Time I updated/ shared some thoughts:
Real battle with my mental game fishiness today. Tried being logical but really was unable to focus. Was concentrating more on calling people sexy in the chat than beating them.
Basically ran quite well the last few days so was fighting and fighting the urge to book a win like the old me would have.
I have come to realize that it is going to have to take baby steps to get in more volume. I can't go from someone who plays something like 10k hands a month max, burns out and spends the rest of the time playing Skyrim to someone who can grind day in day out.
So I have only gotten in ~3500 hands this week. I could play more tomorrow I guess but I think I need the weekend to clear my head a little. My list of mental game issues to solve is growing and growing as I see them popping up, but I am making progress.
What is interesting though having done this kind of reflection on my mental game is how many of these faulty thought processes I have seen played out in my ordinary life. I didn't realize it before but I am incredibly paranoid.
For example, when I was working in a school over the last few years I was always worried that I wasn't working hard enough/ doing my job properly and that other members of staff were assessing my every move, thinking I was a slacker. This despite huge amounts of evidence to the contrary; I was often told I was doing a good job. I was also paranoid that kid's parents might think I was a paedo, being a man working around small children, although there were plenty of other male staff members and clearly nobody thought that. Right now there is a van parked out behind my house and I am wondering if it is a police survelliance van. I have no reason for anyone to be watching me, but hey, if there were a reason it wouldn't be paranoia.
I told my gf about how I had noticed paranoid thoughts affecting my life like that, and she was like hmmm I think everyone is a bit paranoid, you're only proper crazy if you go around shouting about it. But I think it is an issue worth seeking some help in solving, so will go to my GP and have a word. Writing those things down actually really helped in making me realize how ridiculous they actually are, even though it is a bit off topic.
ANWAY back to poker, given the volume I have managed this week I will take a small step to increase it next week. Next week's goal will be 4,000 hands. The weeekend will start whenever I get there, late Friday night/ Saturday at the earliest though, and I will have Sunday off regardless.
The week after I will review and see if I can bump it up to 4,500 and go on increasing from there week by week.
Here is a graph for my progress so far this month:
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I will put a new graph up at the end of every week. Although I did say in the OP I would be updating this thread daily, that was when I thought I would need to do so for motivational purposes. Having learnt of my mental game weaknesses affecting my lack of play rather than abject laziness, I no longer feel the need to do this and have instead been venting in a stream of conciousness type way in a word document.
Right, I'm gonna go see if I can find someone to go the pub with. And to check out that suspicious looking van.
(Oh yeah one other thing, I haven't been on Skype that much lately since I find it really distracting! So sorry to anyone who I added and haven't really had a chance to chat to, I will try and get on more often.)
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Originally Posted by A-LX
meh the long updates are fine imo, nice to see you like the book too, helped me out a lot so far, been trying to apply the injecting logic too now, but sometimes forget
Tbh it could be one of the most important books I have read. Thanks for the recommendation