Now hold your breath because the Pandora's box has oppened and my narcissistic vision is gonna unfold with no restrain.

Now it is the time to do this because for the first time after like 6 months i have scored 2% on Conscientiousness test instead of 1% , this means i got this 10 minute time span that happens every other full moon to be productive and stop procrastinating on the things i spend doing the other 99% of time in my head, so hear me out my friends and seize this golden moment.

As the title suggests i am about to make one million, and as the title suggests i am about to achieve that goal after our friend Habibi, but nontheless we both gonna make it.

Difference is i am gonna be a bit more descriptive about the whole process , a bit more detail oriented more analytical of the methods i use and consistent with uploading graphs and information. We will talk about a lot of stuff, we will discuss about poker, about hands, about things that seemingly have no connection to your career as a pro BUT THEY DO, meditation , fitness etc. The reason for this, i can track my own path and progress, and i want my story to be recorded so others can see what it worked and what not, and what it needs to be done in order to make it, so if someone is smart enough to accept me as his Yogi Poker Master and follows my teachings he will also succeed.


We will break this down to easier step by step goals first, first goal is to grow the bankroll up to 10k(now something like 1400$). I will do this from strictly 10NL ggPoker chasing good win rate and good positioning in the leaderboards for both the fast rush&cush variation and the slow normal cash games. It is hard to get the first position 130$ there because of a reg who plays 24 hours but i will go for the best possible. After the 10k$ i will either continue the same format but at 25NL or will use one screen for mtt and the other for cash , or one screen for cash and the other for spin and gold, Spin and gold destroyed my ass yesterday with a -800$ at 10$ buy in after 677 games, this crashed my huge ego into pieces, i thought i was safe with the extra 380$ that they give for the biggest grinder of the day with the 35% rakeback i hit, with the mining gold offer its like impossible to lose right? , i thought i was on my way to make the most money i ever made, and then i fell flat into my face, i even purchased a spin and go masterclass to see if my ranges were correct.It was something like 11.90% negative Roi, dunno how normal is for this to happen in this sample but i know i cant afford to try this again with this bankroll and before i master the ranges for every scenario. So i will go there were i know i win, at the cash games and then we see.

Second milestone will be, not sure for the amount yet but it will be the money i need to move out of parents house and live alone, 30,40,50k$ not much more though, i am gonna be 30 in some months and it just sucks so hard living with the vurnerable narc mommy, got some good traits from that. Long story. But this lifestyle is just ridicilus for me now. She is even the reason i changed the plan of this and went into the fight again before doing one week retreat to meditate and relax, but there is no relax in this house its useless. I will take the break after i move to where i should be.

Starting tommorow, this is gonna be exciting.

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Sounds good, but have you also considered washing your hair?

I played like ****, not focused and tired, my biggest problem is the leveling wars with myself which most times end up very wrong, 4betting 64s and 45s and 67s etc at like 80% haha, i just dont give a damn, stack off 44 as 5bet button vs bb just because the guy 3betted 3 out of 5 times and stuff like that are bleeding money in this stakes. Guy had KK. Stacked QQ 3 times to were i normally fold it, example Hijack raise i 3bet from bb hijack shoves. Also faced Kk.

There is also need in change to my plan and programm, i will change from burning one day to get best spot in leaderboards and let the other day for resting and other activities. to having a normal daily routine and programm, it will for sure help a lot with other things like training, it will help my fatique, my sleep patters, and playing every day might be even better in the end even if i dont get the best help from the leaderboard prizes. I will have to do this anyway in one motnh when my soccer season starts (amateur greek league) , i dont want to show up and get muscle injury in first training or something because of lack of sleep and fatique.

I washed my hair @CallForRedline, and since you called for it, check this redline lol
These are the first 10k or so hands from my monkey auti pilot gaming. https://ibb.co/0nzKtj9

https://ibb.co/ZYsSsyX

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I am here my friends, sry for the wait, have been doing some stuff, i started a new lifestyle program with some routines and practices to go alongside with my Poker journey. Like meditating and excersising daily and other things. For poker things i subscribed to RunItonce essential plan,and i am watching the videos there for studying.I also tried GTOwizard but i am not in budget to buy a plan now but in general i think its extremely usefull and i will do it when i am rolled.

We are +500$ from day one with half of it being a 250$ spin from rakeback.
Now i will post the graph.
The same lifetime pattern, 4 years playing this game, same pattern, it is like i am living the print of myself into the graph, my biases my play my strategy my mood swings and lose of focus all show up in the graph.
It is actually insane to think of it this way but it is true, when i get a spike in motivation to play well, and i am determined and focused and in the zone my redline starts as the graph starts, but sometimes without even knowing it i change to something else, something sublte must be happening and my game changes, but the thing is i cant even tell what it is.
Some possibilities
1) Auto piloting and making bad decisions that in the moment i dont even realize i would play differently otherwise
2) Messing up with frequencies
3) Putting way more money on marginal spots and then folding.
4) Not raising for bluff enough.

https://ibb.co/94Snwk7

https://ibb.co/Dzd2Mgp

https://ibb.co/vcxbG5C

Anything you notice on this numbers?

https://ibb.co/Xs3Nymh

https://ibb.co/wr7B45s

Same stuff so far, session with 2bb win rate, huge swings and a redline that goes down down down. Winning but trying to fix the winrate and the redline. These hands happened almost at same minute....