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Thanks for the replies everyone!

Day #1 of sobriety is "finally" here :P

Tale of the tape = 97.7kg at the start of my new and better life! (Although I woke up today to Pizza & cake as my sister was watching one of our nephews before she leaves again...). The good news is that I'm not leaving my parents basement until like 8th of February, so I have some time to get back to "presentable" at least. Not gonna do my crazy losing 5-10kg in 2-4 weeks like I've done too many times before, and rather start trying to do everything a bit more healthy. Luckily I got a room with a bike+treadmill and weights next to this one, and bikes to ride outside if it's above freezing so even though the thought of trying to run right now seems very far fetched, I'll be good to run a 10k again in a day or two

Hopefully I have one more time in me to get back into peak shape, but I know now that I'm getting too damn old to continuously do my 1-3 months just drunk + not working out 2-3 times a year. Too damn hard to keep doing that! I feel like I should be on Dr. Phil or something writing all of this, luul..

No I'm not Creolophus. He was a friend at the time, and he helped me get good. I was literally just getting good as I quit, and I was even with him NEvNE (he was obv still better vs all the rest). Me and a different friend was better in 2v2 than I was solo and we just joined Clan IT and were practicing with the best teams in the world at the time. Creo actually won the worlds or whatever it was called just after I quit, I think he quit right after that to continue with school though.

Hopefully I can come with an update in a few days that doesn't involve alcohol, but information of a workout a day and 12 hours poker a day, preferably with some winnings! Have a great week everyone <3

GL on your sobriety kiddo, try to stick with it, you can always treat yo self and drink once a week or so ~ seems to work fine for me . 12 hour poker days is a hell of a grind hopefully you don't get burnt out.

Keep the updates coming, should make a good thread!

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CS was addicting. I played under "PsychoKillabee"

I would literally not sleep for a few days at a time playing that game. Many boots for alleged hacking. Compliment IMO.

My advice to you is to hit the gym instead of the bottle. I cut way way way back on drinking and no longer desire it. I do have a few beers socially about once a month and im ok with that. Never turning back. I have had a 6 pack in my fridge for several months. I was sort of testing my self control. Now i dont think about it and still havent cracked one open. Quitting drinking will likely lead to you losing weight as well.

Ship the moneys and become a legend. You can and should do it.

I used to eat like **** but just steadily improved and now Im at the point where i eat 90% clean if not more. Do it gradually it's easier, i rarely even crave junk food. Gl with it and gl in 2018

Good thread, I like reading the fitness stuff alongside the poker. GL this year!

Whats new sports trader!??!

Hoping he's not drinking his profits away

I don’t even know where to start. I’m so hungover I don’t even know how I got through the first message, but sleeping is impossible so yeh... i just threw up about 4 million times. At least I bought 4 bottles of moét and was the ****ing king as usual yesterday, so **** you stars. I do perfectly fine on 100ff on party + ipoker, but my dreams of becoming the best on high stakes died with my stars acc(s). So now I just play to get drunk tbh, I guess it sounds pretty sad, but honestly 2018 has so far been one of the best of my life.

I’m kinda struggling right now... I mean after my 300k hand months in November where I made over $30k I’ve not really played much, and basically been drunk, ehm... every day? I mean maybe like 5 days sober, but yeah... I was finally able to move out from my parents again 2 months ago and until Thursday last week I basically hadn’t been sober. Number one symptom of alcohol withdrawal is insomnia, soeeeh yeah, I need to drink myself to sleep if I want to sleep. I was gonna go cold turkey and just force myself through it despite alcohol wd is actually the only wd you can die from and has as high lethal rate as 1-2%...

Obviously starting sobriety on a Thursday, especially on the week of Masters(biggest golf tourney <3 reed), is a terrible idea, so I was sober thu+fri and didn’t sleep a minute. Like I’ve said before I have a decent mensa IQ, and despite my 12 years of drunkenness I can speed-read. I never really use it fully as I only read in bed to unwind after grind to fall asleep, and speed-reading requires me to actually use my brain. So normally I just read my normal pace. Being insomniac with alcohol wd means your brain is hyper wired and you can’t relax, so night to Sat I spent like 5 hours in bed. 3 of them just trying to sleep or just «resting my eyes» as I knew I’d go out Sat. The other 2 reading. I read 1 1/2 ****ing 600 page books. **** me. How is that gonna help me sleep? I remember every sentence, I mean I was sober....

Saturday I went out to copy my keys that I lost the week before for the 43rd time... obviously everything was closed so I ended up just drinking in my united shirt from noon till 6 am. Life is good when you comeback from 2-0 at ht vs city, eh? It does get «slightly» cold in just a shirt and shorts at nightime though!! Oh, and the sickness on the woman front this year will take no end. I mean, I don’t like to brag... hahahahha of course I do. We all know how big of an arrogant d1ck I am. Anyways. It ****ing really works with the women... and I don’t mean oh I got laid once, I mean it really really really works. I’ve never really had «problems» getting women, but after stars banned me I’ve gone full on idgaf, so getting laid every night isn’t an issue if I wanted to. Somehow I’m not the one night stand type though, I’m the add on fb and text a million times drunk. Or meet for dinner/drinks then hook up. Anywho, I met this dude in the bar while watching United. He said he was going to a party at some hostel. Hostel?????????? Yes. I’ve never lived or been in a hostel and I consider everyone that stays there pond life. Anywho, he showed me pics of the grills on fb, so after 24 vodka redbulls I very reluctantly agreed.

The party was just insane. First of all, how do people actually live like that for more than 1 night? Second, there was about 15 women, 5 of which I would call 7 or higher. The amount of women caused a problem, because I didn’t know «where to invest», so I kinda ended up like the idiot I’ve always been and rather talking to the guys. Anywho, 7 of us left in a bit taxi to go out. I’m sitting next to 1 grill with another right in front of us and then they just say (and I’m not kidding); «we both want to **** you, but we are best friends so you have to chose»!!! Just super casually in the ****ing taxi.... obviously I’m still a d1ck or machine or whatever. I’ve just started referring to myself in 3rd person as the king or the great as I share the name with one. So I asked how about both? They say no they don’t do threesomes. ****, so I guess I do run bad sometimes? Not really... anywho, one of them wasn’t a girl I’d sleep with sober, the other was pretty, so I kinda chose her by buying her a drink and sitting next to + talking to her once we hit town.

She starts talking about just going home to mine, then some always coked up drunk ****ing Swede that always tries to cock block me even though we are «friends» when together walks up. He is just pissed a girl he had been trying to get with for a year randomly came up to me and wanted to hook up. So yeah, he comes over «hey king, every night with a different beautiful grill eh?». Omg. First of all, not really true, second, I had just spent all night convincing her I don’t sleep with everyone(which is true). She wasn’t impressed, and he even managed to ask if she was a nationality that made her so angry she told me to go tell him **** you. After that we just danced ‘till like 6.. i gave up getting her home at about 3. The other girl + another one was still interested but like I mentioned, I don’t really care about sex just to do it, so I ended up on my own. Also no new key, no sobriety, and rip my dietting, so I failed at all!

Ait, if this is not the forum for posts like this I can go write in my notes tab or keep spamming my friends on fb! If you like them though, there will be a lot more, and worse :/ now literally no idea what to do. Monday noon. Too hungover/tired to play, too inomniac to sleep. Workout not ****ing happening. Never watched tv in bed in my entire life as I think people that do are stupid/fat/lazy idiots and that it’s a terrible habit, but I might actually have to find my laptop and watch some greys anatomy or something

What the actual fk?

If you think you can control yourself a little, just start at 25nl again. Normally i'd suggest staking but tbh i think you need a slightly better track record for someone to be willing to lend you money.

i've gone broke because of outside circumstances (not me losing the money) and all i can say is dont dwell on it, it will only make you miserable and unproductive and you aren't getting it back so just put it out of your mind

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I read Fatboy54’s message twice, waited half an hour, re-read, and my initial reaction of «what?!?!?!» stands. What/who did I «spivvy»?

Anywho cheers senpaiswift but I am good now. My hourly is usually better on non-stars anyways as I can do huge volume and even 30-50% rb while raking $100-150/hr prints even pre-winnings. Just a ****ing pain to actually do the sessions when you cant stop start them in a second! Also hard when you’d rather want to drink! Playing app too, so life is goot. Having enough money is the problem, since then I don’t have to play... so instead I spend €2-300 a night going out 5 nights a week(y)

Sad story man, can't really follow a drunk's life like this anymore. Was really hoping you were going to turn it around, good luck in the future.

this is so sad, man. Why did you get banned?

Man, maybe you should move back with your family, it seems you can't have a healthy life without help from other people. Try living with them, staying out of alcohol and when you're better, try moving to a house with your closest friends(if they don't drink), if you don't want to live with your family ofc.

You have a ton of talent, don't let that addiction to **** your life

What a loser...lolz.

Sickest burn ever, guess it was a mirage after all.

Other than that, I just wanted to say that I was fearing for the worst when reading between the lines and getting an idea of OPs personality and mindset.

Especially the blaming game, was the first indication and guarantee of failure.
Getting banned is ofcourse very unfortunate, but it was the consequence of a detrimental mindset and lifestyle. I would even go as far as getting banned being not even as bad considering what other possible **** could have happened with OPs overall attitude and lifestyle.

The most uncomfortable thing to do is realising we are responsible for our own lives and to take full responsibilities for our actions and more importantly, our feelings. Always blaming others will lead to sad, bitter and pessimistic life.
Right now I believe that OP is at the crossroads of becoming a destructive alcoholic, instead of a productive alcoholic. Everyone knows what damage is done down that road and the consequences include even death.

Admit you have problem, talk to those who love you unconditionally as you mentioned and find some mental support, or else this is going to end badly.
Everyone has a breaking point in life, including King here. Getting banned is definitely the breaking point for OP since it crushes his 'Turning my life around' around goals. Theres only so much we can take.

I am very curious how King here is going to handle this situation and if he comes to senses. I hope he can apply his 'weird obessesion to be the best' to life in general, because in the end life is also just a game.
Start treating life in general as a game you want to crush OP, acknowledge your flaws and starting improving little by little. You seem to have talent and the will to hours into things, so apply it to the things you can control in life, rather than keeping a toxic mindset which is stunning your progress in life badly at the moment.

Give listening to Jordan Peterson on YT a try to improve your mental game. https://youtu.be/RW_bdx80IIQ?t=314 Do it when you can't sleep or smt.

All the best with everything

solid update, though has a depressing tone to it. If you do get into BTS Im sure the whole obligation thingie might just work for you. As some of the posts here might suggest, I dont see a conniving crook but a talented, morally sound young man with huge amount of degeness.

Sick story bro. Let me be clear im not even near to make 30k a month. But mate, how can u **** up like this? If you really can make 30k a month why not just put the effort in and live the life 98% of the ****ers here wants to live? You can drink and **** as much as u want.

Looks like you need a kick in the ass and straight'n up.

Any updates OP?