Trying to get to some of these questions. Havent forgot about ya.
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Originally Posted by h_ven
How do you feel after a long tennis match after working up a good sweat? I would imagine pretty good. On your off tennis days, go for a run, pump some iron, do anything physical.
Smtimes the tennis actually relaxes me, and smtimes I hv experienced discomfort during a match. Afterwards, usually gd. I hv been taking ur advice and doing some nightly jogs in the neighborhood. I do think these jogs help.
*I haven't been able to go to Planet Fitness in a long time because I'm been experiencing a lot of anxiety there...actually about wipeout on the treadmill.
I'm paid up for the rest of the year, but haven't been in 3 months, and don't think I can go back until I get a handle of this.
-Church is another place I'm been experiencing triggers. Instead of going last Sunday, our family just decided it wd b better to watch the live stream online. I owe a lot to my family for being so supportive. I feel like a big burden!
-During levels 3-6 at HPO event 1 I thought I was going to have to sit in the truck and get blinded out until I cd recover. But, fought through some anxiety issues there even though it was an excruciating mental war! Level 6 and beyond was no prob. J
ust another reason I shdnt do tourneys. This is really getting out of control! I read book last night about conquering anxiety, and it was stating that anxiety stems from unexpressed anger that hasn't been worked out. Or, negative feelings that have been repressed. My only prob is, I have no idea what negative repressed feelings I shd b working through. I love my life, so mayb it's something else. Thyroid? Low blood sugar? Chemical imbalance? Who the f knows! It's hard to go through a day wo some sort of anxiety. My competitive nature won't let me give up. I want to beat this just as bad as I want to beat the other 8 players at my table!
-On a gd note, I did make it through dinner at a Pizza Restaurant called BoomBozz last Saturday!
Hopefully I can make through the poker sessions this wk. I do feel pretty comfortable w the day crowd and playing w people I know. It's hasn't been too terribly bad.
The 9 min anxiety session a few wks back came on a night sesh which cd hv been a factor.
From the outside looking in, ur prob like "dude get over it, don't b such a puss". Yeah I know, but it's not that easy for me. Working on it. Praying on it.
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Originally Posted by MastaAces
Pics of shaggy beard (when the time comes) or else!
Thinking about it.
not ready right now.
I can give u a written description for now. The beard looks flat out awful! A few grays on the chin, and rest of it black. I'm envy of all those gd looking lumberjacks that have nice beards. Because mine looks like I'm growing peubs on my face!
Lots of curlies. The #nocashnoshave may b the most regrettable thing I've ever said. Every time I look in the mirror I see tourney disappointment. This really blows. It's a love/hate relationship right now. The fam hates it, and the misses thinks I look homely. The dealers in the poker room prob think I went off the mental cliff. W everything going on, I think I actually hv....
Perhaps "Shaggy", or the tourneys bricks, cd be the reason for all this anxiety! #Lightbulbmoment.
Lord help me!
As for the other posts...I greatly appreciate all the help, critique, feedback, kind words, and the positive encouragement. If anyone wd like a Cmas card from me, pm ur address. It's the least i can do to show my appreciation.
None of this was proofread/get over it
Rayz