Yes, most def it was OOL play on later streets ( flop might be fine ) and reason why it's posted is so that I can staph doing it

Ayyyyy did somebody say free beer???

Hahaahahahah party started already?

I ll go for Guiness tyvm!

Finally catching some heat :



Altough big $ev flips neva flip on my side , around 2k difference in this one :/ https://www.boomplayer.com/26743290_F6AA02D541

Everything is cool obv, I was riding on the 20bb stack whole FT,mostly because of carddeadness and them being hyper aggro. Sometimes best adjustments vs hyper aggro guys is being carddead (lmao) and pickup free chips via reshoving pretty wide even on PKO since guys are opening K2o CO etc. Also I hate flipping for HUs since I play them reaaally good and like to grind them ( 40/20 1st/2nd places via p5s ). Villain played really solid so I had to take it vs him. Dunno what I'm talking about actually since it's super standard play/spot

I went bananas with number of tables today and it was kind of fml session as I went too far, but I wanted to see what would happen and how would I react as I'm still trying to figure out most desirable grinding route in terms of when should I start/finish and how many tables should I run. Had 24 running at one moment and that wasnt great/was aweful. I missed spots and it was really exhausting for couple of hours so I'll cap it to 15-16 and latereg biggest fields/smallest buyins. Had a biiig brick also:



Reshoved 99 vs CL who was opening atc atm and run into JJ. Overall happy how I've played but will review this deep tommorow.

Wont complain about running obv a lot of rungood needed for this type of donkament,but what was very tilting is that this tool didnt wanted to chop when we were even and he's aweful, but std 1k EV spot :



Taking off tommorow, see ya on Sunday guys

Great results lately. Keep it coming

Was hoping for it on sunday but sundays are worst days to play MTTs on I swear. I think if I havent played sundays for the last year I would have 30k more profit on abi 25, altough I'm aware that one that plays 70 mtts every sunday should actually bink something once in a while. However that wasnt the case with me I can't get the numbers as a lot of my tourneys on SS reports as monday ones due to finishing time but I really think my estimate is pretty solid profit wise...

So, another sad sunday. Since I felt a little bit of heat in sessions before this one I went a little bit off with buyins but again was very unlucky in deepruns. I want to say that my new approach about table count is really likable for now. My evBB/100 is aweful overall but idc actually since when I get any type of deeprun i play it really good and focus on it much more than the others. This way, by playing 70+ for a session I get a loooooot more deepruns and I think playing those really well and exploiting every little thing there has much higher EV than making every single turn bet right on 11$ tourney on bb50. I mean ppl are making so much mistakes that you can build stacks almost unconsciously. So i stopped caring much about first phases, I think the key is to NOT punt any stack early and crush em late, you just have to get enough deeps.

Sunday million is most easy tourney there is, esp these special ones but couldnt do much about it on really soft table :
https://www.boomplayer.com/26781836_9E05E9862E

Side fun fact, there was some 500eu tournament in Belgrade this weekend, and I just got info that they chopped it 18 players left ????????? That being said i'm really sad that I missed it, didnt wanted to play it since I got some online heat but 18 left chop means it was soft AAAAAAF.

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As for the lifestyle goes for now, I managed to do 3 workouts and I have semi serious muscle inflammation now so that feels pretty good I will keep doing it, yesterday I did it before the session and I was dying for half an hour but I had really good focus on decisions and was feeling great while playing actually, I would guess because of it. I was reading a long time about ppl training before sessions and I was always like ' but I would get exhausted faster and need the rest' and Im glad that obv isnt the case. Will try that again today.

I'm eating somewhat better. Have started to mix in some oatmeal, water and xx different fruits both frozen and fresh and eat it and flavour is fine + it holds me for couple of hours and it can be eated in almost unlimited amounts altough i'll limit myself. I fked up last night and ate some sandwich @4am and that was because I bricked Sunday but next time I ll eat banana and go out for a walk... Those ***** Sundays tilt me so much

I aint smoking while playing altough I have 1 cheat cigg if pressure is too high. I have Saturday cheat day, I used it to smoke weed watch soccer and eat bad but in pretty disciplined amounts.

Cavs EAD, Celtics/Rockets are for real and Ozil is biiig ******* in FPL, will be transfering him out for Mkhtaryan.

Fruits and water are the nuts to keep u going during session.

Although i got rekt so many Sundays, i had some decent binks in the past so i guess its just another day.

Been really contemplating if it HAS to be EVERY Sunday that i sit down and grind. As many times in the past I wanted to do sth else instead and just replace it with a week-day. Still thinking about that..

Cheers bro keep fighting!

Can you write your fpl team? never played fpl and i dont know the rules but i assume it is goals/assists. Issue with Ozil is that he is extremely team player and he even setting up players to take assists. I would prefer more Mikhy on Arsenal if you had to choose one of them

If you can write briefly how fpl is played i might find a better pick as i am watching most games in EPL

I'm just to used to that Sunday grind but I don't find it being super profitabile, it's pbb just 3x variance than the other days since fields are 3x bigger

I agree, Ozil is always passing to assists and I was watching it vs Everton and was mad AF, they get like 5 goals - he was involved in 2-3 but no FPL stats I've started playing FPL because I really like PL but I was finding tough to watch games without betting on them ( old habbits die hard ) and was obv punting too much money on it since bookmakers edge on those topX league games is really absurd/odds are really bad. It's pretty fun, have few winner take all leagues and few point differentials on the end of the season side bets and it's been a lot of fun for me, so if I were you I would hop in on it next season. There are many things to considerate there beyond just purely watching it ( you have just 1 free transfer for 1 gameweek and have to consider your budget and what not ) so picking up a player or smt like that wouldnt make much sense if you dont know player prices in the FPL etc. This is how my team looks like atm



I have some issues in my team obv but I like how it looks like. Have sold Kane and Salah few weeks ago so I could gain some edge over everyone that has it / was hoping they will maybe underperform, obv it was big gamble and it turned out not to be so bright move but I like gambooool

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As for the poker goes, had brick session last night but I'm really glad with my volume. 30k hands/320 tournaments from Jan 31st sounds good, ev/BB sitting at 8 so I guess I'm not that bad with mass multitabling. I always had bigger ev/BB but avg 500 tourneys/month last year is really poor volumewise and that I gotta change, I guess 1k+/month is pretty easy with this type of grind, 3 sessions per week can do it but I ll try to play every possible second in February as there arent many RL interesting things going out right now. I want to put myself 100% at this and see what will happen, no more procrastrinating!

Again I played solid session, made stacks, played really good, focus was great. Excersises before sessions do miracles to my mindset.



Bricked everything in deeps and had one 5eu donkament on Winamax left with solid stack. Soft AF, no traces of any regs left, this was FT bubble 3.5k up top :

I wouldnt have sold Kane. Everyone is playing for Kane to score. Pep was right refering to Tottenham as Harry Kane team. Salah is also a player who is quite an individual. I dont know the rules of fantasy but i would never pick an Arsenal or Liverpool defender

Is there any site where they have week to week fantasy?

So frustrating runout...i mean ffs!!

keep the heat up! really sad story about 5e tour yesterday but the results keep on coming, time to ship big bro

Also, fruit and water indeed keep you fresh all the time during the session

Best of luck at the tables GL, subbed

P.S. made the account finally after lurking for quite some time just to post here! <3

I agree with Arsenal/Liverpool defenders put the problem is MUFC/Chelsea/City defenders are really expensive ( like chelsea ones are priced like Zaha or smt like that ) so I dont use much $$ on my defense. Having Arsenal defender is much better than Brighton one for not much more money. I'm was running out of options since guys that i have sidebets with had Kane/Salah/Hazard ( I mean 5 good players same ) so no edge was possible or some crazy rungood, so this way I have chance to getting em up. Btw this is my first season in which I've missed maybe one gameweek to set up the team, few times I f ked up big time where I was sitting in the 1st place and then missing to pick up the team on NYE games (3 gameweeks for 1 week ) since I was drunk and drugged somewhere.

As for your question, pbb something like https://draftfantasyfootball.co.uk where u make a league with someone u want and every week there is draft going out.

Ye, but whatchu gonna dooo. Been running really bad in these spots my whole life I guess so why would that change ever It just hurts less now..

Welcomeee brotheeeeeeeer

I was in bad place in January poker/lifewise but now Im really motivated and I play really well so I guess that big score could happen pretty soon but IDGAF about it, if it happens it happens. Plan is to show up every possible day and grind the best I can and hopefully something good gets out of it..

Yesterday and today 2 brick city days, altough again there were a lot of stacks and deepruns. Another day of crazy grinding, another same deeprun s.h.i.t run

https://www.boomplayer.com/26840480_390D2A15AF
https://www.boomplayer.com/26840482_1BF2A13DB6
and obv
https://www.boomplayer.com/26840597_5AB34E5CA5

3rd aces should be explo check otf pbb but fml really, out KJ<TT, it's really insane how many times I get AA/KK in deeps and get walk and for how long I can't win that 1 flip that can get me in 50bb zone on soft turnies with solid 3k+ 1st prizes. Playing A game whole month, never played better in my life, very stable, very good in choosing spots etc,and it still won't let me win ANYTHING.

I fear for myself since I started to love this downswing grind a little bit. It's probably the fact that I'm feeling veeeeeryyyyyy comfortable everywhere and Im making historicly smallest number of mistakes while playing. Few things needs some fixing, standard leaks like autonotcbetting some turns while they're very good/very bad for ours/villains range and autochecking turns when villain cbetted flop and there is possibilty of having a donking range there. Esp hate when this happens in 3b pots vs regs.

Have played 450+ tournaments this month/40k hands/evBB 10 and will keep this up, this will pbb be best ever month volume/focus wise if something radical doesn't occur. Finally qualified for WMX Million week day2 on Monday with 30 biggies so I'll be playing Sunday/Monday again but I think I can handle it. Feeled a little bit tired today, but I haven't slept very well because of the reasons that are unknown. My life rhytm is now completly adjusted on these sessions. I wake up around 4pm and do cleaning/excersies almost every day, surely every second And I'm completly fine with missing social life things since most of them are autodestructive, and people around me are in most of the cases pretty miserable moodwise and I dont want that negativiness floating trough my head since I'm already semimiserable because of the downswing, and on the other hand i reallyyyyyy love the grind atm and dont want to disrupt that by any means. Plan is to do this for few months and then go wherever on the summer for a looong vacation.

I really don't know what I was ranting about and I believe english is terrible but IDGAF, everything just went off, my eyes are almost closed, off to bed. Tommorow is Premier League/weed/mb some gf day, looking forward to doing nothing. Will update on Monday with some binkzzzz screenshots. GL

500 profit for Sunday. Wow. Have played from 6pm to 9am.

Unfortunatly, I had 5 or 6 FT bubbles. Had 70bb on 100eu XTREM 10k up top on winamax 16 left but aweful structure and one really poorly played hand and that was it. I again felt decent amount of pressure when I was there and that caused some fast decisions and I wont be loading those anymore, but plan is not to play Sunday anymore.

Poorly played hand vs very good regular. I'm actually not sure about turn play whether should I call or fold but I gotta bluff river here for sure vs his TT JJ QQ AQ etc. Problem was that there was a long time since I played for 10k first and was so close and pressure kept piling, I was disgusted with river card and just snapchecked and obv after 3 seconds I realised it's veeery good card for me to bluff on since he would for sure fire a 3rd barrel with KK AA and AK and I dont have any showdown value + it's probably one of the worst hands I can have there:




Had one hand that vs same regular in which I was unsure about betting river since I was in contra-rhytm, my heart told me to check and had bad feeling about it but i made a good bet (??) :




Cashed for 700 and continued playing. Had smt deep on .es and made stacks in bb55 and bigger33 so I continued registering on stars, fired up BB162, collected few bounties then went on 2 hours without hole cards practicly and busted 30th or smt like that like this obv: https://www.boomplayer.com/26867256_FF23A3693D

While I was having bb162 solid stack I registered some turbos and bigger27, managed to be a ft bubble on bigger27 and I cant remember many hands but i believe I didnt played optimal since it was 7:30am and I was lying in my bed and played on cellphone unfortunatly, my back was killing me. Plan was to stand up if I make the ft but that didn't happen

So veeeeeryyyy exhausting Sunday and I am overall unhappy with the level of my play and like always worst sessions I play I play on Sundays in terms of not making mistakes etc, so I ll be off to grind without Sunday. Also I'll shut down stars completly for the month just to see if my winrates on wmx and .es go skyup. I have around 50 very gooood comps from 19-01h 5-50 and altough 1k tourneys for month pbb wont be good I just dont see point anymore of playing all those 2k+ enterants fields. If I was playing higher stakes/off peak it could make some sense to keep playing PS but in this scenario it's just draining my focus/ev.

I have that million week on wmx day2 with 30 biggies so I ll be playing tonight. Also made good stack on some mini main event on wmx for tommorow so I gotta play tommorow which I really dont like but whatever... Will take 2+ days off after this. Cheers

gl bud, stars can be a *****

Do you mean $ wr or ev bb? Stars is very soft on Sundays from the research i have done. In theory your ev bb should skyrocket. Moniez is a different subject though

Why are you thinking to drop Sundays? Gl grinding today

No comment on stars really, I mean I leave an clear possibility that I'm bad but I'm 100000% positive that I can at least beat abi 15 with at least ROI of 20%+. I mean I had few coaches/friends that play/crush abi50-150 reviewing my db and telling me to play everything to 55 regspeed and bb109 SM WU etc, I have numerous number of winning players both MTT and CG discussing hands and strat with me every day and appreciating my advices etc... I know sometimes I tilt/make wrong decisions but it's really not that common thing, it only happens when I'm unused (100+ deepruns for example, so I ll leave them out for time being) to smt about the tournament,like being overly aggresive in tough fields as my brain wants to show off to a lot of winning players but 4/5 times that's not the case, however it didnt affected almost at all my bottom line on stars as I very rarely play 55+ comps there.

As for the Sundays, I'm not sure about correct numbers as SS doesnt
include all Sunday scores in Sunday / some of the them finish on Monday and HM2 is completly unreliable for tournament scores but basicly I think I'm down like 15k on sundays in the last 12 months or so, every other day being profitable.

So,the games ARE easier, that's true,sure thing, but fields are 3x+ size so variance is insaaane on lower buyins. I guess avg field size of 3k+ is very fked up thing. I always want to play as I'm degen/shottaker and still wanna see that liferun timbey happen, but right now I have wmx+ps.es and realistic ROI of 40+ on every under 50eu tournament and Im gonna grind it out there. Maybe adding few stars after 10pm things/turbos/sngs if needed but I cant bear with so much variance in those peak tournaments no more. I really dont like playing on party, typing notes on players is like Jigsaw puzzle when I have more than 10 tables running + it's simply too ugly and there are other softer euro sites.

I figuered out lately that my biggest issue is inability to stay focused for 10 hours+ sessions which is obv very tough to accomplish by itself. Most likely everything would be better if I had healthier habbits as solid and healthy body means solid and healthy brain and for sure higher durability / less fatigue ie, but I find very hard to change my life habbits when I'm almost broke and every day off right now looks like missed chance to make money.

Btw todays session was aweful, busted that Million week in 3 hands and then spewed a lot. I'm totally unfresh and I hate todays grind as I finished Sunday session on Monday 9am, woke up @18:30, went out to buy some fruit, water and stuff and hopped in without any routines done. I am in desperate need of taking few days off,and as I dont have money to go on skiing or smt like that I ll pbb go to my village house for a couple of days to chill with ma dawg and train a lil bit after tommorow grind as I have another 2day 15eu tourney D Maybe I ll go tommorow and one table it there or smt like that.


NOT RELATED TO POKER:
How things change absuredly fast. I have some type of code in which I never loan the money that I cant gift. I always had money and when I didn't, I knew how to make it from nothing, that goes back from elementary school, but I never liked money as it is, I just liked the things that it can be bought with it, comfort, etc.

Whenever someone needed money I was always ''Sure thing, here you go, dont sweat it'' but obv some 'friends' were abusing that and on multiple occasions I was left shorthanded so I implemented that 'dont borrow if it isnt a gift' type of thing, obv without them knowing about the gift part, with excluding ones that dont respect the terms for the next loan/excluding them from my life if they're that unaccountable .

That being said, in last 12 months I've loaned decent amount of money to a couple of very good friends which were in trouble but my additude ( I have money relax here you go ) + the fact that I really wasnt concerned at all about my own well being at the time is made them acknowledging like 'He has money' type of additude and oh boy oh boy I HATE THAT ADDITUDE. It's simply W.R.O.N.G. and not related to the matter of ME loaning money to YOU. I mean terms were shakey, like i ll tell you when I need it like few months upfront and you get it for me then, sure thing. In december I told em so but it won't happen any time soon so FUUUUUUU. Just needed to get this out of my system, I really wouldnt care at all if it isnt really substantial thing to me right now and when I was borrowing it I was sure it would never became an substantial thing, so everything above is 100% my fault but it's really annoying curently.

Funfact: I was reinstalling my Windows few months ago and I forgot to put my LOANS notepad file in the backup folder so I deleted it. Dont know 60% of the details



I have 2 timbeys running atm, will do my best to play A game and post a winning SS later.

I never lector myself so forgive me for terrible tenses.

EDIT. HOW THE F CAN I EMBED YOUTUBE LINK SO IT WORKS ??

This is your day by day analysis if you would like to take a look



Sunday+Monday you have played 1.2k tournaments which I dont think you can draw any conclusion

I use Party Caption for PP. I think you should definitely try the software and the site because the people are doing a really nice effort to compete with pokerstars and the fields are smaller. Keep in mind the ability factor at 55$+ is much higher than stars. I didnt do any research for lower stakes and I cant give you any insight. There are several posts about botting in PP, something to keep in mind aswell. I am not THAT worried but I always think about botters when I have 3 Russians, 1 Ukrainian and 2 UK players on my table as these are the most popular countries producing botters

I understand the feeling you have. I was in a very low point years ago. I have been there and it can get better if you try. Poker should be treated like professional athletes are treating their jobs

I cant have an opinion about your play but some hands I saw here I dont agree at all. Of course I am playing more pio based and I have no idea about pop tedencies. Your approach may be more optimal in some spots as you are playing MTTs long time. Most important is to observe your ev bb on different limits. Lately I saw a graph from a player with abi 90$ who he had a winrate of 7bb+ total but when I took a look at ev bb per stakes he had insane good ev at 20-40$ but he was barely winning at 109$+

It doesnt really mean anything if you have 20ev bb at 22$ and 2 ev bb at 109$. The conclusion is that you are doing good exploits in lower stakes that simply dont work at higher stakes. Of course what I am writing is a speculation and I am trying to help you or give you some more ideas what you should look into. I was thinking to drop stars aswell because I am biased and I hate the site but I think it will be a mistake

For the money part, you should never loan money. People are greety and disrespectful. There are very very few people worth mentioning that I met in my life and handled money situations in a decent manner. When you loan money you should consider the gesture as a charity or gift. That way you will be less dissapointed by people. I experienced the attitude of ''he has money'' several times and I feel disgusted when I hear that

For youtube: You have to put the link after the =



https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=iNOUJYtmyJo

iNOUJYtmyJo

Ty, gooood post. Hands that I am posting ITT are in 9/10 cases hands that I have played poorly for some reason, and I'm posting them so I can increase my selfawareness about those reasons.

So basicly I'm only posting those spews itt and you can't find out a lot about my game from it.

I have structured way of thinking about hands, when I'm in the spot in which I'm not sure what to do I'm 100% aware of it and I do my best to choose a line in which I can make none/small mistakes. I'm not into PIO as it really isn't best tool for me considering the fields that I play but I did some hours and did some strat based on PIO work. I have some struggles in my game in terms of not explo folding in some spots while I know that pop tendency is to never have a bluff in that spot and it usually happens in spots when my bet is on the thin side. I'm really good shortstacked, did a ton of work in hrc and icmizer but that's mostly because my stack is always crippled by some standard flip

The trouble happens mostly in situations when my brain just go off after X(X) hours of playing and I find myself clicking buttons without much interest (it usually last for couple of minutes or so) and when I sc.rew a hand or couple of hands in that brainstate I start to hate my grind fo real and it's really tough to get out of that negative state of mind. Thoughts like ''WTF ARE YOU DOING 6 HOURS TO SPEW IT NOW LIKE THIS YOU I.D.I.O.T'' etc and then I go on clicking on forums/news which actually isn't quite that bad as it looks since I really need some sort of pokerpause in those moments. I wait for a break, go out to take a cig and come back and really play my best. Also problematic thing is when that tilt part comes during the peak hours. It's an ugly format because of this, if I was playing cashgames I would for sure take a 15 20 30 minutes off and steam off. So I really don't tilt on bad beats ( that 82s tho tilted me obv ) but I tilt on my own mistakes. Funny thing is that I was playing really good poker without that tilting part this month whenever I did my routine, and when I failed to do it ( like yday/today ) everything goes south usually.

I'll write a little bit about my history and period of winning money while playing poker

@Stars, I wasnt playing stars at all basicly until the start of 2017th. I was mixing WMX, PS.FR and 888 and it looked like this:



At the beggining I was playing abi 7 as I was new to MTTs and at the last 2k of that graph abi around 20 ( like playing everything up to 50 ). So I was steady learner + played pretty soft fields, but after that 20k bink everything went crazy. Ok, I had decentish winners tilt period after it. And then PS.FR has 'banned' unfrench players so I started playing Stars/look for alternatives. Poor tournament selection + poor life habbits are the key for my struggles most likely. I mean, fields are tougher everywhere than back then but I am like 2 times better player than I was then, I KNOW THAT FOR A FACT. Back than also I had same tilt issues that I was talking about in paragraph up top and i'm pretty sure I advanced in terms of being able to shut it down faster. Anyway, I need to top up my tournament selection

But I dont know, lately there are sooo many these type hands in deepruns https://www.boomplayer.com/26876452_9E62A1BAB3 ... no info on the limper. Iso pre I dont like since he wont fold, that's the info I know. I mean why not once river pairs and I stack him... ***** fishes running crazy good vs me is the reason for errrrything (JK).

I had many hands like this in stars and i totally understand the frustration. Keep your head up, try to improve more and good things will come

Sup

I took 2 days off and last night got drunk pretty bad (or good?). I was veeery antisocial in last month or so so it really felt good to see some friends and hang out. Woke up at 10am with pretty nasty hangover, went to be social again and altough I wasnt at my best brainstate I fired up a small session.



Runned pretty good most of the time, had really big number of deepruns, ITMed every 50 tourney that I fired but again runned really poor when it mattered, lost every flip etc. It's still very frustrating to keep loosing hands like this (20 left) https://www.boomplayer.com/26913831_AABBE03D7A etc but it gotta turn around one day and I ll keep grinding.

Had Monsterstack 50 FT with 7 fishes but really aweful run of cards and some nasty icm spots 5 left, finished 4th for 1200 which is kind of good, session is in 1k green or so, altough it's very frustrating to not be able close so soft tournaments :/ I just couldnt hit any board.

This one I managed to fold and I'm glad I got it right as I'm not very used to ICM spots and not sure how to approach them when I'm playing with weak opponents that dont have a clue about it :







Few hands later this one occured and HRC says it's slightly profitable which again I'm not sure if I should take such small edge (88/AQo are borderline green for GII) on such soft field:





Anyway, as I played session hangovered I'm glad I managed to make some money, and every time I wanna skip Sunday I manage to win prior session so I really wanna test this run so see ya on Sunday

Another Sunday sh.it show session. I went a little bit over my head with buyins and finally my brain understood that playing abi20 and firing some 100s+ isn't good for overall buyin strategy as I wont ever get good enough sample for them and when I look the greater picture I'm just putting my whole small/middle stakes winnings in jeopardy. I'm down 12k for last 12m on around 300 100s+ and obv this isnt an sample but it's just too big of a gap between buyins.

- NO MORE 100s+. NOT EVEN ONE. (Specials/Series not included)


Spent some time in HRC checking some preflop spots, I dont do this much often as I'm very confident about my <25bb game and I got it good like 19/20 so I'm glad that was cool.

I've posted in a thread of another MTT player who pointed out on having some similar struggles as I do and he posted this response, which I think is 100% on point :

Anyway, I'll adapt my buyins properly and will see what will happen. I really hate that I get in some weird gambley state of mind in which I'm positive that I'll bink this one MTT (LOL) and totally forget about the greater picture. This doesnt occur often but like once in a month I just decide to play a session and like 60 of my tournaments are 900$ and then 5 more that I decide to run are 600$. This strategy is aweful and I'll get it fixed.

- RELAX ON SUNDAY. MAKE A FAMILY LUNCH OR SOMETHING, DO NOT PLAY. (until end of the March)

I was speaking about this but I have some crazy expectations about every Sunday session. It's like I play every other session very good and the way that I feel on the Sundays is like there are reflectors on every table and I feel some type of pressure. Going bananas with buyins also isn't helping to relieve me off pressure and altough when reviewing I cant find big leaks/spews/whatever I'm too much burnt out after/during it that I ll just keep it out for some time. It doesnt reflect good on my mental health. Steady grind 4 days a week without sunday can do it.

See ya tonight after session with some binkzz piczz