'What I want'
It's happened again with poker where I become motivated to focus hard in-game (think about every range of hands in most spots) for almost one month, and then I become
bored of it (not insinuating that I was top-tier when focused). Leading to youtube/anime/facebook/etc being open on the second monitor for most of the session.
I've thought about why I'm playing poker before of course, but not enough, and in a one-dimensional way. Thinking about one thing in particular that I want and justifying poker as the means to reach that. Ie: promising myself that I would never have a 9-5 job again (lol), playing a game for a living, enjoying the atmosphere, I have fun problem-solving... the most recent being the 'becoming a god'
I now have a notepad file where I've gathered my thoughts from the past week or so, and where I've been connecting the dots. Categorizing everything.
Lucky me, Fedor Holz said the word "Ikigai" in his recent vlog
It helped to have a visual on what I was building towards.
A few more days later, remembering how I genuinely felt when saying/implementing specific reasonings, and poker appears to be my answer
I'm not feeling that forced motivation right now to focus at the tables, and I've been putting in 9-12 hour sessions lately. So I'm excited to see my progress in the short term!
October 20th-28th goals
I won't set any poker related goals just yet since I'm only a few days into this new motivation.
(1) Cook a challenging dish
*Cooking is a passion on mine and I'm visiting family tomorrow, so that will be easy.
(2) Workout every day
(2.5) Max 1400 calories intake (excluding post-workout meal)
*It's time to become sexy
(3) Clean the apartment
*Floors, counters, corners...
GL HF