why is everybody so upset about (not) fapping ?

fapping is lifeblood for a healthy young guy.Thats why we are upset. I cant imagine my life without it

try sex

yeah no fap doesn't mean you don't have sex

sex is much better anyway, plenty of "healthy" young guy have ****ed up their sexuality by overfapping which started the no fap movement

Fapping is the real sex for me .Im enjoy it a lot more but u understand u too

welcome to my thread, bud

<3

+1000, what a beast of man he was. I often feel so inspired to quote longer passages here, might do that next post. Only thing Im not sure of is his opinion wrt to pleasure and what I should take from that.



ty! you too

Haha everything is easy during heater

Ty! I remember your SN too, gl to you too bud!

Haha honestly for some reason it doesnt even bother me, still way too exposed but think its a pretty safe bet long term. losing 1 stack @the tables hurts me more (and that already doesnt rly hurt) than losing way more in crypto

I used to be like that, recommend checking out yourbrainonporn!
Dont think fapping is bad inherently, porn is toxic though. It is likely that your reward system is completely ****ed already, which is why a reboot is recommended.

That dere dopamine


I dont even care that much about sex nowadays. Im pretty indifferent towards it. This obv might be because i have it regularly, but if I didnt I think I would still be indifferent, or train myself to be


Yeah I had that phase. Read above





Update
Month going well so far, routines established and working.
Volume is very good, run is meh. 9ev, but running below.
Made 3 punts from which I learned.

Gonna update with graph at the end of every week.




New quote:
"A life can only be as good as the person living it"


Cu <3

Week 1

Has been an awesome week, stayed on track with all goals and schedules and feeling amazing.

Pokerwise going great too, been grinding solid volume!


MTD:



YTD:



Goal is to stay on track with all the habits. And maintain a high winrate (targetting 8-10ev)!


Cu and gl <3

sick volume

And sick results! vwp op

why do you play z200?

tyty
tyty
y not

great job mate (Y)

Subbed because you called me a pussy for not shoving 5x pot OTR haha

<3

def sounds like me

Played a fun sesh today with hilarious karma hands that I have to post




Slowrolling me pre with KK

DeanoSupremo: raises $75 to $117.50
CRAIBaby: raises $398.75 to $516.25 and is all-in
DeanoSupremo said, "you're just not folding any more are you?"
CRAIBaby said, "**** folding imo"
DeanoSupremo said, "why do i bother"
DeanoSupremo said, "yeah, fk it"
DeanoSupremo said, "fk folding"
DeanoSupremo: calls $398.75
** FLOP ** [Ts Tc Qc]
** TURN ** [Ts Tc Qc] [4c]
CRAIBaby said, "sick slowroll"
** RIVER ** [Ts Tc Qc 4c] [9c]
** SHOW DOWN **
DeanoSupremo: shows [Ks Kh] (two pair, Kings and Tens)
CRAIBaby: shows [Kd Ac] (a flush, Ace high)
CRAIBaby collected $1037 from pot



karma v2
** HOLE CARDS **
Dealt to CRAIBaby [Ac As]
tiltinger47: raises $10 to $15
CRAIBaby: raises $27.50 to $42.50
sNapoleoN: folds
Boltun1111: folds
Ankhes: folds
DeanoSupremo: raises $82.50 to $125
tiltinger47: folds
CRAIBaby: calls $82.50
** FLOP ** [2d Jd 2c]
DeanoSupremo: bets $77.50
CRAIBaby: calls $77.50
** TURN ** [2d Jd 2c] [9s]
DeanoSupremo: bets $370
CRAIBaby said, "deano deano deano"
CRAIBaby said, "alright take it"
CRAIBaby: raises $1.20 to $371.20 and is all-in
DeanoSupremo: calls $1.20
** RIVER ** [2d Jd 2c 9s] [6h]
** SHOW DOWN **
DeanoSupremo: shows [Ad Kd] (a pair of Deuces)
CRAIBaby: shows [Ac As] (two pair, Aces and Deuces)




Then karma ****ed me for slowrolling him last hand and he got me here


PokerStars - $5 NL FAST (6 max) - Holdem - 4 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 4

BTN: $1,785.27 (VPIP: 25.08, PFR: 20.02, 3Bet Preflop: 9.43, Hands: 4,600)
Hero (SB): $562.96
BB: $426.64 (VPIP: 30.84, PFR: 20.48, 3Bet Preflop: 11.17, Hands: 1,521)
CO: $2,959.39 (VPIP: 27.62, PFR: 22.38, 3Bet Preflop: 9.89, Hands: 1,162)

Hero posts SB $2.50, BB posts BB $5.00

Pre Flop: (pot: $7.50) Hero has Q Q

fold, BTN raises to $12.50, Hero raises to $55.00, BB calls $50.00, BTN raises to $1,785.27 and is all-in, Hero calls $507.96 and is all-in, fold

Flop: ($1,180.92, 2 players) 2 A T

Turn: ($1,180.92, 2 players) 9

River: ($1,180.92, 2 players) A

Hero shows Q Q (Two Pair, Aces and Queens)
(Pre 67%, Flop 9%, Turn 2%)
BTN shows A 4 (Three of a Kind, Aces)
(Pre 33%, Flop 91%, Turn 98%)
BTN wins $1,179.42





The grind continues <3

sub'd, glgl!

solid results mate gg

Very interesting blog. I wish I could detach myself from that overcompetitive overobsessed piece of **** I am. I wish I could be happy with small things and really enjoy my life. I just cant. I hope you will write more often in this thread


In hindsight, the following definitely wasn’t one of my smartest decisions, but back then it felt like I had to take those kinds of risks. I searched for homegames in my area and took my 2.5K Euros straight there. The game was shady as **** but I decided to go for it anyway and ran my 500 Euro buyin up to 6500 within 3 hours. Now the only problem was how the **** I was supposed to get out of this game. I was playing 3-handed with 2 extremely shady people that now hated my guts. So how the **** do I leave? I guess this is a story that deserves its own writeup, perhaps some other time. Eventually after some extremely shady happenings I manage to collect my 6.5k from what I believe some kind of mafia boss get the hell out of there.*


Details?

Reading your thread from the beginning made me having some deep thoughts. Best of luck

In for the fap updates. I expect transparency if you slip up

Yes in for Fap updates. im in the 7/7 camp in this week

ty!

<3 i remember the good old 100z days! what are you up to


Hey, I appreciate this alot!
Yeah its very difficult to detach yourself. Today too I played a 2.5k session and made a pretty mini mistake and thats all what ive been thinking about.
We just gotta realise over and over again that none of this really matters, in a liberating way. Who gives a **** if you made small mistakes or even larger ones. Youre still alive, life is great and there is so much to enjoy, how amazing is that?

I was planning to write up details eventaully, Im actually quite a dick for always starting to write things and not ending them I guess, but they do take a lot of time and im pretty busy with my schedules and ****. I will think about when I can do that though!



100% transparency, i dont lie remember

Also actually ****ing proud of LAKATOSKLAUS taht you decide to join!


So i havent fapped for a month now I think, last time should have been about mid jan.

It hasnt been easy.

I got laid quite often so that helps but the urges have definitely been strong.
Especially when girls send me hot nudes or I remember how "awesome" it is to fap to some kinky porn but I have kept myself together pretty well.

I also talk to some girls overseas sometimes over whatsapp/skype and they find it funny to tease me into jerking off but I have stayed strong, even if the ocassional stroke or two might have slipped in. You guys should srsly appreciate this transparency btw holy **** lol. There is one girl here that REALLY teases me and wants me to jerk off infront of her and tbh its so tempting cause shes so good and dirty talking, but idk if that would count as cheating. Its techincally still fapping but its with a girl? Thoughts?
I could just shut down all these attempts btw but its kinda fun haha.


In general I have an intersesting view on matters that require "discipline". In my opinion if you want to do something that is good for yourself, its actually just about love. How much do you love yourself? If you love yourself, then youll do whats best for youself always, period. Its completely non negotiable.


Update of month

So poker is solid I estimate my true winrate to be around 8ev at the moment. I decided to stop posting results with big $ figures since I always never thought it was a good idea to tell people how much money you have.

I might throw in the ocassional graph every once in a while to keep you entertained but it definitely wont be a regular thing.


Volume has been amazing i think im about 80k hands in rn.
But this came with the cost of me playing unfocused/tired at times. I think if I would 2 table low volume I could win at 10ev+ longterm. 500z is actually quite soft. And im trying hard to remain somewhat stoic and not namecall and insult any regs but its hard at times. Theres actually SO MUCH i wanna say about them but im sure its best to keep that to myself. mynameiskarl is good.

In general playing so much has some interesting effects. For once I feel the urge to chat/troll/trashtalk sometimes @the tables to keep the entertainment level up. I probably shoudl stop that. One of the average regs actually responded and after telling me it must be tough to never win a pot, he asked me what my winrate was lol. Alright bud. I checked and im actually up money against him.

Another funny convo I had was with one of the more toxic regs whos game I dont want to insult (stoic etc) but he probably wins vs pool and crushes fish pretty hard. I never chat to him but who keeps on writing a shark emoji to me. I then once told him id recommend him the Marcus Aurelius book. I was serious btw, since I heard other regs had toxic experiences with him. He responded I should get a proper education and I probably had terrible upbringing and parents. Alright bud. I actually have a 4.0 gpa too, lol.
I blocked his chat but I think he always writes to me still. He also recently slowrolled me, which I found amusing. If youre reading this, no hard feelings bud. But I would really recommend you to read this book. Cant hurt right? I hope you find your peace.


Anyway, the unfocusdness tiltendness resulted in me making some stupid mistakes at the tables that annoy me quite a bit.
Good thing is that I pretty much always learn frmo the mistakes, and just today I made a big realization of how I can increase my winrate further. Im actually tilted that this has cost me money in the past.

I think playing unfocused probably cost me about 3kusd this month. Maybe even more. So i should probably change that. I guess its a bit of a tradeoff with the volume but Im sure ill find a solution. (like taking breaks for example).



The rest of my goals have been going well. Ive been crushing eating and gym.
Ive been crushing my mornings. I have let go a bit of my night routine
but I go to bed at pretty much the same time every day and its chill.

Reading has been going a bit less since im ****ing tired at night but Im gonna finish marcus aurelius before the end of the month regardless.

No fap obv going well but im tempted a f to jerk off with a girl, its probably more sex than fapping, need to make my mind up on that.

The crypto evelaution is not happening often enough.

The no social media is going reasonable but sometimes i take a peak or two, guess thats kind of a failure. On the other hand gotta due diligence how hot those tinder girls actually are.

Hans wants to go to bali for his visa run and even though I dont need a visa run atm and it actually complicated things for me I decided to be a good friend and give him company. I would definitely enjoy a holiday anyway so theres that too. We still need to dicuss that stuff though, firned told me its wet season apparently.




I check this thread daily so if you want me to post more, just post and ill reply!

Any suggestions about what to do in Bali would be highly appreciated. Going there in about two weeks and still havent planed my Trip entirely lol. Thanks for posting anyways

I am happy to see guys that crush hard the top games are balanced and take time to apreciate life and other things outside poka scene.
You are 100% right life is very short and missed opportunities do not come back ever. Everybody should try and enjoy everyday and leave hate and bitterness aside.
It takes a very good mindset to achieve that.

wish you the best

Looks like you got your head in the right place. It’s one thing to put in the work and be successful but understanding the importance of enjoying life and actually learning to not always be focused and thinking about poker is another difficulty in itself.




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