been on a ridiculous heater during may without much success in SCOOP events themselves:
post-ante:
pre-ante:
Blessed.
Only decent run SCOOP-wise was 30th-40th in the 3-stack mid after coming into day 2 in the top 5 and bottling it and not adjusting to my tables. The ****ing awful part is that I spent 3 hours getting ready for day 2 and made the idiotic decision to one table it, which led me to try to turn water into wine every hand.
I am going to parlay this luck into becoming decent at poker - I've started incorporating training videos before a session, but that is a 10% effort. The real value I think will be in reaching out to thinking players to work together on hh reviews and potentially coaching. Separately, I am playing on a bootleg 4-year old laptop. I think investing in a new machine, a mouse, and a monitor is prudent. The monitor especially is going to be ****ing amazing after playing on a 15 inch screen with tables stacked like a ****ty solitaire animation.
I have made it a point in the past to burn out in a blaze whenever I start making progress, not just in poker but in most things in my life. Over the past few weeks I've caught myself consciously engaging in a dialectic to remind myself not to take things for granted again and keep pushing up.
Budapest is a great city, and I'll be staying for at least a month more (sidenote: airbnb is ****ing awesome). A lot of the nightlife is outdoors and smoking is accepted still (eastern europe) which is so mint for the summer months. I am fighting my alcoholism a bit more aggressively though - I have some numbness in my pinky and ring finger which I am guessing is a result of nerve damage and/or B12 deficiency from alcohol intake. I think this is as good a moment as any to reign in my drinking - it will be easier when poker is going so well.