500s is maybe 5-10x the variance than 200s..
it is 2.5x bigger, players are more aggro, and your edge is smaller.
being used the swings of 200s and below.. 500s and up can swing your roll past your breaking point real quick. especially if you push your edges.
you need at least 100-200 buy ins to safely push all of your edges to the max, especially vs whales on a heater.
if you are not embracing variance as if it is your best friend, (the only reason bad players will play you for real money) than the variance will **** you up.
there is a wisdom in not taking every opportunity.
your mental health is an extremely valuable resource - like tires on a race car. you need to fully stop and make sure everything is fresh and tip top (while worse racers zoom by).
you are just a simple human with many needs and weaknesses, like all of us.
treat yourself right, from the inside out, and the world will eventually follow.
or maybe nothing is connected to anything and its all meaningless who cares