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Originally Posted by Stjean
This isn't 'sacrificing his social life' , its complete isolation under immense stress, pressure and frustration. For a full calendar year. It's not like he just has to hang out inside all day and not socialize. Even that would be extremely unhealthy. This is going to drastically affect him longterm mentally, it is a terrible idea and should obv just be done on a smaller scale for less money while still having some free time and to socialize. I am also forgetting that he said he has zero friends though, tough to imagine why.
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Originally Posted by Seabeast
so much this. i had a lockdown wtf-am-i-doing-with-my-life year in my mid 20s too, completely devoted myself to poker and turned 1k roll into playing HSNL by the end of the year. i get the spirit of what awice wants to do, shut out the world and make something of himself, wanting to make up for past laziness and use poker as the catalyst for the future pursuits etc. i was probably immersed in poker 80 hours a week that year between playing online, playing live (found that helped a lot to change it up and add a bit of social aspect) and reading/talking about poker. but it's so important to approach these things organically, playing only when you feel like it (even if you feel like it very often), genuinely learning and honing your craft, and basically just all around treating the game with respect.
this is just like trying to whore yourself out as a bot and deny the fact that you're human and your brain suffers in performance when under immense strain, pressure, and lack of enthusiasm towards the task it's performing. you're reprogamming yourself into a ****ty person and a ****ty poker player. you'd be so much better off with a goal like winning money for the year pre-RB and still getting 2-3 x SNE, or something along those lines. it's so important to respect yourself, respect what you're doing (rather than thinking of it as a cheap whore you're trying to exploit) and still have energy left to have some small semblance of freedom and a non-poker life. your performance is gonna suffer, you have a pretty significant risk of ruin, and even if you "succeed" and make the 8x you won't profit anywhere near the 1m, and you will be so alienated and dead inside by the end.
First, you guys are the posters in the top group in my mind that I respect the most.
There is a lot to get to, so I will just answer in point form.
0. I respect what you guys are saying and you are mostly right. But I feel that the path that you laid out is just mostly right, its not right for everyone. For me, I feel comfortable with the path I am on. Soon, that path will be right for me, but not just yet.
1. If I wasn't playing poker, I wouldn't go outside or talk to anyone, I would very likely just do some derp **** instead. Kirbynator can tell you, when I found some derp Diablo III exploit I literally woke up, played it 16 straight hours, slept, played 16 straight hours, slept, etc. hammering that exploit (something very repetitive that takes 1 minute) every day all day because I felt like I was winning. That's my personality. Realistically I would be playing games or watching people play games all day.
2. If you look at the VIP club leaderboard, there are plenty of people doing what I am doing. Why? It turns out that you can get something like 3k VPP an hour at 200s or whatever. If I did it correctly I could play something like 7h a day, or less, or whatever. The time factor isn't actually the problem, even if I was playing say 12h a day. Plenty of people work two jobs or three or whatever. The problem is stress from swings and self doubt, and being a good enough player to legit beat those stakes. Only a handful of people in the world right at this moment can beat these games.
3. I have a lot of enthusiasm for poker even when it's tough. I feel like you guys have an egocentric bias here, because eg. if 40 hours of poker a week is something very painful for you, you assume it must be for me too. I just came off the biggest downswing of my life and I played phenomenally yesterday for 12h small tabling even while losing big. I'm happy to play. I just wanna play, mang.
4. My performance does suffer a bit but I think for me specifically, these things are either something I understand or I don't. If I understand it then it will become memory and I will play the hand that way forever. If I don't then it is a leak and I will lose money in that spot. I don't think eg. my 8 tabling ability is better than my 12 tabling ability basically. For most people this isn't true though. There are some tilt control issues but I feel comfortable with my tilt control overall.
5. I have plenty of freedom even while getting 8x. I just don't have that much freedom if I intend to do 12x this Jan (which I am on pace for.) Depending on results (maybe I can handle running about 50 bad from today before I throw the towel) I may have to abandon 12x. But all of these things are sort of flex goals anyways, even 8x. The main thing for me is that I want to do all the things in point #6 + play poker min 40h a week so I can feel good about myself that I took the game seriously and made money before bots take over or whatever instead of jerking off.
6. I do respect myself, haha. That's why I eat well, exercise, wake up on time, sleep on time, take timeouts to relax, talk with people, play piano, etc.