nice, i ll watch out for you

I usually have a stop/loss-limit at the tables so I quit for the day after i drop e.g. 7,5 buyins or so.

so yesterday was definately decent loss day for me.

Sunday was not so good for me either. I managed to cash the Sunday Rebuy (720$) i came 20th in the 8$R 2x turbo (11k uptop-250$), the million (290$) and I came 3rd in the Hot50 on Stars.fr (1570€ ~ 2k$ with around 4k$ ftw)

I also made around 800$ in 1000 hands on zoom so overall I cashed around 4000$ and I had approx. 6000$ in buyins, so an "ok" sunday i guess.

I ll just keep quoting this until it will turn around.
Cause at the moment it just doesnt.

11th 55$R ongame
12th 33$Rebuy
8th big 50
8th Hot 50
6th T-Rex (8000$ ftw)
12th Multi fifty
37th 22$ Cubed
8th 100€1R1A stars.fr (14500$ ftw)

9th 33$1R1A
9th 55$Rebuy Ongame ( Hey 2 places better than the session before)
10th 55$Rebuy Ipoker
22nd 109$ turbo Stars
22nd 22$1R1A stars
54th hot 44

busted 109$Rebuy 5 off money and 109$1R1A like 8 off the money.

I can't believe this run!!! It will turn around... Won't it ?

Ha yeah feels really devastating. For the average buyin of 90-110$ I m playing its really not that much MU i m in atm( around 16-17k i d assume), but the fact I m in MU alone is pretty ridiculous.
Think i could easily be up between 20k-30k or more last 2-3 weeks with some rungood :-(

EV shud be at least somewhere in that area assuming I m making around 25-35% ROI in the tourneys I play ( take into consideration that a lot of sickos are gone atm).

I m at my parents until sunday, so taking a few days off now, trying to refocus, might play some small zoom sessions if I feel like it.

Hopefully I will have a good run this sunday.
I also need cash to go to WPT cyprus, EPT/Estrella Barcelona at beginning of september, as well as a future Vegas trip in september.

Staking team is downswinging also at the moment.
Not looking too good atm unfortunately, but .....

Huge sunday upcomming.

Hopefully i can make it happen.

7th in Sunday Highroller on Stars.fr.

-4000$ awesome day. fml

Had a pretty sick Session with a bunch of deep runs once again, this time however I managed to take one tourney down and therefore show a profit of around 5k$ in the end.

Deep runs:

12th 109$ 2x turbo
19th Big Ben on FTP
1st Winamax 100 € 6max for 6000$
18th 22$ 1R1A
15th and 36th in Multi Fifty on FTP ( cashed both entrys again )
36th hot 50 on Stars.fr
27th Hot 100 on Stars.fr
5th in the 55$Rebuy on Ipoker for around 1044$ ( finally FTed this bitch )

congrats on the score much more of those to come I am sure

Thanks

Decided to skip the Super Tuesday and the tuesday grind, as I wanted to avoid the variance.

Went to the cinema with some friends and after railed some friends.
Played some zoom for the first time last 2 weeks for about an hour and had an awesome session:



Will be taking some days off and learn/study for university.

Next session prlly on saturday, maybe smaller one on thursday.

Taking a day off

update nowwwwwwww

(:

Good week so far. Chased around 11500$ MU in 2 sessions.


Yesterday had some decent scores again.

Came 2nd in a 82$ Hyper TUrbo for 2800$, and I can call myself the reigning BIg 27,5 champion
Shipped it for around 5k --- > Winning red tournaments!


I also had 2 more deep runs, finishing 13th in a 109$ turbo - 17,5k and 19th in the Hot 22.

Definately nice week so far, will be playing my next session on saturday and hopefully can continue to win some $ and pay back my entire MU

haha... dude in the gif looks like peter lustig

nice ship. gl

3rd Benjamin for 2,2k
18th Hot 75
5th in 33$Rebuy on Stars for 900
12th in 10€Rebuy on stars.fr
16th Tyrannosaurus Rex on FTP


Spewed it off infinit bad in the T-rex where i knew that villain had QQ on 89AK8 and tried to get him off the hand on the river instead of turn or flop,played my hand terrible and cant be more pissed about this huge mistake :-/

Again loads of deep runs and only 2 FTs this time, but really cant complain too much,
made around 10$ in the end lololol.

played 8 hours, down 6,5k

40 tourneys, one cash

Decided to try zoom after, played 8 (!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!) hands , lost 2 buyins, decided to quit for the day

Decided to skip entire week.
Played yesterday though and shipped the 100€ on Winamax for 3000€ ~ 3800$.
Had a few more cashes as well but didnt really profit a lot more than 1000$ or something

Grinding today again

Sunday was terrible once again as usual.

I built up a ton of different stacks and nothing went through.
I got a high amount of bubble finishes e.g. 1030th in Sunday Million with 990 paid or 110th in 888 Mega deep with 90 paid where I loose TT to A6s bvb.
Also I bricked very shortly before a package win for Estrella Barcelona where I come 20th with 12 packages :-/

22$ 74th
55$ 2x turbo 41nd
109$ 2x turbo 48th
25$ hyper 6 max 49th
109$ -30k on Ipoker 32nd
90$ 1R on 888 -> 22nd (loose QQ to JJ and can add another 25k$ ftw Major to my list of final 2 and final 3 table finishes this year)


I made day 2 in the Winamax Major and the Sunday Special on stars .fr

Maybe I can make something happen tomorrow.

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I ve recently thought a lot about the current poker situation and how the year has been going for me.
At the start of the year I had a very decent bankroll for the stakes I was playing and started to improve every day working very hard on my game.
I studied a lot of cash game situation and have improved insanely in deepstack play and theoretical aspects like range building and other GTO stuff.
I learnt so much from talking to other very strong regs and watching videos, doing calculating that I can comfortably say that I am now on top of my game and have never been as good.
It should however be more than clear that there are tons of regs that are a lot better than me and that I still need to improve a lot.

I ve played somewhere around 3000-4000 MTTs this year with an ABi of 75$
That means around 225k -300k in online buyins with an expected ROI of at least 25% which is probably on the lower side for me I should be somewhere between 55k and 75k in Profits.
As we all know that is not how you can calculate EV in MTTs as the sample is kind of small however since I have dropped around 50k from my own bankroll online and during live trips and am still around 15k in MU it is more than obvious that I am running somewhere between 90k -150k under EV this year total including live and online.
I have gotten very close to huge scores multiple times this year ( Just to mention two final 2 tables in the Sunday Million) and got fked over every single time, I am aware of the variance that comes with this game but the last seven and a half month have just been insanely depressing resultswise .

It has been a very similar situation with my staking stable.
To be fair we had an insane beginning of the year. From January to April we increased our net worth by around $60000.
Since then we had a huge breakeven stretch with a lot of MU grinding.
There has almost been no profit even though we have hired decent coaches for the stable and we are coaching as much as possible.
We did increase our net worth since april, however it was basically MU grind, as the cash that came in from people paying back MU or making small profits where directly going into reloads from other members of the stable, lowering the available cash/cashflow a lot.

At the moment we are trying to get smaller again and refocus our stable towards MTTs, as our former cash cows, the 180 grinders, have been slacking a lot and haven’t profited forever.

I have performed very ****ty in the university as well. At the moment I am in the very uncomfortable situation of having only one try left in the toughest exam of the bachelor major.
It’s about operation research and optimizing linear programs etc.
I know that my parents are extremly disappointed how my university career has been going however they have been very supportive with money and life advice.
They are not aware of how big of a roll poker plays in my life at the moment and my bad grades in university are mainly caused by my poker life and somehow i feel very, very guilty about it.


I will be writing my bachelor thesis from October on and want to focus as much as possible, as well as take the risk of ruining my entire bachelor study by failing the third try in that one exam. If I fail, I will not be able to study general management anywhere in Germany or similar majors with economics.



As you can see I am on an all time low at the moment, not game wise, but where I stand in my life and for my undecided future.
I therefore have made a very tough decision for me, but I realized it is probably a good one for me personally.
I have decided to play poker until the 31st of September, and If my downswing doesn’t turn around until then and If I haven’t made a decent amount of my losses back I will take a long break from poker.
Minimum time amount is going to be 9 month or maybe forever.
I will keep coaching my horses and working in the stable but I will be blocking my stars account and other sites as well if possible.



This year has shown me that playing poker professionally has always been a desire for me; it has given me the opportunity to travel to so many different places, buy stuff I could not afford before and enjoy life in so many different ways; however the downside and negative effects have been extreme as well.
I have always been a person that likes to compete in life with others and in everything where you can find some sort of competition, I ve tried my hardest to become one of the best, especially in sports and computer games, however there has never been anything as intense as poker.
It is extremly tough to have a balanced life when you are a full time grinder. YOu have to spend hours working on your game and playing it. You want to spend as much time with the people you love, specificly your girlfriend, as well as your best friends and then ontop you need to perform well in university.
I think I have realized that as long as your run good, it’s the best job in the world, but there are not a lot of other jobs in the world where you can spend thousands of hours working and still loose a huge amount of money and unfortunately for me I had to experience that the hard way this year and the emotional stress can become overwhelming.


I probably have the best girlfriend in the world, we have been together for over 5 years now and she has been insanely understanding with the entire poker thing. I go to bed at 5 or 6 am sometimes and she wakes up an hour later to go to school, however she never complains about it.
There is a point in life where some of your own decisions affect the life of your partner and your family, and I feel like if I keep chasing the dream there might be a point of no return which might be ruining a lot of things.
She will be done with her education in the next summer, and if everything goes well I will be done with my bachelor as well. Since my grades are not good enough for a master place in Germany we will have to move to a different country.
It will be decided during the next 2 month if poker is still a part of my life then or not.

Countdown

GL man. Hope it all works out for ya!

well, thats poker, gl man.

Could you post like a Yearly Graph or something? :P

Also I dont know if you have mentioned this before, but how many ppl do you have in your stables, and whats your overall profit from it so far?

hope everything goes well for you, cool thread. you seem really mature for 21

Thanks guys

I ll post a yearly graph on the 1st of october.

At the moment we have around 25-27 players in the stable. Most of them play micro - lowstakes and the better players play up to 100$ MTTs.
It's kind of tough to estimate overall profit. Overall I put in 2500$, currently we have a net worth (Bankrolls,MU,available funds) in the smaller 6 digit area and I "own" 33% of that.
I would assume there has been cashouts ontop of that for around $17500-$25000, maybe more.
Very tough to estimate as I never really tracked it.

As far as plans for this week pokerwise, I will be playing my two day 2 tourneys tonight and see If I can comeback from my shortstacks.
I will be receiving some coaching from twomountains on tuesday, It is something that I plan on doing more frequently again, I have worked with a bunch of coaches since I started playing, however noone has been nearly as good as him in terms of understand poker and being able to explain it.
He is a sicko and If you need a cashgame coach I would recommend him for sure.
Other than that I will be writing an exam on saturday and probably wont play before besides some small cashgame sessions.

Cheers and good luck playing.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Vxudx5Nbxks

Good Luck mate!

Those are some pretty impressive graphs