GG on the 20k score! You know what that means?...Nice giffiesss

I mean how the **** has nobody enquired what the disgusting fold was? Pls share if you are able to.

And I already know without seeing it I wouldn't have folded.

Get dealt JJ utg on stone bubble with 501 left and 500 paid for 2.2 buyin mincash with 7-8 bb and 12 ppl with 1.5 or fewer bbs left in the field

Best spa vacation spots in Europe? Also nice score

I mean I can only speak from self made experiences

Loipersdorf in Austria is fkn amazing

Asia therme linsberg also great and fairly close to Vienna

Obv I have to assume they ain’t even close to the top tier of Europe but gotta take what you get innit

Would seriously snap fold that, thought it was like KK in BB vs SB jam or some ****

I mean I won’t lie that’s a jam I routinely make in my average mtt lol. Probably found a leak of mine in my average game. Pretty easy fold but it takes higher stakes than normal and more focus than normal to care about bubbles to actually make it

hola

pretty weird last couple days. took sunday off bc i was hungover from party friday and a charity auction my gf hosted at a friends' place -

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so these two things supposedly caused a multiday hangover so i decided to skip sunday and play monday (not even a bad thing) but i woke up today and was completely rekt and felt garbagy for precisely zero reasons but the feeling felt extremely familiar anyway, last time i had it tho was (or so i thought) caused by crypto messing with my head and sessions feeling entirely useless given the daily swings i was going through. looking back sure some of the feeling may have been that but turns out its just the classic winter darkness coldness depression shyte. suspected i had this or similar for a while but now i have fairly definitive proof as in every aspect of life i m either fine or better and still find myself being a sack of potatoes. not sure how to exactly go about gettign rid of this - all my friends are gonna go to PCA in jan whihc on first sight seems like a slam dunk solution (sun people etc) but i despise live poker with a passion and actually would just pay for expensive flights and completely overpriced rooms and food to play garbage poker while skipping at least two amazing online series bc i cant properly grind without my setup so thats out

therapy comes to mind but i doubt theres anythign to actually talk about. on paper im compeltely fine so thats out as well

i booked a massage to at least get some sorta positivity into my body, i m taking vitamin D daily and i m doing exercise to the extent i am allowed to daily as well (exercises for my shoulder plus once a week physio therapy) so honeslty i m quite lost. if history is a guide this on off mood swingy unmotivated garbage will last until about mid february. think i ll go order a daylight lamp on amazon now, completely forgot about that being recommended to me and until now was not much need for it i thought. maybe thatll help. anybody with similar experiences/ solutions feel free to chime in would grealy appreciate it

in other and more positive news i have another plug to make, this one being for a podcast a good friend of mine who plays midstakes on stars has started doing recently, please take a look and see for urself if u like them

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hope y'all are well. peace

Can totally understand why people dislike the dark/cold/early nights, I personally love this time of year. I suspect it's just because of where I'm from though...

Keep ya head up fam!

Std winter depression. Theres a reason alot of pokerplayers me included just try to not do winter at all or take slot of holidays to recharge. I know i know you have a gf and you cannot yadayada but im sure you could find at least 2 weekly vacations in a warmer place during november to feb which would align w her schedule. And even only 2 weeks will change things drastically. I still remember like it was yday when i first time went out of europe and landed phuket 27th of december burning heat and perfect sunshine. It was that same moment i decided im done w winters for good unless absolutely no other chance (im writing this btw sitting w shorts tshirt and flipflops outside dining in manila at chilled 28 degrees)

Also bahamas seems like a terrible idea. From everything i know about you bahamas seems to be pretty much exactly everything you hate

Just cus you think you should be fine on paper doesn't mean that you should just feel fine and that's the end of it. There's obviously something going on if you're feeling low/rubbish.

Obv i'm super biased, but talking to someone/people about your experience is always my #1 remedy. But failing the desire to do that I definitely like the idea of massage/taking some time for yourself to reflect etc.

<3 brother, i'm here too ya know

I was born in a warm place but i spend a big amount of years in cold places. Still remember how bad it was the first time i've been in a cold city in winter. Terrible! Expecially in the Christmas time..It's like an horror film!

It's of course something really personal.. but i've start to go out during the winter months! Wenn i feel the winter taking me down i often leave the city an start to walk in the nature. Alone, no men, no noise etc. At some point i find myself deep immersed in a beautiful world of snow, cold dry air and absolute peace. Usually carry a backpack with some food, something hot to drink and other emergency stuff (u never know what can happen).The goal is the trip without a goal.. i don't know.. it's like i'm able to take the energy i need from the winter itself..that in first place was the thing taking me down. That's maybe kind of philosophical/esoteric way of thinking..but in my vision of things is a pretty logic thing.
What i'm sure about is that citys in winter are a Trap!!!!

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Winter itself is teh tarp #winteriscoming

The darkness of winter is the best time of year for ugly people. But then we realise we're still ugly in the dark so it balances out.

I’m from a warm coastal climate and I lived in Edinburgh during winter. I hated everyone and myself. Winter depression is real bro


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I also dont feel that good these days in my head, its all about this winter :P
pokkereddu thats true when you get alone in fields of snow its somehow relaxing, I have behind house some spot like that where I go from time to time stay alone , breath the cold air and watch in distance

Oioi! Thanks for all the replies, feels nice to see people also got some nice messages in times of no heat (worst pub in history)

Taking it day by day atm and have come to peace with my current state of mind causing lack of drive to grind which is new for me. Usually I feel guilt for not grinding and feel even worse but yesterday I took a planned fund day off and met some friends and we just watched football and hung out. Was real nice and today I found some drive again and did a review and managed to play a session. Funnily enough it was the worst run I have had probably all year in terms of card distribution, just got my face kicked in from 4pm till about midnight but somehow didn’t sweat it and actually think I played really well which is obv all that matters. Managed a little bit of a comeback to not have a -90% roi session but only -50. Every little bit helps.

Just remembered I booked a massage tomorrow so that’s nice. Maybe if I get to sleep now and enjoy that I can dig deep and find a grind tomorrow but not sweating it. Looking to play Sunday for sure tho

As for the walls in nature- I can totally relate, it’s just that in inner Vienna there isn’t much that would fit that description and it s been completely shyte weather for about a week - icy slushy rain, no fun to walk around in sadly. Will def try to hit up a park once it clears tho thanks for the idea.

Also the daylight Kamp i ordered should arrive tomorrow and I bought a bunch of vitamins for supplementation. Can’t say ALL I ve been doing is feel sorry for myself haha

Thanks again for the messages, much appreciated

oioi. did some thinking and came to conclusion that regular use of this thread as a diary cant hurt seeing as since i started regularly posting dealing with everything that otherwise would be stewing and accumulating has been a decent bit easier

so ya woke up today feeling decent despite sleeping not amazingly, chilled then had my massage which was great. funnily enough the place is in the street i managed to lvie almost 3 years but only found it today. likely gonna make it a biweekly thing as afterward i felt amazing for a day after a longish session. decided to treat myself to some nice food and got back somehow feeling the hunger for grinding, again to my surprise.

proceeded to get my face smashed in for second day in a row or sth like 4 sessions back to back but no idea how i didnt even react at all, just played my A-game and nothing else. really feels nice to play well through all this, obv helps that i m coming off my best ever month so not feeling the heat much there btu the focus levels i ve been achieving are making me very happy. so ya not monetarily but otherwise its been a great turnaround this week looking at how it started. tomorrow i ll have a pretty strenious day, delivery of our long awaited custom made dining table is scheduled for between 8 am and 11 am so thatll thoroughly screw me and then a good friend has his bday party in the evening followed by gf's entire family coming over at 11am saturday for the annual christmas cookie baking bonanza. gonna be very rip going into sunday so praying i manage a good night's sleep as i m really looking forward to grinding hard until christmas. peace

<3

Classic december chaos on and off the tables. gl with it haha

Hey man, been lurking your PG&Cs for years now and finally got something useful to say lol

I got rid of winter-depression completely with just two adjustments:

- Workout more. Of course this is a no brainer, but it helps so ****ing much. The part of the workout where I suffer and have to push myself is what benefits my mood the most (afterwards ) and you don't have to become David Goggins to achieve that lol.

- Fish oil pills. This was a game changer for me. Apparently they're able to increase dopamine levels. Comes with a lot of other benefits as well. Just great stuff for body and mind and something we don't get enough of with a "standard" 2018-nutrition. I never experienced any symptoms since taking them. Winter's ****ing great now!

Hope this helps!

GL on the grind man!

Had the standard “play two seasons back to back and have something I need to get up for so can’t get to sleep until 5” issues last night. Pretty annoying that the first bell that was rung was just boring letterman who decided to ring until i was awake (they usually have keys) and that ripped me out of my only deep sleep phase I got during the time I was hoping to get some.

Std letter guy comes at 8 and table guy calls at 10 to make sure I m awake saying he arrives at 11.

Cliffs: it’s 6pm and I just woke up. Party got pushed to tomorrow so today is just bed for me


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I ll do some reading about the fish pills thanks for that bro! As for exercise I m doing some daily to the extent that I am capable of doing given my shoulder issues. I def feel that regular heavy workouts are missing from my life as they come with the craziest benefits health and life balance wise but alas I gotta wait a little more for those. Next year gonna be amazing!

Thanks for the input

Hey

Did u try the meditation thing ?

thanks for sharing the Nick Howard podcast it was nice

Not sure which exact meditation thing do you mean?

And I m very glad you liked it please share it yourself to help it grow

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Almost managed to stick to the plan I made but failing at the last hurdle which is grinding today. Decided to have a chill day with the gf while actually not feeling rekt too hard but not being at 100% focus bc I may or may not have endulged in what is known in these streets as bananas. Keep getting a lasting “hangover” the day after which just destroys my grinding ability. Good news is that I actually get to play my favojrote days this week without losing out on volume. Plan is to play Monday Wednesday Thursday/Friday and then Sunday before gongs home so 4 sessions total which is just what I was gonna get to had I played today. So all good. Off to the Christmas market we go now. Peace boys and girls

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