I feel I need to start putting my thoughts infront of some audiance. Poker can be so overwhelming. Feel like if I have to present something in front of public, I clear my mind around it. Also probably if I write something very stupid someone will tell me - thats stupid go hide somewhere which will be pretty helpful. I don't have any poker friends IRL and feel like I have so much in my head that I have to put somewhere and hopefully even clarify it for me.

Of course I want to be a pro. I just can't imagine any other way to make money that will be as fulfilling as poker. Imo if anyone could just say "I want to be a poker pro" and he instantly becomes a winning player, everyone in the world would be a poker player. Joking here, I know there are books written about the topic of what makes people love their job and stuff. But still poker seems to be a pretty nice option.

Ok, now about first topic - Building a Process.
The idea is from https://www.runitonce.com/poker-trai...eo-skeleton-t/

My biggest problem with poker so far is that I can't play volume. Why I can't play? Because I don't believe I am actually a winning player and when I breakeven for just 2 weeks the huge self-doubt kicks in. No surprise. I don't have the confidence in that what I do is enough to be a poker pro. I don't even know what is enough to be a poker pro? What it takes? What one should do on a daily basis to make sure that in 6 months or less he will be a 5bb+ winner at 100nl? And imo it should be possible that a complete newbie, just learned about the game can win at 100nl in 6 months if he has a great coach. And having that confidence in what you do is imo the best thing one can do for his "mental game". It destroys the bad feeling that you have when you are in a downswing. Like, why would I even care when I lose 20bi in the last 3 weeks if I have a solid plan with BRM and I know that my play is actually winning and I know that that in the next 3 months I will still profit $9000 just because I have that winrate. If I know that, I promise I will show up everyday and play the # of hands I have to and won't feel any bad feelings. I would say I will be super happy - I am making my money from poker and I have no doubts about it. That's the idea with having a process - breaking the amorphous “skill” into small, manageable pieces and knowing that what you do is good enough to achieve a particular goal.

In the next post I will try to build that wonderful thing. Gl me.