FAME
Ok -
FAME could perhaps be me being a little hyperbolic but I've been having more random players and people approaching me about the blog lately. One reg even said when he was grinding in Commerce over the summer that he had regs there asking him if he knew me because of this blog...
My Concern - I mean at the end of the day I write this for myself but I'm also writing it so people will read, sometimes I hope it's entertaining and sometimes I think it's interesting to be a poker player battling such mental issues. However, the blog is quite open, or very open perhaps and it's a little unsettling knowing that people at the table know so much about my day to day problems.
Solutions - Well I don't think anything drastic is required. I think it's good to bring attention to things like anxiety and panic disorders and I don't mind people knowing my results really - at the end of the day most of us regs have a reasonable idea of how the other players in our games are doing at any given time. I think what I will do is chill out with the critiques and verbals about certain players - albeit in my opinion these are often the most entertaining parts of blogs - and i'll probably try and ease off going into too much in depth strategy - again though, this isn't something I do often or at all really.
Poker Update
So I played both yesterday and Tuesday. Tuesday the NL fun was over and we were back to PLO, I ran good and had some favourable spots in my favour and was able to book and
£11k win. Last night was a real grind, was running probably a little below EV in showdown pots and all ins and had to battle all night to breakeven by close, which I was pretty happy with.
Funny Hand
I played a real funky one on tuesday night vs 2 european regs. 6 way limp pot where I've completed out of the blinds with
AQT2. Flop
Q6Qhh, I lead 25/150, eartern euro reg calls and german reg makes it 125 on the btn, I make it 475 and both call. Turn
7h. I check, eastern euro reg bets like £800 with £2.2k back. German reg, with £1.5k, taannkkss and folds and I jam. Eastern Euro reg sighs and folds. Table instinctively knows I've been a little cheeky and persuades me to show. At the sight of my hand Eastern Euro reg is clearly disheartened, he's folded 66 and German reg explodes with rage as he's folded AQ and didn't like the other regs bet. He starts berating him and just is flabbergasted at his turn play. Some might think it's out of line but I just thought it was so funny, like the poor guy has made a bad turn bet, and he knew he'd made a bad turn mistake and now he's just getting hurled abuse from the German reg. Live poker man...tough business.
Health
So on what was a good week up to yesterday health wise all came crashing down a little yesterday. I decided to walk to the Vic as part of my exposure therapy and it was an ordeal. The walk is about 3 miles, or slightly longer and at the end of it I wasn't a pretty sight. I was really sweaty, exhausted, trembly, was dizzy and finding it hard to keep focus, eventually I had to sit down for a while at marble arch and regain my composure. This kind of made my body go into shut down mode and as a result I was really uncomfortable all session, having some pretty bad digestive issues in particular. Pretty unpleasant
.
So as of now I'm unsure of my plan today. I have some stuff to catch up on before going to America this weekend and tbh i'm feeling quite unwell from the get go today so it's unlikely I'll play.
However games have been good this week so if i'm feeling stronger by the evening there is a good chance I head in and try and keep the heat going.