Why? Do they also put effort to spend time with you in Asia?

They don't have time.

You left your village. Big African dude said to me fire in his eyes at a bar that I should never leave my village. Repeated it was biggest mistake of his life.

I don't feel same way. I'm not stuck anywhere unwillingly. Had that grass is greener on other side feeling for many years suddenly it stopped totally.

Writing too much non essential things.

Confirmed Africa is better for Africans than Finland.

you should go back to finland and be with your family then meet a nice finland girl and make a family with her

Good suggestion. I'm happy with my girlfriend and have decided live in Asia for a long time. Maybe I have it ahead of myself what you said though, never know in life.

yea man, if ur happy with ur gf that you met after you left ur village then alls good i guess

Yeah I was just over thinking again..

Evenings are difficult, easy to think a lot and never get anywhere with it. Have to rest from forums, hope James keeps working on his game, I'm a bit concerned of him also...

I think everything starts with how the day gets started , always doing lot better when there are habits and routine in place , bit more than brushing teeth and eating breakfast and drinking coffee . I did today breathing exercises and yoga with girlfriend, feeling much more better . Running in the concrete parking lot is just probably not the best morning routine . Trying to stick to the breathing exercise before playing as a minimum thing and keeping with the Yoga as something to do daily too. Then setting the cardio and gym / strength training as something to get to later again , point is discipline with basic routines that lead to well-being and mastering this before anything else.

awesome thread and musing kiljusieppo.

Ive always wanted to hear your thoughts on a crushing loss day. are you able to still function with all of your routines the next day, and keep grinding and having everything in check? or does everything crumble.

Thanks for the compliment .

Usually I take shots to bigger games when doing well at where I'm usually playing , if those go badly then I mostly quit early . After that I'm being mostly more fired up and confident at the normal games and hungry to grind it back. I needed to learn bunch of stuff a bit of a hard way I guess... thinking it was 2019 beginning , had previously jumped from 200nl to 500nl (because of getting some great coaching) , crushed the 2/5 zoom after binked 4th place at a Wcoop 6-max event , then start of the year 2019 I went to Cyprus on january to play some tournies , lost around 10k euro there , didn't notice any changes on mindset or with myself but honestly I was ****ED up already . Getting arrogant, thinking I'm great player . I think soon after I went to play 2k and lost 30k ish / and overall ended just getting crushed, had a breakeven year and just struggled so much with myself. It's good to be proud and it's good to be happy but there is really big BUT which is , for how big part are you basing your confidence on things such as poker results (variance) / being good player or having had some successful investments etc. and how does all of this affect you ? ... In other words what would you do if you would not have anything at all? I did think these things through and of what I would do if not doing well at poker / if losing my whole capital and I think it was something that opened the last mental block of becoming as much indifferent towards money as I possibly can (big losses / games stress me a bit , but swings in investments don't really affect me
that much) and poker swings much less in generally .


This being said I think a good player puts his best self to every game every day he play's it and takes it always very seriously . And what comes down to winning I think it's about two things, first is having routines and doing things decently and second part is being happy in life . If the second part is not true then it's very hard to get results in this game. This was what I learned this year (the hard way again) . That's why personal relationships (closest one's are so important to be stable and good as possible) .

Too long answer. Also if playing games one doesn't have significant edge it's never being one bad day , it's 20 bad day's in a row . That's why to most people it's better to table select .

^^ Many mental blocks , wasn't surely the last one.

Let the guy tell some success stories they always go that way everything is extreme and ends going from a victim to a victory

I'm not sure at all of too many things.

Today we were at Siam Paragorn Bangkok shopping mall , buying some essential clothes and also grabbed some lunch at Chinese restaurant called Four Seasons , did really like the food and we found everything needed . I've had mixed feelings of eating duck in Asia, sometimes it's just being dry and **** but there at Four Seasons it was very good this time . Enjoyed things today bit more than what I usually do, I think letting girlfriend teach me Yoga is a really good way to bond with her .


Doing shopping is mostly something I dislike , after going through many lockdowns and sort of having good idea what is necessary to buy and mall wasn't all that packed I found it actually quite refreshing seeing some people.

amazing post kil. Its awesome for you to relate to a personal story of yours when highlighting the point. Ive always thought mental game is probably the most underrated parts of poker. And everyone would always think studying solutions and solvers is the way to reach high stakes or crush, while actually having good balance in life, a sufficient bankroll that prevents yourself from risk-ruin, and also having a clear mental state are also important soft skills to have.

Ill follow on your journey and hopefully ill see you crushing the 500Z pool.

Really important things.

Doing stuff with clear intentions is what really is keeping me on track, as example we made a small day trip yesterday to Lumpini Park for walking. Saw lot of demonstrators and police (everything was somewhat relaxed though) and then later got caught out in the rain . We were standing for a good while under some cover thing observing rain and lizards crossing over the pond towards us . Felt relaxing in some way, good to do some normal stuff not just sitting indoors being on phone / PC as it somehow too often lately has end up being. Later in the evening I was observing the city lights from the window ; thinking there is also beauty in urban environments , little different than in the nature but anyways somehow felt like having a very clear mind, and it was a wholesome experience in a certain way. More enjoyable to do when having a few drinks but the experience is different also then.

Good to take time for yourself.

^^ body not taking the drinks long grind too well anymore. Have to limit grind hours and do all kinds of semi boring stuff and try to think it's wholesome someway.

Best is to not think too much about anything.

Did eat Indian at a mall, was very good. Had few beers ahead, made it more better. This is stuff I'm not "supposed to be" doing but I enjoy doing. Where to draw the line? Don't know. I guess things have consequences and there is also risks in life with not taking action when it comes down to enjoyment.

Not correct . Depends always on what kind of pleasures to let yourself get used to. Mind will find amusement and pleasure in pretty much any circumstance after getting bored. What do you tolerate yourself to be doing and getting used of is the fundamental question.

Was eyeing beer at downstairs 7eleven after wrote this, choose to not buy and did put the beer money to some covid charity thing. Better for me.