So I did exactly what I was not supposed to do. I said in my last post that the most important thing I needed to do was to not drastically change my game since the improvement I had made to my game were good, but due to run bad and playing bad in my last 10000 the results didn't reflect my improved game. So long story short I ended doing exactly what I was not supposed to do.
So I ended up playing bad also ran horribly, talking about 10BI below EV in a short span. Well my bankroll could take the hit since I was taking a shot but my head could not so ended up just playing worse.
Anyways since that session I have been playing good and studying but not regularly until I get my head straight. :banghead:
Happy to say since that initial bad play after review I have been playing good and sticking to the improvement like I should have in the first place. Have added a thing or two that has definitely improved my postflop play. Anyways am currently on break for a day or two and will be playing 2PLO again.
I wanted to discuss why I tilted and what I can do to avoid it in the future. So below is a list of my thoughts:
I noticed a pattern. Every time I checked results my first session after that I was anxious and nervous and ended up playing bad. This happened after both the 10000 hands reviews. So it has nothing to do with winning or losing since the first session was a healthy winning one and second a losing one.
So if it isn't too do with results being positive or negative, then it's only the act of checking the results and seeing the figures that caused me tilt. I guess I have high expectations of myself and even when I had good results I was not satisfied. So I need to adjust my expectations to the realm of possibility and stop being so hard on myself.
As long as I was focused on the process I was doing great. I was improving, playing good and the results were coming. But as soon as I shifted my focus to results after 10000 hands suddenly my attention was fully on the results and it was on my mind. I was being results oriented. So when I started playing after the review sub conscientiously my focus is on the results and not making the best decision at the table, I am trying to win money, win pots and not playing good poker anymore.
I have come to the conclusion there is a few things I can do to avoid this situation in the future.
1. Don't play the day right after review give yourself the day off let the results sink in. Be fine with them. Be fine with what your goal is. Remind yourself that the process and making the best decision is the only thing that matters. Just put a gap between results and playing again.
2. Since I have been easily putting in 10000 hands in 5 days I feel I can space out me checking results more. So going to double that figure to 20000 hands and might even increase it further. This will make sure my after result tilt session is more spaced out and also the results are more reliable so as to stop me from making drastic changes to my game based on tiny samples.
3. I didn't tilt because I was taking a 10 BI shot which is a good thing, but when I am in the result oriented mindset my bankroll and the results start meaning more that anything and the priority shifts from making the best EV+ decision to I want to win $. I end up playing overly aggressive and loosen up. I make the shift from a good TAG/LAG into a maniac. Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde do come to mind
. The point being that, to result oriented me bankroll is everything, so when I am in that mindset I think it will make a difference if I am taking a 50BI shot compare to a 10BI shot. I don't feel this will make a big difference as the other points I mentioned but it's worth a shot no pun intended:what:. Since it's micros I will make it 20BI shots upto 25 PLO then with increase that number.
Excuse my extra lengthy post.
Will be back at the tables after 2 days.
Last edited by #@$#; 12-01-2015 at 09:20 PM.