it was like over 120 buying but yeah variance is a bitch.

here is my graph 40k hands

No dice.
Hade like $2k in loans so I returned all of my winnings back to people that I owed.

I know some people in here want to fail, but do not fear cause I wont ****ing give up until i make it.

Its my birthday today!
Celebrating it in proper fashion at the poker tables playing some $1/$1 live games.

My back is really against the wall.
On top of that I got some brutal health issues.

I have been feeling extremely fatigue and tired for the last 6 months... Nothing helps. Absolutely nothing.
Im incredibly frustrated and becoming desperate. Nothing ****ing helps.
It feels like I am living under mud.

Im just 29 I dont want to live like this.
Does anyone got any experience with fatigue? And did it some way get away??

Happy Birthday!
Gl in your journey and at 1/1$.
About fatigue... What does your diet looks like?

Hey thanks bro!
Went ok today, won $100 bucks today which is better than losing eh.

My diet is pretty ordinary, regular food. Nothing out of the usual.
Ive tried everything and nothing ****ing works

Thanks for commenting and checkinng out my poker journal.
If you are reading, don't be shy say hi to your proper degen bro

Yeah man I am ****ing back on track!
Won like a grand yesterday, and now I got a grinding roll.

Right now im off to play Live at the club $1/$1 and its around payday so the games will hopefully be juicy and I will make some great profits!!!!!!!!!!!

LETS ****ING GOOOO

Booked a decent win for like 270 bucks which I get to keep half!
Lets ****ing go SUNDAY tomorrow, Time to CRUSH!!!!

Gahhhh!!!!!
Final tabled both the $82 hyper 7 and the $162 bounty builder, but no dice.
All in all up $1400 today but could be up a substantial amount more.

Man greed is a sick thing, instead of being grateful for locking up a strong Sunday all I feel is disappointment....

Okay Yeah to be honest I should really be happy. Now I am happy, the disappointment has settled.
I got enough cash to pay off my loans, and I got enough cash to buy a iMac.

I was actually busto today, I grinded my roll all the way down to $0, but I never gave up.
Roll at 1850 but I withdraw $450 to pay off loans and maybe to buy the iMac.

Yeah man, this life is crazy. I will be able to make it.

Right now I am considering booking a trip to Malta to play Battle of Malta schedule. If I just ****ing won something today ffs.... Checked trip to Barcelona too to grind live MTTs but all they got rn is a stupid halloween mystery bounty wekeend. I hate mystery bounties, they are the most stupid thing that has happened poker. Like wtf, where is the skill of randomly picking up a bounty? It ****ing ruins the game and people spazz and play like maniacs to fetch bounties. Yeah **** that.

**** that, now I am off to the gym.
Havent been working out for around a month because of this extreme fatigue that I have been suffering from. And honestly depression of the ups and downs of poker.

Going to the gym doesnt feel so compelling when when you are in the hole and got loans to pay back with no money to pay...

where are my haters now?

Lol bro erybody has their day sometimes .... so you sunrun shortterm does not mean anything, you are destined to lose in this game it takes more then just pokerwith and balls.

You have no clue but honestly i hope youre rungood continues and you prove me wrong but i dont think you have what it takes to be a pro and do this 4 a living.

How is 60k hands and 1.3k MTTs short-term?
I got what it takes, I know it.

Roll stands att $2100, won the Big $3.30 yesterday and took 4th in the hot 16.50.

Game starts to feel sharper and sharper, and I keep learning and improving.
Lets ****ing rock this SUNDAY!!!!

Busto post incoming within one week

Thats a risk I am willing to take.
Go hard or go home brother.

don't listen to puntmeister, dude is a legit ******.

Now thats the spirit my ****ing brother

No plz dont listen lol go the Banana way and cry about it later here

Banana can only get pussy when he pays for it

Prob has a face only a mother can love but hey he crushes in his own mind so thats something at least

Lmao too easy. 3 in 1 rage combo, dude has emo control of a toddler. Legit ****** like i said.

What are the chances in the next 5 years of puntmeister killing himself?

you sure about that? maybe they don't even give after payment

U pay them after u **** them. Wtf bro i gotta teach u about hookers too?

Damn this is grade A fighting in my journal.
Keep up the good work

-$600 today.