This is more of a study update. Poker, work, and coding are my life now.
For those who care, but don't wanna read a text wall that's mostly just mental masturbation for my own sake: fixing mental game, discovering leaks, studying hands, gonna grind micro tourneys online, wanna train my preflop game by designing a simple program in Python. Let's go bois.
I had a much better idea of what I was going to write before I got here, and now I lost my train of thought, so let's see. . .
Right. Bankroll, and plans. I find that I'm doing much better in micro tournament poker than cash games. In fact, I went to 5nl and made absolutely stupid plays, punting off about 14 bucks in spots where I didn't need to lose, then binked a 27-person sitngo for 12 bucks. I've almost punted off another 50 bucks online now. I must be absolutely terrible if I can't not just not hold my own on Bovada, one of the softest player pools around, but punt off 10 buyins in just a day or two.
What exactly is leading to this success, I can't say. I'm wagering there's a couple main reasons. First, is I tend to be more cautious in tournaments, leading me to be more tight passive early-on. This leads to me getting in the money. Second, I find spots where I can get it in good, and people are willing to call me lighter than they probably should. Many people at the micros seem to go all-in with a pretty wide range, despite, or perhaps because of, being short-stacked. I can't say for certain, but this is what I've observed so far.
I've been learning about ICM recently, and in fact was able to find myself in a couple spots already where I made a call lighter than I would normally against short stacks because ICM considerations made them profitable. Fortunately, they worked out in both cases.
But, I'm not a nit or rock either. I tend to dislike that style of play, not just cause it's boring, but because in a tournament you have to open your range up wider in a lot of scenarios, and get in there to play. Now, sometimes you're going to be card dead, and being card dead is no excuse to make unprofitable plays, so don't be dumb. But, it pays to find spots where you can get away with representing a strong hand, as obvious as this sounds to anyone who's been playing poker awhile. If you just try and get in the money all the time, you won't lose much, and you won't win much either.
That's another thing - looking back at my notes from when I first started playing, and hell even my first posts in here, I can't believe how arrogant I was. I'm afraid to deposit 600 dollars online (more on that in a sec), but thought nothing of withdrawing that much from the ATM, and plopping it all on the table in one, slow-paced live game. It's even funnier how often I would call people fish, when I was clearly one of the biggest punters at the table. I mean, there would be some genuinely terrible players there, far worse than me, but that's not the point.
My ego and insecurities seemed to be getting in the way of making rational decisions. I also used poker as escapism (the dream of making it big and becoming a 1/3 crusher through practice kept me away from my house and took my mind off my crummy job and bleak future in IT). Insulting other people at the table in my head made me feel better about myself. If I was a bit smarter, I'd realize that, even though I can play an okay game after 12 hours, it'd be better to just rack up and leave after 10 or 12, instead of 16, 17, or 18 hours. But I never did, because I wanted to get unstuck, because I hated telling my parents that I lost. They're obviously not going to listen to me if I tell them it's variance when I lose my week's paycheck three times in a row.
And that'd probably be a lie - I'm probably a significant losing player in cash games at even the lowest stakes, something that really bothers me. I know what I said about insulting people, but a lot of these people know next to nothing about poker, so the fact that I can't beat them is sad. It's like, I can tell you what the correct thing to do is if you asked me outside of the poker game. I would say, if I RFI EP, then get 3-bet and call with JJ, then c-bet the flop on a dry board only to get raised all-in, I'd almost certainly tell you that's a clear fold. My opponent is heavily representing an overpair, and sometimes even a set if they're 3-betting loose enough, which no 5nl is ever doing.
But I did make that call, and ran into AA. What a shocker, right?
This segues into the next point, my big leaks:
1.) Paying people off for their nutted hands. I don't know why, but I usually find it hard to fold solid hands when the board gets scary. If I had folded literally every time I was ever raised in a 1/3 live game, I would actually be up well over 1k. Hell, if I just folded every time I was raised like an extra 10 or 20 bucks on the river, this would have saved me a couple hundred. For some reason, I keep thinking that people think like me, that I would bluff difficult spots like that. I fail to see their confidence, the tells, the fact that they only seem to do this with the nuts. The in-the-moment pressure keeps me blind to what I could rationally figure out (I hope!) pretty quickly. Fixing this leak alone would be HUGE for me.
2.) Not understanding what a good bluffing spot is. I tend to bluff when a board looks especially dry (and I have a range advantage) or especially wet (and I have a nut advantage), then get called by one or two people, do the same on the turn, and am faced with a difficult spot on the river. They went check/call, check/call, and now what? I've been shafted more than once when I go for the triple barrel, yet as many times people will continue to the river with relative garbage, hoping for a vague chance to improve, and would have certainly folded to a third bet. This has cost me hundreds, and winning all these spots might have net me hundreds, or even 1k in profit.
3.) In live cash games, the idea is that people want to see the flop for as cheap as possible, but do want to see the flop. They'll continue with a lot of garbage, like Q4s, a hand whose sole purpose is to make a flush, even if you bet x3 or x4 the BB, cause they didn't drive all the way to the casino to fold, dagnabbit. This means you have to tighten up your range, to the point where you don't feel tempted to limp with any of your hands. Getting a hand that crushes your opponent's ranges, and building huge pots preflop, seems to be the best way to combat these bastards. Raising with T9s in the MP to have some hands with a nut advantage in your range is pointless when no one is paying attention to what cards you play. I haven't lost money in this manner, as I usually play a tight-ish range, but I have certainly missed out on profits.
4.) Did I mention paying people off? Turn and river bets are always the nuts. I've tried to figure out why I even did that, and usually it's because I'm bluffing, or do have a good hand, or whatever, and either it's so strong that I don't feel like I can fold it (completely untrue on a wet board obviously), or I think "they must think I'm bullshitting". No, they don't. They're not thinking about you or your cards much at all. They're mostly just thinking they have the nuts, and that's it. This is exactly how I won that one time where I just triple-barreled all the time, by folding whenever raised to. What happened there?
5.) Seriously, stop paying people off, this is your biggest leak, it cannot be stressed enough. It's a wonder you've done as well as you have in tourneys (I guess whatever I'm doing is working, but yeah).
According to Jlittle's bankroll bible, if you're playing in 100 to 200 person fields, you need a 105 buyin bankroll, thereabouts, assuming a 30% ROI. I do not have a 30% ROI. Being generous, I have 10%. I will be playing tourneys as small as 9 players, and as large as 500. (500+9)/2=254.5 being my average tourney size, so yeah, 105 buyins is about right. Given my ROI is 1/3 of what are shown in the stats, I will need to triple this to 315. I will be playing tourneys no larger than $3. This means my bankroll needs to be 315*3, or 945 dollars.
This is obviously very steep. Although I didn't have that much compunction getting $600 from the ATM to play a live game, despite being an obvious losing player in those games, depositing 450 into two different sites where the competition is stiff is nerve-wracking. If I'm getting creamed in 1/3 live and 5nl, I must be a giga fish just getting lucky in these tourneys. If I make this deposit, poker will have cost me like 3k total as a hobby, which is nuts to think about. Very depressing and anxiety-inducing to think I might just lose it all. What's to say I have the discipline to study, when I've been slacking on my workouts and diet just because the gym is closed? My workout routine I've had for two years, evaporating before my eyes. And that's not getting started on barely being able to get up in the morning. Why don't I just do what I'm supposed to?
Anyway, I guess this is the start of a new challenge: Fix my most obvious leaks, and start with a $300 deposit (200 and 100 split between ACR and Bovada respectively, since ACR has more tables to play at) with the idea that I have $945 in my bankroll, total, that I can deposit if need be. I don't really hope to grind this to anything, so much as I hope to not lose it over the course of 3000 tourneys entered (sounds like a good amount to play in a month to determine true ROI). If I don't lose it, I will consider it a success. The more important thing, though, is to take this time to put in volume and learn. Any time I play, I am going to put the most important hands of my biggest events, and put them through the solver, get advice on this forum, and study poker content, then get back at it. I will maybe consider getting a coach instead of pokercoaching.com, but I heard coaches are very, very expensive, so that luxury is not likely in the cards. I will also code that little preflop doodad for myself.
Anyway. I'm going to be going over my latest tournament win in-depth tomorrow over here on 2+2, getting feedback on my lines and hoping for some good advice, in addition to continuing to listen to Jlittle's stuff (hope that tournament masterclass comes out) and get to making that card deck so I can train myself for preflop situations. I'm sure there's some app for it, but I'd like to do it myself.
I'll be continuing my study journey. I don't wanna give up, if only to prove that I'm not stupid, and can become at least a little good at this. It's hard to admit you're a genuine loser.
Last edited by FloobyBadoop; 03-20-2020 at 02:34 AM.