Sorry, didn't realize he got his friends in here to back him up. I'm sure his plan of moving out of his mom's basement making 25c a day will work well. Hope yours does too.

Morphy

Wow are you arrogant, no it's never you it are always the others! Btw I'm not posing here to back him up as he seems perfectly capable of doing that himself. I'm just here to say how I think of you as a person. Its funny that some time ago I was talking with my mother and she started about the internet blogs/forums and she said someting like: I see people critisizing, complaining, teasing other people's post, they must really have no life at all to spent time on that kind of things, pathetic isn't even the right word for it. I guess she meant you.

Ok, I'm going to respond to this recent "mini-fight" or whatever it is.

To Morphy:

You assume I didn't take anyone's advice or ignored it. That couldn't be further from the truth. I spent a couple of weeks after hearing the advice to take the job thinking about taking it. I really did. I couldn't do it though. It would have been more money. More benefits. ETC. But it also would have meant transferring. Having a whole bunch of rules placed on me that I don't have now. Basically being a whipping boy 24/7 for the company I work for.

I don't want to transfer though. I love the people that I work with. I have their respect without demanding it by being a manager. I don't want to be a shill. I hate the place that I work for. I can't stand there and shill for something that I hate. I know for a fact also that if I took the job, I'd quit on trying school and instead just look for promotions within the company. And I don't want to do that either.

You say I need responsibilities and I can't be lazy with it. But why not? I'm 21 right now. In a few years, I'll have a family I have to take care of. I'll need a full time job. I'll need to not be lazy. And that'll last for 40 years. Why not get the maximum amount possible from me now while doing the minimum while I still can?

It's not like I'm completely lazy either. I'm working 30 hours a week. That's damn near full time. I've been increasing the amount of poker that I play. Which, in turn, will lead to more money faster. I'm pushing myself to the limit exercising. ****, I'm also trying to get everything together to get back into school. You can believe I'm ignoring everyone's advice as much as you want. But you can't say that I'm not going more in the right direction than I was to begin the thread. And that's gotta count for something.




Story time again. This is lame story time. Anyways, last night me and my ex's best friend were talking. She's the one that I made out with and gave me a bj back in January. She's not exactly the best thing to look at, but a bj is a bj. IDGAF what a girl looks like, I ain't gotta see them when they're on their knees. Last night, she was like "you owe me." Then we started talking about being FWBs. Bad idea. It made her horny and she was like "come over here now!"

She even offered a threesome with me, herself, and my ex. Me and my ex, btw, literally ****ed every night and day of summer after my senior year. I almost did it too. But then...sigh...the girl I like texted me. Mind you, this was taking place at 2am. But my crush is currently...in Wyoming I think is what she said. Yeah, get this. She left for Arizona on tuesday, now is in Wyoming and complaining about 50 degree weather on top of the rocky mountains. WTF! It hasn't been 50 degrees here since Thursday! Anyways, the moral of this story:

Do not like a girl and try to make **** buddies, because it just simply won't work. You will feel immense guilt if you go through with it. And if you really like a girl, you won't even be able to go through with it.

That made it a long night with me and my hand last night. It's ok though, because I got the best sleep I've ever gotten afterwards

Poker/rough draft writing soon. After the morning poop.

That's funny because just the other day I was chatting online with my mom and she kept talking about how many stupid people there are on the internet. I guess she meant you.

Obviously the above is made up bs, but the point is, I don't care if you like or don't like me. That shouldn't be anyone's goal in a thread like this. There are going to be those who love the OP's stories and posts, those that don't, and the rest. I'm in that last category. I think the idea behind it is interesting, but the approach is all wrong. If the OP didn't want to hear conflicting posts then he shouldn't be posting. If you don't want to read conflicting posts then you shouldn't be reading.

Morphy

Just want to say that this is the best paragraph you've written in this whole thread so far.

Morphy

you mad bro?

40 years not being lazy, I'm glad I'm single, but I have to admit, too much freedom/spare time is also not good, makes you write pokerbots and such, sooo time consuming.

Wow. All I can say after finishing up my session is that it was probably the most helpless I have felt ever playing online poker. I was absolutely helpless. I'd hit something but not be able to continue. I'd take a stand against one of the most aggro players in the world and he'd have the nuts. Every time. That happened 5 or 6 times in 30 hands.

I was just helpless. I could not win a single pot. I couldn't hit a damned thing when I raised. I couldn't win a hand that I legitimately had 17 outs on twice. Or three bet the monkey with AQ only to find out he hits top and bottom on an A97 board. TPGK? Hey, the aggro guy bets anything, but he just so happened to have TPTK. Easily one of the most frustrating sessions I've had in 3 years of playing online poker. And the BR went below $40 too.

And I can't bluff either. These players call down to showdown with anything. Frustrating. Absurd. Lost $4.17. I'll get that back and more later today from the damned European ****bags.

We Europeans have good salary's so we can spew at NL2

I have money. If I wanted to, and if the US wasn't so unstable, I'd probably be playing 20nl at least. As is, it'd be stupid to put that much money on any poker website nowadays for me. So even though it's not my liferoll, I have to treat it like it is.

I know you have money, you work, I'm the one who is broke here lol. Well broke, almost $200,- online as a roll.

I cut my last session of the day prematurely short. When I have consecutive losing sessions (I have three consecutive right now) I like to book a win instead of playing for a long amount of time. And this session was much different.

It started off bad. THis guy is 61/16 through 60 hands with an AF of...yes, you're not seeing things....25. Not aggression percentage. Aggression Factor. And a 25% 3bet. I got him right where I wanted him with 3 outs. And then.....


Everleaf - €0.02 NL - Holdem - 2 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 3

Hero (SB): €2.00
BB: €0.57

Hero posts SB €0.01, BB posts BB €0.02

Pre Flop: (€0.03) Hero has 9 Q

Hero raises to €0.06, BB raises to €0.10, Hero calls €0.04

Flop: (€0.20, 2 players) Q 8 3
BB bets €0.10, Hero calls €0.10

Turn: (€0.40, 2 players) T
BB bets €0.37, Hero calls €0.37

River: (€1.14, 2 players) 9

Hero shows 9 Q (Two Pair, Queens and Nines) (PreFlop 32%, Flop 86%, Turn 75%)
BB shows J J (Straight, Queen High) (PreFlop 68%, Flop 14%, Turn 25%)
BB wins €1.09

(EDIT: not three outs, but I had him beat anyhow).

Poker gods felt bad for me though. This guy just sat down and posted. Thank you poker gods.


Everleaf - €0.02 NL - Holdem - 4 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 3

BTN: €1.02
SB: €0.99
Hero (BB): €2.00
UTG: €1.00

SB posts SB €0.01, Hero posts BB €0.02, UTG posts DB €0.02

Pre Flop: (€0.05) Hero has A 7

UTG checks, BTN calls €0.02, SB calls €0.01, Hero checks

Flop: (€0.08, 4 players) A A 2
SB checks, Hero bets €0.06, UTG raises to €0.12, fold, fold, Hero raises to €1.98, UTG calls €0.86

Turn: (€2.04, 2 players) T

River: (€2.04, 2 players) 2

Hero shows A 7 (Full House, Aces full of Twos) (PreFlop 30%, Flop 20%, Turn 14%)
UTG shows Q A (Full House, Aces full of Twos) (PreFlop 70%, Flop 80%, Turn 86%)
Hero wins €0.97
UTG wins €0.97

And then the poker gods were like "Dude, do you wanna **** Jennifer Aniston AND Selena Gomez (she's 18 fwiw)?" And I was like "**** YEAH!" And they were like "Here they are" and they dropped from the sky, completely nude.

But I guess flopping top set vs a fish's overpair (IDK which one it was) is just as good.


Everleaf - $0.02 NL - Holdem - 9 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 3

MP: $1.24
MP+1: $0.58
LP: $2.01
Hero (CO): $2.13
BTN: $0.50
SB: $2.23
BB: $1.00
UTG: $1.10
UTG+1: $1.46

SB posts SB $0.01, BB posts BB $0.02

Pre Flop: ($0.03) Hero has 7 7

fold, UTG+1 raises to $0.07, fold, fold, fold, Hero calls $0.07, fold, fold, fold

Flop: ($0.17, 2 players) 7 2 5
UTG+1 bets $0.17, Hero raises to $0.40, UTG+1 calls $0.23

Turn: ($0.97, 2 players) 5
UTG+1 bets $0.12, Hero calls $0.12

River: ($1.21, 2 players) 6
UTG+1 bets $0.18, Hero raises to $0.54, UTG+1 calls $0.36

Hero shows 7 7 (Full House, Sevens full of Fives)
Hero wins $2.18

And this was ok I guess.


Everleaf - €0.02 NL - Holdem - 3 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 3

Hero (BTN): €2.05
SB: €0.92
BB: €1.42

SB posts SB €0.01, BB posts BB €0.02

Pre Flop: (€0.03) Hero has 6 A

Hero raises to €0.06, fold, BB calls €0.04

Flop: (€0.13, 2 players) 8 Q 9
BB bets €0.02, Hero raises to €0.08, BB calls €0.06

Turn: (€0.29, 2 players) 7
BB bets €0.02, Hero raises to €0.22, BB calls €0.20

River: (€0.73, 2 players) 4
BB bets €0.02, Hero raises to €1.69, BB calls €1.04

Hero shows 6 A (Flush, Ace High) (PreFlop 70%, Flop 100%, Turn 100%)
BB shows T 6 (Straight, Ten High) (PreFlop 30%, Flop 0%, Turn 0%)
Hero wins €2.71

PT3 says I won $2.95 that session, and Everleaf says my BR is up to $42.41 now. That is 95% the last session of the night, as I have work in 10 hours from now.

So today I've played just about 2 hours. I cut the grass. I've worked a bit on my petition. I enjoyed myself. Everything except work out. And, I mean, it's gunna be a shorter workout session since it took an hour to cut that freaking knee high grass.

Hang on - I've seen you talking about being a botter. Cant your Bot's even beat the lowest limit? Surely if your as good a programmer as you say you wouldnt be broke?

Well, I'm always broke and I'm never broke at the same time. I have no job, I have no government money, but I do make some money with playing poker myself and botting but it's not much, I live like this for over a year now so all is fine, I enjoy my freedom. Everything better then working from 9 to 5. I'm busy with a challenge though to mass grind sit&go's and hope things will turn around soon. This weekend I found a huge leak, folding to much to shoves so from tomorrow on I'll try to get some more volume and hopefully make a 3k month or something similiar.

Btw people don't realise that NL6max is about the toughest game to bot, there are much easyer ways, but for me it's more of a challenge and a hobby, but a hobby with great potential as it's the most played game online, besides people have no idea what go's around when building a bot, I crush these stakes easily but somehow I take much more info from the table into account then I realize myself while playing and I don't even use a HUD. Gameflow is so important. I dont like to take the easy route.

But according to your thread on this you are not making money so my question still remains - if you are a successful botter why dont you have any money?

Didn't see your edit: even if thats the case - why wouldnt you go after easy money? Im saying your bluffing here about being able to bot because you wouldnt voluntarily be broke.

Beleive what you want to beleive, this might be internet but I don't have to tell everything. The fact that I perhaps bragged about my results at NL2 mean in no way that I think I'm a succesfull botter, but I'm not a terrible one either. Besides I can't even program but I'm a pretty damn good script writer and thats all what it takes.

Well obviously im going to believe what i want to believe - but the question still remains - if you think you can bot why are you broke?

I'm not really broke, just close to. Why? Since my income equals my outcome I'm always almost broke. I just live on the edge, satisfied? I think there is a slight difference between being able to bot and being able to make BIG bucks wiht botting. I guess I'm a mediocre botter. But I dont complain about it too much, I must honestly admit I expected more from it so I am a little bit dissapointed about it. I've seen and still see people around me make >$10k/month with botting. But these are people who are excellent programmers for huge company's and they don't even really need the botting money lol.

So I obviously didn't get to this thread until fairly late. Was up at 5am and able to start functioning at about 2pm. Ate lunch, worked out, played a lot of halo to get 3 of 4 of the daily challenges. Then played poker. I didn't play a long session either because, quite frankly, I want a damned peppermint mocha!

(Plus, the tables were starting to die down)

PT3 says I won $1.95. The Everleaf cashier is at $44.98. So you be the judge of that. I might get another session in today, I'm not sure. My body, even after working out, just isn't what I'm used to right now.

Played a $.20 BI tournament last night for the lolz. Lost in 14th before the money. Shortstacked, 33<66, gg me. Meh.

I'm still broke until tomorrow, so there really isn't much I can do. So I shall play some poker. Play some chess. Play some halo. I'm supposed to go out with my friend later tonight, but I'm not really thinking it'll happen.

And the girl that I like, we've been having a conversation over the last 2 days about what I should do with college. I want to go back to OSU, but that takes a lot of work and hassle. But it's easily the better school, and I have to go back there at some point. Plus, my family sort of expects me to go there. But she says I should go to the local community college for a quarter or two. It's cheaper and, according to her, it's a lot less of a hassle. Mind you, she knows pretty much everything about my situation.

It sucks that she said that, because I was thinking the exact same thing. It's really a hassle to go through everything I need to go through just to get back to OSU for winter quarter. Meanwhile, I can take a quarter or two at the community college, have it be much cheaper, and then transfer back to OSU seamlessly. But, my family expects me to go back to Ohio State.

Backkground about my family. They're poor. I did amazing in high school, and I'm really a lot smarter than I appear. They pressured me to go to Ohio State, when in reality I wanted to go elsewhere. I could have gone elsewhere, seen more of the US, because I had the advantage of having great grades, great testing scores, AND I could list myself as two or three different races (colleges love diversity). But they pressured me so much that I pretty much submitted to their will. I've never really considered them family anyways. We (me and my brothers) were beaten, abused, sexually abused, and starved as kids by my mom's bf (also sister's dad). She knew it and wouldn't do anything because she loved him too much. It went on for 6 years. She attempted suicide once as well during these six years. It took me running away when I was 10 for her to finally get rid of him.

Since then, she's gone from black guy to black guy. This is going to sound very racist, but its why I don't like blackk people, even though I am part black myself. They all treated her bad, treated us bad, but she just wouldn't let go of them. I always felt she cared more about those guys than us. She attempted suicide 2 more times afterwards, and I had to revive her the last time. Both times were because of guys. Essentially, she was telling us that she cared more about her guys than me, my brothers, and sister. She hasn't worked since I was 12. She was robbed at gunpoint, and while I realize that it's a traumatic event...eventually you have to get back to work. Supposedly, that event triggered a lot of health problems in her and she's been living off of disability and child support the last 9 years. She stays at home all day and yet, does nothing. She mooched off of my grandma and grandpa. Well, my grandpa died two summers ago and since then, has been trying to mooch off of me and my brother. So that's why she (and my whole family) puts so much pressure on me. She needs the money. But it sucks, because she never really was like a mother to me. I learned how to live by watching her and doing the opposite of what she does.

So that's why there is a lot of pressure on me from everyone. I hate it. And obviously, if I go to the community college, even for a quarter or two, I will get a whole bunch of endless questions and even more pressure. I won't give them the satisfaction of telling them what really happened. So here is my conundrum. Do I go to the community college, with a 100% chance of admittance which is cheaper but the education and classes are pretty much a joke and deal with the questions and added pressure? Or do I try to go through the hassle, let at least one person know the real reason why I didn't go to college last year, but take the questions and some of the pressure off of me, all for a 40% chance of re-admittance? Basically, that's what me and my crush have been debating for the past two days. Both paths end at Ohio State. But both paths are also drastically different.

I can tell you from real world experience that it will almost never matter how you got your degree, and it will very rarely even matter where you got your degree from. Your degree will end up as a single line on your resume and while that line will mean quite a bit (especially starting out) in the job world, in reality that's all it is. You can explain away the gap between high school and college in about 15 seconds by saying you took some time off to find yourself and decide what you really wanted to do with your life, and then pursued the degree to get you there, or some such BS.

What I mean is that while both choices you have above are different, in the long run it won't matter which one you choose, so you should pick the one that you are the most comfortable with and can handle the easiest.

As for the rest of it, sounds like you just need to get out of there. I know that's what your goal is, but maybe you need to adjust priorities to put that on top, and once you're out of that situation you can then work on other priorities.

Morphy

What a story, I guess your better off with the shortterm hassle. When you go to Ohio will you leave home or does that have nothing to do with it?

If I did go to OSU, I wouldn't have to move anywhere even though I want to move. It's only 30 minutes away or so.

The degree I get must be from Ohio State, because the community college simply doesn't offer 4 year bachelor degrees. So either path, I'll have to end at Ohio State.

Just finished two short session. Merged into one, it's an hour long session. PT3 says I won a combined $6.20 or so (my computer died as I was typing this up the first time, so I don't have PT3 pulled up), and my Everleaf cashier says my BR is at $52.70. Shocking part is that I still ran bad. AK<AT AIPF vs a literal 100/100 through 10 hands player. And it was a 200bb pot.

Next hand though I got him to stack off with J9 on a 9AA2 flop. I, of course, had AJ. And it was another 200bb pot. So yeah. So far for the monthly poker goals, I am nearly 33% done with the hand volume goals, nearly 33% done with the profit goals, and only 18 or so % done with the hour volume goals. Never fret, though! I still have 84% of October remaining!

****. I was doing so well, then the worst possible thing happens.


A 1st shift shift. 6am-230. It's awful. It's not any better that I didn't get back from my friends house until midnight last night without eating dinner. So I grabbed McDonald's real quick for dinner. At midnight. Smart move. Then I woke up 4 1/2 hours later to eat breakfast and work. And all day at work, I had the farts. It happens, without fail, everytime I have to work 6am. Everytime. And I have no idea why. And it wasn't the silent ones either. They were loud and smelly. And all I had ate in the last 12 hours had been an apple, orange juice, cereal, and mcdonald's. I think we know the culprit.

Then I nap and don't wake up till 630 and I still feel so blah. ****. I'm going to try to play some poker tonight, but first I gotta wake up. This always happens to me.

I must also say that I am so glad to be over the $50 mark. It takes one of the two possible pitfalls essentially out of the equation now, which was going busto. If I went busto, that would be it. No more online poker ever. And I was getting kind of worried too when the BR would hover around the $25 mark. Next milestone obv is $100, although it doesn't carry as much weight since $80 is the 4nl 20 BI mark. And I'm playing one table of 4nl already anways. Hopefully we'll get to the $100 mark by the end of October, if I'm lucky