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Bipolar disorder - so what?! I crush MTTs anyway! Bipolar disorder - so what?! I crush MTTs anyway!

09-24-2018 , 03:06 PM
Thank you very much, Slava!

Always depends on the forum. I used the button on the left in PT4 for other forums, but now I know how to post hands! Great.

And another little miracle happened: I don´t know how, I don´t know why but suddenly I master the mental game. Had a pretty awful session today where really no hand held (even AA, KK, QQ didn´t), I managed to stay calm, stay focussed and play my game, fully concentrated on ICM, GTO, FGS. Just focussed on the right decisions, on the right ranges.... on the decisions which bring me profit on the long run. It´s really a miracle. It´s like somebody or someone took over, cannot explain it.

Those who have a spiritual side are very welcome to give a possible explanation.

It just worked! I just did it.

Suddenly it happened!

Can´t say anything but MIRACLE!
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09-25-2018 , 08:04 AM
Why I can´t grind today - or: the mental game of ghostwriting

Gotta finish some work today before training. It´s about a survey. I prepared about 20 nice and scientific questions for client which they just easily ignored and prefered to do the interviews in good old German slang. The answers are in slang as well (I pee in my pants ). Besides, client sent me the interviews and the data WAY too late and everything has to be finished asap. Of course! What else? But that´s not all, folks, no! Client decided to ask everybody different questions, not the standardized ones, no! So, I gotta correct everything and make something halfway scientific out of that mess. HILARIOUS!

It´s like a donk hitting his 1- or 2-outer on the river
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09-26-2018 , 02:50 PM
Who wants fresh fishes? I do!

Unbelievable how fishy the SnGs and MTTs on Party became. This reminds me on the "good old days" before black Friday. Oh dear, I remember how fishy the CGs were, NL 200 was still no problem, didn´t need GTO, in the SnGs I didn´t need ICM (now FGS), just played like AJ+, 99+ I played totally nitty back then. I don´t do that anymore, but I had to tighten up because those Villains don´t know where their fold button is .

Powerfest brought many new fishes to the tables and I had to adjust my strategy. Not long ago I played LAG but in some tourneys I had to switch back to TAG because they called with every crap and shot each other out. Just profit from the equity you "win" for free due to ICM-suicide of Villains. I mass multi table STTs and MTTs and I often just found myself suddenly ITM

I hope those big events on Party bring more new fishes to the tables. I remember at the beginning of this year the SnGs on Party were pretty nitty and reggish, I collected a lot of chips by fold equity (right ICM-jams) but now you get called at the bubble with every sh.....

Guess those who won in the Powerfest events are going to spew off their money in STTs and CG.

Had a crazy swingy session today, played about 3K hands. A very rough start with every single jam lost, against ....whatever ...you name it! Besides I was card-dead but afterwards it got better and I could win my 6-max and 9-max SnGs, as well as DONs, in the MTTs I unfortunately busted but could take K.O.-money with me. This session was so crazy that I looked up what happened. I turned out that at the beginning I was running far under EV but that changed a bit. I found out that with good mental game and beeing focussed I at least could win 2€ lol That´s a good result for a pretty bad run

It is really worth to be mentally stable and keep focus. If I had tilted I would have lost probably 50-100 €.
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09-29-2018 , 02:20 PM
I slowly seem to indeed master the mental game. Have a very bad downswing behind me, but anyway, I play now about 40-50 tourneys (SnGs and MTTs) per day. During the last sessions I was running very bad, far under EV, lost almost every flip, many 3-outers hit against me, got suck-outs, tons and tons of junk hands and a lot of second best hands ("coolers"). Anyway, I managed to keep up my grinding and my A-game and just today the last two MTTs went well.

Placed 4th in the "Morning Edition" on Party and took a 8th place in the "Early Edition".

Yesterday I had to swallow a pretty big loss, but today I could come out more or less break even. I hope I can grind step by step the downer out. The more you play, the sooner it will be over, the better you play, the smaller will be your loss. Yesterday I could at least take one or two ITMs which helps mentally a lot. It´s not easy to keep up self-confidence but some little successes help.

The FTs will come again ...
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09-29-2018 , 02:38 PM
A pretty nice call ITM

Even though I don´t hold a blocker:

partypoker - 0/0 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 5 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

CO: 22.69 BB (VPIP: 30.43, PFR: 26.09, 3Bet Preflop: 5.88, Hands: 48)
BTN: 12.9 BB (VPIP: 36.23, PFR: 12.41, 3Bet Preflop: 11.29, Hands: 140)
SB: 70.06 BB (VPIP: 35.29, PFR: 14.71, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 34)
Hero (BB): 45.33 BB
UTG: 68.24 BB (VPIP: 20.35, PFR: 12.39, 3Bet Preflop: 6.45, Hands: 113)

5 players post ante of 0 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, Hero posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 2.13 BB) Hero has T T

fold, CO raises to 3 BB, fold, fold, Hero calls 2 BB

Flop: (7.13 BB, 2 players) 4 9 3
Hero checks, CO bets 7.13 BB, Hero calls 7.13 BB

Turn: (21.38 BB, 2 players) 4
Hero checks, CO bets 12.44 BB and is all-in, Hero calls 12.44 BB

River: (46.26 BB, 2 players) K

Hero shows T T (Two Pair, Tens and Fours)
(Pre 66%, Flop 81%, Turn 75%)
CO shows Q T (One Pair, Fours)
(Pre 34%, Flop 19%, Turn 25%)
Hero wins 46.26 BB
Bipolar disorder - so what?! I crush MTTs anyway! Quote
09-29-2018 , 02:38 PM
And a pretty bad call at the FT (I guess)

Was not sure about this call

partypoker - 0/0 NL (8 max) - Holdem - 4 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

CO: 87.12 BB (VPIP: 44.19, PFR: 0.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 44)
BTN: 17.42 BB (VPIP: 26.04, PFR: 16.67, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 100)
SB: 45.06 BB (VPIP: 42.25, PFR: 19.83, 3Bet Preflop: 16.79, Hands: 362)
Hero (BB): 9.61 BB

4 players post ante of 0 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, Hero posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 1.97 BB) Hero has Q J

fold, fold, SB raises to 44.94 BB and is all-in, Hero calls 8.49 BB and is all-in

Flop: (19.46 BB, 2 players) K 4 A

Turn: (19.46 BB, 2 players) K

River: (19.46 BB, 2 players) 4

SB shows Q K (Full House, Kings full of Fours)
(Pre 74%, Flop 79%, Turn 91%)
Hero shows Q J (Two Pair, Kings and Fours)
(Pre 26%, Flop 21%, Turn 9%)
SB wins 35.45 BB
SB wins 19.46 BB
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10-01-2018 , 12:49 PM
Had a quite bad downswing but somehow I more or less got through it but everytime it´s very hard to deal with bad runs. Anyway, I could keep up my game and today it got a bit better.

Could place 2nd in the 1.10 $ Early Edition on Party.
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10-03-2018 , 01:19 PM
Only Sharkscope counts also the K.O-money, so graphs with K.O. bounties included here:



Could FT today another 2 MTTs, placed 6th in the 4.40 $ Bounty Hunter (PKO) and won a litte 0,27 $ Bounty Hunter and came ITM in one of the "Morning Editions" (non-PKO), don´t remember which one. Busted out of the 2.20 $ Bounty Hunter with AK vs. KQ but freerolled the tourney with K.O.s.

I´m planing to play SnGs and DONs only for rakeback, so it´s gonna be enough to run more or less break-even there. Just wanna get the points for cashback and my main format is MTT.

Current BR: 586,47 $.


Starting BR was: 30 $

(This graph shows only Partypoker but built my BR also in iPoker and Stars)

Last edited by Primrose6789; 10-03-2018 at 01:25 PM.
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10-03-2018 , 01:29 PM
As you see in my graph made it through a pretty ugly downer, it was very annoying and frustrating but I played it through. Still run about 80 bucks under EV. The mental game works better and better. This time I was brave and strong and just played it through, focussed and concentrated. I noticed though, that I played tighter and a bit "nittier" than usual due to fear of "loosing this hand again" but otherwise I have to say, for somebody like me: It worked well.
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10-04-2018 , 12:15 PM
BANKROLL SPLIT

Gonna play MTTs on more rooms in order to grind more of them. Decided that I play DON and SnG only for time reasons or for rakeback

Gonna split my BR up into 3 rooms:

1. PartyPoker
2. .....?
3. .....?

Looking for good rooms for MTT players with a lot of fishes and good traffic.
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10-04-2018 , 02:42 PM
You're crushing! Wp!
What about stars?

Vaaamoooo
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10-05-2018 , 04:15 PM
Session interrupted

Too bad! Flu! Had poker coaching today and afterwards I felt a bit strange. Had a bit of joint pain but ignored it and hit the tables. Played about 20 MTTs altogether while during the last five I noticed that my head felt very hot. I got weaker and weaker but tried to keep up my A-game.

Missed the FT in two tourneys (unlucky rivers), placed 13th in the 2.20 $ Bounty Hunter, 10th place in the 2.20 $ Power Turbo, some little ITMs, in the last MTT I somehow could drag myself ITM, I felt so weak. Interrupted my session and now I´m lying in bed, drinking hot tea and hoping that the flu will soon heal.

Stars is a good room, rapidesh, I love the SnG-MTTs there, still have some of my BR there and play some MTTs but unfortunately the traffic at my favourite SnG-MTTs got so bad that I need more rooms to get my MTTs together.

After a pretty bad run, my BR is "dancing" around break-even.
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10-06-2018 , 03:22 PM
I don´t know if playing sick was a great idea ....

...but it was fun for sure! So! I have chosen one poker room which is Titan Poker (iPoker). The 30 $ free cash and the bonus as well as the cashback on Partypoker are good ways to stuff the hole in BR which was created by a downswing.

Didn´t grind as usual (less tables), just a couple of MTTs (and not my A-game FOR SURE) and got my first MTT cashes on Titan. Came ITM in a 100 € Gtd. and in a 200 € Gdt., no FT, too bad but anyway ITM is better than nothing. Had some other ITMs on Party but nothing special, nothing big, just little ITMs here and there, was pretty card-dead.

Still have BR to put on a room, don´t know yet which one will it be....
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10-06-2018 , 04:58 PM
Will follow, gl man!

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10-07-2018 , 04:02 AM
Quote:
Originally Posted by mikeajax15
Will follow, gl man!

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Thank you! I´m a woman, but anyways: thanks!
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10-07-2018 , 04:11 AM
I WANT TICKETS!!!!

That´s the main reason for my return to iPoker. Sounds weird? No way. iPoker has a cool rake-back-system. You get rewarded by tourney-tickets, by freeroll-satty-tickets. Those MTTs are very soft and easy and it´s not a big deal to win a ticket for a higher buy-in MTT. So: MY CHANCE for shots at higher buy-in MTTs and for BR-buiding. I remember I built my first BR on Everest (graph cannot be shown unfortunately not available anymore), 20 € quickly became 200 €. When I signed up on Everest Poker in 2016, I cashed in 20€, recieved welcome-tourney-tickets which I used and WON! As rakeback I got the so-called "1K-Series" or "5K-Series" freeroll-entries where I could win tickets for 10 €-MTTs, in one of them I came ITM, some of the welcome-tickets I used to play DON and won them.

Back then I was mainly SnG-player and had to leave Everest due to very low traffic and the software crashing all the time. The latter problem seem to be fixed on iPoker, this time I play on Titan Poker. Of course there are some nice welcome-tickets and 30 $ free cash, I love it!

I will rake-back-grind the DONs there and on Party, keen on the tickets on Titan and on the cashback on Party. Further, DONs are a great alternative when I don´t have enough time or energy to grind the MTTs. Break-even is enough.
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10-07-2018 , 04:15 AM
Oh wait! Here it is: My old Everest-graph



I started with 10 ct. Double or Nothings

Sorry, don´t know where the rest is ......in PT4 the graph is gone.

So the story is that I won 25€ in a "Sunday Phoenix" (or what the name of the tourney was back then) by winning a ticket in a freeroll for the tourney and built the BR by DONs and SnGs. .....

So, I follow a similar plan on Titan but of course not with 10 ct DONs anymore but 2-5€ for rakeback.

My main format (as the title of the blog already says) is MTT!!!!

Last edited by Primrose6789; 10-07-2018 at 04:25 AM.
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10-07-2018 , 02:17 PM
Speaking of MTT, here we go:

Party Poker:
2.20 $ Bounty Hunter: 4th place
* 0,5 $ Bounty Hunter: 7th place
* 2.20 $ Sunday Kick off: 7 th place
* 0,5 $ Sunday Kick off: 10 th place

Titan Poker
* 1 € 100 € Gtd. on Titan: 10th place
* 1 € 100 € Gtd. on Titan: 2nd place

....and some ITMs...... here and there.....and K.O. bounties (don´t remember them all).
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10-07-2018 , 02:20 PM
Aaaaw, here it is the old Everest graph (2016-2017)


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10-08-2018 , 01:20 PM
Only a tiny mini session today


I´m tired and I have flu Only Bounty Hunters (0,2, 1,1 and 5,5) and Power Turbos (2.2 and 0,4), Early Edition (2,2, 0,5) and 100 € Gtd. (1€). Mini session, mini winning, came ITM here and there (5,50 Bounty Hunter, 0,5 Early Edition, 100 € Gtd., 0,2 Bounty Hunter).

Mini session but a big hand with a nice K.O. bounty


partypoker - 0/0 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 6 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: 110.62 BB (VPIP: 25.00, PFR: 15.69, 3Bet Preflop: 14.29, Hands: 52)
SB: 77.94 BB (VPIP: 0.00, PFR: 0.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 3)
BB: 100.16 BB (VPIP: 66.67, PFR: 66.67, 3Bet Preflop: -, Hands: 3)
UTG: 14.05 BB (VPIP: 66.67, PFR: 0.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 3)
MP: 84.09 BB (VPIP: 19.05, PFR: 16.35, 3Bet Preflop: 8.57, Hands: 108)
Hero (CO): 40.98 BB

6 players post ante of 0 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 2.15 BB) Hero has 7 7

UTG calls 1 BB, MP raises to 4 BB, Hero calls 4 BB, fold, fold, fold, UTG raises to 13.94 BB and is all-in, MP calls 9.94 BB, Hero calls 9.94 BB

Flop: (43.97 BB, 3 players) 7 T 7
MP bets 24.18 BB, Hero raises to 26.93 BB and is all-in, MP calls 2.75 BB

Turn: (97.83 BB, 3 players) A

River: (97.83 BB, 3 players) 2

MP shows T Q (Two Pair, Tens and Sevens)

Main Pot [43.97 BB]: (Pre 42%, Flop 0.1%, Turn 0%)
Side Pot#1 [53.86 BB]: (Pre 49%, Flop 0.1%, Turn 0%)

Hero shows 7 7 (Four of a Kind, Sevens)

Main Pot [43.97 BB]: (Pre 40%, Flop 99.9%, Turn 100%)
Side Pot#1 [53.86 BB]: (Pre 51%, Flop 99.9%, Turn 100%)

UTG shows 6 J (One Pair, Sevens)

Main Pot [43.97 BB]: (Pre 18%, Flop 0%, Turn 0%)

Hero wins 53.86 BB
Hero wins 43.97 BB
Bipolar disorder - so what?! I crush MTTs anyway! Quote
10-08-2018 , 03:46 PM
How glad that I played only a mini-session, looking at my hands of today, there are many misplayed ones. Felt tired already before my session but thought, okay, at least I can hit the tables for a little while. I played unconcentrated, inconsistent and I´m not happy with my todays play.

partypoker - 0/0 NL (6 max) - Holdem - 5 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

UTG: 11.02 BB (VPIP: 0.00, PFR: 0.00, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 2)
Hero (CO): 14.3 BB
BTN: 16.1 BB (VPIP: 25.27, PFR: 3.49, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 94)
SB: 8.47 BB (VPIP: 13.25, PFR: 3.70, 3Bet Preflop: 0.00, Hands: 86)
BB: 99.07 BB (VPIP: 28.46, PFR: 19.75, 3Bet Preflop: 5.06, Hands: 261)

5 players post ante of 0 BB, SB posts SB 0.5 BB, BB posts BB 1 BB

Pre Flop: (pot: 2.07 BB) Hero has 4 4

fold, Hero raises to 2 BB, fold, fold, BB calls 1 BB

Flop: (5.07 BB, 2 players) K 3 2
BB checks, Hero bets 2.03 BB, BB calls 2.03 BB

Turn: (9.13 BB, 2 players) Q
BB checks, Hero checks

River: (9.13 BB, 2 players) 5
BB bets 4.57 BB, Hero calls 4.57 BB

BB shows 4 K (One Pair, Kings)
(Pre 36%, Flop 90%, Turn 77%)
Hero mucks 4 4 (One Pair, Fours)
(Pre 64%, Flop 10%, Turn 23%)
BB wins 18.26 BB
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10-08-2018 , 04:03 PM
Sorry! My bad i forgot..
Why you choose te play those specific sites?

How many tables do you play?

Gl at the tables!

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10-09-2018 , 08:14 AM
Hey,
I use to 10-12 table MTTs, I chose iPoker because of the cool rake-back-system and the tons and tons of recreational players there. As rakeback you get freeroll-tickets - in those freeroll you can win tickets for MTTs at higher buy-in which I cannot afford yet. Cashing in those tourneys gives me a great BR-boost! The DON-SnGs on iPoker are super soft, not only profitable but also great rake-back machines!! I play DONs for rakeback mainly. So the reasons for iPoker are rakeback and many fishes.

I chose Partypoker because of the cool MTTs. I love the MTTs there, they are super-fun and full of donks. Besides they are not large-field MTTs like on Stars where you have several tousands of players in an MTT. On Party there are about 200-800 players in an MTT, it doesn´t take so much time and luck to win in those some cash. Besides I get on Party weekly cashback (rakeback) which I also appreciate.

One or two other room are still to be chosen ...... 180 $ BR are still waiting to be deposited somewhere....
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10-09-2018 , 04:50 PM
Todays session had to be cancelled due to a "natural problem"
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10-09-2018 , 05:02 PM
I really respect tournament players, i cant get myself to last in one lol, i like cash. I just get bored.

But i have a question , how much rb you get playing DONs on ipoker monthly. I kind of always though rb grinding is better with speed poker on party. I dont know to much about 30 to 15bbs stack play or those things, but feel i would be a winner on some small DONs there.
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