Hi everyone,
Beginning of a new year and I'd figure I'd make a thread to keep track of things and stay motivated.
Long story short, I've been an off and on again zoom grinder since pretty much it became a thing. I'm a good winner across micro zoom poole's but mental issues always seem to prevent me from progressing further. I've played online in the manner of wanting to improve and learn the game around 12 yrs.
I'll stagnate at a certain limit when I have should have moved up a long time before that and when I do start approaching low stakes I get too emotional and upset at the monetary swings and just end up quitting due to tilt. This has been the story for me since forever.
Burnout is a massive problem also, I subjected myself to clearing two 800 buck RB challenges at micro zoom over 6 weeks at the end of 2020 and it really wrecked me. They offered me another for January but it's simply not worth that type of pressure.
Well what am I going to do differently this time. I've decided to quit zoom and go on the reg table grind solely. A buddy of mine suggested somewhere to play and I feel very comfortable there. I've bought a GTO solver and some other useful tools mainly for preflop. I've bought some basic gym equipment like a bike and weights to do some workout at home.
Personally things could be better but I'm not mega depressed or anything. Cognitively I feel pretty good but I suffer from bad anxiety + low self-esteem which can definitely manifest itself into my poker game. I find exercise helps a lot as does keeping a somewhat decent sleep schedule. One leak I know I got is I can be somewhat stubborn and aggressive at times when it comes to strategy, this is purely down to ego I think, and it's something I need to improve on upon if I do eventually join a studying group.
I'll be starting at 20nl. I have a decent BR behind me but I want to get used to the reg table grind again, a fairly quick transition onto 50nl if I can and get comfortable there and work on my strategy + mental game for at least a couple months. The goal after that would to be obviously move to 100nl and join a CFP group. The strategy side would be great of course but I think there's a lot more they can offer like emotional and life support with personal diaries and goals etc.
I know for certain what I've been doing over the years doesn't work long term now. It's time to change things up and move in a new direction. It's motivating for me to see buddies who I met through poker jump from micro zoom to midstakes + cash and I'm going to try my best to do the same. That's the long term goal.
I'll update fairly frequently with hands and what not!
Goals for January
* 10 hours of study per week with solver and studying preflop strategy
* 40k hands at 20nl cash reg tables, I'm not sure what the exact numbers are but I'm looking to play 4-6 tables 4 hours a day
* Exercise, even if it's only a few KM on my bike everyday
* Eat decently, junk food's never been a massive problem but I eat too much bread etc
* No drink binging, it rots my motivation and brain
GL to everyone playing ze pokers in 2021!
Last edited by nuxxx; 01-01-2021 at 10:18 PM.