1st of all hello to all of you, I am Daniel, nice to meet you!

Decided to give it a fresh start to the "this is my poker blog" thing, because my previous attempts were kinda not repping what I am as a poker player and most importantly, what i would like to become.Also, now that I have some background experience, I should be able to actually stick to it

So, long story short, been playing poker for about 2 years now and I feel like I'm doing it since yesterday.And this is mostly because I am a hudge mental fish. I think the worst part of being a bad poker player is actually to just be aware of that consciuos incompetence that is restraining you from becoming a succesfull player and not being able to deal with it.As I've experienced this over, and over, and over agin, it felt like I was trapped in this broken template of my mindset, and I couldn't figure a way out of it.Aaand, as I became more aware of this very harmfull threat to my winrate,happiness,potential of becoming better etc. I've searched for answers in books,videos, blogs, webinars, talking to other ppl about it etc. and NOTHING seemed to work!? I probably had the bad mindset while doing all this in the 1st place, so obv it couldn't work out fo me.

Luckly, about 3 or 4 moths ago I found out about this book called "Think and grow rich", written by Napoleon Hill, and because I am also very interested in personal development aswell, I said why not, maybe this will work.And as a matter of fact, it kinda did. :idea:
You kinda have to read the book a few times to understand all its essence, but I will explain how I will use it to enrich my own mindset and make small but wise steps into becoming succesfull.

So, first, it's about the burning desire of taking control of my own mindset, and making it work for me, not against me.2nd, I trust myself that I am 100% capable of doing this, no matter what, and I'm going to use all my imagination, knowledge, senses etc.to achieve my goal.3rd, I will plan very carefully and I will stick to my plan.I will NOT procrastinate! 4th major aspect of my journey is training/taiming my subconscious, emotions and fears.

I am currently working on my game @10nl but my main game is prolly 20nl (aprox 8bb/100hs winrate on a decent sample).Still, I don't know if my approach on poker should be oriented on fullring games or short handed, as I've been mixing them up in the past succesfully, but don't really know which of the one suits me best (it kinda depends on how good the games are at some point, rake, hands/hr etc.).Mostly, beyond 100nl fullring games seem to be dying, but that's not really a concern at the moment Also, there's a strong argument that one can improve faster while playing short handed, but variance is an important aspect, volume aswell and so on.

For the rest of February, I desire to:

*get mentally fit to play exclusively 20nl from March on
*build confidence and stay focused on my daily tasks
*constantly review my game and post here the hands/situations i wasn't confortable with
*constant research on personal development
*stop whining (I absolutely hate myself when doing this, it's so not healthy or practical for me )
*DON'T open facebook or any other website while in game and just focus on maximizing my edge/winrate
*stick to healthy habbits (good food,rest,exercise,love etc.)
*honest review of the day on every evening
*seach for mental peace (I currently work on some sort of christian and buddhist mix of knowledge to understand this complex subject).

I will end this 1st post with one of my favourite quotes (actually is more than a quote, it has become one of my biggest beliefs in life) :

"Success is the progressive realization of a worthy ideal. If a man is working toward a predetermined goal and knows where he's going that man is a success, if he's not doing that he's a failure."


Will keep you updated, GL!

So I'm up to a bad start with my challenge, I managed to tilt today a lot and I am prolly bringing my C- game @ the tables.It has been going on for about 2 weeks now this feeling I have in my head and it's getting stronger and harder to counter.How do you manage this kind of stuff because it seems everything I am currently doing is wrong or missguided or idk ... it's just sad and bad and it keeps getting worse Would appreciate some thoughts on this ty in advance!

As a note:
I studied some vids today about Kobe Bryant's work ethic and how he understands performance, and I was absolutely mindblown by this guy's determination and power of will. Wish to reach at least 70% of his mentality one day...

Keep going, worst thing you can do when you tilt. If you start to feel you are making bad decisions. Stop and go do something unrelated to poker and come back later.

@vidiebox ty vm for the advice.

Meanwhile, had a bit of run good @ the tables, but the problem is that my tilt issue is kinda making this good run be more or less useless, have to work intensively into rebuilding my confidence.Ordered "The Power of Now" by Eckart Tolle and will study it for prolly the next month or so, and compare the knowledge I already have with the new info and hopefully there will be some progress.

I will also include from today on at least 15 mins of meditation daily, tried it a couple of times and it seems to be a nice addition to my research.

I will post some graphs/results for this month soon, as atm I don't consider this thing so relevant to the actual subj of the topic

Have u read the mental game of poker?That book is kinda good 4 mental problem solving.
And try not to tilt, than yea-stop playing is best thing

Gl!

Yeah, I did read it, but only the 1st volume.Also, there are some nice podcasts with Jared also that I've been listening to, but so far it feels like I am driven by some strange forces that simply make me the slave of my emotions This is prolly because I am superficial or idk, but working on it cause otherwise all the technical work @ the tables will be in vaine.

Ty so much for the feedback guys, means a lot to me!

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February is over, so time to draw some conclusions:

*get mentally fit to play exclusively 20nl from March on DONE
*build confidence and stay focused on my daily tasks 75%
*constantly review my game and post here the hands/situations i wasn't confortable with 30% -was very focused on playing but this will have to change
*constant research on personal development 100% on it
*stop whining (I absolutely hate myself when doing this, it's so not healthy or practical for me ) 80%
*DON'T open facebook or any other website while in game and just focus on maximizing my edge/winrate 80%
*stick to healthy habbits (good food,rest,exercise,love etc.) 80%
*honest review of the day on every evening 0%
*seach for mental peace (I currently work on some sort of christian and buddhist mix of knowledge to understand this complex subject) 75%

Managed to get 6bb/100 wr at 20nl and 9bb/100 at 10nl, despite spewing and doing some stupid moves, hopefully March will be a more positive month :idea:

$0.10/$0.20 No Limit Holdem
8889 Players
Hand Conversion Powered by WeakTight.com poker hands converter
Stacks:
UTG Player10 ($36.21) 181bb
UTG+1 Player1 ($11.74) 59bb
MP1 Player2 ($21.13) 106bb
MP2 Hero ($46.47) 232bb
MP3 Player4 ($22.51) 113bb
CO Player5 ($15.77) 79bb
BTN Player6 ($59.63) 298bb
SB Player7 ($4.91) 25bb
BB Player9 ($36.43) 182bb
Pre-Flop: (0.30, 9 players) Hero is MP2 Q A

Player10 raises to $0.70, 2 folds, Hero raises to $2.40, 5 folds, Player10 calls $1.70
Main Pot : ($509.04) Hero: +$356.47 EV (70.50%)
Player10: +$147.77 EV (29.50%)

Flop: Q 7 4 ($5.10, 2 players)
Player10 checks, Hero bets $3.80, Player10 calls $3.80
Main Pot : ($509.04) Hero: +$316.39 EV (62.90%)
Player10: +$185.05 EV (37.10%)
Turn: 2 ($12.70, 2)
Player10 checks, Hero bets $9.20, Player10 calls $9.20
Main Pot : ($509.04) Hero: +$395.49 EV (79.50%)
Player10: +$95.15 EV (20.50%)

River: 7 ($31.10, 2)
Player10 goes all-in $20.81, Hero calls $20.81
Main Pot : ($509.04) Hero: +$488.23 EV (100.00%)
Player10: -$20.81 EV (0.00%)
Final Pot: $72.72
Hero shows
Q A
Player10 shows
10 A
Hero wins $69.09 (net +$32.88)
Player10 lost $36.21

$0.10/$0.20 No Limit Holdem
8889 Players
Hand Conversion Powered by WeakTight.com poker hands converter
Stacks:
UTG Player5 ($21.11) 106bb
UTG+1 Player6 ($26.42) 132bb
MP1 Player7 ($20.13) 101bb
MP2 Player9 ($20) 100bb
MP3 Player10 ($32.97) 165bb
CO Player1 ($14.86) 74bb
BTN Player2 ($24.13) 121bb
SB Player3 ($54.03) 270bb
BB Hero ($20.30) 102bb
Pre-Flop: (0.30, 9 players) Hero is BB 4 4

1 fold, Player6 raises to $0.40, Player7 calls $0.40, 1 fold, Player10 calls $0.40, 2 folds, Player3 calls $0.30, Hero calls $0.20
Main Pot : ($73.85) Hero: +$10.90 EV (15.30%)
Player10: +$14.11 EV (19.10%)
Player6: +$48.45 EV (65.60%)
Side Pot #1 : ($324.38) Player10: +$60.98 EV (18.80%)
Player6: +$263.00 EV (81.20%)
Side Pot #2 : ($45.85) Player10: +$45.45 EV (100.00%)

Flop: 4 9 5 ($2, 5 players)
Player3 checks, Hero bets $1.20, Player6 raises to $2.85, 1 fold, Player10 calls $2.85, Player3 folds, Hero calls $1.65
Main Pot : ($73.85) Hero: +$0.47 EV (4.50%)
Player10: +$64.03 EV (86.70%)
Player6: +$6.42 EV (8.70%)
Side Pot #1 : ($324.38) Player10: +$296.48 EV (91.40%)
Player6: +$25.05 EV (8.60%)
Side Pot #2 : ($45.85) Player10: +$43.00 EV (100.00%)
Turn: 10 ($10.55, 3)
Hero checks, Player6 checks, Player10 bets $6.27, Hero folds, Player6 goes all-in $14, Player10 goes all-in $29.72, Player6 goes all-in $9.17
Main Pot : ($73.85) Player10: +$47.78 EV (95.50%)
Player6: -$19.43 EV (4.50%)
Side Pot #1 : ($324.38) Player10: +$309.78 EV (95.50%)
Player6: -$8.57 EV (4.50%)
Side Pot #2 : ($45.85) Player10: +$9.86 EV (100.00%)

River: 2 ($63.44, 2), 2 all-in
Main Pot : ($73.85) Player10: +$73.85 EV (100.00%)
Player6: +$0.00 EV (0.00%)
Side Pot #1 : ($324.38) Player10: +$324.38 EV (100.00%)
Player6: +$0.00 EV (0.00%)
Side Pot #2 : ($45.85) Player10: +$45.85 EV (100.00%)
Final Pot: $63.44
Player6 shows
Q Q
Player10 shows
9 9
Player10 wins $67.15 (net +$34.18)
Player3 lost $0.40
Hero lost $3.25
Player6 lost $26.42
Player7 lost $0.40