Fine.

I'm subscribing. This looks fun.

Ffs cant u just Shut da **** up! U talk eveywhere and speak like ur some mentor for all of us. Giving advice and wanna be strat. U are A stand still microstake ******. Words cant express how fkn stupid u sound with ur recipie for what kind of style ur view on players sounds like. U speak like u have IT all figure out. Why do u shift between nl 16 to 50? And tell us all how to beat different styles and still u play for nickles and dimes! Wtf u have one of this new age mental syndromes depression, anorexia or what Else u stupid internet Instagram whores Get this days? Have to be best! U fkn suck! The day u climb the ladder i gonna shut it!
All this bleeeeee about how to conqur different styles.only one type havent u figuerd out. And all views on this styles comes with Expert advice from u and ur doug polk internet blogg!
Ffs u flip me off! Get banned or stop spamming every thread where actually good players talk. No1 asks for ur opinions!!

jesus chill out, he's trying to learn at the same time, just because he struggles at applying concepts at the tables doesn't mean he can't try to learn on the forums

+1, it's a forum, it's filled with people interacting and posting, if his posts bother you that much just block them and you don't have to read them. he didn't do anything wrong.

That's rly uncalled for.

Idk why you would hate on someone who has nothing but love for the game of poker and is trying to improve.

This kind of negativity and "hate speech" towards someone struggling at micros is downright ******ed and stupid.

Y no reason for ranting.
For the ones that have "issues" therapy could help.

Look at his post history, most of it is in Rapidesh's own thread. Think you could report him as a stalker IMO.

Fake or not, that giraffe gave me a boner.

How did I miss this. In...lolz.

Petition to have this fapper banned

You cannot help it. Even if they ban him, he'll still do it.

What about crypto atm?

Subbed

OMG I fapped today lose the challenge But i needed it and enjoyed it 1meter squirting at least

not sure what to say after last post

LAKAT reported

Aight bitches, sad **** going on ITT.

I was thinking about explaining/justifying some **** but then thought why should i?


Anyways, month was nice, even though I went down the lazy train towards the end of the month. I didnt hit 100k hands, just short a few K probs, actually forgot it was february with its 28 day scam but wcyd.


Anyway, going to bali soon which is gonna be epic a f.

Atm im in a space again where im not really motivated to do anything. Just kinda chilling living life, eating nice, meeting girls and exercising.

Maybe ill play a bit the next few days but atm **** poker. The game actually bores me a little bit. Exploiting ****ters is fun but at some point it partly becomes too easy and feels lame. Sometimes I actually feel sorry and dissapointed when a huge deviation from equilibrium becomes the correct decision.

Im starting to get the feeling that this wont change too much even at 1k and 2k.


Couple of friends have been asking me to come WSOP this summer, idk yet.
I actually am thinking about other opportunities outside of poker.

Crypto has been doing a bit better but I need to honestly take it more serious. Im gonna reevaluate all positions today or tomorrow.







Had some thoughts about life yesterday. Realized I dont care too much about sex. Its more about banging the hot girls. I actually dont get much satisfaction when having sex with non hotties.

So I tried figuring out why this is. After going down a long thought train all the way from self-esteem issues (and therefore seeking validation) to having a god complex, I realised its the latter with a bit more complexion.

I grew up with the strong belief that I am special, one of a kind. The smartest person, a future leader of the world. This is partly because of my upbringing I believe. My parents reinforced this image a lot.

On one hand its pretty cool and definitely has its positives. On the other hand, this means that the expectations of myself are never attainable. Im not god, nor can I ever be one. Im just a mere human like everyone else.

This though, is precisely my problem. I have unbelievable expectations of myself, which results in me trying to prove it to myself all the time. But I cant prove myself that Im a god, because Im not - leading to dissapointment.

I get extremely upset with myself when making any kind of mistakes and its hard to let them go. I always want to be the best in everything and when Im not I question myself and my capabilities.

(if you dont understand how this relates to the girls issue above - It seems like I believe that im deserving of the toppest % of girls, so im trying to prove it to myself constantly. This kinda ****s me up in a way in that I cant just relax and enjoy my time with them (i still do sometimes), its more just a constant game.
Either way, this issue goes beyond the topic of girls and frankly chicks arent even that important to me)


Its definitely more important for myself to figure out how this impacts the rest of my life.

I need to complete the following phrases for myself:

"Its great to have high ambition and drive, but its completely fine to ................ sometimes, because .............................."

"Its fine to have high expectations of yourself, but its not the end of the world if you cant always live up to them immediately, because ..............................."



Anyway, thats enough depth for now, hope people here appreciate this honesty/insight into my world.



Ima get some brunch now. Looking forward to bali. Unfortunately wont be able to explore much since I still have back issues but a really solid relaxation is very welcomed.

GL this year

nice read OP! Enjoy Bali !

We'r happy to welcome you, join to the real fun games!

Found the thread, great read sir!

Im curious abt Thailand stuff (more), cuz Im having very similar road as you. Which Island are you located? (btw I did not read all the stories but first and longest)

good luck with your goals

I rate the introspection, OP! Think it's super important to be honest, particularly with yourself.

biggest pretender of all time.. You think you're some sort of big shot after winning a measly 100k in 1 month!?

gotta get new regs to the games so there's atleast a chance I'm not the worst reg at some point..... ;______;

Jesus christ that graph

+1

What about the FAP challenge?