April 6 Continued - "Lost my money playing poker, so I had to leave town."
I'm torn between sharing all of the ridiculously sick beats I'm taking in order to show I'm not tilting or spewing, and just posting results, because I don't want to relive all of the bulls**t I'm dealing with. First, I've got some fish limp-calling me with any two, so I'm raising a lot of broadway cards. Every time I flop a draw, he's floating me out of position with A high and then I brick and check behind the river and he takes it. Every time I flop middle pair, he either flops top pair or like floats bottom pair and turns trips. We probably played 15-20 pots, and I think I won maybe 1.
Then, as I am giving up for the night, this against a solid opponent who I've 3bet a lot tonight. I mostly had hands, but he doesn't know that.
Six-handed, he raises in the HJ to $1.50. I make it $4.50 with A
Q
, the SB calls - he's been playing me LAGGY. BB folds, raiser calls.
Flop ($13.30): A
9
6
I have $65.06 and both villains cover. It checks to me and I bet $8. SB folds and villain calls.
Turn ($28.50): 9
He checks, I bet $18, he calls. I liked this sizing to set up a river shove of about 2/3 pot. I don't think he check-calls AK on the flop, so unless he has A9, I should be in great shape.
River ($63): T
He leads for $25. What the f***????? If he had the boat, he'd just jam or check-jam. What the hell is this? It looks like AJ, AT, A8, A7 to me. I shove, he snap calls, AT is good. Nice hand sir, ship him the $141 pot.
In all I lost $348.36 in 3 hours, which takes my online roll down to $719.48. I've lost 64% of my online roll. I'm considering moving down to $20 NL.
To be honest, I'm considering quitting this whole thing. I've lost like 20 buyins at 50NL, and a couple at 100 NL. How often do 22 buyin downswings happen? Not to mention live, that remains a 5 buyin downswing. How often do 27 buyin downswings happen to good winning players? Maybe I just ran good for awhile and the game has passed me by in the last 6+ years since I used to really play regularly.
Given that I live at home, I'm going to be subjected to lectures for the rest of my life if I go busto about how I'm a sick degenerate gambler who gave away thousands of dollars.
I was going to go play live tonight if the online games weren't good, but I'm just not in the right headspace to go now. The online games are great, but no way I'm playing more right now.
I moved back home last April, and planned to only be here a few months, no more than six months. It's a year in, I've caught all kinds of career breaks in broadcasing and none have been worth enough money to move out. I turn 28 next month and it's already weighing on my mind because I'm leading a pretty solitary life here stuck at home. Poker was the way I was hoping I'd be able to move out and really get my life going, and I'm mired in this nonsense still.
I mean, sh*t, it'll take me a month of 40 hour weeks running neutral just to get back to even on this downswing now.