Made 593 today. Two hands that I can remember: 3 handed Qh2h in Sb straddle 6 I'm first to act. Go 15. Straddle raises 35 I call. Flop adksac I donk lead 20 button calls. Turn 7c I go 40 get min clicked to 80. Fold. Villain shows AA. I was trying to get lower pairs to fold but ran into a bazooka. Another same guy opens utg 20 I have AA opt to gamble by limping. 5 callers. Great. Flop qd5d3s I go 45 someone with a diamond draw folds 45 into 205. Button calls. Turn 3h I shove 120 effective. Button calls with aq draw line dead and river is a boarding setting 3. Was up 725 at one point so I left when I started losing. Smart. Bankroll now at 2390 after some expenses socializing with 3 peeps I haven't hungout with in years.

Down 970 plus 130 for skiing tomorrow bankroll 1300. Games were really tough. I ran 2/10 played 7/10. Should have left earlier oh well. One hand of day. Utg raises 10 unknown looser player I go 35 with ak everyone folds he calls flop 345 he checks I go 30 he shoves. He's been bluffing alot so I call he has a6 turn 7 for straight and we don't chop river so there's a 500$ pot going the other way. I think the dream is officially dead but we will see.

Two more hands pro raises 10 to mp I got 1010 on button go 35 its heads up. Flop 4h5s6h he check I go 60 he goes 175 I fold cause he could have aa or kk or sets or straight or combo draw were I'm either even money or slightly behind. He said he had hearts. One last hand vs life long pro. I open 87spades mp to 15. He from sb goes 60 I call putting him on aa or kk. But he had aq. Flop 9s7c2h he goes 60 I call. Turn 10c he goes 120 I call with intentions of bluffing r hitting river. River qd he checks I go all in 250 effective he calls. When I checked I though he could have ak or kk thsts scared of a set or straight.

I loved the game but the game doesn't love me. I don't know how anyone does this. It's too much for everyone. Thanks to my friend in Vegas for helping me select the right words. This is my poker funeral. I'm too autistic. I didn't study hard enough, I made excuses. I'm gambling addict this is causing damage to me and my life. May god have mercy on you all. I'm officially done. There's no point beating a dead. I have no ill will or bad feelings though. I actually feel free and happy to pursure something new. I'll probably still make a few more updates just not to leave everything in the dark for my benefit and yours, thanks for reading.

Take care of yourself, and wishing you all the best in your next endeavors.