In other news, 6-bet has turned into a side hustling therapist offering the most sound advice.

Only two options here:

- he didn't play today, because [insert random excuse here].

- he busted his deposit and is back on the diablo-grind.

Whatever the reason, we'll probably get the pleasure of another goal oriented post followed by 0 action. Hopefully he's just on the Diablo grind without losing a bunch. More ev there.

Whatever the reason or excuse is/are, we will be satisfied.

He's trying to figure out what to pat himself on the back for, and what excuses to provide for the things he didn't do that actually matter. Then he'll ignore all advice given and thank some of the trolls for their support.

A day of procrastination

Didn't play yesterday sadly. I just wasn't feeling it. I procrastinated a lot, played a bunch of online chess and watched some YouTube.

I didn't even gain anything from chess either. Like I wasn't even playing serious games... Just hundreds of bullet and ultrabullet games, where your goal is effectively to move the mouse as fast as possible and just win on time. This is a complete and utter waste of time. You don't even get better at chess by doing this.

I went out twice, for lunch and dinner. Got a bunch of sushi for dinner and made a prop bet with some friends on how much they thought the dinner was worth. In total, the sushi cost $60, but I lost another $25 from the prop bet because they guessed within the correct price range. That was the only gambling I did today.

Then I played this game called "Love Letter" in the evening with some friends over zoom video chat whilst having a few beers. That was fun at least and taught me a new game, so wasn't a complete waste of time like the 15 second chess games, but still not that productive either.

So yeah... Another day goes by and I achieved nothing. Time wasted, money wasted. I didn't even gym yesterday either, so I can't even say I looked after my health.

Not feeling good about this. But oh well. I guess it's better to waste a day doing nothing, than spend a day doing destructive things.

+1

So are you accepting that you're lazy? Is this the best you can do?

Yeah, once again you waste time by doing nothing. Its called running away from taking action in your life.When are you gonna face the real questions in your life and stop running away?

Like how long have you been living with your mom now, and for how long are you comfortable doing that at your age? What are you going to do in order to make money longterm? (and no its not gonna be poker and you know that too deep inside).Are you gonna seek professional help soon to get your mental stuff investigated/sorted out? Why did you donk away so much of your bankroll on stupid stuff recently, like for example playing in a big homegame you was no where near bankrolled for?

The below you may not view as "destructive" but it's incredibly irresponsible and destructive.

It's just another 1% of the life roll gone while you're not attempting to make money when you could've spent $10-$15aud on a small meal for you and your wife.

Would you not go to a normie office job or something simply because you "weren't feeling it"?

If you want poker to be your job, you should treat it as such. Otherwise you are just an unemployed lazy ass.

How do you play Love Letter? That sounds fun.

Youtube and sushi, you are living the life man! What types of videos do you watch the most often?

Why the **** do you go out to buy an expensive lunch when presumably you have a house full of food?

Just leave this part out and it would be a big mindset improvement

I just hate cooking. Plus food that I cook never tastes anywhere near as good as food that I buy, nor is it as healthy.

Yeah we played it online with 3 of us: me, Aussie Jim and Poker Coach guy.

With YouTube, I sort of go through phases where I binge watch one particular channel or genre. It might be chess videos, investing videos, finance videos, self-help videos, maths puzzle videos, Warcraft 3 videos, etc.

I know... If it was a normal job, I would've been fired by now.

I feel like a complete failure.

You're right... even that was pretty destructive.

I just didn't know what I wanted to eat. Like I was hungry but there wasn't anything in particular that I was craving. I didn't feel like eating the same food over again, but I didn't even know what I wanted, so I just went with sushi because I figured I haven't had seafood in a while.

I didn't even get that much happiness out of the $60 I spent on it. It was just like meh, at least I'm no longer hungry now.

I don't really like to use the word "lazy", because when I think of that word, I think of a fat guy sitting in front of a TV, his body is relaxed, he's eating pizza and having a good time. I don't picture a skinny guy who's panicking about time going past and not achieving much, and beating himself up over procrastinating so much.

But yeah, I guess if you really want to use that word, you could describe me as such. I'm trying to change though.

I'm not comfortable. Who said I was comfortable? Who said I was content with being unproductive and procrastinating each day?

There's nothing comfortable about telling yourself every minute of the day "in 2 minutes I'll start doing something productive... Wait, 2 more minutes... Wait, just another 2 minutes."

The entire day I felt guilty. The entire day I felt bad that I was wasting time. I didn't feel the slightest bit comfortable or good about what I was doing. But I did it anyway, because I couldn't help it. It was a bad habit that was so ingrained within me that I just kept doing it. Like an addiction.

Man I f**king hate myself sometimes. I wish I could just be normal.

The only hour of the day when I actually felt comfortable was in the evening, just before sleep, when I drank a few beers and played Love Letter over video chat. The beers helped me relax.

You go out get the food and pay for it yet nobody else in the house can be bothered to cook it?

So gym lasted a week? Guess that's better than poker which lasted 2 hours. The important thing is you're fighting The Man and not giving in to the normie lifestyle. Keep up the good fight.

In seriousness, stop playing the victim / pity card. If you were a close mate of mine I'd tell you to go join the army reserves to get some self discipline.

So if youre not comfortable living with your mom, why arent you turning every freaking stone in order to get out of that situation?

Why arent you working your ass off every hour awake to get your own apartment?

When you just sit on your ass and do nothing, i guess you are comfortable enough to stay in the same spot.

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Ok, you are making some progress : it is the first time you considered normal to something to gun for This said, you usually follow moments of clarity with delusion, so I am not holding my breathe...

OP, SERIOUS QUESTION : have you made an appointment with a psychologist? Have you at least asked friends or consulted online for a recommendation?

Nah still going to the gym actually. Went 3 times last week and twice this week so far. And I'm planning on going today. That's the one productive habit I've stuck to.

Yeah tbh I've considered joining the army at many points in my life. It doesn't sound like too bad of an option.

That's what I don't get. Obviously he's not happy with his lifestyle so why not make a change?

6Bet, have you ever thought of being a normie? You should give it a try, it might just be what you need. You get used to doing a 9-5 every day after a while. It happens to most people when they get their first job out of college.

You never want to hear someone say they hate themselves.

This thread is fascinating case in peoples joy in relentlessly pointing out others flaws, been no content anywhere near interesting and yet it's the most popular.
Imagine a psychologist would have a field day with everyone

Sticking to a gym routine is a step in the right direction. I'd suggest picking a solid program e.g. starting strength or stronglifts 5x5 as an example and following through. It will provide much needed structure (and make you strong in the meantime).

As for poker, let's be real here, it doesn't sound like you love it as much as you tell yourself you do.

Nah haven't booked any appointments yet. I've been procrastinating that too...

A part of me thinks that if I just keep going to the gym, that will be the solution. It will bring oxygen to my brain, help me to act rationally and get me into a good routine.

The weird thing about poker is: I feel that I love the game when I can't afford to play, but I get bored of the game when I actually have a proper bankroll to play with.

Unless I'm drunk. I usually always enjoy poker when I'm drunk, for some reason.