He explained it. He was over the monotonous grind so needed to switch it up for entertainment.

you miss the point entirely

yes, I suppose I did, care to enlighten me?

i didn't get the feeling that he had really thought through much beyond "i'm going to bluff him for the rush"

are you always bluffing with a spade in your hand?

Possible name for series 3..

"Escape from Mums basement - This time it's PIOsonal"

How many tournaments have you played? How many will you need to play to achieve your long run win rate? Do you think maybe binking 200 buy ins in under 20 tournaments means you're running good?

Disclaimer: I'm not good at poker. Running pio sims without knowing your vpip seems like learning to run before you walk.

probably not bluffing a king with a spade in my hand, but I'd be bluffing 99s, it's quite possibly the very best hand to be bluffing with

Almost busted online accounts

Almost busted my online accounts. I'm disappointed because I've never in my life had to make a single deposit into PokerBros... But now, it looks like I'll probably have to.

I put a bunch of money aside which I told myself I'd never touch until live poker reopens... A clean $10k AUD, separate from the rest of my liferoll money.

When I started losing and losing, I panicked and sat in a $2/$4/$8 game on PokerBros. I needed a quick win to recover my 100nl bankroll without needing to redeposit. Things were going well until I stacked off with 70% equity, my opponent refused to run it multiple times and he got there in a $700 USD pot.

I don't even know the exact numbers of how much I won/lost at each stake yesterday, but I estimate it was something like:
Total = lost $900 USD
Tournaments = lost $300
100nl = lost $600
200nl = won $400
400nl (with mandatory $8 straddle) = lost $400

Since I only had slightly over $1k USD in the accounts left yesterday morning, it's mostly gone now.

There's something psychologically hard about redepositing... Like when the money is in my Bros account, it's just poker money and it's not the end of the world if I lose it. But when I've made a withdrawal and locked that money away in my savings, it feels like it's "real money" which represents my real world dreams: buying a house, buying a car, going travelling, etc.

So I feel like a part of me dies every time I have to take money out of the special savings account I've locked up and planned not to spend.

Oh well. I guess I need to just suck it up and make that deposit. The only other alternative is quitting poker altogether, if I'm too afraid to lose what I have, but I don't see that road leading anywhere good.

With your epic degeneracy, poker ain't leading to anywhere good either. You gotta pull that mental game together to have a chance of survival in poker. Why you've never replied to others about getting mental coaching or even looking into some poker videos of that sort when it's obviously your biggest leak is baffling. gl

This is so sad

Total trainwreck. Wow.

dude this is a very very big leak, you take shot at higher games when you're on a heater, not the other way around, you don't chase losses at higher stakes, you chase them at lower stakes if anything

Man I can sort of understand this if you were a rec. with another really good source of income - I've been there and done this myself, albiet after a fair few whiskies and it actually paid off, but I could afford to lose the money without it affecting my life at all. Poker seems to be all you've got going for you and your only way of income - you REALLY shouldn't be doing this. If I were in your shoes and I just had to make a real go of poker then I'd be studying the best content available plus obsessive HH/Pio study and I'd be extremely strict with my BRM. I'm sorry to break it you, but you are a confirmed gambling addict looking for the easiest $'s possible - you clearly need some sort of revolution to your mental state, but unfortunately I don't think there's anything that I or anyone else can say here that will do that. I guess you just need to figure sh*t out for yourself

Have you ever tried meditation?

Don't understand the constant need to jump stakes when you lose a bit. If you actually had an edge in the games you're playing, you would simply grind through it. I think deep down, you know you're not good enough to beat the game. The only reason you won previously was because of a massive heater.

You love to see it

Obv the reason you failed is because you only gave yourself a measly one buyin shot at 400nl. redeposit, fire up 4 1k tables, and you’ll be back in no time like the winning player you are

There's no way he has 10k in a bank account, right? That's just him lying and when called out he'll be like "No no, I said I PUT 10k in there, not that that's what's in there now..."

Congrats, now stop being a bum, forget the pipe dreams and get a job.

Its an absolute classic thing to do as a gambling addict. Chasing losses in a desperate way to try and quickly win back the money you lost or to get your bankroll back to its peak.

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6bet imagines that top Melbourne pros live an exciting baller lifestyle and are admired far and wide for their poker skills. That fantasy is not going to be met by taking on some normie job and grinding his way into a comfortable lifestyle.

Telling 6bet to get a job is like telling a child that he's never going to be James Bond.

Kind of.

Like I haven't really done any formal meditation where you sit down for a set amount of time, listen to your breathing, etc.

But I do daydream a lot. Like I'll sit in bed for 1 hour and look around the room and let my mind drift and think deep thoughts. Or I'll go for a walk in the bush by myself and I'll let my mind wander. I might think about my life, different directions I took, how things would be different if I didn't have one particular problem, etc. And sometimes, I'll imagine myself in a different world; a different universe. I'll imagine myself if I got transported to the medieval times and I had to live in the 1300's. How would I cope without internet? What would my lifestyle be like? And I'll go into a tonne of detail. It's not just a passing thought but like, I'll spend 45 mins obsessing over it lol. I'll actually have a full conversation in my head about it. That kind of thing.

So if that kind of daydreaming counts as meditation, then yes, I meditate a lot.

I do have $10k AUD locked away. It's a shame though because at my peak, I would've had well over $25k AUD. And that was only about a month ago. Easy come, easy go.

I talk about my losses all the time. If anything, I think I'm more honest than most people about my losses. I don't disappear when I'm on a downswing. I rant about it right here, in this thread.

That's very results-oriented thinking. The truth is, I had no idea when I'd reach my peak. How did I know not to call it quits after I'd successfully paid off all my debts and had about $5k AUD? Or when I was at my true peak of $25k+ AUD? How do I know my new heater won't start today?

You can never know when you're at your peak. But yes, in hindsight, I would obviously have preferred to have taken my money and ran, rather than lost most of it in the past month.

I thought he'd have a bunch of sets and KQ type hands. And I expected pretty much all of them to fold to the river jam, unless he happened to be trapping with a flush.

Yeah I'm actually really happy that none of my in-laws have had any problems recently. This would be a rough time for me to try to help them.

Yeah I didn't stick to my plan, I know My logic is though that I didn't even have enough money on my accounts to play 5+ tables of 100nl at once, so I wanted to hurry up and get my bankroll up to a decent number ($1500+ USD) so that I could go back to playing several tables of 100nl at once and not having to worry about running out of top-up chips midway through a session.

Thank you for the advice. I think you're right.

I just don't know any mental coaches around and I'm hesitant to buy another course. It seems like few people can truly empathise with me. And if they can't understand my problems, then they probably can't help me.

That's why I'm leaning towards seeing a psychologist instead.

Thank you.

It happened because my bankroll got too low. If I still had $5k sitting in the account, I could just ignore the losses and move on. But constantly seeing this message pop up on my screen "not enough chips to topup" got frustrating. I wanted to hurry up and build my bankroll up, so that I could go back to playing a session and never running out of chips during the session. And that rush to get my bankroll back up is what led me to sit at $1/$2 tables, $50 tourneys and even a $2/$4/$8 table.

Nah I'll never get that bad. I'm always aware of what I'm doing, on some level. Like I know when I'm tilting, I know when I'm spewing, etc. I make mistakes, but I'm aware of them and I make efforts to fix them. When I spew, I'll post the HH here and I'll accept whatever judgement comes my way. I don't hide it or cover it up.

Paisting refuses to acknowledge his problems. He is selective with what HHs he posts and will never post ones where he played bad. He covers up many parts of his life. He is lifetime down and still, to this day, refuses to admit that he doesn't have the capacity to beat the games he plays.

We're not comparable. Not even close.

I'm definitely running hot at tourneys, I'll admit. I couldn't tell you off the top of my head how many I've played or what my ROI is though. But I'm up a lot.

My opening ranges are kind of close to what Upswing recommends. Maybe I'm slightly on the looser side, especially when it comes to 3betting pre, but I think my ranges are "good enough". Could they be improved? Yes. Is it going to produce major catastrophic changes to my win rate and my bankroll if I work on them? Probably not.

Even if I was a winning player at 1000nl, it would be suicide for me to play when I basically just have a 7 buyin bankroll.

Now is a bad time to apply for jobs. There's tougher competition applying for a job at Domino's Pizza than there is at 100nl on the apps.

I don't expect to get ultra rich from poker. I'm not dreaming of owning a mansion and driving a Ferrari.

But I do expect a better lifestyle than I'd get from working as an Uber driver or a pizza delivery driver, which are my most realistic alternatives at this point in time, with my current qualifications and current resume.