This is my balance atm.
I was down to $6 today from $30. Made a deep run in a $6.6
& subsequently tripled my stack in .5/.1 & .1/.25. in Plo8
I've became very religious since the last time I posted, very active in the church. I hope it translates into discipline. That doesn't mean that I ain't having issues with the trinity though :/
I quit Alcohol last year, & since I've quit Weed, Porn, Cigarettes. Used to jack off every night, 2+ times (Now I just rub one off rarely, once or twice a month if that, using my imagination or a pic of a potential wife) Hallelujah
I only listen to New age, EDM & ofc Gospel songs.
I'm also undergoing food torture by family lol but good samaritan on Facebook, old platonic girlfriend sent me $100. My uncle is sending me some more. TMI but figured I'd give you some context. Not begging lol I have had a horrible BRM issue going back a decade but I've always thought to myself that I'll ONLY CHANGE if I have to, & feeding myself is where it's at lol; I've turned the tables on my family though, had the cops called on me twice, video is on my tiktok @azfyalife where there's English content but mostly Amharic. Now I sing Gospel songs referring to them as Satan, reminding them to lock the kitchen etc I've lost 11kg as a result but it's all for the best, I got to see their true colors. I also disowned myself from my inheritance from both sides. (An Ethiopian first & A World First, with no income, no assets. Ofc there's no legal framework in place for this groundbreaking decision but I'll print it in the newspapers the moment I can afford to)
ANYWAYS back to Poker Goals, I OBV. didn't reach my ridiculously ambitious goal of hitting 4k by now but I've stayed true to my OP (unintentionally) of starting from Zero & I have no doubt that I'll reach $100K at least a year from when I write this. I'm one of the best players but I just suck terribly at BRM, or sucked rather. My issue is taking a shot, BINKING, Binking again & then incessantly keep taking shots; taking shots is truly an art.
First, I need to make $1500+ to withdraw $300 (enough for 3 months food)
Secondly, I need to make a year's rent of $2k + $1k for food, yearly with $2k BR left to play $6.6 MTTS on ACR so $5k total. Writing this makes me remember another thought I had, that if you wish to reach a certain figure, it's hard as it is, add people intentionally persecuting me, trying to irritate & starve me to death lol but IF YOU HAVE TO COME UP with a certain amount? The likelihood of achieving this goal increases, so there. I just need to set a fixed sleeping schedule & weekly planner. The devil hates a programmed life.
It's said that a deadline helps you reach your goals but it also adds unnecessary pressure so I won't do that until I stand on my own two feet. Upon moving out, we can start talking deadlines.
Sorry for the long read but I feel it's a necessary update. We're not robots after all! I wish more poker players showed their vulnerable side so we can all learn from it. I have yet to read a SINGLE introspective Bio of one, point me towards if there are any. Poker Pros are 1 dimensional, sadly. I hope to change that.
Good luck & God speed with your goals. Get some sun, keep walking 10k steps while you are there. After hitting 5k in 2 weeks, on an earlier goal posted in Cardschat, I realized that it's REALLY NOT!!!!! about the destination but the journey.
Last edited by azforlife; 04-16-2024 at 05:11 AM.
Reason: More info, editing