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Originally Posted by acbarone
Off today, starting up early tomorrow for the big Sunday grind. It'll be Day 92 and I need a little over $6k to take it home.
Won't sugar coat it, the past few days have been brutal. The $$ lost isn't significant, more about the way in which it's been lost. One of the days I seemingly couldn't build any stacks, the next I built tons only to fizzle out before the money. Emotional toll >> Financial losses.
Perhaps the fact that I'm in the end stages of the 100 days/$100ks Challenge is wearing on me, knowing that I only have X amount of days left does add some pressure to the grind. The ironic thing is that I know it's an arbitrary number and ultimately meaningless -- if I get there, it doesn't mean I'm an end boss and if I fall a few thousand dollars short, it doesn't mean I'm a complete and utter failure. But still.
The support I've rec'd from my Twitch community has been great. It's the internet so there will always be a couple of "You run so good" and "When is the hot tub stream" trolls but for the most part the chat helps keep my spirits up. Seeing people spam the emotes makes me laugh, there's fun on/off topic discussion, and anytime I have a sweat/deep ish run it's like I've got a team of e-cheerleaders behind me.
Still have 6 days left to complete the challenge and I'm around $92k ish so definitely within striking distance. Going to spend some time tonight reviewing today's deep run which ended with me saying "Must be nice to be a ****ing clown" after I busted 4th. Clearly, not in the greatest of moods.
On one hand I'm mildly embarrassed that I let that much emotion out, on the other it's real/genuine and perhaps letting people seeing the 'lows' isn't a bad thing -- Can help them realize how mentally taxing the game can be at times and make it more impressive when I ultimately come through the other side. Orrrrr it's just another reg, whining about variance. Everyone is free to decide for themselves.
Back tomorrow, bright and early.