it's wild that they just take 10 grand from a mf for 7k hands

Yea dude.


Oh you wanna play a hand of poker? Thatll be $1.5 ty.

huge month bro, congrats! please avoid that 2k table above DDDDD glglgl

Congrats Joost, sick month, keep going!!!

sicko confirmed

What a beast. That's a big month.

yeah pretty sick if you think about it like that

Thanks guys

Someone commented on the screenshot this could have been a table at the nosebleed minus 1 donkreg but I thought that was a bit harsh towards Manuel :P :P

Long time no see bro, or it feels like it anways Happy to see your killing it

How could ive missed this diamond.
Subbed . GL op

Yeah man, hope you are doing alright! nice to hear


Hahaha yes they play alright but can they say they beat nl2 with 30bb/100h in a 1700 hand sample

Nah but I see what you mean Swerbs, and ofcourse I acknowledge the cool journey so far. It's just that **** about my mind going in panic mode when I reach any type of point outside of my self-believe system and can't wait to go back to the comfort zone of being a failure is pretty deep (And here is also correlation with the mad self-sabotage I've shown in this journey). I want to make a more detailed post about this at some point, but I just want to say the awareness alone has helped me so much. Now at times when I'm doing well in life or with my career and my mind attacking me with non existing problems/stress/emptiness I acknowledge what is happening (that the fictional problems or stress are just a sympton of this) and I can just say to myself I deserve to be happy and enjoy the moment without beating myself up too hard.

There are definitely moments of happiness and appreciation about the poker journey, they occur in strange moments. The other day I played a long session with pretty meh run, I was fully focussed and fully emerged in any 5.5bb pot fighting till death over it (within my capacity of playing good ev ofcourse haha) and in the end I survived while being up a bit. And while I was sitting out next bb a hand occured where I woke up on the river 3 way with a reg and a superfish 1spr. It's like the typical scenario where I really didn't want the smoke and I just wanted to book the win. It was a spot where the board was horrible for me, and also a unique spot 3way with a fish involved; no shame in checking down hands with 0 showdown. But in the moment I kind of embraced the challenge and fired it in the middle. The fish folded rather quickly and the reg tanked full time bank, spammed a bunch of emotes how sick the spot was, and ended up timing-out folding while probably making a massive herofold. Was already nice to see it getting through but then the fish shows his hand: 77, which was 2nd highest set on a T7xxx board (with a 4straight on it tho). When I saw that I made the superfish make fold range I jumped out my chair and started jumping around in my room celebrating. It was not the type of celebration that you make after making the winning goal securing the championship. But more the type of celebration you make when you make the last-minute equalizer to avoid relegation When I was walking to the store afterwards I felt such positive emotion and I really had a moment of appreciation of pursuing this poker thing and that I'm happy to be where I'm at


Nice to hear mate, I appreciate it!

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2p2 changed their site a bit, in the new format basically all posts before this year are missing in my blog. If any (new) reader is interested in reading that back I will leave a link to the old format here: https://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/1...poker-1785038/

If not bothered in reading it, maybe I can briefly summarize like it's a graph: It's like one consistent slightly-going up-straight line above without any outliners or anything like that :P :P :P

Just played my last session of 2024. And I'm gonna take a break for 2 weeks. I was planning on playing untill Sunday but I wasn't really feeling it last couple days and rather do something else this weekend. But before I give it a rest, let's look at the year results:

$ graph



bb graph



results



With +103k table profit, around 33% rakeback (77k) and -10k untracked it's +170k$ for the year. The rb numbers are a bit of guessing game, I've had periods where it was raining rakeback but also periods where I got **** all. But I think the estimated 33% is sort of accurate. So yeah very happy with how it went this year, I didn't expect things to go so well honestly.

The year started not so well, Once again I was in a bad spot. I was kind of downswinging and because of regulations (I lost too much according to them, while I was still up on the site and playing with profit) I lost access to my main site. I was spending a lot of the time in the Netherlands and basically had no where to play other than gg. Here I was just unmotivated playing r&c and also blowing money on mtt's (briefly thought about making the switch) and at some point I had only like 35% of my already relatively small roll left with no realistic income. I felt already stuck for quite a while because of the terrible mental game I never got past nl200 basically and literally I was ready to give up. I started looking for jobs and really was on the edge of quitting.

But yeah back in Austria once again I got myself together and with some motivation I found some backing deal to get myself back up on my feet and started out in March with playing 100nl/200nl. This time I really worked hard on mental game side and finally got some sort of breakthrough and made massive progress. This improvement was basically the foundation of why at some point it started to go well. When my roll hit x-amount I continued on my own. I just want to say thank you to "Metal_ouda" and "captainrobour" for believing in me at that time.

Unfortunately I didn't have any luck with jackpots, ofcourse it's quite frustrating to drop like 50-60k on a jackpot pool and get 4k back in return also because I had some painful moments. I posted some in here but I also recall earlier this year where I mucked a ****ing jackpot hand in nl200. I literally had to take a couple days off afterwards of how I **** I felt about it. But it's also important to appreciate that I ran very well this year. I'm well aware that 7.7evbb is not my realistic expectation, and despite running so bad at 1k I still acknowledge that I ran pretty well in crucial moments (like for example starting on nl500 or running well when nearly busting deposit limits).

hahaha the estimation would be 15% this year, maybe even slightly less. So yeah definitely massive progress. I still struggle with terrible focus and being super impulsive but I really had months of consistent solid performance without angry auto-pilot snapclicking. Hopefully I can keep improving this.

Right now gonna take a break, holidays coming up and got a trip planned to Stockholm/Sweden with some friends. And begin next year I will move to Amsterdam so excited for that. For next year I will not set any specific goals for money I want to make or potentially shotting highstakes, I just hope I can keep being somewhat consistent. I made it to 2k on my own but I have to be realistic that with my current approach I'm gonna hit a brick wall in terms of climbing the stakes. Despite having a good network of friends in the pokerworld I simply do way too much of my study time alone and I'm not some super genius. I basically lack feedback and I will stagnate if I don't change this. So for a while I'm in conversation with a respectable coach (don't think he wants to be outed lol) and hopefully we can work together starting from next year. And let's see to how far I can make it in this beautifull shite game.....

Maybe a bit rusty wrap up, I'm a bit tired haha. But anyway I will stop updating the blog from now on, maybe somewhere in the middle of next year I feel motivated to update again. Thank you all for reading and gl in 2025

(in new 2p2 format everything before 2024 is missing you can read full blog in old format here: https://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/174/poker-blogs-goals/my-last-shot-poker-1785038/)

Congrats dude happy for you wonderful to see all of the success you’ve made

Not a rusty write up at all

Big ups. GL in 2025 and beyond. Thanks for the updates so far, great reading

Mr. Juiced owning the belugas!

outstanding work. keep it up KC!

GGWP, best of luck in 2025!

absolutely huge year bro, congratulations. is that 7.5bb/100 on gg?! or over all sites. either way, even bigger and better things to come in 2025!

Well played!

I don't get how is the rake 15bb+?

Thanks a lot guys

Yes was like 7.3bb on gg this year, I mainly played gg and 1 other tracked site where I started to play since December so it's data from those sites The gg winrate is a bit inflated by super run in 200 standard deviation games tho so important to keep that in consideration

I'm enjoying your content and wishing you better run in 2025 mate!!

For this year the rake in my tracker was like 13bb/100h, I played quite a bit of volume in games where I paid like 17bb/100h rake or something. Allthough even without that it would have still been (slightly less than) like 10bb/100h this year


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Played like 2 more sessions on the 23th and 24th because I needed to fix my sleeping schedule a bit, classic -10bb/100h + all the rungood on expensive stakes type of run haha we take those



Just came back from Stockholm, still completely hangover but also very hyped for this year. I wish everyone gl in 2025!