Hey guys, thought I would make a thread. After my bi yearly blowup I am in the worst position of my life.

I have been a profitable poker player for over a decade but depression and gambling addiction have pretty much ruined my life. Due to some family issues and personal ones I have used it as an excuse to blast off my bankroll many times and never hold myself accountable.

Right now I have about 145k in debt after my most recent spaz. Earlier today I got a call about someone I know going in for their third cancer surgery and it got me thinking about my life and how disappointed I would be with how my life turned out if a died tomorrow.

So with that said I am giving it one last shot before I quit poker and move on to something else.

My risk of ruin is extremely high with only 3 buy ins and I am okay with that. If it wasnt meant to be than I am going to move on to something else. Either way I want to be happy for once.



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So last night was interesting, I came very close to busting. I have never actually had the plan to quit poker before and meant it until yesterday. I got in KK vs AK in my first orbit and A was window card. A few hands later I got in KK vs AA against the same player and lost that one as well.

Down to my last bullet was a very weird feeling, almost resigned to my fate and okay with it. Knowing a toss or set over set and my poker career is over. The table talk at 1/2 kills me, its mind numbing but you have ton do what you have to do.

A few hours later after being down as low as 135 dollars I had around a 340 dollar stack while being in for 690.

UTG raises to 15 and MP calls. I have AA on the button and raise to 65 initial raise calls and MP folds effective stacks 340.

Flop 246 with two diamonds and I have the Ad. UTG has been relatively active but appears to limp small pairs, he also has been opening to 12 mostly so I am pretty sure he has 99 to JJ or AK AQ...def no sets and even though I am blocking his A high hands I think he has AK a lot of the time based on the sizing and call pre.

Pot 145 and I have 280 behind.

He checks to me and I down bet 40 dollars. This guy had been playing super slow all night and just basically insta calls.

Turn off suit 3 and he thinks for a while and bets 100. Not really worried at all about this card. Think for a bit and call to keep his bluffs in. Riv 4 no flush and he puts me all in after some thought. I snap and he says I win, I decide not to be an ass and just roll my aces. As he is folding I see the Ah in his hand so I think my flop sizing got him to spaz with no pair.

People ar 1 2 are so scared of getting their aces cracked they are just bombing flops.

Anywho I chased out 701 dollars and made 11 bucks for the night. Total bankroll now 708 dollars.

Obviously none of you know me and I have left details bit vague but I am going to be the best player in pretty much every game I sit in at these low levels. I hope variance lets me win a few all ins tonight.

Playing a low variance style compared to my usual LAG is also very boring, hope I can get to 2k instead so I have wiggle room and play a more fun style while making a better hourly.

Back at it on a few hours with a high risk of bust once again!

good luck man, what games have you played most of your 10 year poker career. is live cash your main game always? thanks for the updates

gl bro. Hope you rally hardcore and get back to a fighting roll. 3 bullets is cutting it pretty close...but you know that. If your going to make a last stand go down swinging. Hope you dont quit the game tho, no matter what.

stop gambling.

Nobody uses the term "down bet" in NLHE here in 2020 lol.

I do. This seems to be standard language, along with “size down.”