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Originally Posted by Llorton
Livin the dream. I did the same when I was 22, wild and free, almost died a few times but lived to tell am interesting life rather then doing the 9-5 after college
I tell ya, I had way more fun back then than I do now! I had no money and yet there was a joy to my life. A sense of adventure. I made friends easily and attracted new people to my life. Now I play 50/100 NL live and feel a constant dread. I have no friends. Its as if poker takes something away from you. Whether you fail or succeed it numbs you. I worked so hard to get a 94 sharkscope rating on PA stars. Countless hours of work away from the tables. There's no fulfillment. No light at the end of the tunnel. Trading youth and vitality for money is a fools proposition. I won a circuit ring in an online 1K. I imagine when I win a bracelet Ill be met with the same emptiness. Now that we got that cold harsh reality out of the way... I have been working on myself. I did therapy for a year. I live in a cool building with a nice pool and a gym. I take my dog to the dog park. I invest in myself more with healthy food. I bought a new MacBook Air and a huge monitor. I stayed in a suite at Vdara this past wsop. Im going to Dublin, Edinburgh, Berlin, Munich, Belgium, Paris, and Bordeaux in September. I microdose shrooms. I can't really complain. My dads a Jew so maybe that has something to do with the general misanthropy :/
Im registered for a stand up comedy course at the comedy cellar in NYC in October. I used to do theater, stand up, and improv in college. Playing poker turns you into a socially inadequate introvert. Ive begun reversing damage!