence of contentment : the grass was always greener on the other side of the fence, you know. So yeah, instead of focussing on my qualities or what I had achieved in life and whatnot, I would obsess on what could of been, or my weaknesses, or... Now meditation has changed this bad habit of mine tremendously and am much more content with the present moment, but it remains quite ironic to notice how I am proud of what I have achieved with Spanish, yet am now eyeing to embrace anew linguistically my Mother tongue
+9k in 20h
Run good all
Great end to this poker lull stretch with a 5 digit week (just cracking the 11k mark)
During these 11 weeks of partial grinding, we managed to book 12.5k, averaged 18h a week and an hourly of 63.50$. Which are all on the low side, but still fine for a non-grinding stretch. In our next lull, I would like to decrease the volume and double my focus on my book - wrote a mere 3 short chapters during this period, I believe - and perhaps a mini-meditation retreat of something like 15h in 2 days would be required... Anyhow, on we go grinding for the next 5 weeks, aiming for 30-35h/week yo She is definitely a happy little one
Which does not come as a big surprise, considering how much time and luv we dedicate to her As far as languages and communicating in general goes, I believe that the ease with which you ultimately express yourself, transcends whatever benefits the learning process might provide. After all, as far as general development goes, cognizing is an early stage in the development of most children and a simplistic - relatively speaking - tool with which to interract with/perceive the outside world.
I doubt that my Spanish will ever reach the levels of my French or my English. After all, I plan on writing/deepening the latter two, as opposed to my Castellano. Also, I personally contrast what is the superficial understanding of a dialect to the deep work I put in my French in my literature Uni days.
I remember being 20, devouring 2 books a week, underlining and looking up each word that the definition escaped me. Innumerable were also the Aha moments where a certain word, term, phrase or expression would open up a new and refreshed perspective of the world - sorta speak -, as if as my newly acquired insight would somewhat redefine the world as I saw it. I don't know, there are several examples of expressions that carry so much weight and astuteness in them... Think black swan, nihilistic, existential, muse, cultural FOMO, paradoxal... And then words that are HEAVILY charged of significance like inexorable, conundrum, unforeseen, pinnacle etcetera and etc.... Anyhow, when you find yourself writing a report and you find yourself doubling down on your literary polishing efforts without affecting the flow/concision, magic happens, sorta speak. Well, perhaps not magic, but you feel that you reach HIGHER cognitive heights, or at least that the creative process is hinted with touches of the divine, you know
Which is probably why that at this point in time in my linguistic journey, that I have this temptation to get back into exploring the depths of the French language yo Nevertheless, there is something to be said about deliberately putting yourself in the awkward social situations that comes with communicating like an 6 year old, you know, like going on a date with a pretty Peruvian lady and trying by all means to not screw up too badly
And yup, there is definitely something to be said of relearning all the nuances of communicating adequately while facing our own social awkwardness and realizing that in the end, it is quite trite and benign.Moreover, learning a 2nd/3rd language will also shine light upon how dialects are constructed, something that might of escaped you when you were learning your Mother tongue as an infant. Or the root of certain words like break-fast (de-jeuner/des-ayunar) where you never actually noticed that it logically signifies to break a fast AKA to start eating again... Or sur-vive (sur-vivre/sobre-vivir) that elucidates that one must put themselves above life in order to not, you know, die
And sooooo many more examples.Final thoughts : yeah, I am proud of having put in the effort twice in my life, a process in which the difficulties most likely remain foreign for a monolingual peep ; nonetheless, next time around , please give me a god damn pill
Final-final thoughts : L enjoys much more the process of learning English that I do (with Spanish) and it is actually one of her favourite activities during the week (she has an hour of zoom twice a week). In fact, before getting one-on-one courses and watching 90% of our movie/series content in English (with Spanish subtitles), she would grind the duolingo app nonstop
Final-fina... ehhh, whatever : A BIG lack throughout my life, has been the absence of contentment : the grass was always greener on the other side of the fence, you know. So yeah, instead of focussing on my qualities or what I had achieved in life and whatnot, I would obsess on what could of been, or my weaknesses, or... Now meditation has changed this bad habit of mine tremendously and am much more content with the present moment, but it remains quite ironic to notice how I am proud of what I have achieved with Spanish, yet am now eyeing to embrace anew linguistically my Mother tongue
+9k in 20h
Run good all
Last edited by Dubnjoy000; 04-25-2021 at 02:01 AM.
04-27-2021
, 08:47 PM
I didn’t think through the fact that you’re in an environment where you’re reliant on your third language, so taking the pill makes sense. That being said, I love the fact that learning another language has caused you to consider diving back into French (agree that you can never reach the bottom of the language well—it never runs dry). Little discoveries like sur-vivre are constant sources of entertainment for me, too. But, yes, the more we learn about a language, the more we appreciate it, and, hopefully, the better we become at puns (I wish I could think of one right now).
04-28-2021
, 05:54 PM
05-01-2021
, 05:18 PM
Lassitude
Tiresome week in the books, as not only was sleep at the rendezvous - when it was not sweaty and HEAVY nightmares waking me up, it was the fracking dog that found a (nonsensical) reason to do so -, but the grind happened to add to the fracking intensity 
Numerous were the days where I would dig myself a 3-4k hole, before rising up from the dust in the tune of 5-6k But alas, negative variance ultimately got the best of my overall results ; I will not bore you folks with HHs, but when you FINALLY overset the fish in a 1.8k pot, for the love God, Mary and their fracking son Jesus Christ, please don't let him river quads 
Yup and for the record, my answer would be more nuanced than simply taking the pill, in the sense that I would take it approximately 80% of the time - or 80% of it, if that was permitted -, as things are (just about ) never binary, you know Looking back at the struggles in my life, I feel I undervalue them the resiliency. Or discipline. Or will to live. To fight. Or whatever. Like in meditation, for example, where instead of putting much value on the act of sitting there, my body in torturous pain before finally getting to release a great deal of Sankharas/trauma, I focus WAY more on the results than holding the process in high esteem. Or in just about everything I do, tbh. The few things where I actually relish the act of the process unfolding, are more related to leisure time. Like improving my tennis play (and thus playing in general). Sun bathing with L and our dog, sipping on a coffee/mate. Sitting in front of a fire in pure contemplation. Biking. Most of which don't exactly have an end goal, outside of the fulfillment of the actual moment. In fact, the only example where I can (presently) come up with where the act of moving transcends the destination/act of arriving at the end goal, is travelling. Like lonnnnggg af bus or train rides. The first few hours (<5) of car rides. Walking in the bush. Etcetera and etc.
Here's one where English gave me some perspective on the number 96 in French (or any from 80-99) : in English, the semantics are simply based off the number 9 + ty + 6 - ninety-six -, but French preserved this antiquated charm of doing this funky calculation of 4 x 20 + 16 - quatre-vingt-seize I am sure this one was more obvious to you when you initially studied French, moreso than for myself that would simply visualize a 9 juxtaposed to a 6 in my head when saying 96, without realizing the complex calculation that the pronunciation of the word actually implied
And nope, unless an unforeseen life changing phenomenon happens - Mandarin suddenly replacing English as the international/business language or I suddenly move to a new country where Fr/En/Sp are not at the forefront of the spoken languages - I am done with learning new languages I would rather constantly improve the three that I possess - and thus also working on my writing -, along with focussing on other forms of studies unrelated to linguistics.
-4.4k in 30h
Run good all
Tiresome week in the books, as not only was sleep at the rendezvous - when it was not sweaty and HEAVY nightmares waking me up, it was the fracking dog that found a (nonsensical) reason to do so
-, but the grind happened to add to the fracking intensity Numerous were the days where I would dig myself a 3-4k hole, before rising up from the dust in the tune of 5-6k But alas, negative variance ultimately got the best of my overall results ; I will not bore you folks with HHs, but when you FINALLY overset the fish in a 1.8k pot, for the love God, Mary and their fracking son Jesus Christ, please don't let him river quads
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I didn’t think through the fact that you’re in an environment where you’re reliant on your third language, so taking the pill makes sense. That being said, I love the fact that learning another language has caused you to consider diving back into French (agree that you can never reach the bottom of the language well—it never runs dry). Little discoveries like sur-vivre are constant sources of entertainment for me, too. But, yes, the more we learn about a language, the more we appreciate it, and, hopefully, the better we become at puns (I wish I could think of one right now).
) never binary, you know Looking back at the struggles in my life, I feel I undervalue them the resiliency. Or discipline. Or will to live. To fight. Or whatever. Like in meditation, for example, where instead of putting much value on the act of sitting there, my body in torturous pain before finally getting to release a great deal of Sankharas/trauma, I focus WAY more on the results than holding the process in high esteem. Or in just about everything I do, tbh. The few things where I actually relish the act of the process unfolding, are more related to leisure time. Like improving my tennis play (and thus playing in general). Sun bathing with L and our dog, sipping on a coffee/mate. Sitting in front of a fire in pure contemplation. Biking. Most of which don't exactly have an end goal, outside of the fulfillment of the actual moment. In fact, the only example where I can (presently) come up with where the act of moving transcends the destination/act of arriving at the end goal, is travelling. Like lonnnnggg af bus or train rides. The first few hours (<5) of car rides. Walking in the bush. Etcetera and etc.
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Ha, I just made the déjeuner/desayuno/breakfast discovery myself like a week ago. And I never knew what ameliorate meant in English, but now it's obvious once you learn ameliorer is "to improve" in French. All those little nuggets are why I'll probably never tire of adding more languages. Would love to be able to speak 5-6 fluently one day. Really interesting reading your insights into the language learning process.
I am sure this one was more obvious to you when you initially studied French, moreso than for myself that would simply visualize a 9 juxtaposed to a 6 in my head when saying 96, without realizing the complex calculation that the pronunciation of the word actually implied And nope, unless an unforeseen life changing phenomenon happens - Mandarin suddenly replacing English as the international/business language or I suddenly move to a new country where Fr/En/Sp are not at the forefront of the spoken languages - I am done with learning new languages
I would rather constantly improve the three that I possess - and thus also working on my writing -, along with focussing on other forms of studies unrelated to linguistics.-4.4k in 30h
Run good all
05-03-2021
, 01:44 PM
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Here's one where English gave me some perspective on the number 96 in French (or any from 80-99) : in English, the semantics are simply based off the number 9 + ty + 6 - ninety-six -, but French preserved this antiquated charm of doing this funky calculation of 4 x 20 + 16 - quatre-vingt-seize I am sure this one was more obvious to you when you initially studied French, moreso than for myself that would simply visualize a 9 juxtaposed to a 6 in my head when saying 96, without realizing the complex calculation that the pronunciation of the word actually implied
I am sure this one was more obvious to you when you initially studied French, moreso than for myself that would simply visualize a 9 juxtaposed to a 6 in my head when saying 96, without realizing the complex calculation that the pronunciation of the word actually implied
There are other peculiarities as well. Spanish and French seem to follow the same # patterns (up until 80 anyway), but why is 16 seize in French and dieciseis in Spanish?
What I mean is:
11 - once / onze
12 - doce / douze
13 - trece / treize
14 - catorce / quatorze
15 - quince / quinze
16 - dieciseís / seize
17 - diecisiete / dix-sept
For some reason Spanish switches over to the 10 + the # convention 1 number earlier than French. I sometimes used to say dix-six in French b/c of this
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And nope, unless an unforeseen life changing phenomenon happens - Mandarin suddenly replacing English as the international/business language or I suddenly move to a new country where Fr/En/Sp are not at the forefront of the spoken languages - I am done with learning new languages I would rather constantly improve the three that I possess - and thus also working on my writing -, along with focussing on other forms of studies unrelated to linguistics.
And nope, unless an unforeseen life changing phenomenon happens - Mandarin suddenly replacing English as the international/business language or I suddenly move to a new country where Fr/En/Sp are not at the forefront of the spoken languages - I am done with learning new languages
I would rather constantly improve the three that I possess - and thus also working on my writing -, along with focussing on other forms of studies unrelated to linguistics.
I'm debating moving to Tbilisi, Georgia sometime next year, which would be interesting from a language perspective. The national language is Georgian, but it is a difficult and mostly useless language as noone speaks it beyond the 3.5 million natives. As such, most older people know Russian and many younger people know English. I'm debating trying to tackle a bit of Russian if I make that move. But that would be a very difficult challenge as so far I haven't stepped out of the comfort zone of the Romance language family.
05-04-2021
, 06:10 PM
Rise and Take your Stance Again
Quite a positive net EV finish to last week's grind with Sunday seeing me uptink in the tune of 5k before storming out this week with 2k in my first session yo Really nice to see how this prior 3 months of (almost) B/E stretch did not affect me emotionally at all. Like nada. Fracking zilch. Completely emotionally unscathed yo On the other hand, it is much easier to remain balanced when the past year figures to be my (financially) second best ever.
I finally switched my table denominations from Euros to bbs. I like the change, tbh, as I no longer focus on the dollar amounts when I pull an overbet bluff that no longer appears like a silly amount of monies on the river, a factor that might of deterred me from doing so in the past. It also helps that when I do not have a sufficient amount of 400 tables running, I no longer confuse bet sizes with my 200 tables
I increased my tennis courses to twice a week. Which definitely helps with my overall exercise regime (the best in my life, tbh, now that I find myself with a more conducive sedentary livelihood) that also includes quite a bit of biking. Moreover, I plan on annihilating my good buddy back in the Yukon that I have yet to beat once in about 40-50 sets He does not know what is coming for him this time around, believe me
Got 8k on Dnegs in tomorrow's HU (@ a ridiculous 1.6x), but whatever, let's do this
Oh man, so much stuff to dwell upon - but I had never notice the 16 oddity, thx - which definitely increases the fascination of learning languages
Another fun one is hungover in English - which literally refers to someone being hung upside down, right!?! - and lendemain de veille (next day of yesterday) in French - which symbolically denotes the act of carrying over yesterday's partying into today's timeline.
Another curiosity Fosilkid is how (I am sure you have noticed) how English is always the structural opposite of French (and Latin languages). For example rainbow/arc-en-ciel (bow-in-the-sky, bow being the noun that is reversed) or sun burn/coup-de-soleil (stroke-of-the-sun) and etcetera and etc. Well, I do remember coming across ONE example that is actually translated literally in both languages It escapes me atm though
Ohh really, would you go with your lady friend still!?!
+3.6k in 11h
Run good all
Quite a positive net EV finish to last week's grind with Sunday seeing me uptink in the tune of 5k before storming out this week with 2k in my first session yo
Really nice to see how this prior 3 months of (almost) B/E stretch did not affect me emotionally at all. Like nada. Fracking zilch. Completely emotionally unscathed yo On the other hand, it is much easier to remain balanced when the past year figures to be my (financially) second best ever. Spoiler:
I finally switched my table denominations from Euros to bbs. I like the change, tbh, as I no longer focus on the dollar amounts when I pull an overbet bluff that no longer appears like a silly amount of monies on the river, a factor that might of deterred me from doing so in the past. It also helps that when I do not have a sufficient amount of 400 tables running, I no longer confuse bet sizes with my 200 tables
I increased my tennis courses to twice a week. Which definitely helps with my overall exercise regime (the best in my life, tbh, now that I find myself with a more conducive sedentary livelihood) that also includes quite a bit of biking. Moreover, I plan on annihilating my good buddy back in the Yukon that I have yet to beat once in about 40-50 sets
He does not know what is coming for him this time around, believe me Got 8k on Dnegs in tomorrow's HU (@ a ridiculous 1.6x
), but whatever, let's do this
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There are other peculiarities as well. Spanish and French seem to follow the same # patterns (up until 80 anyway), but why is 16 seize in French and dieciseis in Spanish?
For some reason Spanish switches over to the 10 + the # convention 1 number earlier than French. I sometimes used to say dix-six in French b/c of this
For some reason Spanish switches over to the 10 + the # convention 1 number earlier than French. I sometimes used to say dix-six in French b/c of this
Another fun one is hungover in English - which literally refers to someone being hung upside down, right!?! - and lendemain de veille (next day of yesterday) in French - which symbolically denotes the act of carrying over yesterday's partying into today's timeline.
Another curiosity Fosilkid is how (I am sure you have noticed) how English is always the structural opposite of French (and Latin languages). For example rainbow/arc-en-ciel (bow-in-the-sky, bow being the noun that is reversed) or sun burn/coup-de-soleil (stroke-of-the-sun) and etcetera and etc. Well, I do remember coming across ONE example that is actually translated literally in both languages
It escapes me atm though
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I'm debating moving to Tbilisi, Georgia sometime next year, which would be interesting from a language perspective. The national language is Georgian, but it is a difficult and mostly useless language as noone speaks it beyond the 3.5 million natives. As such, most older people know Russian and many younger people know English. I'm debating trying to tackle a bit of Russian if I make that move. But that would be a very difficult challenge as so far I haven't stepped out of the comfort zone of the Romance language family.
+3.6k in 11h
Run good all
Last edited by Dubnjoy000; 05-04-2021 at 06:27 PM.
05-05-2021
, 10:21 PM
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Oh man, so much stuff to dwell upon - but I had never notice the 16 oddity, thx - which definitely increases the fascination of learning languages
Another fun one is hungover in English - which literally refers to someone being hung upside down, right!?! - and lendemain de veille (next day of yesterday) in French - which symbolically denotes the act of carrying over yesterday's partying into today's timeline.
Another curiosity Fosilkid is how (I am sure you have noticed) how English is always the structural opposite of French (and Latin languages). For example rainbow/arc-en-ciel (bow-in-the-sky, bow being the noun that is reversed) or sun burn/coup-de-soleil (stroke-of-the-sun) and etcetera and etc. Well, I do remember coming across ONE example that is actually translated literally in both languages It escapes me atm though
Ohh really, would you go with your lady friend still!?!
Oh man, so much stuff to dwell upon - but I had never notice the 16 oddity, thx - which definitely increases the fascination of learning languages
Another fun one is hungover in English - which literally refers to someone being hung upside down, right!?! - and lendemain de veille (next day of yesterday) in French - which symbolically denotes the act of carrying over yesterday's partying into today's timeline.
Another curiosity Fosilkid is how (I am sure you have noticed) how English is always the structural opposite of French (and Latin languages). For example rainbow/arc-en-ciel (bow-in-the-sky, bow being the noun that is reversed) or sun burn/coup-de-soleil (stroke-of-the-sun) and etcetera and etc. Well, I do remember coming across ONE example that is actually translated literally in both languages
It escapes me atm though Ohh really, would you go with your lady friend still!?!
Yes, I'd be going with the lady friend and our tiny 3kg Chihuahua.
05-12-2021
, 01:20 AM
Trust Ur Reads Mr Phil
I always chuckled a little inside when some lol live rec players would credit their spot-on reads for the (little) success they had ; I mean, they lacked SO FRACKING MUCH in fundamentals, but nonetheless try to attribute to an almost-mystical-and-transcendental-abstract-force whatever talent they (did not) demonstrate Hence when the death of the feel player was officially announced in online circles with the advent of GTO, it felt like sweeeet music to my fracking ears, you know 
Finally some justice A fairness that was palpable, tangible, calculable, but above f**king all, simply mathematically validated. No more of the whole frackig I can read souls BS that we could now credibly innerly brush in sleepy motions, like we do with any bad beat stories, you know But then came Hellmuth to change this, fml
I wanted to hold on to rationality. To analytics. To political polls. To GTO. But here's a reality that struck me when I spent time exploring American right wing politics : they are not as delusional as initially suspected - alright, not FULLY delusional -, but carry in their collective (mis)perceptions, a reality of their own. Sure the right and left live in 2 distinct and irreconciliable realms, but to totally dismiss the other side as lunacy, happens to be a critical mistake. Much like we happen to do with the live feel players
Hellmuth's play was impressive. And Dneg's was quite mediocre, tbh. While the former counter-exploited Negreanu, the latter stuck to his initial plan of over-folding. Anyhow, when they found themselves even in chips when the blinds started to get massive, of course I still wanted Dnegs to come out victorious, but felt that Phil thoroughly deserved the W, tbh.
Note to self : yes you have been riding quite the financial upswing in multiple areas and yes the lure of increasing the stakes/letting it all ride is seductive af when you win your USA election bet, bball bets and you get paid in BTC as the latter is UPSSSWINNGGGINGGGG and all and all, but DO NOT LET UR EGO GET IN THE WAY DUBNJOY000!!! Keep urself in check
Sounds great friend, but don't forget to come for a 6 months visit in B.A. beforehand
+3.4k in 11h
Run good all
I always chuckled a little inside when some lol live rec players would credit their spot-on reads for the (little) success they had ; I mean, they lacked SO FRACKING MUCH in fundamentals, but nonetheless try to attribute to an almost-mystical-and-transcendental-abstract-force whatever talent they (did not) demonstrate
Hence when the death of the feel player was officially announced in online circles with the advent of GTO, it felt like sweeeet music to my fracking ears, you know Finally some justice A fairness that was palpable, tangible, calculable, but above f**king all, simply mathematically validated. No more of the whole frackig I can read souls BS that we could now credibly innerly brush in sleepy motions, like we do with any bad beat stories, you know But then came Hellmuth to change this, fml I wanted to hold on to rationality. To analytics. To political polls. To GTO. But here's a reality that struck me when I spent time exploring American right wing politics : they are not as delusional as initially suspected - alright, not FULLY delusional
-, but carry in their collective (mis)perceptions, a reality of their own. Sure the right and left live in 2 distinct and irreconciliable realms, but to totally dismiss the other side as lunacy, happens to be a critical mistake. Much like we happen to do with the live feel players Spoiler:
Hellmuth's play was impressive. And Dneg's was quite mediocre, tbh. While the former counter-exploited Negreanu, the latter stuck to his initial plan of over-folding. Anyhow, when they found themselves even in chips when the blinds started to get massive, of course I still wanted Dnegs to come out victorious, but felt that Phil thoroughly deserved the W, tbh.
Note to self : yes you have been riding quite the financial upswing in multiple areas and yes the lure of increasing the stakes/letting it all ride is seductive af when you win your USA election bet, bball bets and you get paid in BTC as the latter is UPSSSWINNGGGINGGGG and all and all, but DO NOT LET UR EGO GET IN THE WAY DUBNJOY000!!! Keep urself in check
+3.4k in 11h
Run good all
05-16-2021
, 11:32 AM
As a side note, I've started studying a bit of Russian. In Georgia, the official language is Georgian, which is only spoken by a couple million native speakers. So Georgians realize they have to speak a 2nd language. Among younger people, English is the popular choice, but, older people were forced to learn Russian. So it's pretty split as to which 2nd language is more prevalent.
I'm hoping to at least be able to read the cyrilic alphabet and know some basics, but we'll see how far I can go. Russian is a pretty useful language for travel and far less daunting than Mandarin/Arabic. So far I'm enjoying this little project, but we'll see if my opinion changes later, as Russian grammar is pretty notorious for being daunting.
05-18-2021
, 01:36 PM
This Heavy AF Morning
I woke up feeling heavy this morning. Lackadaisical. Spiritless. Yup, this downswing had gotten momentarily the best of me.
I need to backtrack to pre-pandemic times to remember the last time that I felt the urge to stay crawled up in bed, tucked up in foetal position, rather than get on my feet and potentially face another loss in da game of poker Back when I was in the midst of my most severe (in absolute terms) downswong ever and had to (symbolically) lift myself up from the ground on a daily basis. Nonetheless, even if I happen to be on a 7 months -40k DS, it still felt exponentially better then 6-8 years back in Asia, inflicted by a 6 months B/E stretch, but without much of a BR nor the certitude that I was skilled enuff to continue this carear path Anyhow, let's take a look specifically at what was our situation like during pre-pandemic times.
I had just finished a live MTT tour across Dawson-Calgary-Montreal-Paris-Prague-Melbourne to disappointing results - -10k off 100k in BIs, I believe... - which was largely due to negative variance, but more worrisome, was my months lonnnnggg online B/E stretch Of course, running bad was the biggest issue, but I also found myself turning down certain HU matches in NLHE and even avoiding having a certain specific player on my left, much against my intrepid nature... the game was passing me by somewhat So I started studying somewhat again, found my groove, ran good, games got amazing during the pandemic and I went on my 2nd ever best yearly stretch (which I am still on to certain extent) Back to our present downswing and it is not NLHE that is a concern (where I confidently play anyone and their grandma HU and almost exclusively @ 400), but in PLO, where a player has been destroying me HU @ 400 Of course, I could just play NLHE or 200 PLO, but that would not be Dubnjoy000, so I got back in the PLO lab and am putting in the work yo
TLDR : despite this 3 months long negative variance stretch (but still slightly profitable), am at the top of my NLHE game and looking to conquer my PLO nemesis
Pretty impressive how you have this desire/passion to dip into multiple languages And I definitely hope you get to make it here friend... As far as I can tell/predict, September is a realistic timeline for the government to loosen up the restrictions, much it did last year with the advent of Spring. I suspect they might open up borders for tourism, especially if one has received the vaccine...
Another interesting note on the fundamentals of the Spanish language : the presence of both primary verbs Estar/Ser where as English and French are restricted to a single verb : To be and Etre. Coming from the latter two, my initial reaction was "WTF, why do you need 2 different verbs for the verb To Be!?!?", and then you realize that "well no, the usage of 2 different verbs is actually more precise", much like I find that French, which uses more words to express the same idea, can be more meticulous (and hence diligent) than English in several cases.
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I woke up feeling heavy this morning. Lackadaisical. Spiritless. Yup, this downswing had gotten momentarily the best of me.
I need to backtrack to pre-pandemic times to remember the last time that I felt the urge to stay crawled up in bed, tucked up in foetal position, rather than get on my feet and potentially face another loss in da game of poker
Back when I was in the midst of my most severe (in absolute terms) downswong ever and had to (symbolically) lift myself up from the ground on a daily basis. Nonetheless, even if I happen to be on a 7 months -40k DS, it still felt exponentially better then 6-8 years back in Asia, inflicted by a 6 months B/E stretch, but without much of a BR nor the certitude that I was skilled enuff to continue this carear path Anyhow, let's take a look specifically at what was our situation like during pre-pandemic times.I had just finished a live MTT tour across Dawson-Calgary-Montreal-Paris-Prague-Melbourne to disappointing results - -10k off 100k in BIs, I believe... - which was largely due to negative variance, but more worrisome, was my months lonnnnggg online B/E stretch
Of course, running bad was the biggest issue, but I also found myself turning down certain HU matches in NLHE and even avoiding having a certain specific player on my left, much against my intrepid nature... the game was passing me by somewhat So I started studying somewhat again, found my groove, ran good, games got amazing during the pandemic and I went on my 2nd ever best yearly stretch (which I am still on to certain extent) Back to our present downswing and it is not NLHE that is a concern (where I confidently play anyone and their grandma HU and almost exclusively @ 400), but in PLO, where a player has been destroying me HU @ 400 Of course, I could just play NLHE or 200 PLO, but that would not be Dubnjoy000, so I got back in the PLO lab and am putting in the work yo TLDR : despite this 3 months long negative variance stretch (but still slightly profitable), am at the top of my NLHE game and looking to conquer my PLO nemesis
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I would like to, but the lockdowns are ridiculous in Argentina right now and from reading the BA Facebook group, many don't even think it will open for tourism any time in 2021. So out of necessity, I might have to change the order of my travel plans. Still plenty of time though as I don't have to make a decision until September. Hopefully things greatly improve by then.
As a side note, I've started studying a bit of Russian. In Georgia, the official language is Georgian, which is only spoken by a couple million native speakers. So Georgians realize they have to speak a 2nd language. Among younger people, English is the popular choice, but, older people were forced to learn Russian. So it's pretty split as to which 2nd language is more prevalent.
I'm hoping to at least be able to read the cyrilic alphabet and know some basics, but we'll see how far I can go. Russian is a pretty useful language for travel and far less daunting than Mandarin/Arabic. So far I'm enjoying this little project, but we'll see if my opinion changes later, as Russian grammar is pretty notorious for being daunting.
As a side note, I've started studying a bit of Russian. In Georgia, the official language is Georgian, which is only spoken by a couple million native speakers. So Georgians realize they have to speak a 2nd language. Among younger people, English is the popular choice, but, older people were forced to learn Russian. So it's pretty split as to which 2nd language is more prevalent.
I'm hoping to at least be able to read the cyrilic alphabet and know some basics, but we'll see how far I can go. Russian is a pretty useful language for travel and far less daunting than Mandarin/Arabic. So far I'm enjoying this little project, but we'll see if my opinion changes later, as Russian grammar is pretty notorious for being daunting.
And I definitely hope you get to make it here friend... As far as I can tell/predict, September is a realistic timeline for the government to loosen up the restrictions, much it did last year with the advent of Spring. I suspect they might open up borders for tourism, especially if one has received the vaccine...Another interesting note on the fundamentals of the Spanish language : the presence of both primary verbs Estar/Ser where as English and French are restricted to a single verb : To be and Etre. Coming from the latter two, my initial reaction was "WTF, why do you need 2 different verbs for the verb To Be!?!?", and then you realize that "well no, the usage of 2 different verbs is actually more precise", much like I find that French, which uses more words to express the same idea, can be more meticulous (and hence diligent) than English in several cases.
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05-19-2021
, 02:34 AM
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[B] Back to our present downswing and it is not NLHE that is a concern (where I confidently play anyone and their grandma HU and almost exclusively @ 400), but in PLO, where a player has been destroying me HU @ 400 Of course, I could just play NLHE or 200 PLO, but that would not be Dubnjoy000, so I got back in the PLO lab and am putting in the work yo
TLDR : despite this 3 months long negative variance stretch (but still slightly profitable), am at the top of my NLHE game and looking to conquer my PLO nemesis
Of course, I could just play NLHE or 200 PLO, but that would not be Dubnjoy000, so I got back in the PLO lab and am putting in the work yo TLDR : despite this 3 months long negative variance stretch (but still slightly profitable), am at the top of my NLHE game and looking to conquer my PLO nemesis
05-21-2021
, 05:16 PM
A Spew of a Whole lot of Nothing
Yup, thx, although it is at times quite difficult to draw that fine in between taking calculated risks and falling prey to negatively EV (somewhat) shot-taking... For the record, it is not that I play A TON of HU as per say, but moreso that I start all tables and play during hours where games are shorthanded, oftentimes limited to 2-3 players for the duration of my session.
I was never one to be overly ambitious in the poker world. Nope. Nil. To conquer the end boss at the tail end of the Universe, to destroy him, his siblings, his little ones and whatnot and to have my name be known across all Multiverses known and unknown to mankind, was never really my cup of tea. On the contrary, my initial goal was simply to be a pro and earn more than my previous job as a chef did. And then I happened to climb WAY above my expectations 6 years into my career, when I would go on to net 100$/h for the past 4 years, grinding the midstakes NLHE and PLO games online and throwing in a few HS live MTTs yearly in the process. And all I want to do moving forward, is maintain this. In fact, I do expect my hourly to drop progressively virtually while my live rate to remains in the 50-80$ area... I mean, I am already averaging a lowly 22h weekly of grinding, being a part-time-albeit-crushing-player for the past 3 years, which has always my dream as to spread my focus more upon different areas like meditation and writing. Anyhow, I guess the biggest disappointment of the past few weeks, has been my off-tables ventures where my bets have fallen short in the Bball and Dnegs arenas, which kinda limits the diversity of my financial gains moving forward... I fancied viewing myself as an advantage player in multiple areas, especially after my USA bet came to fruition and that I got paid in BTC that happen to go on a historical upswing.
Anyhow, anyhow, anyhow, it has been 14 months since I have been negatively emotionally affected by poker, at least in the mid-long term. So kinda really cool that I have gone so lonnnggg without dipping into the abyss, but obviously not no peachy that I am now staring down the black hole that is self-doubt, existential heaviness, at least as far as my game is concerned.
As far as life goes, the covid situation is spiralling out of control in these parts, with daily cases fluctuating in between 35-40k Only 15% of the population has been vaccinated, hence us going back to phase 1 of the lockdown measures (everything shutdown, basically). L will be working from home for the feasible future. Our social life will be limited to going down by the river with the dog or making a small bonfire in our backyard. And Netflix, of course Which is exponentially more then we had access to when living in B.A. tbh That's all for now. Be well all
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Respecting the fact that you’re willing to battle HU in both NLH and PLO, considering how specialised these game are, these days. I’ve similar aspirations, albeit playing no HU atm (because playing live, etc). I get the feeling you’re enjoying the technical side of poker more and more.
I was never one to be overly ambitious in the poker world. Nope. Nil. To conquer the end boss at the tail end of the Universe, to destroy him, his siblings, his little ones and whatnot and to have my name be known across all Multiverses known and unknown to mankind, was never really my cup of tea. On the contrary, my initial goal was simply to be a pro and earn more than my previous job as a chef did. And then I happened to climb WAY above my expectations 6 years into my career, when I would go on to net 100$/h for the past 4 years, grinding the midstakes NLHE and PLO games online and throwing in a few HS live MTTs yearly in the process. And all I want to do moving forward, is maintain this. In fact, I do expect my hourly to drop progressively virtually while my live rate to remains in the 50-80$ area... I mean, I am already averaging a lowly 22h weekly of grinding, being a part-time-albeit-crushing-player for the past 3 years, which has always my dream as to spread my focus more upon different areas like meditation and writing. Anyhow, I guess the biggest disappointment of the past few weeks, has been my off-tables ventures where my bets have fallen short in the Bball and Dnegs arenas, which kinda limits the diversity of my financial gains moving forward... I fancied viewing myself as an advantage player in multiple areas, especially after my USA bet came to fruition and that I got paid in BTC that happen to go on a historical upswing.
Anyhow, anyhow, anyhow, it has been 14 months since I have been negatively emotionally affected by poker, at least in the mid-long term. So kinda really cool that I have gone so lonnnggg without dipping into the abyss, but obviously not no peachy that I am now staring down the black hole that is self-doubt, existential heaviness, at least as far as my game is concerned.
As far as life goes, the covid situation is spiralling out of control in these parts, with daily cases fluctuating in between 35-40k
Only 15% of the population has been vaccinated, hence us going back to phase 1 of the lockdown measures (everything shutdown, basically). L will be working from home for the feasible future. Our social life will be limited to going down by the river with the dog or making a small bonfire in our backyard. And Netflix, of course Which is exponentially more then we had access to when living in B.A. tbh That's all for now. Be well all -5.4k in 21h
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05-28-2021
, 01:16 AM
Phase 1
Shutdown. Locked down. Once again, we are back to phase 1. Meaning no boating. Our favourite park is locked up. No cafes. Nor restaurants. Sigh. And fracking sigh
L is working from home and despite most of our favourite activities being denied, we have had a blast this week thus far It does help that one of our treasured activities (especially for L's son, the dog and yours truly) is to simply sit in front of a bonfire in our backyard That and to go biking by the river.
One element that I have noticed as I am engaging my mid 40s, is how I am taking less stuff for granted. Health. Wealth. Happiness. Or even just being able to God damn wake up in the morning, you know I believe it is a byproduct of the direct experience of your body feeling more vulnerable... Or perhaps it is just a contemplation on peace and happiness and knowing how easily the latter can slip into ether...
Poker has not been great of late, but I don't know, since I have once again readjusted my expectations, I just feel tremendously positive about the outlook moving forward even with the online games dying online, the upcoming post-pandemic live poker boom and the imminent summer in Europe/North America
I just purchased 3 WPT NFT packs. This is the third week that WPT is selling its virtual poker moments and while the demand was quite high for the first two drops, this third one has been lacklustre to say the least, with the legendary packs (350USD$) selling in minutes, as predicted, but the limited edition all-in packs (150USD$, I got 2) still had 50 available four hours later, and the common packs had a ridiculous 510/700 non sold So an investment that will fail to come to (profitable) fruition, me thinks, even if I will still attempt to get my hand on a legendary pack next week
I actually finished listening to the podcast the evening prior to you posting this (my buddy had linked me to it) and I absolutely it Most notably how Sam reflects on not believing in free will, the soul (or permanence of an ego), but does in consciousness. And loved his stance on Covid on how, even though our global crisis is about as weak as a pandemic can - any weaker and it could not qualify as a pandemic -, the crucial issue is how we have been incapable on agreeing on just about anything... I mean, having the world face a common threat would presumably have all (political) sides coming together, but nope, it has instead acted as a rebuttal
Have you heard of Absolutely Mental, a podcast hosted by Sam and Ricky Gervais???
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Shutdown. Locked down. Once again, we are back to phase 1. Meaning no boating. Our favourite park is locked up. No cafes. Nor restaurants. Sigh. And fracking sigh
L is working from home and despite most of our favourite activities being denied, we have had a blast this week thus far
It does help that one of our treasured activities (especially for L's son, the dog and yours truly) is to simply sit in front of a bonfire in our backyard That and to go biking by the river.One element that I have noticed as I am engaging my mid 40s, is how I am taking less stuff for granted. Health. Wealth. Happiness. Or even just being able to God damn wake up in the morning, you know
I believe it is a byproduct of the direct experience of your body feeling more vulnerable... Or perhaps it is just a contemplation on peace and happiness and knowing how easily the latter can slip into ether...Poker has not been great of late, but I don't know, since I have once again readjusted my expectations, I just feel tremendously positive about the outlook moving forward even with the online games dying online, the upcoming post-pandemic live poker boom and the imminent summer in Europe/North America
I just purchased 3 WPT NFT packs. This is the third week that WPT is selling its virtual poker moments and while the demand was quite high for the first two drops, this third one has been lacklustre to say the least, with the legendary packs (350USD$) selling in minutes, as predicted, but the limited edition all-in packs (150USD$, I got 2) still had 50 available four hours later, and the common packs had a ridiculous 510/700 non sold
So an investment that will fail to come to (profitable) fruition, me thinks, even if I will still attempt to get my hand on a legendary pack next week
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Just wanted to drop in to mention that Sam Harris recently participated in a 3+ hour conversation with Lex Fridman on the latter's podcast that I figured might be of interest to you. While long, a bit repetitive, and boring in parts, it definitely had plenty of interesting enough nuggets to make it worth a listen, imo. I particularly enjoyed Sam's approach to Lex asking him what the meaning of life is towards the very end. Also liked the discussion about AI throughout various parts of the episode (Lex is an AI researcher, fyi) as well as the little bit of talk regarding UFOs (yes, UFOs).
it Most notably how Sam reflects on not believing in free will, the soul (or permanence of an ego), but does in consciousness. And loved his stance on Covid on how, even though our global crisis is about as weak as a pandemic can - any weaker and it could not qualify as a pandemic -, the crucial issue is how we have been incapable on agreeing on just about anything... I mean, having the world face a common threat would presumably have all (political) sides coming together, but nope, it has instead acted as a rebuttal Have you heard of Absolutely Mental, a podcast hosted by Sam and Ricky Gervais???
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05-29-2021
, 01:06 PM
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I actually finished listening to the podcast the evening prior to you posting this (my buddy had linked me to it) and I absolutely it Most notably how Sam reflects on not believing in free will, the soul (or permanence of an ego), but does in consciousness. And loved his stance on Covid on how, even though our global crisis is about as weak as a pandemic can - any weaker and it could not qualify as a pandemic -, the crucial issue is how we have been incapable on agreeing on just about anything... I mean, having the world face a common threat would presumably have all (political) sides coming together, but nope, it has instead acted as a rebuttal
Have you heard of Absolutely Mental, a podcast hosted by Sam and Ricky Gervais???
I actually finished listening to the podcast the evening prior to you posting this (my buddy had linked me to it) and I absolutely
it Most notably how Sam reflects on not believing in free will, the soul (or permanence of an ego), but does in consciousness. And loved his stance on Covid on how, even though our global crisis is about as weak as a pandemic can - any weaker and it could not qualify as a pandemic -, the crucial issue is how we have been incapable on agreeing on just about anything... I mean, having the world face a common threat would presumably have all (political) sides coming together, but nope, it has instead acted as a rebuttal Have you heard of Absolutely Mental, a podcast hosted by Sam and Ricky Gervais???
Btw, I picked up Spring Summer Autumn Winter and Man from Nowhere from the library yesterday and will probably watch them or at least the former soonish. And, I applied for a 10 day retreat (and will keep doing so until I'm able to do one), in no small part due to the influence of this thread and the Meditation Files, will keep you posted on that.
05-31-2021
, 04:19 PM
Every Child Matters
Well, our 5 weeks of grinding have come to a halt with lacklustre results, to say the least. We alas netted -6k during the stretch. Even if we still find ourselves with satisfactory 2021 results, it remains a bleak outlook for the rest of the year, as online poker seems on a downward trend with the advent of the European/North American summer along with live poker gaining momentum - but, alas, not in these parts Anyhow, in the upcoming 6 weeks we will mainly be focussing on writing (hopefully 6 chapters), some pokerz (approximately 12-20h/weekly) and studying PLO.
I don't think I can post today without mentioning how folks are wearing orange today in Canada in honour of the 215 corpses of the Native children found in the Kamloops residential school. As much as I can be proud of Canada in areas like its openness to immigration, multicultural views, progressive policies and whatnot, our history is also alas tinted with the blood our Native genocide. In fact, the residential schools (where Native children were literally forced by law to attend) had cemeteries attached to them to accommodate the brainwashing, mistreatment, malnutrition, harsh weather conditions, beatings, raping, torturing and ultimate killings of the children... I must admit that prior to this week, I did not know that us Canadians (even northern Quebec) were historically this nasty and am frankly left speechless
It is impossible to look at the USA and Canadian history without including the intrinsic racist foundations of both countries, especially in the US of A where slavery was used unapologetically in the south. Now here is how the left and the right differentiate each other in their views : while the former will state that each one of us is at least a little bit racist and has inner work to do - translation : 100% of us have a % of racist stereotypes/bias/views/preconceptions on other ethnies -, the latter insists that there is no way in hell that 50% of America can be 100% racist Way to use binary terms
Man, I am very curious of what you will think of Spring, Summer, Automn, Winter... And Spring!!! I gotta admit, I had tears rolling down my ears at the end
These two movies are almost polar opposites, as SSAWS focuses on the substance (and particularly on Buddhist themes), while Man from Nowhere is strictly a wonderfully shot revenge/combat movie. It makes me think of Hero or perhaps even of Only God Forgives, which is also an incredibly beautifully shot movie, while the substance is whatever.
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Well, our 5 weeks of grinding have come to a halt with lacklustre results, to say the least. We alas netted -6k during the stretch. Even if we still find ourselves with satisfactory 2021 results, it remains a bleak outlook for the rest of the year, as online poker seems on a downward trend with the advent of the European/North American summer along with live poker gaining momentum - but, alas, not in these parts
Anyhow, in the upcoming 6 weeks we will mainly be focussing on writing (hopefully 6 chapters), some pokerz (approximately 12-20h/weekly) and studying PLO. I don't think I can post today without mentioning how folks are wearing orange today in Canada in honour of the 215 corpses of the Native children found in the Kamloops residential school. As much as I can be proud of Canada in areas like its openness to immigration, multicultural views, progressive policies and whatnot, our history is also alas tinted with the blood our Native genocide. In fact, the residential schools (where Native children were literally forced by law to attend) had cemeteries attached to them to accommodate the brainwashing, mistreatment, malnutrition, harsh weather conditions, beatings, raping, torturing and ultimate killings of the children... I must admit that prior to this week, I did not know that us Canadians (even northern Quebec) were historically this nasty and am frankly left speechless
It is impossible to look at the USA and Canadian history without including the intrinsic racist foundations of both countries, especially in the US of A where slavery was used unapologetically in the south. Now here is how the left and the right differentiate each other in their views : while the former will state that each one of us is at least a little bit racist and has inner work to do - translation : 100% of us have a % of racist stereotypes/bias/views/preconceptions on other ethnies -, the latter insists that there is no way in hell that 50% of America can be 100% racist
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Btw, I picked up Spring Summer Autumn Winter and Man from Nowhere from the library yesterday and will probably watch them or at least the former soonish. And, I applied for a 10 day retreat (and will keep doing so until I'm able to do one), in no small part due to the influence of this thread and the Meditation Files, will keep you posted on that.
These two movies are almost polar opposites, as SSAWS focuses on the substance (and particularly on Buddhist themes), while Man from Nowhere is strictly a wonderfully shot revenge/combat movie. It makes me think of Hero or perhaps even of Only God Forgives, which is also an incredibly beautifully shot movie, while the substance is whatever.
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06-07-2021
, 04:33 PM
Behind the Penumbra
Solid week in the books. Even if it started out sheepishly - both in regards to writing and grinding -, the results ended up being excellent I managed to sketch out even moreso the outlines for my book - which will be divided in 3 sections pertaining reciprocally to the remote arctic life in Dawson City, the kitchen grind and da pokerz - and scribble a few lines in the process yo So am pretty happy with where this project is heading, even if it remains at a crawling pace I do plan on spending perhaps 1-3 months next year exclusively focussing on my book - from the moment I woke up in the morning to a few moments before my eyes close themselves in the evening!!! - , but am presently enjoying the combination of alternating in between both realms right now. On the felt I have been game selecting much more, not forcing the issue and playing when my mind is right/I have the desire to do so (+5.4k in 14h last week).
I have a tendency to take my own skills for granted. Like poker, for instance ; despite not studying extensively throughout my career (and barely at all when I first turned pro back in 2011 at the live tables), I have had a knack for crushing the games. I mean, I cannot count the amount of players that I have crossed along the path that studied exponentially more than I did, and yet these players never went beyond lowstakes, if professional at all... I mean, I don't want to sound esoteric a la Matusow that breaks it down to a God sent gift for da game of pokerz, but I do excel in several non-strategic aspects like BRM, mental fortitude, live reads, understanding the psychology behind human nature, a strong mathematical base, an elite memory etcetera and etc., stuff that I took for granted and believed that it was transferable to any inspiring pro with a bit of discipline and hard work... Anyhow, note to self : do not take your own skills for granted, much like life itself, good health, your present relationships, family, friends etc. I have been also trying to be more in the moment with L and her son, and not take those moments for granted. Peace
Yup. One of those (rare) movies that got me crying because it hit home so God damn hard, as well as being simply FRACKING BEAUTIFUL I remember The Big Blue being the first film to ever shake me that hard as a little kid which, upon revisit a few years ago, is still quite touching - if kitch. You ever watch Blueberry Karamazonk, an equally emotional ride, mainly when it goes down in the Underworld in its Ayahuasca journey, before rising from the ashes??? Its thematic journey is a similar one to Annihilation, which I also hold in (extremely HIGH) esteem.
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Solid week in the books. Even if it started out sheepishly - both in regards to writing and grinding -, the results ended up being excellent
I managed to sketch out even moreso the outlines for my book - which will be divided in 3 sections pertaining reciprocally to the remote arctic life in Dawson City, the kitchen grind and da pokerz - and scribble a few lines in the process yo So am pretty happy with where this project is heading, even if it remains at a crawling pace I do plan on spending perhaps 1-3 months next year exclusively focussing on my book - from the moment I woke up in the morning to a few moments before my eyes close themselves in the evening!!! - , but am presently enjoying the combination of alternating in between both realms right now. On the felt I have been game selecting much more, not forcing the issue and playing when my mind is right/I have the desire to do so (+5.4k in 14h last week).I have a tendency to take my own skills for granted. Like poker, for instance ; despite not studying extensively throughout my career (and barely at all when I first turned pro back in 2011 at the live tables), I have had a knack for crushing the games. I mean, I cannot count the amount of players that I have crossed along the path that studied exponentially more than I did, and yet these players never went beyond lowstakes, if professional at all... I mean, I don't want to sound esoteric a la Matusow that breaks it down to a God sent gift for da game of pokerz, but I do excel in several non-strategic aspects like BRM, mental fortitude, live reads, understanding the psychology behind human nature, a strong mathematical base, an elite memory etcetera and etc., stuff that I took for granted and believed that it was transferable to any inspiring pro with a bit of discipline and hard work... Anyhow, note to self : do not take your own skills for granted, much like life itself, good health, your present relationships, family, friends etc. I have been also trying to be more in the moment with L and her son, and not take those moments for granted. Peace
I remember The Big Blue being the first film to ever shake me that hard as a little kid which, upon revisit a few years ago, is still quite touching - if kitch. You ever watch Blueberry Karamazonk, an equally emotional ride, mainly when it goes down in the Underworld in its Ayahuasca journey, before rising from the ashes??? Its thematic journey is a similar one to Annihilation, which I also hold in (extremely HIGH) esteem.-400$ in 2h
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06-07-2021
, 05:17 PM
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I enjoyed it! In particular, I liked the movie's nonchalance, never seeming to take itself too seriously, and its zaniness, as well as yet another fun performance by Michael Madsen. It was an edible-enhanced viewing experience for me, which made the ayahuasca sequences particularly trippy and cool, and which also made it easy for me to just shrug and enjoy the weirder parts of the movie with a ****-eating grin on my face. Another rec of yours regarding something I probably never would have watched otherwise for which I'm grateful. It's one of a kind, that's for sure.
06-14-2021
, 05:12 PM
Greyish are the Skies
Another great (financial) week in the books, as this unexpected tear continues post the RRs ; not only did I (just barely) crack the 5 digits in da pokerz in 20h of play - and 3h of studying, which is A LOT for this guy -, but we are also on a 3k Bball uspwing yo Because of this momentum, I did favour da pokerz over my book, but nonetheless still managed to commence a new chapter and establish a new arc moving forward
Where shyt did hit the fan was during my weekly zoom call with my family back in Quebec when I announced that I would not be tagging along in August, ooofff My folks seem exhausted from this 16 months confinement as the bad news shook even my dad who usually maintains his emotional cool in dat old school sorta way... Things got worse when the discussion turned to politics and my dad, who is like a copy-paste of CNN - or more like an audio-paste... - when it comes to that realm - at least it is not FOX news ffs -, did not appreciate my take that the right was actually correct in their stance against drastic lockdown measures especially as applied in Argentina and Peru that nevertheless find themselves in the same lot as Brazil and Mexico.
Disclaimer : our SA scenario has nothing to do with the measure applied in Can-USA-Europe where most have the financial privilege or benefit from the government help to stay at home, but was based on a decision to save lives/not see the Universally free healthcare system crash ; nonetheless, it neglects to factor in the ton of peeps working in the black market. I mean, everything was locked down and martial was implemented back when we had a ridiculously low 20-50 daily cases
What did you think of Annihilation? Of its dark, mystical, creepy tune... If it is up your alley, I have a couple similar recommendations : The Endless : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ur8UgpvRPXU and Midsommar : https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=1Vnghdsjmd0.
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Another great (financial) week in the books, as this unexpected tear continues post the RRs ; not only did I (just barely) crack the 5 digits in da pokerz in 20h of play - and 3h of studying, which is A LOT for this guy
-, but we are also on a 3k Bball uspwing yo Because of this momentum, I did favour da pokerz over my book, but nonetheless still managed to commence a new chapter and establish a new arc moving forward Where shyt did hit the fan was during my weekly zoom call with my family back in Quebec when I announced that I would not be tagging along in August, ooofff
My folks seem exhausted from this 16 months confinement as the bad news shook even my dad who usually maintains his emotional cool in dat old school sorta way... Things got worse when the discussion turned to politics and my dad, who is like a copy-paste of CNN - or more like an audio-paste... - when it comes to that realm - at least it is not FOX news ffs -, did not appreciate my take that the right was actually correct in their stance against drastic lockdown measures especially as applied in Argentina and Peru that nevertheless find themselves in the same lot as Brazil and Mexico.Disclaimer : our SA scenario has nothing to do with the measure applied in Can-USA-Europe where most have the financial privilege or benefit from the government help to stay at home, but was based on a decision to save lives/not see the Universally free healthcare system crash ; nonetheless, it neglects to factor in the ton of peeps working in the black market. I mean, everything was locked down and martial was implemented back when we had a ridiculously low 20-50 daily cases
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Ha, I actually did end up watching it three or four months ago and forgot to mention it, albeit it was retitled "Renegade," which is why I had a difficult time finding a means to watch it initially.
I enjoyed it! In particular, I liked the movie's nonchalance, never seeming to take itself too seriously, and its zaniness, as well as yet another fun performance by Michael Madsen. It was an edible-enhanced viewing experience for me, which made the ayahuasca sequences particularly trippy and cool, and which also made it easy for me to just shrug and enjoy the weirder parts of the movie with a ****-eating grin on my face. Another rec of yours regarding something I probably never would have watched otherwise for which I'm grateful. It's one of a kind, that's for sure.
I enjoyed it! In particular, I liked the movie's nonchalance, never seeming to take itself too seriously, and its zaniness, as well as yet another fun performance by Michael Madsen. It was an edible-enhanced viewing experience for me, which made the ayahuasca sequences particularly trippy and cool, and which also made it easy for me to just shrug and enjoy the weirder parts of the movie with a ****-eating grin on my face. Another rec of yours regarding something I probably never would have watched otherwise for which I'm grateful. It's one of a kind, that's for sure.
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06-18-2021
, 05:18 PM
Simply Upwards
That upwards tick in the graph is still, well, rising, so have once again strayed away from the whole being a writer ambitions in favour of printing monies, you know Am pretty happy that the false narrative of having hot results while in the midst of RRs/months of deliberate grinding vs running cold while in writing periods and poker lulls, have done a full 180
Also note-worthy : if you folks remember 1-2 years back - I think... - how I had this ambition of leaving behind the poker world after sufficient monies saved up... Anyhow, now that I have a family nest that contributes a great dose of happiness/balance of life, I am more than content to pursue playing part-time (15-23h weekly) for the feasible future ; meaning for a decade or so while also focussing on social family life, writing and meditation at my present day pace
I got 12k+ in side-bets riding this week on the likes of the Utah Jazz, Brooklyn Nets (and Milwaukee), Doug Polk (vs Dwan) and Dnegs (vs Hellmuth), so GL all the above - minus those in ()
I guess I have not speak of it for a while, but L's son and I have developed a solid af relationship In fact, it is quite impressive to what extent we share similar interests (computers, physics and just a general intellectual curiosity), down to even personality defaults (being sloppy, nonchalant and whatnot ). And oh, thx to GGobbleGeek on your insight about your somewhat similar step-dad scenario
We are looking into going to (most likely) Salta for our August's week long vacation, which is north of the country (slightly hotter) and offers a wide wage of interesting architectural buildings/areas to visit, am looking forward to it
Cool. I have been mainly on a Netflix series binge recently, most notably enjoying Startup, La Valle, Caliphate, Devs, Hermandad to name a few...
My suggestion : persist and register to several nearby centres at least 3 months in advance. 3 months was the standard for several centres pre-covid, so I can only imagine the waitlist now...
+5k in 18h
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That upwards tick in the graph is still, well, rising, so have once again strayed away from the whole being a writer ambitions in favour of printing monies, you know
Am pretty happy that the false narrative of having hot results while in the midst of RRs/months of deliberate grinding vs running cold while in writing periods and poker lulls, have done a full 180 Also note-worthy : if you folks remember 1-2 years back - I think... - how I had this ambition of leaving behind the poker world after sufficient monies saved up... Anyhow, now that I have a family nest that contributes a great dose of happiness/balance of life, I am more than content to pursue playing part-time (15-23h weekly) for the feasible future ; meaning for a decade or so while also focussing on social family life, writing and meditation at my present day pace
I got 12k+ in side-bets riding this week on the likes of the Utah Jazz, Brooklyn Nets (and Milwaukee), Doug Polk (vs Dwan) and Dnegs (vs Hellmuth), so GL all the above - minus those in ()
I guess I have not speak of it for a while, but L's son and I have developed a solid af relationship
In fact, it is quite impressive to what extent we share similar interests (computers, physics and just a general intellectual curiosity), down to even personality defaults (being sloppy, nonchalant and whatnot ). And oh, thx to GGobbleGeek on your insight about your somewhat similar step-dad scenario We are looking into going to (most likely) Salta for our August's week long vacation, which is north of the country (slightly hotter) and offers a wide wage of interesting architectural buildings/areas to visit, am looking forward to it
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I liked Annihilation, especially that scene we've discussed previously where
I think the film does a great job capturing our fear of the unknown and the truths of impermanence and transformation, etc..
I thought The Endless was okay but was ultimately disappointed by it tbh, felt like it had great promise and failed to execute on its potential. One of seemingly not very many movies where our tastes diverge a bit.
Still haven't seen Midsommar but I've been on the verge of watching it multiple times heh.
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I thought The Endless was okay but was ultimately disappointed by it tbh, felt like it had great promise and failed to execute on its potential. One of seemingly not very many movies where our tastes diverge a bit.
Still haven't seen Midsommar but I've been on the verge of watching it multiple times heh.
+5k in 18h
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06-19-2021
, 04:31 PM
well, sorta speak, as I cannot pinpoint to what fraction our relationship consists of friendship, sted-dad/step-son... more of the latter, tbh, as I progressively became more of a paternal image for him and am participating much more in the parenting realm... Spoiler:
About the gambling run good, outside of da pokerz (where I am up about 22k in 3 weeks since the last RR's), I have 12k riding this WE on 4 different bets : Utah (where I dropped 2.5k yesterday in implausible fashion after witnessing the Jazz being up 25pts in the third quarter and playing like fracking champs of the universe, to the ensuing breakdown even with Conley back for the Jazz and kahwi missing for the Clips
), Brooklyn tonight (2.2k), Polk vs Dwan (3k), Dnegs vs Hellmuth (also 3k), hence half of that profit Let's run good, shall we not Spoiler: