#TheDreamIsAlive: From busto/broke to a happy life at 18mans (TL:DR)
10-10-2013
, 08:32 PM
So yeah, gonna try to write as little as possible so that people dont lose interest in my story.
TL : DR Warning!
Hello, im from Perú and im currently a 18 mans turbo sng grinder. Been in the game for a few years now, started grinding NLH 6max up until NL50, cashed everything and then went into Sngs, ive played 9mans, 18mans, 180s and also MTTs. Poker has always been a hobby and second to my studies until 2013 (i still have to go through 1 and a half years of university to get my degree in communications if i ever decide to get it).
My life have had its ups and downs, i was raised by a single mom with help of my grandparents. I was always searching for independence and i was kind of a loner nerd (im a gamer, Almost Challenger in my region in League of Legends, used to play competitive SC2 etc).
A few years ago i met my dad randomly and we started a friends like relationship, he decided to help me out by paying for my studies and lend me some money so that i could pay my bills and focus in studying (hes a wealthy man, thats all im gonna say), so i left my job and started my career. Poker began to be a solid part of my daily life when i won a satty to the LAPT ME Medellin and i cashed in it (sold action so i got around 2.5k when i got back from the trip, everything went to my savings account).
My dad hates everything related to poker and casinos (apparently from what i managed to investigate he lost quite a load of money to gambling before getting to know me) so he eventually got mad at me and asked to stop playing poker for good and delete everything related to it from my life, if i wouldnt do this he would stop helping me with my studies and overall life.
I wanted to become a poker pro at some point so i tried to reason with him and explain that it wasnt an addiction or anything, finally he got really mad, told me he had another family, a lot of expenses and then just stopped talking to me and ofc sending money. (Wouldnt answer emails/phone and the last thing he told me was that he was gonna stop sending me money so i should get a job again asap). Since i couldnt keep studying i decided to give poker for a living a try before searching for a job that would make me unhappy. (I was also devastated because of how he acted, we had a really good thing going on and for him to just drop everything so suddenly was really ****ed up for me, my pride has to this day made me not try to contact him again)
Neways, I got an offer for a spot in a stake deal for MTTs with a good friend of mine who was crushing the mid stakes. I learned the format for a couple of months, ended up winning $800 overall in a eurosite but since I was playing for a living that was not enough to cover my expenses, that and being a complete ignorant to MTTs variance made my mindset to crush constantly (“why do I run so bad”, “I hate this game”, “im better than most of this fishes but I never win flips”). My friend finally ended up the deal because he just couldn’t stand my whining and my bad attitude (and I cant blame him, I was really stupid)
After that a poker friend offered me a 180s stakr deal on his new project and again I accepted, the format was kinda close to MTTs and variance was a bit lower so I thought it would be great to make some money like that. I ran horribly, I whined a lot, I lost around $600 on the 2.5s and then my friend’s partner kicked me out of the stable. During all this process my mindset was on my bottom low, I felt like a complete loser, a failure, a terrible player. And of course, I swallowed my whole savings account trying this. I pretty much failed while trying to achieve my dream, mainly because of my weak mindset.
With the little money I had left I started searching for a job but I got into heavy depression because of all this things and fear of maybe having to go to my moms house for some time. Finally a close friend asked me for my 18mans result back in the day and told me that he could pay for 1 month of my bills if I could try to play 18mans 3.5s, since it was a freeroll and he was gonna give me some intense coaching sessions (hes a winner at 15s-30s) and since im a stubborn dick I decided to accept.
I started playing in august and the stake lasted until the 1st day of October (he had to stop staking me but by that time I had already made a little roll of 50bi to keep playing by myself)
Graphs:
August (Staked and getting the feel for the game again)
September (Staked just making volume, started drifting and didnt realize for 7 days. fixed it now)
October (so far): (Not staked)
And here i am now, during all this year i lost contact with a lot of my friends (obviously because i became a cranky depressed idiot after all my mistakes) but i am in the process of recovering most of them, i am also in a 5 years relationship with my gf and shes very happy that i finally understood how **** goes down and how my mindset affects everything around me, we are going through better times now and im happy for that. (We dont live together, she feels that i should follow my dreams, she likes to pay her own stuff when we go out, my only bills are my rent, a lady that comes to clean my house 2 times a week, my internet and my food. Thats close to $300 per month).
Oh i forgot to say, i live in a big house with 3 roommates, we are all close friends, gamers and they are like my brothers, they also helped me realize a lot of **** that i couldnt see for myself.
Rules:
- Always 200bi minimum on my stars account ($700).
- Only play 18mans and 235 sats for rakeback.
- Make minimum cashes of $300 each month.
- 12 tables min, 16 tables max.
- 7 Free days a month max.
- Make updates to this thread at least once every 2 days (every day if possible).
My goals for this month:
- 2.5k Sngs by the end of the month
- 140 Sngs a day the whole week of Golden Sngs, 100 sngs other days
- Do not tilt
- 2 Hours of checking HHs/Studying the game
- Spend time with my gf/friends.
Goals for the end of the year:
- 1.5k on my dollars bank account
- 800 dollars on my soles bank account (thats like 2k in national currency)
- Open up a new savings account and take 2% or every cashout/win i make to create a fund for something special that i would need.
Special Goal:
I am currently looking to reach Top20 in sharkscope “2013 Winnings – Any game 2 to 3 tables - $2.01-5“ I know its kind of a dumb goal since everyone should climb into the next stake (7s) when you win enough but I have close to no money saved now and I will feel better once I get some money into my bank accounts, 3.5s seems like the easy and no risk way of making that happen. I will not change that until i am happy enough with my economic situation.
Numbers!:
Cliffs:
- Played poker for a hobby while having a job.
- Met my dad for the first time while 21, he offered to pay for me to get a degree in communications
- He got mad because i played poker and just dissapeard, left me with no job, couldnt finish career and only savings.
- Tried playing poker a living, failed miserably at MTTs and then 180s
- Ate up all my savings, was busto and got into a deal for the game i used to play before meeting my dad, 18mans.
- Things went great, stake ended in october, made decent money, playing with my own money now.
- Looking to get money back and be succesful at poker.
LETS DO THIS.
Feedback appreciated, gl to everyone!.
TL : DR Warning!
Hello, im from Perú and im currently a 18 mans turbo sng grinder. Been in the game for a few years now, started grinding NLH 6max up until NL50, cashed everything and then went into Sngs, ive played 9mans, 18mans, 180s and also MTTs. Poker has always been a hobby and second to my studies until 2013 (i still have to go through 1 and a half years of university to get my degree in communications if i ever decide to get it).
My life have had its ups and downs, i was raised by a single mom with help of my grandparents. I was always searching for independence and i was kind of a loner nerd (im a gamer, Almost Challenger in my region in League of Legends, used to play competitive SC2 etc).
A few years ago i met my dad randomly and we started a friends like relationship, he decided to help me out by paying for my studies and lend me some money so that i could pay my bills and focus in studying (hes a wealthy man, thats all im gonna say), so i left my job and started my career. Poker began to be a solid part of my daily life when i won a satty to the LAPT ME Medellin and i cashed in it (sold action so i got around 2.5k when i got back from the trip, everything went to my savings account).
My dad hates everything related to poker and casinos (apparently from what i managed to investigate he lost quite a load of money to gambling before getting to know me) so he eventually got mad at me and asked to stop playing poker for good and delete everything related to it from my life, if i wouldnt do this he would stop helping me with my studies and overall life.
I wanted to become a poker pro at some point so i tried to reason with him and explain that it wasnt an addiction or anything, finally he got really mad, told me he had another family, a lot of expenses and then just stopped talking to me and ofc sending money. (Wouldnt answer emails/phone and the last thing he told me was that he was gonna stop sending me money so i should get a job again asap). Since i couldnt keep studying i decided to give poker for a living a try before searching for a job that would make me unhappy. (I was also devastated because of how he acted, we had a really good thing going on and for him to just drop everything so suddenly was really ****ed up for me, my pride has to this day made me not try to contact him again)
Neways, I got an offer for a spot in a stake deal for MTTs with a good friend of mine who was crushing the mid stakes. I learned the format for a couple of months, ended up winning $800 overall in a eurosite but since I was playing for a living that was not enough to cover my expenses, that and being a complete ignorant to MTTs variance made my mindset to crush constantly (“why do I run so bad”, “I hate this game”, “im better than most of this fishes but I never win flips”). My friend finally ended up the deal because he just couldn’t stand my whining and my bad attitude (and I cant blame him, I was really stupid)
After that a poker friend offered me a 180s stakr deal on his new project and again I accepted, the format was kinda close to MTTs and variance was a bit lower so I thought it would be great to make some money like that. I ran horribly, I whined a lot, I lost around $600 on the 2.5s and then my friend’s partner kicked me out of the stable. During all this process my mindset was on my bottom low, I felt like a complete loser, a failure, a terrible player. And of course, I swallowed my whole savings account trying this. I pretty much failed while trying to achieve my dream, mainly because of my weak mindset.
With the little money I had left I started searching for a job but I got into heavy depression because of all this things and fear of maybe having to go to my moms house for some time. Finally a close friend asked me for my 18mans result back in the day and told me that he could pay for 1 month of my bills if I could try to play 18mans 3.5s, since it was a freeroll and he was gonna give me some intense coaching sessions (hes a winner at 15s-30s) and since im a stubborn dick I decided to accept.
I started playing in august and the stake lasted until the 1st day of October (he had to stop staking me but by that time I had already made a little roll of 50bi to keep playing by myself)
Graphs:
August (Staked and getting the feel for the game again)
Spoiler:
September (Staked just making volume, started drifting and didnt realize for 7 days. fixed it now)
Spoiler:
October (so far): (Not staked)
Spoiler:
And here i am now, during all this year i lost contact with a lot of my friends (obviously because i became a cranky depressed idiot after all my mistakes) but i am in the process of recovering most of them, i am also in a 5 years relationship with my gf and shes very happy that i finally understood how **** goes down and how my mindset affects everything around me, we are going through better times now and im happy for that. (We dont live together, she feels that i should follow my dreams, she likes to pay her own stuff when we go out, my only bills are my rent, a lady that comes to clean my house 2 times a week, my internet and my food. Thats close to $300 per month).
Oh i forgot to say, i live in a big house with 3 roommates, we are all close friends, gamers and they are like my brothers, they also helped me realize a lot of **** that i couldnt see for myself.
Rules:
- Always 200bi minimum on my stars account ($700).
- Only play 18mans and 235 sats for rakeback.
- Make minimum cashes of $300 each month.
- 12 tables min, 16 tables max.
- 7 Free days a month max.
- Make updates to this thread at least once every 2 days (every day if possible).
My goals for this month:
- 2.5k Sngs by the end of the month
- 140 Sngs a day the whole week of Golden Sngs, 100 sngs other days
- Do not tilt
- 2 Hours of checking HHs/Studying the game
- Spend time with my gf/friends.
Goals for the end of the year:
- 1.5k on my dollars bank account
- 800 dollars on my soles bank account (thats like 2k in national currency)
- Open up a new savings account and take 2% or every cashout/win i make to create a fund for something special that i would need.
Special Goal:
I am currently looking to reach Top20 in sharkscope “2013 Winnings – Any game 2 to 3 tables - $2.01-5“ I know its kind of a dumb goal since everyone should climb into the next stake (7s) when you win enough but I have close to no money saved now and I will feel better once I get some money into my bank accounts, 3.5s seems like the easy and no risk way of making that happen. I will not change that until i am happy enough with my economic situation.
Numbers!:
Spoiler:
Cliffs:
- Played poker for a hobby while having a job.
- Met my dad for the first time while 21, he offered to pay for me to get a degree in communications
- He got mad because i played poker and just dissapeard, left me with no job, couldnt finish career and only savings.
- Tried playing poker a living, failed miserably at MTTs and then 180s
- Ate up all my savings, was busto and got into a deal for the game i used to play before meeting my dad, 18mans.
- Things went great, stake ended in october, made decent money, playing with my own money now.
- Looking to get money back and be succesful at poker.
LETS DO THIS.
Feedback appreciated, gl to everyone!.
Last edited by Carreira; 10-10-2013 at 08:54 PM.
10-14-2013
, 06:27 PM
October 13-14th:
I couldnt grind yesterday, woke up with an annoying hangover and i had to go visit my family so i decided to take the day free and sleep early for today.
Played: 101
Profit: $141.51
The bad thing?. I couldnt get any goldens..
The good thing?. I believe i ran good this last 100 sngs, won most flips, made a few suckouts, didnt ran "godmode" but was pretty good so i cant complain.
Im going out now to eat dinner with my mother and catch up, ill come back to review my games (should review them even when im winning).
I might get a session going because of the goldens (since i said ill try 140 sngs per day this week) but if i do it ill post results next update.
Im not pushing myself today to sick volume because of having to go out with my mom, ill definitely get more games going tomorrow.
gl to everyone at the tables and thx for following my thread! <3
Btw Nujabes discography worked wonders today, definitely recommend listening to his music, he was a god.
10-18-2013
, 08:07 PM
I decided to start making updates every 3 or 4 days since i dont wanna spam the thread a lot.
Update October 15-18th
Played: 299
Profit: $102.98
I had a good monday, things worked great and i won a lot, then i had a really hard morning session on tuesday, basicly i only got one 4th in 28 sngs, most of them cEV spots that i couldnt win or hands that couldnt hold so it wasnt a big deal. After that ive been kind of breaking even but after running really good at the start of the month i cant complain at all.
I took one free day to actually sit down with icmizer and saw like 40 different hands with a friend, i realized that i might be calling regs too light in spots i shouldnt, even tho im ahead of their range ICM generally suggests a fold so i should follow that.
Neways, gotta keep grinding. Oh, i got a 2x golden on tuesday but lost it on a flip before ITM ;_;.
This is how the month is going so far, still got 13 days to grind!.
Motivation image i use as a background now!:
Update October 15-18th
Played: 299
Profit: $102.98
I had a good monday, things worked great and i won a lot, then i had a really hard morning session on tuesday, basicly i only got one 4th in 28 sngs, most of them cEV spots that i couldnt win or hands that couldnt hold so it wasnt a big deal. After that ive been kind of breaking even but after running really good at the start of the month i cant complain at all.
I took one free day to actually sit down with icmizer and saw like 40 different hands with a friend, i realized that i might be calling regs too light in spots i shouldnt, even tho im ahead of their range ICM generally suggests a fold so i should follow that.
Neways, gotta keep grinding. Oh, i got a 2x golden on tuesday but lost it on a flip before ITM ;_;.
This is how the month is going so far, still got 13 days to grind!.
Spoiler:
Motivation image i use as a background now!:
Spoiler:
