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Lost almost everything playing partycasino, time to regroup! Lost almost everything playing partycasino, time to regroup!

12-22-2011 , 03:43 AM
Hello,

I'm a new member of 2+2 and I just felt the need to express myself somewhere and my friend recommended this place. This will be the topic where I will try to make my way back up and regroup myself.

Something about me. I am mostly very disciplined poker professional, but I get sometimes out of control. Usually when I lose alot I start doing dumb ****. I think alot of players have these issues, and me, I do the stupidest things you could ever imagine. This kind of behaviour has costed me hundreds of thousands dollars.

Cliffs: Lost ~320,000$ playing party casino

24th november, I was a bit bored and tried to test out the party casino software. All went well and disciplined, I was doing 30€ spins and had 3000€ stoploss. I was very lucky and end up cashing out 12000€ profit. After this I went to a one week vacation trip abroad.

5th december. I just got back from vacation, first day I lost 63,000$ playing poker. I played a regular on higher limits than I usually play and I thought I had an edge. I looked at my balance and I had remainings of 12000€, almost the exact amount I end up winning from casino last time and I thought, "hell why not, its a freeroll anyways". So I opened partycasino "Melon madness" where they have 3Million euros to win if you hit the jackpot. I clicked on the maxbet of 450€ per spin and after few rounds I got very lucky winning total of 77,000€. I was very fortunate and excited getting everything back I lost in poker from casino. I went to sleep.

15th december. I had keep playing on the partycasino almost everyday, and got more and more addicted day by day, but using smaller bets around 30€-60€ per spin. There was an ongoing promotion where you could win 2000$ bonus money if you end up in top five. These promotions usually took few days and then a new similiar promotion started. If you finished top five three times in all promotions you would get 5000$ cash. I already finished in one promotion top five, so I decided to give it to a shot to do it once more. At this point of time I had around 105,000€ on my account. I thought I had found the strategy to beat casino. After few hours of spinnings I was losing money and had 88,000€ remaining on my account. I never had a losing streak like this before, so I felt more and more addicted spin by spin, I thought I have to make a big win soon, so I decided to slowly up my bet from 60€ to 150€ to 300€ and finally to max bet 450€. The big hit didn't come, my account reached a pity 0,00€. I was busto on my partycasino account. At this point of time I didn't think, it was all a freeroll, it was more like I felt losing 105,000€s. I thought, If I deposited I could have a chance to win it all back. I said to myself "The big hit has to come soon, it has to!! I lost so much money I never have before" So I went on my moneybookers, deposited 7000€ busted, then another 7000€, busted, then 6000€ more and I have reached my account limits. I prayed to my friend to send me 3000€ and he did, busted that in less than a minute. Then I took my credit card, deposited 4000€, busted, and then I only had one more more go, since all my transaction limits were exceeded and I could deposit only once more 3999€. And then BINGO! THE BIG HIT!!! I Win 65000€!!!! I was up from casino once again, got all my deposits back and some more. I was very fortunate and told myself to never play casino again. I went to sleep having a large smile on my face.

18th december. I won the 2nd promotion aswell, partycasino called me I haven't play for a few days, and if I finish top 5 in last promotion I will get the 2000$ bonus aswell with 5000$ cash. I told them to **** off. I'm not going to do this again, I'm going to hit and run with this what I still have left.

19th december. I thought about their call last night, thought yeah, it makes sense. That is like 7000$ up for grabs, I have to do it. Maybe few spins yeah? So I went on roll again, started spin the machine for hours and end up dropping to 20,000€ with max bets, then I got lucky once again and hit big to reach 105,000€ total. This making me somewhere around 80,000-85,000€ up total with the deposits. Now I was #1 in promotion and thought I don't need any more spins to make it top five. I proceeded maximum cashout of 70,000€ and went to sleep with peaceful mind, thinking my casino career ******ations are finally over.

20th december. I wake up and look at the leaderboard, to my surprise I see I have dropped to 7th place. I'm like ****, I didn't feel too good. This can't be the best thing happening to me right now, can it??. I HAVE TO SPIN AGAIN. I AM ADDICTED. Spin after spin I see my account decreasing, from controlled 30€ bets I go up again to 60€...150€....300€... and finally max bet 450€. I don't see any luck and I just kept on losing. My pre-session balance of 35,000€ hit 0€ and I still was up around 40,000€ total. But no way I can stop now. I am way too addicted, I must get my losses back. I HAVE TO. I go to cashier and click on the CANCEL cashout button. I receive 70,000€ more to play with. My balance keeps grinding down, after some time I look at it and see it hit the 30,000€ mark, realising I'm now breakeven with casino overall. Now it's just the deposits left I made earlier. I don't give a ****, I keep on spinning. Short time after balance hits 0€. Moneybookers had reseted and deleted my deposit limits. I look at my account, see around 50k € laying there. 7000€ by 7000€ I keep depositing more. I lose it all...

Now I'm down in casino 80,000€ from being up 105,000€ Also poker is down 63,000$ With a dollar rate I have grinded the money is around 1.4 and put this together my downfall is a total of 322,000$. I am almost busto. Only money I have left now is in my bank, but I'm too tired and tilted to continue. I talk to my friends and tell what just happened. I told them I really need to clear my head somewhere and this was where I was linked to.

This was how many partypoints I was able to get during this casino period, also a kind of prove that it really did happen.

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So what will happen now? I have 40,000€ in bank and I will deposit this money to several poker sites and start on grinding. I will probably wait until the new year before I start all of this. Need to have some time off to understand everything that has happened to me and make a start over. My goal is to win 500,000$ next year and I will keep this topic updated while the grind goes. I'm getting more and more motivated once the days go by to show you people I can make a comeback from being a total complete moron idiot

Thanks for the read and support, and thanks for letting me be here to clear my head out!!

Last edited by cl500; 12-22-2011 at 03:58 AM.
12-22-2011 , 03:59 AM
I did pretty much the exact same thing (although for a lot less money) ~5 years ago on the carbon roulette...

Since then I have not played any other casino games apart from poker and the odd $1 spin at a live casino with the girlfriend for fun.

Best of luck to you you through this rough patch, I'm sure you'll bounce back once you have a clear head.
12-22-2011 , 03:59 AM
http://www.gamblock.com/index.html

Seriously dude! Forget poker! Keep your 40 k, see the world with it, start a business. Gl
12-22-2011 , 06:24 AM
I had a problem with gambling and i went and sorted now my mindset it much better. Poker was never the issue for me it was just what was around it. e.g. blackjack etc.

My bankroll management has improved drastically as well as not tilting anymore and gambling my bankroll at $5/$10 etc.

I would go see someone and not put a penny onto any poker site until you are through with your gambling issues because it will affect your poker.
12-22-2011 , 02:42 PM
Quote:
Originally Posted by Micro_dude
I did pretty much the exact same thing (although for a lot less money) ~5 years ago on the carbon roulette...

Since then I have not played any other casino games apart from poker and the odd $1 spin at a live casino with the girlfriend for fun.

Best of luck to you you through this rough patch, I'm sure you'll bounce back once you have a clear head.

Have to say casino addiction is a bitch. Thanks for the support, hope your right.

Quote:
Originally Posted by bobbysquares
http://www.gamblock.com/index.html

Seriously dude! Forget poker! Keep your 40 k, see the world with it, start a business. Gl
I don't know if you are leveling or not, if your serious I need to say poker is my business and I need to keep doing what I have done until this point. I just need to get rid off casino and that's all. :P

Quote:
Originally Posted by L00P1E
I had a problem with gambling and i went and sorted now my mindset it much better. Poker was never the issue for me it was just what was around it. e.g. blackjack etc.

My bankroll management has improved drastically as well as not tilting anymore and gambling my bankroll at $5/$10 etc.

I would go see someone and not put a penny onto any poker site until you are through with your gambling issues because it will affect your poker.
I've seen some good friends of mine who fully understands my situation, they have been a great support. I agree with you that I'm not going to deposit before I feel fully ready for the next poker challenge and have casino past me. I guess time will show what happens, just hope for the best always. No point to stay negative!!
12-25-2011 , 09:38 PM
On Ipoker skins you can ask the personel to block all casino adds, so you can only play poker. Maybe this is a good option while you sort things out.
Good luck recovering.
12-25-2011 , 09:59 PM
I can't believe what i just read but your sittuation may not be the worse. It's really addiction but u need to be stronger... While i was reading your post i though"wtf? how can this guy have a easy though about being able to loose 7k€ just like that? Most people would give anything just to gain that money!" You should've stopped the 1st time u recovered your money... Nothing to do now but i've been in a similar sittuation (not that much money envolved) and i couldn't sleep for days... I imagine you... That's lot of money you lost (even exceeds the money you have of lifetime as i read). Well, it must be really hard to start with those 40k€ left just by thinking what u lost...

I wish you good luck and i'll follow this.
12-25-2011 , 11:21 PM
Crazy story, OP.

Do you mind me asking how you made the money in the first place?
12-25-2011 , 11:24 PM
Have a read of this thread, you'll be able to draw some parallels.

http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/17...games-1065250/

You must obviously be a winning player so just got to stay away from casino games.
12-26-2011 , 12:19 AM
OP: Instead of p*ssing away 320k... why not give it to me? I would happily put it to good use rather than gamble it away on something that has odds against me.

I think its a given, but STOP PLAYING CASINO GAMES WITH MONEY YOU CAN NOT AFFORD TO LOOSE.

I often go to my local casino and flutter away a tenner or so. Its money I am willing to part with. But 320k is not throw away money. 320k would:

A) Pay for my pilots licence

B) Buy a good property in England or the US.

and

C) Top up my poker bankroll so I can play the 100NL games (skill permitting).

So... the next time you feel like playing Casnio games. Just give us a PM and I will be happy to take the money off you and put it to good use!
12-30-2011 , 06:57 AM
Sick story. Hope you bounce back mate
12-30-2011 , 07:18 AM
Sounds a bit unlucky. Some days have passed and I reckon you should run good for a bit.
12-31-2011 , 10:56 AM
Ok so it's been a while and alot has happened. I haven't touch casino or poker games since. What I did do though, I was in hometown and I travelled back to my home 160 miles south. I went to sleep and once I woke up, I thought of what I could do and nothing came in my head. I was not in the condition to open poker, I just left my friends and families and my friends from this city were all with their own families. So I got an idea in my head, I remembered my friend has a birthday 450 miles south and I took train there and went to celebrate.

What happened on that train, I thought why not take some more time off? I clearly don't feel like grinding yet and if I ever want to be on a vacation then this is the time. I talked to some friends and got one to join me. We thought all the possibilities next day and we end up going to USA.

This wasn't easy though, since I didn't plan to go abroad before train trip I obviously didn't have my passport with me. I needed to figure out a way to get it, so I called my sister, who was just returning from our hometown to same city I drove to last night, and told her that I need to get passport. So She went to my place and grabbed my passport, drove to the local airport and handed it to another passenger. Then on my end the passenger delivered me the passport and I was happy to reward her with 50, whoa, what a hottie she was!

Right now, I'm in a hotel in New York, Manhattan and going to the new years show this evening. I'm leaving New York on 2nd of january and planning to buy a car and go for a road trip around USA for almost 90 days. To my regret I currently have problems getting traffic insurance, if any of you could help me with this I would greatly appreciate it. I made a topic about this matter here: http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/92...r-usa-1146518/ It is kind of urgent, since we only have couple of days time to get it.

Quote:
Originally Posted by m0nkey
On Ipoker skins you can ask the personel to block all casino adds, so you can only play poker. Maybe this is a good option while you sort things out.
Good luck recovering.
Thanks, that's one of the things I did. Although with partycasino they banned my casino games from partypoker client, but told me I still could enter casino from partycasino.com LOL!! Scums



Quote:
Originally Posted by andrePT
I can't believe what i just read but your sittuation may not be the worse. It's really addiction but u need to be stronger... While i was reading your post i though"wtf? how can this guy have a easy though about being able to loose 7k just like that? Most people would give anything just to gain that money!" You should've stopped the 1st time u
recovered your money... Nothing to do now but i've been in a similar sittuation (not that much money envolved) and i couldn't sleep for days... I imagine you... That's lot of money you lost (even exceeds the money you have of lifetime as i read). Well, it must be really hard to start with those 40k left just by thinking what u lost...

I wish you good luck and i'll follow this.
Yes it was tough few days. You know the worst kind of tilt you get from poker, when you go under deep depression and feel angry to yourself the same time. That feeling usually lasts not longer than few minutes, but this time it was on for full 14 hours. To top that, I also felt a bit dizzy and had hard time breathing. After I had a night or two sleep I was lucky enough to
recover so I only felt deep depression, it's still a lot better than all of those things combined. Thanks for the great wishes and happy new year to you!

Quote:
Originally Posted by Stubbsy_11
Crazy story, OP. Do you mind me asking how you made the money in the first place?
Not at all. Like I mentioned above, I am purely a professional poker player when it comes to making money, and that's the way I got to where I was and hopefully that will be the way for me to bounce back in. :P

Quote:
Originally Posted by Masq
Have a read of this thread, you'll be able to draw some parallels.
http://forumserver.twoplustwo.com/17...games-1065250/

You must obviously be a winning player so just got to stay away from casino games.
Appreciate the link, will look into it more later.

Quote:
Originally Posted by GutshotDan92
OP: Instead of p*ssing away 320k... why not give it to me? I would happily put it to good use rather than gamble it away on something that has odds against me.
I think its a given, but STOP PLAYING CASINO GAMES WITH MONEY YOU CAN NOT AFFORD TO LOOSE.
I often go to my local casino and flutter away a tenner or so. Its money I am willing to part
with. But 320k is not throw away money. 320k would:
A) Pay for my pilots licence
B) Buy a good property in England or the US.
and
C) Top up my poker bankroll so I can play the 100NL games (skill permitting).

So... the next time you feel like playing Casnio games. Just give us a PM and I will be happy to take the money off you and put it to good use!
The last thing I would do is to give the money to someone who is trying to gain from other person's loss. A guy who is not able to make his own and begging from others. That's not what I do. If i were to give money away it would be for a charity or a friend in need. But a person like you, if I had to pick from burning the money or giving it to you, I'd burn it every time and **** on it afterwards.

Quote:
Originally Posted by deepsquat
Sick story. Hope you bounce back mate
Thanks, and happy new year!!

Quote:
Originally Posted by Kralex
Sounds a bit unlucky. Some days have passed and I reckon you should run

good for a bit.
Thanks, hope that too but what I hope more is that I'd be able to play well and earn that money

back!
01-18-2012 , 01:24 AM
Hey again, time to make some updates. I want to keep this alive so before I get on and begin to process my way back I will write to you from my USA trip. So just for info my posts will be non-poker related until april and mostly stories from my roadtrip. This is the way for me to start regrouping myself and hopefully it will lead to great things in future.

New York
So me and my friend began our trip from New York 26th december. We planned to stay there until 3rd of January and buy a car and continue our journey with it around USA. For that we need car insurance. Since we are abroad it's really hard to explain our situation via phone so we wanted to do it person-to-person or get someone to help us getting it. This didn't go as we planned since we hit a road block getting car insurance. We googled numerous amount of insurance agents and took taxi to addresses that google gave us but hit blank everytime. So for now we had to postpone our car plans until we figure a way to find a temporary car insurance.

I heard lot of good things about New York's New Year Eve and we wanted to experience it ourselves. We went in Manhattan and waited in queue to organize people, there were like 1 Million people outside and it was crowded as hell. We went there early, around 2pm so we could secure good viewing spots. There were lot of famous artists like Lady Gaga leading us for the New Year. Of course we got bored after few hours waiting and went to a bar instead, then we figured out that our hotel is on the time square street so we could just go outside hotel to view the new year few minutes before it happens and we were able to capture it.

We also went to see several other tourist attractions and pictures will follow.



Times Square with all the adverts were a bit shock to us, we never witnessed anything like this before and we just felt so SMALL in there.


Same with evening lights on. Looks spectacular.




Of course we had to go and see the famous Empire State Building aswell. It was ridiculous how small all the skyscreapers looked from up there.


China town


We heard this is a SUPER place. All it has is some fancy clothes and resteurants but that's about it. Nothing that you can't find elsewhere.


People lining up for the New Year. You can only imagine how crowded it was being there!


This was how they organized it, there were some gaps after every block and lot of policies on the side.


...Happy New Year!!


Statue of liberty.


Rebuilding the WTC towers.

So this was New York for us, I will try and post from our journey in following replys. I will try and go through every city we went and are going to and do it in correct order. And of course I will keep on posting photos!!

Next up is Philadelphia...!
02-04-2012 , 12:38 AM
Hello all,

I started feeling like grinding and feel like Im fully recovered from the casino so I took a plane and flew back to my home country.

Been playing for 2 days now and I just got one thing to say: Feeling the burn again for poker games!!

I'll post more from my trip later on when I feel like it, now I just wanted to make a quick reply.
02-04-2012 , 04:54 AM
Pretty happy from the grinds, lost most of the all-ins but otherwise ran really hot. Unfortunately dropped 4k in the end but eh, whatever. It's a nice way to come back after a long break and I just pray the poker god to allow me to maintain this run.

Some hands:

$5/$10 No Limit Hold'em - 2 players -
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BTN/SB: $1069.00
Hero (BB): $1000.00

Pre Flop: ($15.00) Hero is BB with 5 4
BTN/SB raises to $20, Hero calls $10

Flop: ($40.00) 6 9 2 (2 players)
Hero checks, BTN/SB bets $25, Hero calls $25

Turn: ($90.00) 8 (2 players)
Hero checks, BTN/SB bets $65, Hero raises to $230, BTN/SB calls $165

River: ($550.00) 5 (2 players)
Hero bets $725 all in, BTN/SB calls $725

Final Pot: $2000.00
BTN/SB shows 7 T (a straight, Six to Ten)
Hero shows 5 4 (a pair of Fives)
BTN/SB wins $1999.00
(Rake: $1.00)

Have the double gutter on turn so by raising nonflushy board I rep alot of straight/two pairs and I continue to lot of rivers and can make alot of good hands to fold, like overpair or weak 2 pairs. :P

$5/$10 No Limit Hold'em - 2 players -
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BTN/SB: $1056.25
Hero (BB): $1040.00

Pre Flop: ($15.00) Hero is BB with T A
BTN/SB raises to $30, Hero raises to $100, BTN/SB calls $70

Flop: ($200.00) A Q 7 (2 players)
Hero bets $120, BTN/SB calls $120

Turn: ($440.00) K (2 players)
Hero bets $280, BTN/SB calls $280

River: ($1000.00) 9 (2 players)
Hero checks, BTN/SB bets $556.25 all in, Hero calls $540 all in

Final Pot: $2080.00
BTN/SB shows 6 3 (high card Ace)
Hero shows T A (a pair of Aces)
Hero wins $2079.00
(Rake: $1.00)

Check calling the river to let all missed draws bet, never getting call by worse if I continue to ship.

$10/$20 No Limit Hold'em - 2 players -
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BTN/SB: $3306.60
Hero (BB): $2550.20

Pre Flop: ($30.00) Hero is BB with 7 6
BTN/SB raises to $60, Hero raises to $200, BTN/SB calls $-57 all in

Flop: ($63.00) 3 5 2 (2 players - 1 is all in)
Hero bets $250, BTN/SB raises to $500, Hero raises to $2350.20 all in, BTN/SB folds

Final Pot: $1063.00
Hero mucks 7 6
Hero wins $1.00
(Rake: $1062.00)

Villain minraise-folded before so I think I have alot of equity to ship and even if I get called I probably have around 30% with the overcards&gutshot&backdoor flushdraw, of course sometimes he will have like 88 but still I have gutter and backdoor draw so I think it's fine.

$3/$6 No Limit Hold'em - 2 players - View hand
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BTN/SB: $290.95
Hero (BB): $673.00

Pre Flop: ($9.00) Hero is BB with 9 T
BTN/SB raises to $12, Hero calls $6

Flop: ($24.00) 3 8 3 (2 players)
Hero checks, BTN/SB checks

Turn: ($24.00) 6 (2 players)
Hero bets $18, BTN/SB calls $18

River: ($60.00) 7 (2 players)
Hero bets $45, BTN/SB raises to $195, Hero folds

Final Pot: $150.00
Hero mucks 9 T
BTN/SB wins $149.00
(Rake: $1.00)

When he checks the flop behind and calls the turn and raises the river I think the only hand he can have is backdoor flush or pocket 66/77.

Graph:

02-04-2012 , 10:17 PM
Quick update before the UFC main card, gonna be some real sick fights. Already viewing the prelims and loving it!

Played some more today, keep running hot and feel like I'm correct on almost everything I do.


Party Poker $1,000 No Limit Hold'em - 2 players
DeucesCracked Poker Videos Hand History Converter

BB: $1198.00
Hero (BTN/SB): $1194.00

Pre Flop: ($15.00) Hero is BTN/SB with A 6
Hero raises to $20, BB raises to $80, Hero raises to $160, BB calls $80

Flop: ($320.00) J A T (2 players)
BB checks, Hero checks

Turn: ($320.00) A (2 players)
BB bets $180, Hero calls $180

River: ($680.00) 4 (2 players)
BB bets $360, Hero calls $360

4 betting pre Ax is what I like to do when there is some 3betting history. When he calls me and this flop rolls out I feel there is no value for me betting since it hits him hardocore, and if I check I'll give him opportunity to bet hands like 78s/Jx/etc. Also him not shipping pre I know he won't have AK/AQ but AJ/KQ/pocket 99, etc is a big possibility. Even though I'd ship 99 pre or just flat. Also if he checks the turn he might herocall Jx Tx type of hands on turn & river since I obv would bet if he checks. Don't think there is any value for me raising the river since I only get called by better.

Spoiler:
Final Pot: $1400.00
BB shows Qs Ks (a straight, Ten to Ace)
Hero mucks Ah 6s (three of a kind, Aces)
BB wins $1399.00
(Rake: $1.00)



Entraction - 20 NL (2 max) - Holdem - 2 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 3

Hero (SB): 4,429.62
BB: 2,325.50

BB posts BB 20.00, Hero posts SB 10.00

Pre Flop: (30.00) Hero has 9 4

Hero raises to 40.00, BB calls 20.00

Flop: (80.00, 2 players) 6 T 4
BB checks, Hero bets 60.00, BB calls 60.00

Turn: (200.00, 2 players) 9
BB checks, Hero bets 150.00, BB raises to 525.00, Hero calls 375.00

River: (1250.00, 2 players) 3
BB bets 900.00, Hero calls 900.00

This guy was check raising around 30% so if he would have any kind of draws from the flop I think he would be raising it, also think he would raise all sets and mix some AT/KT within his range aswell. But this time he raised turn so I put him on a flushdraw/straight draw from turn and river is a total blank so I just snap it off.

Spoiler:
BB shows Q J (High Card, Queen) (Pre 69%, Flop 27%, Turn 18%)
Hero shows 9 4 (Two Pair, Nines and Fours) (Pre 31%, Flop 73%, Turn 82%)
Hero wins 3,049.25


Entraction - 10 NL (2 max) - Holdem - 2 players
Hand converted by PokerTracker 3

SB: 1,109.25
Hero (BB): 2,124.00

Hero posts BB 10.00, SB posts SB 5.00

Pre Flop: (15.00) Hero has 2 A

SB raises to 25.00, Hero calls 15.00

Flop: (50.00, 2 players) K 2 Q
Hero checks, SB bets 37.50, Hero calls 37.50

Turn: (125.00, 2 players) 4
Hero checks, SB checks

River: (125.00, 2 players) 4
Hero checks, SB bets 90.00, Hero calls 90.00

Classic hand where they cbet and check turn and find themself clueless what to do on river with a hand that has no showdown value and in a spot where they never have anything, sometimes they might have a Q or pocket pair but it's maybe max 20% of their range. However they have the mindset "must win everypot" so they can't give up even if they rep nothing.

Spoiler:
SB shows 5 7 (One Pair, Fours) (Pre 44%, Flop 26%, Turn 14%)
Hero shows 2 A (Two Pair, Fours and Twos) (Pre 56%, Flop 74%, Turn 86%)
Hero wins 304.25


And graph: continuation to last graph

02-04-2012 , 10:37 PM
Just read your whole story, i am my self a big poker winner 250k+ And when i see your story i saw my self in a mirror :P Ive been busto by casino about 3time in my life dumping 50k 100k ect....Found the girl of my life got married and never touch the casino again
Wish you the best of luck if you made that money at poker but loose it at casino it a good sign mean all you need is control cause youl always make it back at poker stay positive keep on crushing
02-05-2012 , 05:32 AM
Quote:
Originally Posted by drakx999
Just read your whole story, i am my self a big poker winner 250k+ And when i see your story i saw my self in a mirror :P Ive been busto by casino about 3time in my life dumping 50k 100k ect....Found the girl of my life got married and never touch the casino again
Wish you the best of luck if you made that money at poker but loose it at casino it a good sign mean all you need is control cause youl always make it back at poker stay positive keep on crushing
Addiction is a bitch, gotta admit that. But sometimes it's good to put things in perspective like you have done and you can start motivating yourself by that. Just need to hope that in moment of darkness you will remember what you have promised to yourself and stay strong.

I played some more aswelll but think I'm off to bed now, gotta get some sleep. Update:
02-05-2012 , 06:32 AM
Wow nice profit,good luck,I will follow.
02-05-2012 , 03:15 PM
How was Philly? I hope you enjoyed your visits to the US cities. Im glad that you have noticed you have a problem, stay honest always and realize your an addict and are very out of control the minute you start to gamble in casinos. Ive dropped a ton of money when i was younger in the AC casinos. Being from Philly its about 40 minutes from my home and many a night after a bad day at the office or a fight with the old lady i would drive down there and drown my sorrows in gambling and Bare Exposures, but thats another story. Keep your head up!You seem to be a very well todo person dont degen all your good fortune away. Goodluck at poker and at life..rmw
02-05-2012 , 06:47 PM
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Originally Posted by DomasR
Wow nice profit,good luck,I will follow.
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How was Philly? I hope you enjoyed your visits to the US cities. Im glad that you have noticed you have a problem, stay honest always and realize your an addict and are very out of control the minute you start to gamble in casinos. Ive dropped a ton of money when i was younger in the AC casinos. Being from Philly its about 40 minutes from my home and many a night after a bad day at the office or a fight with the old lady i would drive down there and drown my sorrows in gambling and Bare Exposures, but thats another story. Keep your head up!You seem to be a very well todo person dont degen all your good fortune away. Goodluck at poker and at life..rmw
Philly was hmm.... I'll write something about it in a bit. I liked the US, it's not that different from the country I'm living in, but there are some major differences like religious views and the way United States is bringing themselves in every day for example flagging. But if you don't mention those things I probably wouldn't notice the difference, and well.. it's not that cold of course!! Right now the meter is showing -22F.

The addiction part is the worst when you don't feel that good inside. That's when we should be able to control ourselves but it's not as easy as said. It needs a big discipline to control and only very rare amount of people are capable of doing it. The tilt happens in many kind of forms and for some people it has develop a really bad manner when you start feeling bad and some people are able to just smash their hand on the table and continue, but it happens. I think you wouldn't be a human if you don't feel these things. Just if it goes too far you need to set the limit to yourself and tilt on a way that doesn't harm yourself. Good thing is there is ALWAYS a way to change the way you lose control if you just motivate yourself enough.

Thanks for all the kindness and I agree with you completely about not needing to be a degen. No point for me to waste all my talent in stupid things, wouldn't want to think about that after years/decades from now with the question "what if?".

I'll write about philly on my next reply.
02-05-2012 , 09:04 PM
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02-05-2012 , 09:52 PM
you were in NYC on New Years and didn't see Phish.. EPIC FAIL!
02-06-2012 , 02:47 AM
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you were in NYC on New Years and didn't see Phish.. EPIC FAIL!
We didn't really have any plans while going there so I think there are lot of things we didn't see that we should have. It was more like we just appeared in New York and were completely lost.

Philadelphia

We continued our trip via train to Philadelphia. The train was fairly expensive since we had to pay 100$ each for just 100 miles travel. For example when we travelled from Fort Lauderdale to Orlando which is over 200 miles we only paid 50$ each, and the only difference in train was not having internet connection. Anyway, during our train trip we started planning what to do in Phil and went to internet, when we logged online my friend got a message asking if we were going to see the NHL winter classic. We asked "No, where is it?" He said it's in Philadelphia and we thought about it and having a coinsidence like this we couldn't afford not to use the opportunity. We looked at the game info and noticed that the game starts already 2 hours after our arrival so we only had time to drop our luggage at the hotel and take a taxi to game. The tickets were fairly expensive costing 300$ but I think the experience was worth it probably never having the chance watch this calibre game again.





Next day, after having our "city welcoming drunkament" we started thinking where to get a car, our only requirement was that the car should be old classic american car. We went online and found coupe Cadillac Fletwood 1984 costing around 2000$ just 60 miles away. We fell in love with this car and we had to get it. We took a cab to car store and and confronted the car dealer called Sal. We asked him if he could get insurance to us, which had been our stress earlier since we couldn't drive without insurance, and lucky for us he said of course, no problem fellas. He made a phone call and we got the insurance from progressive.

Me and my friend look fairly young and him being over 70 years old, wearing a cowboy hat and having a nice fat stomach, which I always thought to be a classic american car dealer, he came into interest knowing what we do for living, we told him we play poker online and I lost a lot of money in casino and now we are here in America for a road trip. He got excited and started dialing everyone there including his son and every time a person walked in he goes "Hey! You know what these guys do for living?" "They come from Europe and play poker online!" "They win over 20,000$ every month!" We laughed and thought its funny. Good old Sal'.



Now we have a car, we are happy. It drives really soft and smooth and the seats are like sofa. Really amazing, better than we thought. Of course, if you buy something like this from a guy like Sal it doesn't come without surprises. When we test drove it everything was ok, but when we had driven back to Philadelphia and turn off car we saw that the fan won't go off. We realised that we will run out of battery and should drive it to a repairing center but it was late and we were too tired so we just left the car there on a parking lot near our hotel and went to sleep.

Once we woke up we called for a guy for jumper cables to charge up our battery but for some reason it didn't work and we had to call another guy to tow it to any place that repairs our car. We were told that we need completely new battery and charger when we thought all we need is on/off switcher for the fan. They told us that it will cost 500$ and take at least 2-3 days to get ready. At this point we were too tilted after all the hassle and we were like whatever, do anything that makes our car good for us. Don't want to be left on road.



We had nothing to do in the evening so we just went out and got drunk. Next day we had hangover and what was becoming our habit, we went to watch a movie and to do so we had to go in New Jersey since for some reason we didn't find solid cinema from Philadelphia. After the movie we went to look for a taxi and didn't find any, so we walked a bit to a local market and saw a taxi there and hopped in. The driver was mexican and didn't look too happy, he was yelling in phone and looked a bit scary. We took a look around and it was dark, in car we saw ripped off taxi meter with nothing in that spot. Also there were no info to be found from the driver. He told us that we will take a bit longer road if its ok, we hesitated a bit and agreed. He drove us to a some kind of darker alley with no people in sight, he stopped the car and opened the doors. We got super scared and looked around, didn't see anyone. After a while we saw a little girl running towards the car being his daughter.

This wasn't enough, after few miles we hit traffic and car was stopped, on right there were large area surrounded with gates and there were two cars parked inside. The gate opened just on the right from us where we could turn and drive there. We thought "ok this is it, this can't be a coincidence, it just can't, whole this is just super scary" we were shaking inside. The gate remain open for over a minute and we were stopped the whole time but lucky for us the car never went there and we saw the gate closing. Then we drove safely back to our hotel. We were extremely relieved, this was definitely the most scariest taxi trip that neither of us has ever experienced.

All-in-all we were a bit surprised that there weren't that many people on the street. When we were in New York we never seen so many people walk across the street all the time, we thought if its the same in every major city in United States, but this wasn't the case for Philadelphia. Also coming just 100 miles the population changed completely. In New York there were tourists from all over the world when in Philadelphia it was pretty much all locals. What surprised me most was the racing, it was like 70% of black people and 20% chinese and just 10% white. I'm from a country where at least 95% people are white so I was a bit shocked and felt a bit insecure not being used to be in racial minority.


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