Much appreciated, answered pm.

yday i won 4/4 fts. Today i binked 3 pkos outright and had a total of like 10 fts, last month ended in semi-distaster but last 4 sessions have been very helpful in just insta removing most/all of that

Today and last 4 sessions (not showing a huge skislope ending last month so its not as straight up as it seems here, im just not wanting to look at that before its pretty again, mental fish behaviour? Possibly, but i like to see it as making it easy on myself. If i dont like to see a graph go straight up then skydive why would i do that? I just focus on my day to day, got back on my lower variance sched after a bit of higher variance shenanigans, ill leave that to the rest of yall psychos for now.





Apparently im 10 years late but jason derulo is ***** legit, always heard him obv but never realized just how big he is and what a **** hitmaker too. This song is played about 67 times a session right now.

How do u get rakeback from Sweden? I'm also swedish. Gl!

Tried to pm you but seems like i cant

Really just losing hope about people and poker people in general. Running in to far too many scumbags and one extra ******ed idiot scammed me for 200$ and had the nerv to call me a " brokie" (seriously fanboys go suck tates dick and shut the **** up. Its annoying now).

I really try to do my best to answer people who reach out, i try to give more than i take, i coach for charity, i coach for free, i do -ev cfps etc etc etc. I really try to do my part and its ****ing tireing to realize that most people care about nothing but themselves, i cant relate to that and feeling alot of hopelessness about it in general.

Trying to help someone who has managed to play this game for 10 years without beating microstakes only to get absolutely flamed on after they took my money, ive had enough. Want to just **** off somewhere, but i dont know where id go.

Hopefully wake up feeling better or i might be taking a break

One can appreciate the humility, courage it takes to write these blogs constantly, ( been thinking of doing one myself - maybe now is a good time ) 😉

When one thinks/ see's a poker pro , we only think of the " big scores " , the lifestyle that comes with it . The freedom of being your own boss.


Rarely do we get a glimpse of the human
Behind the PC / Table , the raw emotion
The doubts, trials & tribulations. The personal issues that we can relate with so much.

From these Insights not only does it
Create empathy and appreciation
But as a by product it manifest another's jounry into this unknown where success is a virtue, and with that , one can only appreciate that there are others who are just like us out there In different places now , albeit way ahead of us , but Not long ago they to started off in similar circumstances;
In the same race with the same goal in mind
But to paraphrase a wise man
" If every runner in the race has the same goal , to win the race. The goal in itself cannot be the determining factor who wins
It's the person who works the best and the smartest , puts In more effort and doesn't stop that wins. "

- from a new friend , that appreciates
The hard work , preparation , professionalism, and just honest human being that u are -

--- Saskatchewan--- 😉

I can offer you a session with my services as a nutrtionist free of charge just to make you feel better and make a point. Feel free to pm me to arrange it !

Thank you bro


And thank you! I need to get that part of hings together 3yrs ago for sure, pmed u.

I've been away from taking the game seriously for a number of years but for some reason I can't help but lurk on PG&C because I still find it really inspiring seeing people climb the poker mountain and pursue something they're so passionate about.

I almost never post but I just wanted to jump on and wish you well. You're obviously a good dude and try live a life where you contribute to the world around you selflessly, as we all should.

It really is an unfortunate reality that we go through life meeting many people who can be so selfish and self-centered. Thankfully we will meet good people too, we have to cherish them.

Oh, and the whole Tate narrative, I hear you. It's beyond abhorrent at this point. It's just another net to catch disenfranchised young men with little hope or direction in life, and those with a questionable moral compass. I live in, perhaps delusional, hope that most people will see sense and grow out of it.

If you need a break, I hope it serves you well. And if you ever need to chat to get stuff off your chest feel free to DM.

GL and take care of yourself.

hey man, i am not the one for big words and explanations (also my english sucks^^) but since you gave me inspiration and nice words in your blog i want to share some story of my life. Soon after we had our short conversation in your blog I have had my biggest cash in a single MTT and tried to remember things I have learned from you while deep running this thing and stuff.

Once you open up your doors for others, life will challenge you over and over again. People will enter in your life because they like you because you are honest and someone they can connect to but the other side of the medal is that there will be people that have unsolved issues w/e and try to drag you down, scam you and basically abuse you.

I have been scammed many times. The most painful was when I let a "friend" stay at my home for a few months after his girl broke down with him. I offered him to stay with me, play Poker and go to the Gym regularly. To make a long story short: In our last night together he has stolen my very last money from my portemonnaie and went drinking. Once i found out that i don't have money anymore I kicked him out of my apartment and also life (for a few years...until i got weak again and got scammed again)

Don't know what else I can tell you. Actually I think you are on a great route and will overcome those obstacles life throws you in your way. Focus on the good stuff and a "first things first" mentality. You are the most important one in your life because you will always stay with yourself. Other people come and go. But from birth to death you are bound to yourself which means that it is very important to be a good friend with you and pay attention who you let in your inner circle. The stronger it gets the stronger your aura and scumbags will smell that they can't do it with you anymore.

All the best,
A

As to everyone who posted here, thank you guys so much, taking the effort to do that helped me get back on track real quick. It did semi spiral before we got here but lets not talk about some of the ideas i had in my mind.

Also people who listened to my bullshit and gave advice, i was losing hope in humanity just because of 1 garbage guy, and got to see the good side of 6-7 others. Humanity to the rescue, and i ts not the first nor the last time ill have a irrational emotional response to something, all i can do is accept it doesnt change overnight and appreciate the people that do make an effort withouit expecting anything back.
Its just real easy to get stuck in the negative experiences at times, esp if its just stacking up, but i realize i have to keep doing me and part of that is obv not being TOO kind aka naive, open urself up too much to be exploited by garbage humans, i learn something valuable and they live the rest of their lives in misery. Ill take it.

Yeah i try not to care, like listen to what u want do what u want, if someone thinks a bald 25-45 (idk) ******ed kickboxer who is insecurity embodied and has no actual skills except from what i know kickboxing and human exploitation, but im sure the hustlers university is about to bring out some real new sick ideas by alot of graduating alpha males. Or one rich scammer, but who knows ey. I cant think of one thing that isnt criminal and just morally wrong that andrew tate can teach me and there are 0 better options as source of information. People really do anything for money, i wonder how ppl like him dont actually have anxiety and feel **** about what they are, how doesnt he see his clear daddy issues and how the **** does he become so popular. The guy is a ******. I dont know context but imagine having to even consider if this is serious, given that he said it, probably in some weird robe he thinks makes him look cool (stop it plz) id guess it is.



I mean this reads like a pretty funny thing if it was satire, but he probably means this from what i can tell, or he pretends to so a bunch of morons will give him 49$ a month to learn how to earn 14 cents a month. Gotta hustle baby.

Imagine this little ****ing insecure ball of i missed my father all my life in a body calling anyone a bitch. Anyways, enough negativity. Few ppl tilt me harder than this tho, And we arent focused on tilt, but its a bit worrying how many people seem to think absolute ****ing maniacs are some sort of saviour when they are literally just scamming their fanbase. I wouldnt bring him up but the guy is unavoidable, i wish i shared ur optimistic view but from what i see around the world in elections, opinions people have, behaviours. Me personally, id pick facts and science over a braindamaged human trafficker, but hey, he drives a lambo so thats cool right

PMed u, dont underestimate my ability to vent sir.


We had a nice conversation on discord but wanted to say again thanks for the post buddy and to every one of yall thanks for making my day better, i just needed some boost to get back to rational not emotional mode. Im kind of struggling with how you actually improve this sort of thing, meditation seems reasonable but are there any good books/sources of information anyone has to share about how this **** works ill take any suggestions. I need to understand the problem a bit better before i can go about fixing it i think.

Played a bit, studied more, got something cooking. Down a little maybe, who cares. Kinda feel bad about the negativity about tate above but then i realized hes a ****, so **** him.

Be good people

Blommish

Impressive stuff mate. Not very often I consider leaving the SNG field but boy you make it look easy! Can you break down what your grind looks like btw, how long are your days, how many days a week do you grind. Number of tables/sites you play etc. Treat yourself to a holiday to detox that mind from all the negative stuff then resume crushing.

There is so much to pick from if you want to criticize him, but you decided to pick one of his best bits

This is his best "bit" ? Is he a comedian?
I picked the first quote i found, and it is ******ed, obviously. This is either comedy or a ******ed person talking.

How about when he said he is too smart to read books? One of his good "bits" too that? Or when he said that if u put yourself in a position to be rap ed, u must bare some responsibility? Or when he called any non-virgin woman "used goods"?

"men who live without self control (ok rap ist) are the kind of men who cry
when women cheat on them, because they definately do. Because shes ugly as **** and gotta be with a little pussy soy boy like you".
Said by the guy with insanely controlling behaviour. This was a quick google search that i randomly posted, because i try to avoid tate. Now i had to google up tate to look up more stupid **** he has said.

**** outta here with that ****

It takes a real ****ing bitch to be afraid to think showing emotion = weak as an adult "man".

Also, didnt i mention human exploitation in the post before? Is that part of his "best bit"?

u also included in the quote his somewhat clear pyramid scheme scam, cant show it in player here, but https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BijOF8I2t_4&t=637s

PMed

Too negative of a start to the day. Wanted to remind about this one, first 10 min about teaching people who are where u were before and everything else was pretty interesting:




Lets grind, study, eat healthier and avoid negativity today. Ready? 1,2,3 aaand go!

I truly appreciate celebrities like Tate. There's really 2 types of people that follow him. Someone with questionable morals and naive gullible people who don't know any better. So this really helps sifting people out. All my close friends meme and see him as an obvious grifter. So what I wanna say is that I know If I had an hearth attack my friends would mouth to mouth resuscitate me xd. And we would have a good laugh after calling each other gay for the rest of our lives.

I mean saying you truly appreciate someone who (i dont give enough of a thought to follow the news) clearly seems to have engaged in some pretty bad morally criminal activities, preying on weaker people whilst scamming his fanbase. Other than that i have friends that actually like tate, i have friends who adore him, i dont judge people because of it but i truly dont understand how he has anything to learn anyone that someone less morally corrupt doesnt. Yeah ofc u want to know ur friends will ***** save u when u have a heart attack, anything else is insane. I want my friends to do a lot less important things than that rofl, i dont see how this guy is capable of thinking in any way that is not what is the highest gain for himself personally and he doesnt care who or what he exploits to get it, because all that matters is him. Thats my picture of the guy, i saw his pod on ymh before he boomed and thought he was funny, but thats because i thought he was joking. Or he was more jokingly saying it until he had a bigger platform, who knows.

Anyways, really what i want to talk about is what i can control which is not whether Andrew Tate exists or not (clearly), but rather how i struggle to even listen to the guy without getting tilted (which means u need to stop listening because ur gonna let the emotion listen for you), the solution to this is stop listening to him but my problem is emotional control and letting things affect me that i wish wouldnt. I had an extremely negative response to something, everyone who bothered to try and talk to me (i wasnt taking anything in) was saying just forget it move on but in that moment i am not capable of listening, its like i am not aware enough and the emotion drives my actions too much for me to be rational, and this is something i dont like. I was going to type hate but i try to stay objective and just go ok i dont like how i respond emotionally to x, what is the actual problem and how do i improve it?

I think it comes from childhood etc and its just deep wired things that im trying to figure out and improve upon, and there are so many areas of poker let alone life that needs constant improvement i need to figure out how to deal with my emotions because i feel like i am a very fair and rational person but if i get tilted enough that person doesnt exist. Its not exactly the easiest thing to improve upon, especially quickly

I mean his "matrix thing" is classic refusal of taking responsibility of his actions which alot of people have, and im trying to take absolute responsibility of mine. And as for the calling friends gay thing i dont think i know anyone who has a worse vocabulary than me when its banter, but this aint banter.

Great stuff sir!
The first and last question about Tate should be "who the **** is Tate". Why are you spending energy on this guy? Some people deserve 0 amount off ****s and there is nothing you can do to change/save them. Even if you dedicate your whole life to this, you will not succed and just add to your misery and frustation. Maybe some no contact rule or something will help you.

Let s get back to your beautiful poker journey.

GL!

Trust me i dont spend much of my time thinking or listening to andrew tate but he and his fanboys are everywhere. Its just baffling to me that out of all the amazing people who has so much knowledge or has mastered what they do, yet somehow a criminal kickboxer who scams his own "fans" is a bit scary to see that he connects with so many in my generation, and then everytime someone tries to argue "for" him its always so stupid i cant help my self. But you are obviously right, i am aware this energy is a waste of energy and it affects me sometimes more than it should, but i find its usually when 3,4,5 things happen in a short time that my emotions can just snap and be irrational, the only reason tate came up was because the guy scammed me and then started calling me "brokie" which is something that bald **** says, and i mean i think i was pretty patient until i lost it, can show some (thisd is small amount of all of it):




and to finish off after playing stars the whole time, sending back around 70% of my money (i coached him for a few hours and **** too, really tried to help he says he has been nothing but polite



Honestly looking back i was quite patient but when i lose it i lose it, although at my highest tilt i wasnt thinking violently, but more petty, i was angry and wanted to make this fker feel 10% as **** as i felt taking that, a bunch of nice ppl said just move on, but its like telling someone who is crying just stop being sad, emotions are running the show. Its work in progress, this all led me to a few new aquintances (and a nutritionist! I could not need one more right now ) and i gained some perspective and knowledge about myself.

Gotta post in negative feedback as he seems to be running an obv scam but thought for some reason i wouldnt post negatively if i just got $40 more (which i didnt), as if it wasnt the fact that it was my money not the amount, and how he behaved that made me want it all. If im bad at emotional control (which i am) what the **** is this, next lvl crazy. Asked me after if id still stake him, people are nuts man. He aplogised 3 times, all apologizes followed by even worse berating. But in hindsight its easy to realise this guys punishment will be his own miserable self, whilst i keep learning and improving, moving away from the miserable self. I think its very very very important for me to really stay true to who i am and questioning it constantly but there are some things that i value highly and i think alot of people value similar things, its just hard to remember sometimes when u have alot of bad experiences. Im gullible too, so im done giving people the benefit of the doubt. Also my brother scammed me for 6k and berated constantly like this, so i think that triggered it a little extra hard. But same punishment for him, i truly believe in being a good person and having that belief that if u are and u stay true to yourself, things tend to find a way to work themselves out as long as you are trying to change/improve.


And there i will never think about that waste of space again. Heres something a little more positive:

Hey, how you doing, I admire ur journey, really nice results and good stuff you posting. (y) Do you know or can recommend good staking stable?

Hey, thanks man. I dont know of any stables other than by name so cant recommend any particular ones, would stay away from pocarr just because of some of the behaviours theyve shown but thats just an opinion based on a few observations. Look in the staking part of the forum!


Oh and this guy Give it a shot is understating it, we have been working at something very very interesting and im very happy my hail mary plz help in the thread lead to such a competent guy who is clearly very good at what he does. Exciting times ahead

Today went well. Dont know how month looks, but today went well.

👏👏👏 Impressive. Funny how you cut out a HUGE CHUNK of our discord exchange to fit this ‘goody two shoesÂ’ narrative you portray to the followers of this thread. You and I both know I updated you fully throughout the entirety of this ‘stakingÂ’ process - I got heated because I was falsely accused of robbing your money although I sent endless proof to suggest otherwise.

To put it simply - OHChariot sent me $250 to my crypto exchange to then move to ACR, however, when you move the money from the exchange to an external wallet you MUST complete 2FA (2 factor authentication, which requires you input one verification code sent to you through SMS and one through google authenticator) in order for the transfer to be processed - the difficulty I ran into was that the code being provided by my google authenticator was not being validated by the external wallet (crypto.com app). Every time I input the code it would come back as an INVALID CODE. The issue with this is that 2 factor authentication MUST be completed in order for funds to be moved from the exchange to an external wallet i.e ACR otherwise the funds are essentially stuck on the exchange until the technical support team figure out why this issue is occurringÂ…

This was proved to OHChariot COUNTLESS TIMES - I sent video proof of this issue happening in real time, I sent my chat with support, I sent picture proof of the update support provided to me etc I WAS FULLY TRANSPARENT AND APOLOGETIC FROM THE GET GO - and yes, I understood fully how this must have felt for OHChariot - I empathised with him and tried to reassure him that I would get this issue resolved promptly. Support outlined that they had a 2hr estimated time frame to get back to people, but this was exceeded by almost 24hrs which wasnÂ’t my fault (I also sent proof of this) but as soon as I got correspondence OHChariot was notified immediately.

Once the technical issue was finally resolved (I had to reset my 2FA through the application, delete and reinstall the google authenticator) OHChariot was immediately updated and his funds were sent back to him as requested. He sent a total of $250 and I showed proof that I sent back $234 (as displayed in the same pictures I sent to him below (on discord):



We discussed the small discrepancy between the original amount sent and the amount that was supposed to have been returned and he was fully aware that some minor feeÂ’s were involved (which he didnÂ’t care about) which is STANDARD when youÂ’re sending to and fro on crypto exchanges - HOWEVER, why there is $40 missing baffles me as much as it does him. The image above clearly shows the withdrawn amount totalling 0.0056137 BTC > $235, so there should only be a loss of $15, not the amount he has outlined. Now thats not me saying he is lying for one second - maybe there were some feeÂ’s involved, but why heÂ’s failing to recognise this is confusing.

IF I WAS SCAMMING HIM;

- his money would have been moved from my crypto wallet to my bank and I would have ghosted him? I showed him proof that his money was stuck on the exchange throughout the entire process up until his money was eventually returned (I made it clear to check the time in the corner of the picture to cross reference it with the time I was messaging him so he knew these pictures were sent in real time).

- I would have ceased all communication with him.

- I wouldnÂ’t have updated him at every twist and turn and sent proof to back up what I was saying.

The backlash and upset stemmed from the fact that A) OHChariot pulled out of the stake without me proving that the issue would be resolved and then once completed, moving the money to ACR as originally intended and continuing as normal. B) He made continuous hints at the fact that I could be a scammer when I proved to him otherwise. NO ONE likes to be accused of something theyÂ’re not - iÂ’ve been in 2 other backing deals and NEVER had an issue with funds being sent between both parties, and this was in the thousands.

Yes, I admit, I could have handled this situation differently in regards to my outbursts - but I was infuriated that OHChariot was still adamant that he was going to post me even though I proved to him I wasnÂ’t scamming and sent the above amount back to him as soon as the issue was resolved. Like, for what reason? The matter was resolved in two days, he had all the proof necessary to reassure him and he STILL proceeds to try and tarnish me? I just donÂ’t get it.