so i think one place to start in working on my mental game is to have a public place to write out my progress/setbacks. maybe knowing that people are reading my tilty illogical thoughts will help me to modify my behavior.
about me:
-currently living at home for a few months giving poker a shot
-mental game swings from v weak to v strong
-prob about 12k winnings for the year so far

i have read the mental game of poker a couple times, ive read eckhart tolles books, a few jon kabat-zinns books etc. i know the info that works, but i sometimes slip up and revert into an entitled 2 year old having a temper tantrum. i dont expect this thread to be very exciting because i wont be referring to money won or lost, just whether i played good or badly during a session.

..and here i go!

Session 1 objectives:
-do some mental preparation beforehand, focus on breathing and not caring about variance
-singletable first half hour

first game, raised pot, villain leads 34o gutshot only, turns it and triple barrels. next hand gets a full house vs my top pair now im short. aaaaand i tilt jam bb when he limps ace rag on button, game over and now im mad.

took a couple deep breaths, injected logic while I play the rematch. villain enjoys makng hero calls, so I am patiently waiting for spots to crush him. hes shortstack 10bb gets aq vs my a9. one hand later he hits quad 5s when i bloat the pot with aq overcards and flush draw, and then has At vs a8 about 2 hands later. luckily i run into a 4 flush board to double up. smartest thing ive done so far is looking away from the screen while the board runs out. and i raise 99 he has AT and hits trip tens to beat me again. this sucks but all you can do against lucky fish like this is keep playing them until your edge evens out.

now some multitabling:
after the minor tilt in the first half hour, I played nice and calm for an hour and a half, before a weak fish whos been giving me trouble shows up. for some reason i cant seem to run good against him. im 8-18 against him, hes down 1000s, and doesnt fold to any of my raises once hes bet. so my last half hour is me being angry as i lose 3 of 4 to an error prone fish to knock me from a decent winning day to a slightly losing day.

Taking a couple hour break and playing some this evening.

second session today medidated, felt pretty relaxed going in. got pretty tilted a few times when fishy regs 3bet 70% from the bb and still manage to have Kings when I jam JJ or they have Ak when I have AQ. later on i know its just bad variance but in the heat of the moment i get choked! or you battle for many games against a fish and they leave as soon as you win one. anyways ill live to fight another night, maybe the long weekend will give me enough time away from the game to cool off.

Good luck.
Take it this is live play, sounds very intense

no I play online don't have the patience for live. but I don't tilt live at least

GL m8! I'm also struggling with my mental game, especially with the areas you described. If I find something that works well for me, I' let you know ;-)

hey captain, I'm trying to start a skype group where we talk about the things we struggle with in the mental game and hopefully improve ourselves through it. if you're interested, feel free to shoot me a pm

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