no my bankroll is not even at 7K yet. In total ive made about 5K, i've started september 26th, 2 weeks with family stuff, 2 weeks learning 10NL/4NL, the rest playing so I believe its been about 21 days not 11 lol. the 11 days thing is when I started over again after I got back from my long break and wanted to keep count of how much I've been playing etc.

Monday day 13:
Took a small break, ate lunch played a three hour session I'm going to go ahead and shower and get right back in it. Still almost at the 6k mark, been stuck here for a while, but its alright ima eventually get a major break through. Excited for 200NL, I know its coming soon, not much else to say.

Tuesday Day 14 "Reality Check":
Today was one of those days, I didn't play much it was actually me getting a bit out of the poker zone I just needed some time off and tomorrow with a full day off will do me real good. Its those days where you try to find yourself and even my poker dream must be left behind temporarily just to set the record straight to myself. I just thought to myself a lot, about life and really just talked sense into myself, the things that keep me going (my family & friends), are also the ones that are holding me back because there on my mind so much and I want to come back so soon that I've put so much pressure on myself and I realize that the more I force it the more these break-even type of days will happen because everything feels forced and im not playing as good as I should be playing. Today was one of my great poker "stepping" stones even though I didn't really play poker so much, because it made me realize, that forcing things will only delay the progress. So I hope come thursday I will be able to play my top A-game and (Maybe) meet up with gordon sometime this week, and hopefully will be at 200NL. But Going to take it slow play good, and not force anything except nice volume and good concentration obv :P. See theres two things im really motivated over and would do anything for and it sucks because im stuck smack in the middle and I can't have both, I want my family and friends really bad I miss them and im not as indepedent yet, Im young I've never been alone for this long without anyone to keep me going, its hard to stay strong. But knowing that I haven't gotten there yet is what keeps me going, now this gets kinda personal, but there was this girl whom may very well be my first "love" its been a while since i've seen her but we always keep in touch every once in a while she keeps me going, hope that one day we may be together, it may be a long shot it may not be I don't know but its something I can hold onto. I don't know if she felt the same way, but either way nothing was going to happen because I decided to leave her behind while emotions were getting deep and go travel outside the US to make my parents proud and get them to stop working so hard it sickens me to see this everyday and thats another thing that keeps pressuring me to succeed and everyday I **** up it gets me, but im only human I have to learn from it. Its like my family friends and my first love is my kryptonite, but there also my main motivation the ones that make sure that I work my hardest because they are something I can't live without. Yeah i fell off today I lost it I had to think, and tomorrow I know I will need to think much more just to get it into my head I need some sort of closure, knowing that I will not be able to see them while I do this, its going to be a while but i'll catch them on the other side. Sometimes I worry about change, i've only been gone for 8 months but it seems like things are different now, my friends haven't changed, but things feel different and I feel like I have I evolved from this experience. And I can only imagine what a couple of months more will do, and how different things will be when I finally get back to the US, I dont know what will happen and it worries me a lot, it also holds me back, but I'm not going to let that stop me its definitely inside me but i gotta keep going till i finally get there, I promised myself I would never see my friends & family again until I make it, so unless I keep focused, then i'll be trapped here I'm learning to like it here, there's family here I've never really actually met most of them here until I got here, basically living life... its not the same without my family and friends from California im ready to go, ready to see them, but not just yet I have a task to complete come Thursday I'll be ready.

Thursday & Friday (inadvance) Day 15:
These are going to be half days.. have a wedding to go to and can't avoid it obviously its family related wedding and they want me there and Im kinda like ehh I don't really want to go considering I dont even know him/her, but the cousin im living with said it would be disrespectful so i have to go.. So Unfortunately I cant meet up with gordon havent seen him for a bit, hopefully will see him on saturday I don't know yet I dropped him a message on skype we will see what happens. I haven't gotten anywhere as of yet in terms of poker but eventually i will get pass it and make a major break through.. anyways gonna post the flop equity in a bit. And Decided that I will be only doing 3 a day (instead of the 10 i said) So will post 15, more feels forced like im juts doing it juts cause i have to I think three is the perfect amount and when i do it everyday it will make me remember better instead of doing 10. And Will just be putting the three under my updates so it doesn't really clutter anything either. Thats about it for now

my eyes hurt, gl op

Hey thanks richard, Yeah its a bit long so thanks for reading atleast some and GL to you too =)

Saturday Day 16:
Today was a great day, I've been playing really solid and stopped the stupid spew i dont know how fancy play syndrome randomly woke up to me one day but Im glad i found out about it asap and put a stop to it, Still got a couple more hours to grind, meet up with gordon then sleep . I just hit the 7K mark, 200NL by the end of this month hopefully and maybe I can still hit the 12k mark if i go on a heater. If I dont its ok, i like where im at right now and where im going!

Heres three equity hands:
This one was quite interesting, hewas three betting me a ton (shortstacker) I had K9 and he had J10.
flop came AK2 (2spade) and he open jammed it was that either your way ahead or your way behind type of scenario. I decided to call anyways
he jammed 39$ into 19$ I juts dont know its real close, and I was never planning on folding a pair on the flop. This situation worked out and I had 77% equity, I think this is the type thats so close that either calling/folding on the flop is ok. Its pretty crazy how he had decent equity with just a q gutter and backdoor flush/two pair.

59 v 76,
one of those classic spots where the flop come 764 and c/r and people end up going broke too light this happen to be a small shortstacker so def understandable, but i think in general stack off too light in the wrong situations, equity here is 82%

K8s v A10
53910,
He had 34$, and ended up betting 9$ on the turn when checking the flop(i think i misplayed I should have never jammed as I think he may have stacked off with anything there I probably shoulda just folding my flushdraw on the turn because I no longer have the odds to draw as i didnt think he was bluffing that often and Jamming was bad). BAD bad bad play by me I was drawing to the spades + K outs so i had 25% equity. but def a misplay by me.

Cool thread OP but for the love of god, insert some indentations. The very sight of this Godzilla paragraph prevented my attempt to read it.

to KP24: if your still reading this you never messaged me back when are you free i can help you for an hour like we agreed

hey pokerjoe,
will keep that in mind and do that next time! sorry even though english is my first language, im not so good at it and thanks for reading i'm glad your enjoying it! If theres anything else let me know

heres my updated graph for now. I had one more but it doesn't work it tilted me so i just said w.e forget it because im about to finish the bonus anyways, and after that will add 3 or 4 more sites not sure yet.

http://imgur.com/6LI3f&y2wux#1

http://imgur.com/6LI3f&y2wux

Yeah, imachamp, please make the posts more readable for the eye.

Will give you some "how to post" coaching. ///


For those hardcore readers (you have to be hardcore" if u rly read all of this) , are you interested in watching the recorded videos of the sessions i have with ImaChamp (fwiw, in case you don't know, i'm his coach and creator of HU Mastermind) ?

If there is interest, we can set up something so you can follow the progress. Won't be fore free though since its to valuable to just "give it away".

also, pls learn to post graphs so ppl don't have to click on the link . There is a way to insert them.

Lol, I don't know how to do that im going to ask in the beginners question on how to actually insert the graph I always get it in link form, will show the new graph when i get an answer from them.

saturday day 17:
Still hoovering up and down the 7K mark, finally talked bankroll management completely with gordon have something to look forward to each time and basically getting to my head now that moving down may have to happen, and I just have to be in complete control, because JUST one time of messing up "tilt" can just completely own my soul, but im preparing for it and will have a stoploss when shot taking and im going to be extremely selective like i said i would be.
a4d v KJ

KQ2 board, it wasnt a three bet pot, but we've had some leveling game going on and raising and c/ring etc. it didn't look like hewas really bluffing here but this is a gamble regardless, my equity v kj was surprisingly a bit better then i thought 42.5% i thought it was somewhere in the 34% region.

77 v 58
74106

of course were both going broke here everytime, but still even though there nutted were still drawing to tons of outs and have 22.5% on the turn
and on the flop we have 35% equity which is pretty damn good.

k3 v k10d

k38dd board
on the flop its a 53% v 47% with K10 actually being the favorite, although we happen to get it in on the turn and the equity is
still barely 65% v 35% with k3 being a favorite.

Monday day 18:
I need 6 more buy ins still before I can move up, so close but yet its been a hard ride trying to get there, but eventually it will happen. Not much else to say, been pretty action-free today. Im not sitting on 50$ tables and just sitting on the 100$ tables as im so close to moving up anyways, also i only have two sites that im currently playing on right now as I'm waiting for the support to confirm the bonus so i can finally withdrawal from my ongame account. Probably gonna split my funds to pokerstars & 888poker don't know yet.

Equity:

K3 v AQ
784
I 4bet the shortstacker and was snapping any flop, but AQ v K3 live cards is 73% v 27% somewhat of a standard spot.

QJ V 34dd

3Q2dd board its nearly a flip with QJ being a slight underdog, its not really too standard of a spot and you can go both ways of calling v raising although was a 3 bet pot.

A9 v a6

102A5board, the guy never folded to a 3 bet i did it for value but he ended up shoving the turn about 35$ more, it was a really close spot but he also never folding to a flop cbet, so i could see him jamming any 10X, KJ, club draws etc, wasnt really sure. anyways my equity versus a6 was 86% favorite

Tuesday Day 19:
So hard to get action b/c I only had partypoker&william hill but im so close to moving up I need 5 more BIs, will patiently be waiting . Will keep waiting basically I am now avoiding 50NL but moved around sites and waiting to fix one of the sites stupid 888poker HUD doesn't work its a global thing and im waiting for the patch to come. So will be playing on 3 sites for now and obv. after i get that loaded I will have 4 sites that I will be playing on which would be awesome, and hopefully get a decent amount of action and will wait a while before I split my roll some more because i want it to be pretty healthy in every site I think for now I will be happy with playing on 4 sites. I plan on moving to another ongame site in the future(even though they really tilt me with there essence rake), stanjames(mainly anon tables will move there when i become one of the best regs), and full tilt poker.

Equity hands
AJ V QJ

flop KQ3
27% V 73%

I really owned myself right here, I raised 15 he had a 45 stack I shoulda raised it to 20, dont know if he woulda folded but on the flop there was 30 in the pot he had 30 left behind, now i was thinking about jamming or checking, i know v anything im crushed like that very percentage, but theres a chance he could fold etc, now im going to do the math It gets really close he has to fold half the time to make it instantly profitable and people miss the flop 63% of the time and there is a chance i could fold under pairs like 1010-44, so now that i look back at it I think it is still a jam.

88 V J10h

224hh

standard flip where you go broke everytime, with 88 being a 51.3% favorite.


109 v j7dd

1087dd, in a 3 bet pot
this is one of those boards where your kinda happy getting in the 109 but your kinda not, when he raises your cbet to a weird sizing where it look like he'll stack off its almost always a draw, but i think your almost always flipping and 109 is the one being the slight favorite 51.9%

Why you dont play in pokerstars? You will have much action there

yep just added pokerstars today, can only open 1 table unless you sit in on regs. :P. I don't mind that although it kinda sucks though cause i don't have a lot of funds on there, and only action ive gotten is against solid regs which means its possible for me to go busto on there.

Thursday Day 20
Hey everybody whats going on, had a massive headache today yesterday was my cousins birthday I ended up drinking a bit too much but i still played 6 hours. November is coming to an end very soon I felt like i met most goals except the 12k mark which is OK(i dont mind). Im very proud of how far i've gotten but now im not going to talk about earnings instead of what I can do (like hours I can play/amount I can study just things among those lines).
I will still be updating this blog everyday.

hands

42cc V AJ
So loose of a 3bet call from me but the turn got really interesting
A745(2diamonds/club)
I ended up shoving the turn not because I think he was bluffing, i always thought he had something of value but was hoping to charge his draws/w.e and maybe get a 6 to fold and i had lots of equity (i never planned to fold an A, my equity against AJ was 38.6% still which is great) considering a lot can fold but either way dumb call by me but as played standard

AK V 66
525 board,
4 Bet pot In this board, to a guy who can probably just jam anything I think my equity is great considering im nearly commited i may even be ahead, either that or i was expecting to be 66-99, against that i have 24% which is ok, I guess I coulda checked behind but i bet for value and as played i think its a standard stackoff.

JK V 109d
J845dd
I ended up cbetting the flop (is a 3 bet pot) and turning a flush draw so I over bet it which is so dumb of me as i made my hand almost face up he had 38$ left behind and there was already 25$ in the pot I shoulda just made it 18+stack off anyways, as he would jam the turn anyways but just something to keep in mind for next time cause theres a chance he could just call in a different scenario and i get a free river n give up on it as the stacksizes get so awkward anyways.

Friday day 21:
Last day of November, going to review over all my goals and see how it turned out!

November Goals:
Have a 12K Bankroll (fail, next month im not going to be putting this I think this forced me to do more dumb things and become a loss chaser)

Be a 200NL REG by the end of November (Barely made it and could play 200NL which is still a great accomplishment)

Find Myself (Kinda, I have an idea of what i want to do in the future, two things one is a business, and in the VERY far future something where I will help the world out what exactly I don't know yet. I realized I really get a thrill out of helping people I know and people I don't even know, because i feel this society is so cruel and people are willing to leave people behind, and I just want to help improve the world before I leave like my "mark". in Cambodia I've been trying my best to improve my life, I've been strugglingI couldnt even afford clothes to wear, somedays I would only eat eggs cause I had no money, its been tough but everything is getting better and now that it is, im trying to improve my cousins life/his friends life by teaching him new things, and helping him find a way to also make money they barely get by they make (30$ us/month and they have to spend like 150$/month for a whatever type of lifestyle so tehy have to get money from there parents and other things) for that reason im teaching one of my cousins poker on my free time and hopefully he can get out of this hell hole and really enjoy life.

Go out somewhere fun every wednesday (Yep going to wedding/doing things on my free time such as watching supernatural, going out to eat)

u r a champion! and truly dedicated, i'm sure you'll crush your way to the top! gl

Hey toddythegoddy, Thanks so much for that its hard to stay dedicated all the time, but I try my best I hope you get to wherever you want to get to! GL

Its a start of a new month and a month where I can finally start from the very first day! Going to do different goals, instead of targeting money, the money should come naturally if I do everything else good. I plan on having a set schedule of hours I play but I have to start after december 11th, I dont get any money until december 6th from the bank I have 0$ in person and have had no money for the longest because the bank takes forever. But have a birthday party to go to at december 9th so i know that will be a long party :P ANYWAYS starting december 11th I will be having a set schedule that I will follow from now on:

December 1st Saturday:

The Schedule will look like this:
Wake up 6:30am (shower)
7AM- Breakfast
8Am-12 Poker(will probably do breaks in between when theres no action)
12-1 Lunch
1-6 Poker (will probably do breaks in between when theres no action)
6-7 Dinner
7-10 (MAYBE poker its whatever if i feel like it or not, movie, etc.)

Goals:
Follow this Schedule
180 Hours of Poker (MINIMAL)
Go out EVERY WEDNESDAY

Going to stop the equity thing because i think it doesnt help as much as i thought it would, and talk with gordon about something else that i have in mind of doing

December 2nd Sunday:

Well its time to drop back down to 100NL It was a nice try but I ran awfully bad and I think i played a bit bad too.. I was a bit loss, I think i ****ed up too I had pretty much played until I had to drop down.. I shoulda just stopped but lost a flip, made a bad bluff, just he had me every single way I just got owned massively. I really meesed up this time I decided I was going to play him till I had to drop down really bad of me, but gonna work at it on my own and get back to 200NL. Gotta shower & relax for a bit. But From now on all I know is that I will not play any competent regs even if I feel like im better then them ever until im comfortably rolled.

Decided myself, that I'm going to play only 100NL w/o looking at results no matter what until December 10th, I will just keep grinding and focusing instead of being so results oriented that 200NL shot fail ****ed my mind, and now I need to get my focus back so I will be posting daily results and everything But will only be staying at 100NL. this is a test of my discipline, and I must follow through with it, I will only be recording the amount of hours I've been playing. so everything will be better recorded in the long run (will still be getting the coaching with Gordon) I feel this is good for me and im pretty pumped for it.

I mean i still only need like 10 bi or w.e to take another shot at 200NL, so if i surpass it by december 10th then you know thats good for me!

My december 3 goal til the 10th:
Play 8 Hours MINIMAL everyday.
Don't Look at the Results
Stay Calm Don't Tilt And Inject Logic
Don't Spew/Level Yourself (Some players make me level myself a lot becasue its a raise testing type of game) Im just going to try to avoid it, and only pick good spots.

Post on 2+2 talking about:
if I felt a little tilt
if I met the 8 hour requirement
if i looked at my results
etc.

GL all

Interesting read. I've always wanted to grind up through the levels playing HU, but it's about impossible to get enough action for that in the US right now. Long live freerom!

From your previous post: I wouldn't stop playing regs entirely because being a reg doesn't make you good. Reg or not, always be aware when you are over matched, or someone just has your number that day. No shame in quitting, although it sure does hurt the ego sometimes.

BTW, good job indenting your paragraphs. My eyes are burning after reading through this whole thing in 1 sitting. GLGLGL, you're doing gr8!

Hey thx for reading! ) lol i can't believe you ended up reading the whole thing.
Im sure youre the first one.

Seriously the Us needs to get there **** straight i miss cali ahha.

Uhh and no I'm not quitting regs entirely in fact in 100NL I will be playing whoever gives me action. I'm just talking about when moving up. I messed up by playing a mediocre reg when shot taking, he just happen to run hotter then the sun and he got a bit better spots which is whatever. Basically when i get back to 200NL (I'm not going to play regs unless im comfortably rolled to stay in 200NL).

So like when I have 5 Buy-Ins that I could shot take at 200NL I will be playing no regs (because I don't want to drop back down and work forever to get back here when It would be better if I bumhunt till i'm rolled). I'm not proud to bumhunt, and would much rather play anyone by the end of this year I hope to be able to play anyone at 200NL.

When I have like 15 Buy-Ins then ill play anybody and 3 Buy-In stoploss.