Fk brm, FK job, all u need is rungood and passion baby cant see this fail its money in the bag bro......

My plan is to get enough of a roll (about €1700) so I can travel to Barcelona 10th of July for the Lex Open.
Solid plan, cant see how this can fail

Well here I am again.
Borrowed money from my ex girlfriends bother ($50) to be able to play a Sunday grind.
Quickly busted all but two tournaments, and now its break so I am letting some steam off by writing here.

Life is going okay now, I have a job which is a great thing because I haven't worked a regular job for two years.
So the 26th I will receive like at least $2000 which is the good news.

The bad news is that police took me during a rave party and I will be fined for atleast like $400-500 if I am lucky so that ****ing sucks.

Besides that I lost my girlfriend because I ****ed up, but now at least I have a decent FWB that I can chill with and **** whenever I want - lol.

My poker spark is very low but it is one of the few things besides training which I kind of enjoy doing.

Well that was it, kthxbai.

you could be the poster child for arguments against gambling

Lol. Ima a baller dude i Played a ****ing EPT when I was 21 and I did well but got coolered the **** out of me. And then i did a bunch of immature things with my money. If I just had the calm in my heart back then I would have been a top Swedish pro rn

youre an immature kid liying to himself but whatever as long as youre only hurting yourself i dont see the problem, you will wake up at some point im sure ...

ballers don't have to borrow $50 to play poker

Brother could be the next Paistings man

God damn it I'm on the grind again!
ignoring the three previous posts just pretending like I'm a mother****in baller **** yeah.
Took down 3rd in some 7.50 hyper for $220 and now I got a ****ing Sunday grind!!!!

Update coming later today, I am feeling the fire again..

Early update boyzzz
took down 2nd in a 5.50 hyper for $80.
Roll now stands at beastly $271 and I got a run in a $11 Bounty builder on the bubble now swear to god slowest bubble of my ****ing life lol.
See you all soon kthxbai

Keep killing it, you can do it.

god damn it thank you

god damn it. bust now for realz, life roll at 0 I just raved my last rave for the month god damn it.
Didn't even get to hook up with any hot girls or anything, no god damn it.
That's my rant for now, jeezzzzz.

lol ffs bro you are so clueless about life its sad really .....wel degens gonna degen i guess.

Yea man, back against my wall as per usual.
Got a staking deal to play cash games lives which I dont know for how long it will last so far down 3 days up 1 day. Hope I dont get cut.
On my way now for a session.

Online I've been winning nothing of substance.
I know I can do this because I looked at my pocketfives from 2016-2018 and I was for sure a ****ing winner. And the prize pools were much better and bigger back then, so a Win would actually put you back in the green.
Nowadays 1st prize in a 3.30-7.50 is at maximum like $800, used to be the double.
The $3.30 rebuy was a gold mine for instance.

I dont want to indulge in my whole economic situation because this has kind of become a memr thread for some, but If I dont win soon I am pretty ****ing cooked lol.

Been grinding like a maniac but to no avail.
I really feel ****ed up.
Ive fallen into love with the game again but I don't got the funds to back it up right now and its frustrating.
If I just had the money I would ****ing bne able to grind my way back to success because there is very few people that are as stubborn as me.

Not looking for someone to save me but would love some cheerful words from anyone from anywhere.
Right now all I get from home is the most of depressed vibes because my parents just think I am a degen gambling addict.
I want to prove them wrong and bring down a ****ing WCOOP trophy and cement myself as someone that can make a living from playing poker.

I can ****ing make this.
Right now I got for now a staking deal playing $1/$1 at a place but for how long? Ive managed to book only two winning sessions in about 2 weeks soon.
Will they sack me? **** my life if they do, this is my hope. This is what I love doing. I live for this. I live for the grind, I am made out of testosterone and adrenaline.

Once again if you see this and is a fellow semi-degen or anyone that has battered through a dark place please hit me up here or in a PM.
I got no one to talk to. No real poker friends, and no-one to vent to.
Don't even got any kind of girlfriend right now which also sucks. Not that I would vent to my GF about losing money and going full degen but whatever.

Okay that was it, kthxbai.