What is this, a cross over episode??

It's Situational. But when someone who obviously failed financially in life attempts to give you financial advice while also being all those other things, it does not give me a lot of confidence in their advice and really quite off putting.

If a father was loving, caring and was just all around a great dad and friend to their son then of course their financial well being at the age of 60 shouldn't really matter.

But when someone offers advice on matters they are obviously not experts in is where I start to go into my psychological Incredible Hulk state of mind

But for the love of god Wynner, please for my own sanity let's not hash through this topic of conversation again

I thought we already established that happiness means generally speaking, a person should not be at the bottom rung of society financially speaking - and that billionaires are probably not happier than someone who has only $100,000 net worth.

Although like I've been saying throughout the thread, everyone is different. I would personally be happier with more gadgets and stuff.

Also welcome back.

Edited to add: I would say to summarize my thoughts that having a very low net worth at the age of 60 , with all other factors being reasonable, could be considered more of a negative than it would be considered a positive.

thats interesting, you really find all the post you quoted from me insulting?

Everyday I come to 2p2 to check my subbed threads. See activity in this one and hope its something interesting about whats going on with OP, living in Thai, and that he's working on becoming better as a man and finding some decent success. Nope, its 5% that and 95% wasted energy from so many. Sincerely don't understand it. Sorry, noob, I'm an unsub. I was rooting for you but just can't follow along anymore. GL with your journey.

I'm probably going to start just doing weekly updates and actually ignoring anybody who isn't adding positivity to the thread. I am putting in way too much work right now between poker and Muay Thai to actually give a **** lol

I am not at all the type to hide my past but when you have a dozen acid trolls that start picking apart everything I write and attributing it to my past abusive horrors then it get's tediously asinine.

Talk about being unable to look at yourself through an objective lens lol

exactly

A good % of the internet are douchebags who cant just read something for entertainment without being over-analyzing pricks who spread negativity.

lemme get your thai sister's number just pm me

Not gonna lie. There is a reason every ***** I date falls in love with me. I'm a perfect specimen. I am beautiful, romantic, intelligent but also an animal. And I'm not gonna pair her with just anyone. She deserves the best.

She actually just told me if you post a pic of yourself in your undies she will give you a look over and maybe give me a thumbs up to match you two.

in for pics

fixed your post.

Secret between you and me.

Because they're all 5s at best.

you got me my man, I fold

Not much has changed. Breakeven last week - losing boats and **** lol - but no problem, **** happens. Having only 6 months left on visa while having less money than I started with is not cool. So I'm going to start doing 9 hour grind days and reduce study time to a minimum. Like 30 minutes of HH warmups going through biggest pots lost of previous session, something like that.

Just took last 2 days to complete some to do list **** and made 4x6 laminated photos of 36 different ranges I just updated based off population data and will follow those ranges pretty ****ing strictly for the next 300,000 hands at least and then readjust if I feel. But I think these updated ranges will be pretty perfect for my environment.

So with the coronavirus hitting hard in the US, I think the most logical thing to do is just sit my ass in this chair and ****ing grind for the next 3 months.

Once I reach $10,000 in my bank accounts then I'll start thinking about adding in some $100 normal tables and reducing my daily grind volume but until then, I shouldn't think about much else other than hitting that $10,000 mark. I advise being a bankroll supernit if you are going to attempt what I'm doing.

Will do daily exercise 6 days a week and rest on Sundays.

And order food panda instead of buying at local street food vendors because it saves time.

Will be drinking 0 alcohol (lol if you're been following the thread you know this is a lie), getting into bed no later than 7pm every day and waking up at 4am so I can start grinding 5pm until around 5am American time.

If the first 2 weeks go well I'll buy a 2nd monitor and stream Netflix while I grind so I at least have something to passively watch while I grind.

So that should be 9.5 hours of study + grind, 1 hour of exercise, 1.5 hours to eat, probably a 1 hour nap is like 13 hours, which gives 9 hours to sleep and do w/e.

Let's ****ing Go

Also finally smashed this girl I've been seeing. The girl from the hotel room photo. 26 years old and hadn't had sex in 6 years before a few days ago. She said that it hurt to put anything inside her. She doesn't even use tampons. And she cried a few times during other things we did from intense emotional overload - guilt, shame, embarassment etc stuff like that - She's from some mountain region in the Phillipines called Bagiou - apparently it's pretty religious - and when we finally started ****ing she got into it and starting moaning and gripping me with her hands and **** - then she out of nowhere started crying her eyes out and I was barely even doing anything - weirdest sexual experience I'd had - never had a girl just start balling her eyes out during sex - but literally 3 minutes later she's done crying and says "I wanna go again, let's go" lmfao

Then the 2nd time I started to go a littler harder than she started crying out "I have to pee! I really have to pee!!" - honestly I think her brain was just tricking her again into not enjoying the experience and making excuses to stop it.

So this girl has been struggling pretty hard with attaching sex to emotions but after sleeping in my bed probably 12 or 15 times so far she finally felt comfortable enough with me to go all the way. We tried it a few times before but she panicked so hard I immediately stopped after only a few seconds.

But I'm not gonna lie. It was weird. The whole dating experience in Chiang Mai has been weird. These girls are super conservative and I've gotten bored of at least a dozen other bitches that only want to text text text and never actually go on a date. I've been told they are a bit nervous and wary around farang and think we are only there to **** ladyboys and hookers and we aren't serious.

I think I'm gonna order some sushi now and watch "Joker" and drink some Chang.

New routine starts tomorrow.

Damn. I just did 19 pushups with a 5 sec break (knees never touched the ground) around # 14. Coulda squeezed out or 1 or 2 more if I took another 5 sec break but I don't feel any need to truly max out. (Max -2) I am happy with. Not those quick pussy ass pushups either I mean chest to floor, extend until arms are straight 1 sec down 1 sec up pushups. Last time I tested my max was about 6 months ago and I could only do I think 8 or 9. Been losing a bit of weight but I'm way stronger than I was since the start of the year. Muay Thai is a lot of fun. Hitting and kicking **** other than puppies is way +EV.

I'll test my max every month or so. One of my new years resolutions was to be able to do 40 straight pushups. That goal should happen sooner than later. Might even be able to get 60 or so by end of year.

First day of new routine done. 9 hours with only 15 minute break. Been having some disgusting variance last week or so - and just today I lose KK vs AA twice in one day then also lose AA vs KK plus some other stuff.

Should go pretty smooth here on out - just downloaded one of those stupid pointless idle games so I can passively do **** without taking up much of my attention span. Would def prefer streaming Netflix but gotta go on an upswing again to justify that. Ordered food panda so I can grind while the food is being delivered so I can save valuable time from walking to a local street vendor and waiting for them to prepare my food etc.

Currently 7pm, getting to bed now so I can wake up early around 3 or 4 am. Only 59 more days to go.

Let's ****ing Do It.

Day 3 finished. 57 more to go. Woke up at 3am, ended grind session just now at 5pm. +12 BI's today. Definitely needed this as I was running so bad the last 20k hands.

Gotta work out now. Routine looks like this. Looks simple but it is total body exercise and well...after a few cycles you start to feel it.

10 body squats
30 sec plank
10 pushups
10 lunges
1 minute jump rope
10 sit ups

break 3 minutes. The goal is to get as many cycles in 1 hour as I can. Once I can get 8 cycles in one hour I will increase all volume 50% (15 pushups, 45 sec plank, etc) per cycle and start over. Then 100% of original and go again. Then I'll move into an intermediate-advanced program with 180 deg jump squats, burpees, pullups, etc - probably should take me about 6 months until I can do 200% volume cycles and get like 7 rotations in an hour. I doubt most anybody can do that, maybe no more than 5% of the male population?

Haven't been able to do one real pull up for over 10 years. I did actually get my arms past 0 deg a few days ago so I can feel those muscles wanting to work. I mean my arms bent a few degrees past the 0deg line but nothing special. I think once I lose another 20 lb's I'll be able to do my first pull up.

Well, gotta go. Will update at end of week with graphs and **** cause I know you degens don't like to read more than a few lines

Got my thai sister and her best friend with me here in my room during the curfew. Everything is closed down. They going to 7-11 right now to pick up some more food.

The girl I was seeing maybe we just broke up. I told her how I felt, which was to say I wasn't feeling serious with her - and I wasn't in love with her - and I told her I didn't want her falling in love with me - but we could still cuddle every once in a while and not have sex - because I don't want her falling in love with me or getting hurt - we ****ed for real for the first time last week - after sleeping in my bed at least a dozen times - she finally got comfortable enough with me to basically lose her virginity for the 2nd time in her life. 26 years old and no sex for 5 years. Pretty extreme. It was good for her, healthy for her mind to have me as a FWB. Nobody should be that emotionally locked. So there we are, she had sex with the first man in 5 years and the next week she leaves my room because I was honest with her

So it was kind of funny, when I was dating my thai sister, she had her best friend come over to give me a massage but it went a bit further than that lmfao - she started rubbing me off when my thai sister was watching you tube on my pc in my old apartment. So there I was, naked with her best friend jerking me off during the same weeks I was smashing my thai sister lol - her friend is a solid 8. She's currently dressed like she's going clubbing but that's all shut down right now.

I think these things are just normal in Thailand. Or maybe they are both batshit crazy as I am. My thai sister asked me "you want her massage you" - I thought she was joking with me but she wasn't lol

So they are both in my room right now, I'm drinking (as we all know I would be lol) - trying to teach my thai sister to shotgun beer but she only lasts like 2 seconds and can't finish even close to one can lol - I've broken the daily routine more than once and I know now I can't grind 9 hours every day - I broke my glasses and throw them a lot - yelling out a lot - the cleaning lady told me I need to be quiet by bringing her finger up to her mouth as a "shhhh" motion - so I've started going back to 6 hour grind days - it's my sweet spot.

Breakeven this month so nothing to say about poker profits. It's been the biggest rollercoaster I've ever had. $1,500 to $1,500 back to $,1500 then spiked to $1,900 then to $2,200 then down to $1,700 then down to $1,500 and I'm hovering around $1,500 the last few days.

Nothing to worry about. Drinking Chang, with the 2 best bitches in Chiang Mai, gourging myself with noodles and listening to international rap on spotify.

Good times.

Just need to have some normal variance. Getting the most insane variance recently and I'm still break even which is always a good thing. To be breakeven facing some pretty absurd variance.

Peace out bitches. No graphs this time bc nothing to show. Just imagine the line those hospital machines show when a patient flatlines. It's like that.

Sounds like freelancers. Lol

Hope you told her to put on gloves. Contamination is lurking.

Entertaining post though!

For how long are you planning to stay in Thailand?

How’s repaying coach going?

Good to see you back posting mentally ill **** OP, was getting worried this would become just another 25nl in Thailand grinder thread.

Cheers!

So for the entire month so far I'm down $200 from the starting bankroll. 60,000 hands of volume. It's been a huge roller coaster and I'm not gonna lie - It affected me. Half way through the month I won 20 BI's in 2 days , ez pz. Then immediately lost 20 BI's the next 2 days. Ouch.

I started off super strong with the grind, doing 9 hour days. Going great. Then I started having mental fumes erupting at around the 6th hour mark. One of the reasons why I already know 6 hours should be my max. If I am winning it's obviously no problem I can grind grind grind. But If I'm B/E or on a downswing it affects me. I haven't really been exercising as much. Going on the 20th day of bs variance kind of makes it hard for me to find that energy to put out in an exercise routine, totally lame excuse I know. I need to do better at uncoupling my poker results from my day to day feelings/moods.

When I start to play differently in downswings I don't really tilt/spew anymore. I don't overbluff or bluffcatch or anything. I do find myself betting smaller in spots that make no sense and also x'ing strong hands in spots I should obviously bet. So I definitely lose value in these spots. My thin value ends and my big bets end as well. Not good.

I took time to review hands with my skype group and started doing daily HH review before my grind sessions.

Today I'm going to spend 10 hours doing HM2 filter analysis of 3 bet pots and looking at range research reports and hh's to see if I can figure out spots that I might be playing badly. Such as x calling turns with AK/AQ, if I have higher winrate x'ing turn vs double barelling turn with overs, if my river calls with AK/AQ or bottom pairs are higher EV than folding, my winrate with different range strengths from different positions, etc.

Interesting side note, checking out when I bet-call flop in srp pots and my bet-call winrate is -60bb/100 over 1,000 hands where as my bet-fold winrate is -600bb over 1,000 hands - this probably means I am doing the following:

1.) Probably cbetting weak value in spots where I can x-call. bc if I am bet-folding then x calling might be better in these spots.

2.) Probably overfolding vs flop raises in srp pots. I already find a few hands in a few minutes that are obvious defends but sometimes I just give up easily if I'm not feelin it, etc.

Hope to start making my own personal filters again to compare EV's/lines. I like it because it's more scientific.

Been watching lot of variance/downswing videos of all the top poker channels and I'm feeling better now.

I think the best way to beat a downswing is to just keep putting in volume bc the more volume you get the better things even out. I think this is very logical and It makes sense to me.

Peace out, GL

I have another 5 months before my visa ends. Thinking of hopping over to vietnam next as it seems like my bankroll probably won't be big enough to travel to Brazil or Mexico or w/e like I wanted.

It's not lol - but he knows it's because I'm running like ****

seems that's where it's headed right now if I don't profit lol

But I know I am a solid player and have 600k hands of positive winrate on objectively more difficult pools so I will just keep the grind up and it'll come.

Biggest pot I lost in terms of bb's in my entire database.

One of my skype hh buddies says it's a super easy riv call with the way I played it, bc the fish might think I have AK or something weaker like A2s etc and they could be bluffing

Another friend says it's an easy fold otr bc fish aren't tripling and increasing their riv size without 2 pair or better

I was thinking because I see the fish do small bets very frequently at least 1 street with nutted hands that's the reason I called - the 3 large bets struck me as bluffy in this pool.

I should have squeezed bigger pre flop and probably just take a triple line myself and just bet smallish 3 streets and fold if raised. But the downswing, B/E stretches get me to start playing passively.

Would you call or fold river as played? Maybe that question is irrelevant because I should have just started betting myself.