Hey guys,

Wassupp!!!

Hw's the grind going for u guys...

Almost spring time and this is the time 2 grind. This will be a long update so brace yourself.

Quick stats update for February:




Graph



So it was a descent month. Not happy thought with my volume as I took some days off to travel and was not focussed on most days

Poker Goals for march

- 2k games

-play more mtts

-3k profit

-game selection

-add 888 poker and ipoker networks

-keep my personal shi**t out from poker(be more focussed).

Personal Aims :

It was actually quite a weird february personally. To the unknown I have had
serious issues with drugs and substance abuse in the past. I have had a rough time battling with some family issues and sleep disorders as well.

I am very thankful to poker for kicking my life in order again. I have become more focussed and disciplined taking it as a job for the past 6 months or so. But I still battle with depression and urge to get high( i have been clean for abt a year) with the passion to turn it around and become successfull. It is bit of a lonely job and pretty anti social but i appreciate what it has given me.

To everyone who is out there battling any form of hardships stay in there and fight it out. As Russell Crowe said," If you are on the downside of advantage and relying purely on courage its possible. lets make this blog a motivational blog as well. To everyone who is battling failure and looking for motivation just hang in there. Success is failure turned inside out.



Would love 2 hear more 2p2 members stories and comments on the same.lets workd hard and turn it around. If you want something go get it!!!...period.

Success is the new drug for me and Im addicted to it. To everyone out there who's down and staring at despair, just fkking fight!!!!.

So personal aims for march:

-Gym

-German classes

-become social again

-just fkking do it!!!!!

All right guys, let's do this. Im ALL IN!!!.


********IT AIN'T ABOUT HW HARD U CAN HIT, IT'S ABOUT HOW HARD YOU CAN GET HIT AND STILL KEEP MOVING FORWARD, HOW MUCH YOU CAN TAKE AND KEEP MOVING FORWARD******- ROCKY BALBOA...

Irrespective of your scores, which are quite impressive, I am very glad that you turned your life around!

All the best for march! cheers!

Thanks a ton!!! Need 2 work hard and stay motivated.

Hey guys,

Sup?

Been away for some time, for what turned out to be a forced break.Not played much in March and April has been very quiet in terms of poker. I have started out with my German classes here in Delhi, so that is one target down I set at the start of the year. Basically I wanted to do something which would be interesting and would help meeting new people. A foreign language course sounded fun so I enrolled for a little Trimester weekday course. So this is basically what I expected out of my German course:





yea baby!!





We love this!!





And this









Definitely this





and this...




But as every German knows while the German chicks r uber hot the german language is Furchtbar!!!...






















WTF!!




No offence meant to Germans but seriously u need to fix ur language.

So i hv'nt worked as hard as i had planned at the start of the year(have played only 69 days this year) so considering all that my results are more than fine. Year to date graphs:







So I have made around 4k USD (2.5 lacs INR) this year, plus played live cash a bit and won around 400 USD(25 k INR).Considering the low volume and having played the Big TCOOP Buy In events I will say I have definitely ran good up till now.

So after taking a break for almost 25 days since my German classes started I would be start grinding again. I would have to grind a bit at the start cause my roll is low atm, so that means more mtt sngs than mtts. I would be attending my german classes in the aftrenoon, gym in the evening and then grinding all night long. Sounds like a crazy schedule but I'm pretty motivated and pumped up to print $$.

At the end some personal side notes. I have finally moved out from my parent's house and have a 2 bedroom flat which I like to call my office.Its been tough, as moving out costs a lot of money and I have to now look after myself, which means getting up at 2 prepare some food at in the morning.
I have met some new people(girls to be exact) but just have been unable to strike up a descent chord with anyone mainly because I have been acting too cool and in some cases eccentric(which I like to do sometimes. After my last little relationship I am a bit unsure to get close to anyone and really open up myself. So I prefer to act totally laidback and a complete jerk(dhit as they say here in India). I do like a girl here in my german class but I feel because of my image and my reluctance to open up myself it won't work out. I have been clean this year as well, but have gone back to cigarettes to beat the loneliness of moving out and the long grinding hours that the job demands. So we need to work on our personal life- Bottom line.

So quick check list for the grind:

- Scheduling

- diet and Gym

-Volume, and more volume

-Study for german classes

- run hands in icimizer atleast twice a week

- complete a poker book every fortnight

- work on our personal life

******** EAT, SLEEP , REPEAT***************

gL us!!!

Hey guys,

Hw's everyone doin'g?

So the summer is in full swing and so is SCOOP. first of all gl to everyone playing scoop.

So its been 15 days or so since we strated to play again. the start was good as we ran good in SNG's , but a high variance weekend sent ur graph tumbling down.

Graphs after restart:





Its been a grind, no binks or nything, just plain old grind.Volume has not been great. tbh I have struggled with volume throughout this year. I have not been able to put in consistent sessions. I can do 20 hr sessions at one go, but putting up back to back 12 hr grind is something I still struggle with.

On a professional front, I am looking at backing to play MTT's. We were offered a deal with BBZ( the low stakes one run by HOLD It) but we turned it down as I wanted to play a set of turbos to reg sped games which was not agreeable to BBZ. Probably a decision I may regret later in my poker career. So we are looking for a backer who would allow us to grind low mtts and a specific ratio of turbos.

I would also like to use the blog to express my gratitude to the people who have helped me in my short poker career. First of all a big thank you to abhi147, my first backer and coach who helped me convert my game from zynga poker to Poker. Also to all indian poker community members(jdsaz, infusion_leo, antilog,pokerupt, kill_619, keenyle to name a few). this year the player who has helped my game the most is Gass Panicc(nick knowles).He is an old horse in the poker community and extremely funny character to say the least. Although he is still in MU throughout this year, he has done skype sessions, HH reviews, helped me with spots and also provided crucial support. Also G-pro 74 has been helping me out with specific hands.

Thank you guys!!.. means a lot to me.

A the end some personal notes as usual. Its been a tough time personally as it has been extremely mentally draining. I am struggling with depression, home-sickness and loneliness. I have not talked to my parents for about a year now. I am neither ashamed nor proud of the fact, its just the way it is.
One of my close bud rightly pointed out 2 me that I seriously need a relationship to help me out with all the personal mess I am gng through. however its a fact that i struggle with relationships and talking to people. probably go to to do something with the fact that I have only seen bad and strained relationships in my home

I have becoming a bit needy in terms of affection and love, go to do something with repressed emotions I guess. So once again we made a fool of ourselves in front of a girl we like by showing unnecessary emotions. Its a game I always tend 2 remind myself, juts play your cards right, but in the end I always a find a way 2 fkk it up.Its funny how you have 2 act in this world, such hypocricy, the games you have 2 play, the lies u hv tell and sell. Truth is obselete in today;s world.

Finally some good news, I am going 2 play my first live tourney at the upcoming IPC in Goa(june). it is one of the bucket list I set out at the start of the year, so fels good. We are travelling for 3 days this weekend. So i am going to drink like a pig and get high(recreational drugs only). come back pumped and focus solely on poker, only work, personal **** has got no place now....

Hey guys,

Sup?

Just back from a fun trip to Goa and excited to start my online grind, so let's start it off by updating my blog and put in a May review.

I am now officially backed by BBZ staking (low to mid stakes one) for online poker. I am thankful to the team at BBZ for taking me in despite my earlier mistake of refusing their initial offer in March. Tbh its one of the best staking houses out there in Poker business and I am happy to be a part of the Team.

So we ran quite bad in May, coupled with the fact that I did not put in that great volume. I was lucky enough to bink a 13.5 KO for abt 2k USD at the end of may to turn the month around.



Year to date stats:




My volume is not that great tbh. i had set a goal for 20 k USD profit for the year. And we want to get there by end of year. So we need kickass volume and study to improve our game. There is no point just being out there, in a competition u gotta be the best or go home.

So pointers for June:

1. Pump up the volume

2. watch videos on RIO.

3. Complete applications of no limit hold em

4. get my hand history reviewed by my coach and be regular in coaching sessions.

5. become fearless in taking poker decisions.

As usual some personal side notes to conclude my blog review. We went on our first poker trip and played live poker in Goa. It was a major call that I took as tbh we did not have enough funds for our trip. I was in doubt to play the 30k INR(abt 500 USD) Main event. At the end we almost broke even our trip including flight and hotel costs which is nice for our first essay in live poker. I just loved playing live poker, it felt so good. the feeling, the passion, the emotions it felt as I was competing. I am not sure for how long I want to play poker but I want to play live poker tourneys for sure, i just love it. A side note I wish to add is that I am a poker player. I absolutely dislike and abhor pure gambling of any sort like money wheel, rouellete, teen patti and other stuff. I want to make it clear that in a casino I am here to play poker(a skill game) and not here for gambling.

On personal front, we are struggling a bit in terms of health both physical and mental. I am having my sleep disorders back again. Also we have not been to the gym for about 2 weeks and I have dropped atleast 3-4 kilos. My german classes are about to end so I will need 2 study for a week atleast to pass my exam. On the social front I have met some new people, some really intresting people and I am getting back on my social game. tbh I am a bit of an introvert and emo geek internally but I do like to put in a show everywhere i go...

Gl to everyone at the tables!!!......#leggo.

Fish on Heater !!!

GL!
nice 2k bink

go go shady !

gl mate!

so hw the fkk is everyone doing?

so Im high as **** and hv't slept in 3 fkking days a nd i think i hv had enf to make me sleep. So fkking update my blog and fkking ger some sleep. So we got high, had sleeping pills mixed with alcohol and weed and drove arnd the steerts at 120 clicks crazy.

it was fkking crazt the thrill. fkkk u normal ppl cn nvr imagine the fkkingh ectasy. I was drving at 140 cliks and knew i wud ram a car , thr was no way i cud avod the car. so what do i do, pick up speed and avoid the car. fkk it was so exiciting. i drove my car 30 miles while i was high as fkk and not even a scratch thats called running pure. well maybe some scratchs and bits tbh but wtf . do i look like a guy who fkking gives a ****. Did a review of my 13.50 bink and i played wel plus ran well as per gassy. Fkk i run well, i shud play more poker. i told im nogt plying coz im ill. he asked me if it was coz of the german chick i said no, but yea gassy it coz of the german chick. so i get high as **** drive 30 miles high as **** and get back in ine peice. tahst called running good u morons. Fkk u all. fkkk u . i cud get kicked out my stabe coz of this but i dnt' fkkin care coz its a blog , its the truth , no sugar coating fkking truth


and yes a binked a mtt last week for 2.7 k usd . yes im binked it and played wel but im in **** palce ona personla level atm and yes fkk u and fkk everyone. need get some sleep and yes not a scratch while i wa driving. to the german chick fkking i ust wanted to be frnds wih u , ok fkking i donlt kno any games aprt from poekr.

this is ur sllimshady signing off

fkk off everybody.

Amazing post.

Hey guys,

Sup?

just sitting in my office and waiting for a coaching session to start. So I thought might as well post something on my blog. Pretty amazing post the last one to be honest. i thought of deleting the post the next day, but I would keep the post as it is a part of me. Tbh last 30 day have ben the worst for me in terms of health in the past year. I have all sorts of headache and sleeping problems resurface back again.I have grinded really low over past two weeks and tried to work on my health. Unfortunately it has seen very remote signs of improving. It came to a threshold last week, when i could not get sleep again and i decided to get high as ****. I am not proud of my post, in fact i am ashamed of it, but I will not delete it as it serves a reminder how bad I am sometimes as a person.I have personal issues and I need to work on it, period.

As far as poker is concerned, its been a good month so far. Despite our limited volume, we are up over 5k this month. But i ahve to admit i have been more lucky, than deserving of the scores I have had. I would also like to apologise to my stable for the lack of volume this month. Its been a tough month for me health wise.

So after returning from goa, we binked the 13.5 ko again on sunday for a coll 2.7k(including bounties)



Recenly we came 3 in a 8 $ FO for 625 bucks or so. So despite theackadaisical volume, we have run well and got scores. I jave been working on my game tbh, nd I am happy to see it move forward. It is less leaky then before, although we are nowhere close to being good.

So we are up ovr 9k for the year. and I am going to reset my objectives for the end of the year.

1. 20 K profit(pre RB) uptil 19 th November(my birthday).

2. Play live tournies in Goa.

3. Complete my german language course and apply to a german universty for masters next year.

4. Work on personal Health.

5. Mount a challenge for Sharkscope leaderboard for Country wise profit.(to top the india leaderboard)

I apologise to anyone offeneded about my last post. I am just not your diplomatic guy. I make kistakes, big stupid mistakes sometimes, but i learn and move forward from them. I choose to speak the truth amd back myself for what I feel is right( I get into trouble for the same too often). I have to get rid of my habit of hurting myself when I feel down and depressed. I have started to love myself back again and poker has given me the encouragement and self confidence to be successfull and to fulfil my desires again.

auf wiedersehen!!!

Gl at the tables everyone.

updates?
lazy again?

Hey guys,

Hw is everyone doing?

Been a while since I last updated my blog. I have been busy with poker, some exams and some small business ventures. Also been a time for some inner reflections on my side.

Health

The past two months have pretty much been the toughest months for me in terms of my health- both physical and mental. I was badly plagued by sleep disorders that worsened my condition. It also made me realize how fragile a personcan feel at times. I had every resource at my disposal (clean bed, sheets, air conditioning) and yet I could not get a minute of sleep!!.

I suffer from clinical depression.Its hard to describe to a normal person what exactly it is. I mean u don't want to get out of your bed, don't want to make food, do any physical activity. You just want to stay in your bed and almost feel helpless and sorry for yourself. I mean its just never goes away, its like a cloud hovering around your brain. During the period I isolated myself socially as well. I also don;t get well along with my parents but I do respect them for the resources they have always provided.

I exactly don't know what caused it but I have been suffering from persistent low moods from the age of 18 or so. For the better part of two years it remained undetected. It just went from bad to worse till I started suffering major headaches and insomnia issues. And for the better part of past two years I have been fighting day in and day out and my overall health has improved significantly( although I have lost a bit of hair!!..).

So the good thing is that im off medicines at the moment although I suffer silently from spells of the disorder from time to time(its less frequent now).
I also owe a lot to my parents and my close friends who have stayed with me even when I behaved like a ****ing arsehole in front of them.

We are working hard to improve our health and our body. I try to be more friendly and courteous with people. I acknowledge the fact that I sometimes come out as an egoistic and haughty individual. I am by nature a very introvert and shy individual. I do not enjoy a lot of company but prefer to build good and honest relations. So to all the people that I have intentionally or unintentionally hurt or made to feel bad because of me, this is an honest and public apology. I am sorry.

^^this felt good.

So a bottom line to monitor our health:

- Scheduling

- Gym

- controlled diet

- regular counselling sessions

- grind

- move to Europe next yr.

Poker

This is meant to be a poker realted blog- so some poker stuff nw!!. We ran pretty well in June.

June stats and graphs :





We are definitely improving and if we work hard enough we can definitely live the dream!!.

I would also be travelling to Goa in August for the upcoming IPC. I really feel good about this one. I am much more relaxed and focussed then I was in June for the last IPC. Will be selling action for the same on facebook( max. 50 %).

Coaching offer

I am also open to coaching or doing HH reviews of Indian or orther players for micro stakes SNg's/ mtt sng's. I feel like I have beaten then over a good sample and have a fairly descent edge over the general population at these stakes.

Micro stakes Sng graph:





If any player is serious about his/her game and wants to build a bankroll with the minimum risks Sngs is the thing 2 beat. Also u can make a descent living playing SNG's (atleast in a country like India or thailand).

The coaching deal can be discussed via Pm or skype(i would be giving all my social media ids at the bottom of this post). The coaching fees would be very nominal as I would be looking to work with the player and develop his her game. Also you would get tips on effective multitabling and proper usage of ICIMIZER.

Personal Notes

My German classes have started once again. We passed the a1 elemetary course ( don't ask me how!!).



So we enrolled for the a2 course. At the start i was thinking that I would play poker mostly and just somehow pass a2 as well. But i don't like going to class and feeling dumb around everyone else. So we would be studying this time seriously and for that i would give up time on weekdays over poker.

Also there are new some new good looking gals in our class this time around!!. So we don't want to feel dumb in front of them!!. I would try to be friendly and genuine to everyone this time around. The last time i felt I was way too over the top and superficial( which I am not actually). This time I would try to be who I am irrespective of whether i suck or rock!!.

But I am mainly doing german to move to europe next year to do my masters and play poker is a better time zone(india sucks with time zones !!).

Financially we r safe n sound and good to go for the next six months. I love the financial freedom that poker gives. it sucks that people misinterpret poker to gambling in India. it is really unfortunate that in the current job climate people don't have proper knowledge about poker. I am not saying that anyone can print in poker but one must have proper understanding of this beautiful game.

Also we r planning a trip to thailand in November with some of my poker buddies. That shud be fun!!.

Contact Links:

Facebook:https://www.facebook.com/sahil.chutani.54

Twitter:https://twitter.com/SslimShady19

Skype:$lim$hady19.

Gl to everyone at the tables!!

Auf weidersehen!!....

Nice, very honest blog your keeping mate i really like it. Keep up the good work! If you ever need anything, let us know.

Good to hear Best of luck!

I remember when we first spoke on Skype and you were trying to move up the micros. Great to see you doing so well right now.

All the best bro

ty Boss!! for having faith in me. tbh i have not put in descent volume this month, but hv been doing study and working on my health. will be back to crushing soon!!.

ty tom. u guys r like family

haha i remember that call. I was such a big nit back then

Hey guys,

sup?

Just sitting in my office and felt like updating my blog. have not been playing that much past 2 weeks and would be looking to put in 2 descent sessions this weekend.

Health:

We are keeping better the past two weeks. I have a better schedule then before. I am getting 5 hours of sleep daily. Unfortunately this has meant our poker volume is down for the last month. But we will work on that. I am in a better mental space then before. We are still hit by occasional spells of depression, but we are laerning to deal with it in a mature way nowadays.

Unfortunately I have started smoking in excess again. Its difficult to resist to urge for a smoke when we are grinding alone for 8 hours at a strech. Also regular gym has been missing for the past month or so. We need to work on both factors.

German:

Our german classes (A2 level) have commenced. I have a better schedule now and also it helps me get social on a daily basis. But we seriously need to work on our german or we will be facing an uphill task passing the course. I have taken some time out on weekdays for study and also reach my class 45 minutes earlier for study.

We have met some new people in our class(chicks) and its good to hang out with new people. But it gets difficult when a gal asks, " so what do you do"? hmmm I, I have my own business. Its not easy to say that I am professional poker player due to the misinformaion regarding the game here in India.

But next time someone asks me, "so what do you do"? Our answer would be

"Ich bin ein professioneller Pokerspieler "

Poker:

We have not put in descet volume for July. We need to focus better and have better time management so that we can grind, study and still keep a good health.

We will be travelling to Goa for the IPC tournament. I am super exicted and super pumped for the series. I feel its my time to bink a live tourney.
It should be fun, I love playing live.

Gl at the tables!!

Auf weidersehn..

Subbed gl

Seen you around a few of my $2.50 tables lately

Hey guys,

Hw is it going?

Been a warm new year to start here in India, probably global warming is for real.

wanted to wrap up my blog as I plan on starting a new one for 2016. I kept the blog up to date and pretty honest up till October wherein afterthat i suffered a mini health crisis and was a bit lazy as well. No wonder then I suffered my biggest downswing of my career in mid november. But I also learnt the most during my downer and my game is picking up quickly, all thanks to the team here at BBZ.

I was fortunate enough to get to my first ever Live final table at the IPC in december. tbh I did nothing special and did what I am taught to do and got 5 for a shade under 8k.



That's me at the FT of IPC Main Event.

Let's try 2 recap some of the things we planned on achieving at the start of the year and see how we went:
"
Yearly Goals:
* Volume, Volume and more volume
*Move up in MTT sng's
*total Profit: 20 K USD( Min.)
* One live tourney in India or preferablly in Macau..
* To top Sharkscope Leaderboards at the stakes i Play( i hate to see a bad reg like zaq 13 on top of SS leaderboards..:P)
* learning and making a switch towards Stock markets(+EV)
* To quit smoking full time( hv'nt smoked for quite some time)
*having a toned body so that i can share a pic with U...
*Regular MBA from july onwards
*paying for my MBA on my own(need abt 8K USD for first year, have saved about 2k atm)
* Not to overspend( I'm very bad as this aspect, i spend everything that's in my pocket..
*Learning German
* 2 vacations( One in India and one abroad, preferably somewhere in Europe but Bangkok will do fine as well)
* donate 10 % of my Income from poker to charity(I would like to help the elderly and young kids as they represent the most vulnerbable section of the society)
"

Quick takeaways :

1.Profit:We went past the 20k USD mark which is sweet.






tbh is difficult to keep tabs hw much money you make in poker. So much money changes hands, at the end of the day its difficult to know hwmuch money u made .

2. Move up in MTT sng's: well we r presently playing low to mid stakes MTTs online and are staked by BBZ staking. I love the guys here and wud like to thank Jay(holdit) again for taking me in after i had rejected their offer previously( hwstupid i was ).

3. One live tourney in India or preferablly in Macau..:
Well we played like 4 live series in Goa and it was fun. Also its nice to catch up with fellow indian pros jdsaz,saby,keenyle, and my close buds anup,alok.

4. To top Sharkscope Leaderboards at the stakes i Play( i hate to see a bad reg like zaq 13 on top of SS leaderboards..:P):






Well we pretty much there on the leaderboards, so thats nice

5. Learning German:

Well we did two levels and passed them miserably. well needless to say I did not like the course during the end. I liked it because I got to meet new people and some chicks, but thats abt it. spend like 1k$ on the course, oh well .

6. To quit smoking full time( hv'nt smoked for quite some time):

Well i hv become a regular smoker again and its here to stay for some time. I can quit it I know but it helps beat the loneliness and some frustations, atm I need it unfortunately.

7. 2 vacations( One in India and one abroad, preferably somewhere in Europe but Bangkok will do fine as well)

I went to Goa 4 times during the previous year, also had a fun trip with my college friends up in the hills which was so much fun. Hopefuully we get to travel to macau and manila in the upcoming new year.

8. Regular MBA from july onwards:

not doing it period. atleast not from India.

9. donate 10 % of my Income from poker to charity(I would like to help the elderly and young kids as they represent the most vulnerbable section of the society):

This on's close to my heart. I really believe in helping out people. Also i like doing it silently, i don;t like to click photographs and post on fb and ****. I will tell u a short story abt last year: We were going through our worst downswing during mid november and also our health was really bad. I spent the morning of my 25th birthday in front of a Psychiatrist begging for help.
Just before leaving for Goa I went over to this blind school here across in dehi(shankar road) and donated some stuff to blind kids. They were so thankful and it felt good. and bam we won over 5 lakhs Inr in the main event in goa. call it karma or what u may, u gotta believe in something, period.

I will like to wrap up the blog, was irregular during the end and I plan on keeping a much better blog for 2016. Thaanks for all the feedback and support, I am a very emotional and expressive guy and the blog really helped me vent out my views.

Cheers.

lfg Sahil. 2016 is gonna be kickass. Keep up the hard work bro!!!
Respect and lets do itttttttttttt