Hey guys, sorry for derailing this thread earlier.. I wasn’t trying to. Some of you are spot on with your criticisms.

I just created my own, like some of you have advised me to.

glgl with the grind everyone!

#respectthechessman

This thread is basically dead. Wonder what OP is up to now.

Procrastinating season 3.

1. Finding a way to justify to people itt why he lost more money over the past few days in random idiotic ways.

or

2. Making a list of very achievable goals.

Why can't it be both? Something like "Lost entire life roll on 1k bets with 'mates' on the price of sushi rolls then planned on maybe going to the gym twice this week".

Imagine having a top 1% run and still finding a way to torch most of it off.

lol6betaments

6bet's way of going broke are out of this world... The only thing you can be sure of when starting to follow the season, is that he will indeed go bust... Somehow he finds a way

And this is why I'm his biggest fan. I do all kinds of financially savvy ****. Like I decided I can't be a spectator all my life and just punted a huge amount in the market by shorting a bunch of stocks before everything kept going up last week lmao. Epic degen idiot-move. If it doesn't turn around today, it's total disaster to quote another PG&C-legend. Oh well.

I try hard to be an idiot, but it's quite frustrating to never get to the top of the mountain of unnecessarily going broke-degeneracy and this is where I'm jealous of OP's consistency.

Come on man, it's time for the whiney "haven't-done-****-and-dunno-wat-to-do"-post. If you can't post, because someone died in 6betland or something, I apologize.

Seems like OP have hit close to rock bottom? I guess he have had periods offline before, but i feel like something more is going on this time around with the talk about seing a mental health theraput.

Either that or Fodersneso is right: that OP is soon coming back with another "fresh start with goals he never achieve" post.

Looks like Melbourne is going back to lockdown for another month and a half. Plenty of time to grind again.

OP realised updating this thread is a colossal waste of time for everyone and is taking the optimal decision for everyone to stop updating.

^^ This.

Was for sure more entertaining when he thought 5k was a good bankroll for 2/5

For everyone indeed! I’ve spent an embarrassing amount of time reading and checking this thread. Season 1 and 2. If you’re done 6, thanks for the ride. I can have a part of my life back lol!

This confirmed.

Yeah, this. Which also takes away any ambitions left in his routine of going to the gym. I guess it will be back to video games, chess and avoiding reality/deed-down rooted issues Man, this is the saddest thread on 2 + 2 I must say though, I was pretty impressed that he held up for 3 weeks of that challenge ; not that it means anything now...

He was on 2+2 36 hours ago. When he left the last two times, he didn't stalk. He'll be back.

Don't let this happen, 6bet.

Your most +EV-move is to come back with a strong post and 20k loan now. It will give you peace of mind and put you in a position to crush. Let's go!

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So I take it you haven't read paisting's thread?

Have you heard of a man called 6bet me? I heard he only sleeps 1 hour a night. What a great man he is.

My threshold for the low content that my mind can take, starts and stops with this thread.

Quitting Poker Indefinitely

I've been thinking a lot lately about what it is that truly interests me. And the thing is: my interests change over time, but they all share a few things in common. When I was a 12 years old, I wanted to be a policeman. When I was 18, I wanted to be a mathematician. When I was 21, I wanted to be an actuary. And when I was 24, I wanted to be a professional poker player.

But what I really wanted all along was a fairly niche career that would make me happy, comfortable and respected. I didn't necessarily want to be rich, but I wanted to be highly skilled and passionate about something specific. I wanted to use my problem solving abilities every day, and I wanted to earn the respect of the people around me.

Well, this thread has been a massive fail regarding earning people's respect lol. Tbh, the whole poker profession as a whole doesn't seem that great in that regard. And it's partly me to blame for just not trying hard enough and not pushing through the 35+ buyin downswing, but I also think that the path itself just isn't one that typically attracts kind words and encouragement from others. It becomes a bit of a feedback loop when negative words cause negative feelings which lead to negative actions and then more negative responses from others. And when you look at everything through the dark lens of a downswing, it becomes a bit much at times.

I don't think that poker is really getting me what I want. It's not giving me a sense of happiness or fulfillment anymore. It's not building up my resume and earning me respect from other people. Yes, it's earning me decent money, but that money comes through the form of a 100 buyin rocket to the moon that makes you feel invincible, followed by a 35 buyin knife to the spine that cripples you. It's not a slow, healthy progress of results. It's a stressful, unhealthy endeavour where you don't always feel rewarded for the work you put in. It's hard to feel good when you wake up at 5am, grind for several hours and lose $1k, to make your 9th losing session in a row, and people around you tell you to suck it up or quit.

One thing I'm actually really happy about is that my passion for poker is really beginning to fade, at a time when I can actually afford to quit. Yes, I'm not at my peak net worth anymore, but having gone from overwhelming debt to having $10k I can live off is pretty huge progress, even if the progress was neither slow not steady.

I don't think I'd be able to focus on anything else if poker was still on my mind. I tried to study hard at uni and ignore my poker/gambling feelings in the past, but they'd always come back to bite me. I remember sitting in a class, thinking that I'm happy that I'm not gambling right now and trying to be proud of myself for not skipping class to go to the casino. Like I couldn't just focus on the class itself without having to compare it to the casino, because deep down, the hunger to gamble was still there, and my attempts to ignore it were like a hungry man's attempt to ignore food.

But to have this hunger fade away is a true blessing. This is not a curse - a period of demotivation which I must push through - this is a blessing; an opportunity to finally escape from the world of poker/gambling and finally go back to the old life that I quit when I was halfway through.

I'm also happy that I've reignited my old passion now: maths. I've found tonnes of free courses on the internet, free pdf versions of textbooks and even free recorded lectures from ivy league universities in America, where I can effectively learn an entire degree for free at home, in my own time. I've been working through some of the stuff now and it's starting to really interest me.

I figure if I'm going to go back to uni next year, then I might as well get a head start and learn all the stuff now, in my own time, to make the semesters easier for when I have to do it for real.

The one bad thing that happened though is that, sadly, my city went back into lockdown. It's a shame because I was just starting to make decent gym progress, and now it's closed. Oh well, it was good whilst it lasted, and I'll go for a walk every day to keep at least some level of fitness.

But yeah, I'm pretty excited to go back to the maths/study grind now. I'm going to buy some notebooks and solve through the problems in a real pen and paper book, just like the good old days. This will keep me occupied and will give me a reason to wake up each day.

I don't care which uni I go to next year. I know I'll never get back into a prestigious one like the University of Melbourne again, given my past failures, but that's okay. I've accepted that. Any uni is good enough for me. Any degree is good enough for me. I just want to focus on the maths grind and wherever it leads, it leads.

Thank you to everyone who followed me on this journey. The supporters, the haters, the fans, the lurkers, etc. It was a good ride and I never expected to see this thread blow up so much. You all played a part in that. But now I've reached my destination and it's time I get out of the aeroplane and step foot in the new city I've landed in, metaphorically speaking.

UNE offers mathematics by distance ed and it's ldo covered by HECS / HELP. The course is solid too.