January 7th, 2013
Swongs (they R one thing)
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Race to Supernova
On New Years Eve I went out for a steak dinner w my friend (that works in my company.) Afterwards I went home early and tried to sleep. It was 10pm. I woke up at 4am, I could barely sleep. Time to start
the protocol. Brush shower exercise eat stretch etc. It was 4:45, and I started regging.
I had never intended to even compete in the SN race, but I thought since I needed 12x anyways, I might as well play. This translated into a 58k VPP day somehow. I remember being so freaking nervous. There were many problems. I was wondering why when I tried to go all in, I would minbet. I would end up min3betting people preflop etc. (Turns out, I disabled Stars Hotkeys and had to click that button again... but it took me a few minutes to figure out.) I had to stop and start my session quite a bit.
I started to slow down at 10pm. I wish I didn't waste so much time, both after 10pm and between those hours. I went to sleep at 11pm. When I woke up, MO (MouldyOnions) was ahead by 2k VPP, and it was 6am. I went right to playing 28 tables, and I never stopped. At noon, I saw that I was still 2k behind. MO had been keeping pace with my 24 tabling the entire time, lol -- so sick. In order to catch up, I would have to play $60 hypers, which only earn a measly 13VPP a game. I turned on the jets, and by 2pm I closed the gap to a few hundred VPP.
That's when I really got motivated, I said, I am going to do the most I can humanly do, and I got up to ~48 tables and I won right at the stretch. That **** is dizzying. To be honest, I have no idea how I did it (especially at the tail end of playing 28 of the last 35 hours or so at above 24tabling pace).
I wanted to win so bad somehow it came out. I think it was adrenaline, or something that really helped me. I think few people (even now) understand the scope of what I did in order to win. It is about 6.5k hands an hour. That's something like 7k decisions a second or about 1 decision every 0.55 seconds. A human can react in only 0.25 seconds from brain to mouse, so it leaves 0.30s for processing. To do this for 1.5h especially after having played for 30h is completely insane. I (or probably anyone) will very likely never play that fast ever again (when multiplied by VPIP -- I know there is rs03 but I don't consider having a VPIP of 4 to be notable).
Four days after
After those 2 days I vowed to just play a nice comfortable casual pace and glide into SNE by the end of the month. That's when
it happened. I lost. Then I lost some more. Then I lost some more. And just when I thought it was over, I had the worst day yet -- I lost another $22.6k in EV in a day, running 100k below in chip EV. Since you start off with 500 in chips when you play a hyper, 100k below in chip EV in a day is ******ed. (Sorry I can't show my cEV and cWV, but the diff is exactly 100k -- don't want people to know how good/bad of a reg I am)
Physically, it was very stressful. I found when doing squats, pushups, or situps, that my whole body would be stiff. My leg literally froze while doing a squat and I had to stand there for a bit for it to wear off.
At the same time, I became zealous. I studied more than ever. I considered dropping down to 100s and 60s -- if I table them hard I can play all day without the swings. I decided I would just keep playing. If I am going to lose, then I'm going to force Mr. Doomswitch to show me a -100k ICM diff and a -500k below cEV. That's the only way I'm going to drop down to those bull**** stakes. But I'm going to keep my EV where I want it.
I also pride myself on the fact that I can play, and play hard, and play well! While other people can't. I don't think almost any reg in hypers could handle losing how much I lost in EV in the last 4 days.
Until then, I'm going to play some poker, bitches.
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