GL brotha. I've accepted the O8 overlords as well. Wish I could still play on loldog but can't while I'm in Korea. Can only imagine the puntery in O8 mtts lol.

It has been quite awhile since I have updated and this is not a pleasant one.

was betting NBA playoffs and I ran quite hot and ran account up to $3400 and just lost every penny playing Blackjack.

To say I am disgusted here would be a complete understatement. I am no spring chicken and disrespecting money like that makes me sick.

Officially on the Wagon

1000 Games no Blackjack No sports Betting no cash Poker
1000 Omaha SNGS and MTT. I cannot feel much lower than I do right now so just pick up and win back every penny. I will update this thread very frequently with results, I will not be this person. Off we go.

1000 Games
Target Profit-$3500
Starting bankroll $200

If you can't play poker and stay away from things like blackjack and sports betting you should find a different hobby that isn't a complete waste of your time. If you can't play and stay away from losing games then there's just no point. It seems like every time you update it's either you getting lucky while degening or you're not getting lucky and losing it all. At a certain point in life you just have to realize if you have the will power or not.

Looks like you like winning small amounts a lot in a row, Just to lose big in 1 session tilting..

Good that youre honest to yourself, thats the first step of overcoming. I will be following this. good luck

I don't disagree.. and poker if you are not making money is a complete waste of time... but so is watching telly or Golf or anything really.. just matter of utility you find in it.

Have a pretty stressful job that pays okay so can degen rolls here and not have to have hand out.. but still it is not getting me anywhere.

I would like to think I could find the will power if need be, I know they can't fade me in 08 if I am not rage tilted.. but there are delusional poker players everywhere and results haven't really been there as I had hoped... will keep at it and maybe variance will shine on me .

It is what it is really, gambler win and lose all the time, earth keeps turning if some degen can't stay away from house games...

Ran machine back up a bit. I have $1100 on Machine and $700 spread out on OKC game..... 138-115 OKC victory very very good .

Gonna try to stay within myself but really it matters to me a lot and readers/lurkers universe very little so just choose the door you want to go down and play accordingly..

Godspeed everyone... until next time...

Bumping this thread with a happy update for once... chopped a $400 Limit 08ament at the Ventetian for $8400ish... good feeling to play a live tournament and not go broke...

will do my best to run this bankroll up now... they gave me a reprieve from my degenerate sickness don't piss it away.

Just had my biggest win and then biggest loss all within a week.

Disgusted with myself, clicked away $4500 Yesterday on NBA, MLB. Poker MTT in frenzy, and most of all, dreaded Blackjack.

To say I am disgusted would be a very very understatement. How long can I do this, I am not 19, I don't have a trust fund, and this money is freedom I am pissing away just so I can prove to myself I have no regard for the money I guess, or I am chasing the pain. who ****ing knows.

anyway, big picture from 10 days ago, it is not so bad. I won a tourney where I netted $6900 and then gave away $1400 in pieces to friends. Then I degened away $4500.

Just cannot do this.

I snapped at a few friends who owed me money, and did not show empathy. I always do this before big losses, like my conscience acting out.

I have no choice but to go through a long cleanse.

After the end of the Frenzy and the millionth Deposit. I have $581 left on the Machine.

Play 2500 08/Omaha MTT and SNG.
Target Profit $10,000.
Stomach the Job until then.
When that is over, become a live Omaha 8 pro in Vegas.

I will try to break it up into 100 sessions of 25 games and update after every session.

I have made high handed declarations before, but I think I mean it this time. I just cannot do what I have done ever again.

Will update after Tonight's session, even if it is a losing one

guess i will be seeing you in the Bovada games

Does not appear I have an edge in the Bovada Blackjack games

didn't stick to any of the high handed declarations... MLB and Summer League basketball have been the drug of choice..... ran account up to $1500-$2000 and busted it all at least 3 times since the last post... seem to run bad in my all in sports bets which is a shame...

Currently attempting to get back into the Nit peddling Box... 30 games deep, will share results if I make it through 1,000 Games...

I won't win all the money until i believe that I am deserving of it.. time to start believing it... will be back soon enough, GL all .