Oioi! Thanks for all the replies, feels nice to see people also got some nice messages in times of no heat (worst pub in history)
Taking it day by day atm and have come to peace with my current state of mind causing lack of drive to grind which is new for me. Usually I feel guilt for not grinding and feel even worse but yesterday I took a planned fund day off and met some friends and we just watched football and hung out. Was real nice and today I found some drive again and did a review and managed to play a session. Funnily enough it was the worst run I have had probably all year in terms of card distribution, just got my face kicked in from 4pm till about midnight but somehow didn’t sweat it and actually think I played really well which is obv all that matters. Managed a little bit of a comeback to not have a -90% roi session but only -50. Every little bit helps.
Just remembered I booked a massage tomorrow so that’s nice. Maybe if I get to sleep now and enjoy that I can dig deep and find a grind tomorrow but not sweating it. Looking to play Sunday for sure tho
As for the walls in nature- I can totally relate, it’s just that in inner Vienna there isn’t much that would fit that description and it s been completely shyte weather for about a week - icy slushy rain, no fun to walk around in sadly. Will def try to hit up a park once it clears tho thanks for the idea.
Also the daylight Kamp i ordered should arrive tomorrow and I bought a bunch of vitamins for supplementation. Can’t say ALL I ve been doing is feel sorry for myself haha
Thanks again for the messages, much appreciated