Just withdrew ACR, games seem much better now that the bots got banned. But unfortunately can't really expose myself to the risk on a site where I don't know my winrate. Know I have a high winrate on Global/Playnow. Will avoid the suspicious accounts on Playnow and just cross my fingers. So frustrating.

It sounds like the cards know that it means too much to you..

The cards seem to like it when you don't give a ****.

They also like it when you play really well.

I dunno.. Maybe the cards don't know anything.

TAKE A BREAK

spend a week loving yourself and your life and your peoples.

forget poker entirely for at least 24 hours.

freeze yourself and thaw out again.

exhaust yourself like you are training a wild animal.

breathe.

get a massage for your shoulder.

etc. etc.

But let poker go for just a moment.

If if loves you, it will come back :P

Yeah idk just needed to get my frustration out somewhere without being irresponsible. Don’t feel like I need a break just need to keep putting in good volume. Don’t think I’ll need staking was an overreaction.

New observation - peers with bad BRM influence me to having bad BRM. Watching them fly up the stakes seemingly crushing everything makes me feel like I can loosen my BRM and will have the same results. But I tend to ignore when they inevitably crash down 4 stake levels and have to rebuild everything.

Have narrowed down the two accounts I'm most suspicious of on Playnow. Was watching them play on a table today, and they ended session within 30 seconds of each other, for seemingly no reason (no other players join or left the table). 1 account was playing 1 table, and another account was playing 2 tables. when the first account left, the second account left their second table immediately after. And left the table that both were at on their BB. Submitted it to support, can only hope they take it seriously. No HHs on playnow so pretty difficult to do an actual investigation.

Surely there is a better way to spend time.

I've lost 35bi on a site that I've historically crushed. Seems pretty logical to make sure the games are clean before dumping the rest of my money on there. Was just open with some other tables I was playing, wasn't watching too closely.

How do you build up an 800bb pot on T92 with T976ss? Sorry but that is just variance galore.

It's weird that when you uptick it's because you are soul reading and playing great but when you lose you get incredibly paranoid about collusion, bots, and cheating. You admitted yourself that your study habits are trash and oftentimes it's basically background noise to you. Imo anyone who is consistently crying about bots/cheating/collusion is likely just not a great player (or not trying hard enough) considering table and site selection are basic skills.

You seem like a loose cannon.

preflop we raise, call call squeeze call call or smth, whale pots flop at SPR 4.5

This post is completely nonsense and I'm not sure exactly what you're saying. I openly admit to being too paranoid about cheating. The link between that and it being a skill issue is unsubstantiated. This isn't a case of me having a tough time beating 200s, I am beating 1ks on this site ffs. In fact, I'd go as far to say if I am not winning over a large sample of 200s on Global, then it is OVERWHELMINGLY likely to be cheating. I am guessing you don't play on this site.

Have to drop everything but 100s and 50s. Really ****ing sucks man.

I have no idea how I downswing 50bi on Playnow, but just checked my transactions and apparently I'm down about 10k there in about 5k hands over the last month. It's definitely more than 50BI at 1/2 as well, because I was crushing people at 2/4.

Going to have to seriously manage my spending as well now, I'm going to barely be making enough to pay for school. And completely at the mercy of what games end up running on Global. If only 200s run, I just can't play that night.

Need about 5k more for 1/2 I guess? I have no idea what's even responsible anymore. If I just listened to my ****ing gut things would be so much better. Would have dropped Playnow and saved infinite, still would be at 200s. I know I'm getting cheated there, I'm just not exactly sure how. I'm getting annihilated in games with 4-5 40%+ vpip fish - this is completely insane to me.

Pretty sure if I drop Playnow and stick to my commitment of not playing there, I will be fine.

Am I just tilting in these Playnow games? Unlikely, as I am putting up results within a reasonable range on other sites. Still downswinging right now obviously, but it's a "reasonable" downswing.

Bro, are you in some kind of hurry?

Pay less attention to people who sound like Charlie Carrel.

Do yourself a favour and just grind the **** out of 50 for 1 week, see what happens. Think of it like a soft reset.

Getting publicly accused of collusion on Global in game - immediately kills games... Lol! Ironic.

In your shoes i'd study more than I played and quit when starting to play worse than A game during a session. If you don't study and you tilt, you're NGMI in 2024 online poker.

dude's never ran a sim in his life and thinks he can beat 1k+, ngmi bruh.

Saying you need about 5k more to play 1-2, then sitting at 1-2 tables with your coach is very ironic.

yeah, totally...

Had a little bit more of the 1k 200s shot I mentioned. How about instead of killing the games with ******ed accusations you just let ppl play the game ffs. If you had half a brain it would be obvious we aren't colluding, I'm literally getting scooped AA vs AA pre vs my "coach" LOL. I'll be back at 200s in a week to take your money with or without spork at the table.

lol, deluded. you have 0 ability for self introspection. i hope you don't go busto, i doubt anyone would stake you after reading this mess.

For those who don't know, I have been accused of using preflop RTA in the past - heard about it from a reg on Playnow. Now being accused of colluding with Spork. Beyond obvious I'm not doing either of those, often playing 6-9 tables, Spork and I RARELY sit on the same table, we don't even play the same hours for the most part.

No idea why people are pushing this narrative so hard, but there was a period on Global when people were avoiding me and games would break when I sit down. Later figured out it was because of the preflop RTA accusations. Now another completely unsubstantiated accusation, either to tilt me? Or kill my action? I have no idea.

I'm not interested in appealing to my ethics, because nobody really knows me. But for the accusations being thrown around for the past ~4 months, it should be clear that it is simply not possible for me to be using RTA, and at least HIGHLY HIGHLY UNLIKELY that I am colluding with ANYONE.

It's just funny because I literally have ran sims and obviously I study.

That's good, then clearly the only thing left to do is work on your entitlement tilt/mental game issues. Iirc, whatwonder also posted that you have huge mental game leaks. I hope it works out bro, if you go broke at 50 or 100 can't really cry about colluding/cheating.

Am I misremembering things or didn't you accuse Spork of using RTA in the past? If he's now your coach and you're now sometimes playing at the same table as him and he's your coach surely that can be seen as dodgy? For someone who cries about collusion and cheating so frequently surely it makes sense to play on a different site/table instead of sitting at the same table as your coach?

No there’s a whole thing between spork and a guy called squid, can prolly google “twoplustwo spork cheating” and read abt it, but cliffs is spork used to be part of an RTA stable. I don’t really see it as dodgy, he’s coached a surprising number of ppl on global. Even a couple ppl that play 10/20. I understand if ppl had incomplete information it could be concerning though.