oh yeah happy thanksgiving mother ****ers1!!!!!!!!!

so thanksgiving was cool/great/whatever. just hung out wiht a lot of family. some of them are a tad annoying when they're drunk, but im sure i was more annoying when i used to drink.

many such cases

going to the horse races today with my parents and maybe my brother. only going to bring about $100 and try and run it up. i dont know what im doing when betting horses, i guess there's skill involved, but i have never taken the time to learn it. would rather bet horses than sports though. but in both cases i am a donk.

still ****ing sick unfortunately. didnt help yesterday smoking weed, hanging outside in the cold, and riding around the block on an electric scooter/ electric unicycle. just snotty as hell. ew
probably would be over the sickness by now if i haven't been nurturing it with the warm embrace of mary.

honestly think i need to quit it. actually i know i do. some people can function as stoners, but i cannot. no way. maybe Dec. 1 to make it official

probably going to buy another sack before then tho

7/15 clp hours before next grind

went to the horse races yesterday with parents and brother. donated about $80 betting trifecta boxes and a few other things. hit a trifecta on one of the races for about $82. it was kind of a beater of a race track out in phoenix called turf paradise.

i have no real idea what i'm doing betting horses, but it was fun and wasn't too degen.

was gone most of the day though and was off my routine but its ok.

went and plowed some nasty tinder ho last night. her dogs were so annoying; so was she. place was a ****ing mess. doesn't comb her hair. yet has her own house with a pool and an empty bedroom. it's absolutely astounding how many of these girls have empty rooms in their places. sign of the times?

probably going to go hike with whip it hoe today.

i can feel the weed slowing me down. it shows in my stupid face and eyes. droopy and apathetic like the hollow part of my chest where my soul used to reside.

got to get off the weed and hop on the bucking bull that is sobriety.

tune into infinity or embrace the chaos?

sobriety makes me weird, but that might be necessary. need to follow through on some of my ideas. adderall was supposed to connect these dots for me, instead it connected me to the dot between my legs, which wanted to get beat like a red headed step child.

**** masturbation. **** weed. **** alcohol. **** interweb browsing (this threads ok). **** adderall.

why do i insist on getting in my own way?

ADHDiaries

i don't believe in adhd, but if it exists i have it.

the bottom for crypto is in! this time for realllllls guys (said the man for the 30th time this year).

but this time for realssssss!

i'm considering just dumping my cash bankroll into crytpto, minus like $600 for 2 buy ins when its time to get back on the grind. ill have more $$$ coming in from my hotel job. as it stands, my bankroll is in the USD scam currency, just sitting here losing 8% a year and rising.

link, eth, btc are good buys right now. even doge seems decent. but ive been looking at current prices compared to ATH's. lots of these shits have 10x in em. and if crypto was not intentionally being destroyed by evil pedophiles, we could have made it ( this time for reallllsss).

so it got me looking into projetcts that are down more than 90% from their ATH that seem solid.

REN seems good. it pumped hard yesterday and is at 12 cents, with an ATH of 1.83 thats like a 15x

if we catch another massive bull run i think the memecoins are good for some high variance bankroll padding. just dont get scamed.

Yeah man drop the weed. No high performer smokes a lot of weed and if you want success in poker you need to perform at the highest level you can while playing. Them is the facts

Stop focusing so much on substances, they are all just drugs. Try to stay sober for awhile, if you want to moderate in a little booze or weed or whatever that’s fine but it seems like you want to talk about them all the time, like a lot of the born-to-lose 19 year olds I used to meet in rehabs. Just try to live a healthy life and you’ll be astounded by the results, I promise you.

Lovin the tinder stories, glad to see you getting out there exploring the outer territories and fighting the good fight for all us married men

My mom spends winters in Scottsdale, I love the desert. I’ve been wanting to hit up Pizzeria Bianco while I’m there, supposed to be some of the best pizza in the world

for sure, thanks for the feedback!

definitely trying to cut all drugs out, and i think i write about them so much because i have an ingrained addictive personality. or that coul djust be an excuse/ limiting belief.

still on for quitting weed in a few days, once im sober in my day to day life ill get on the routine to open that door to momentum! and from there, there's no stopping.

at this point i fully recognize that the **** is holding me back.

$$$$$$$

i have so many ideas of the business/ media/ music variety. i have no shortage of ideas (which i think are great) but when it comes to follow through or making those ideas reality, im sorely lacking.

a mediocre idea with a ton of follow through will trump a great idea with nothing behind it. a great idea is really worth **** all. it's a great idea plus the energy behind it that will get you places.

i think i just need to write out all my ideas, rate them on a scale of how important they are to me (plus ease of implementation?) and then set forth and persevere on what i decide.


$$$$

still chugging along with the clp vids. didn't get much done over the weekend because i was busy following my piener around and hiking.

a part of me wants to get into omahaha as well. maybe when i go on my next downswing in NL (after i get some momentum) i can jump over to PLO or even big o and study that just to add some variety. the GTO PLO bots are ****ing $200 a month from galfond or jnandez! i wonder if those are worth it....

ive tried getting into PLO in the past, mostly online, with **** results.

but these days im more willing to invest $$$ into me poker. im contemplating hiring a coach for NL, but how would i have hands to go over? just write them down as they happen live? or does it make sense to play online sessions and record that and get coahced on that?

ive had a couple poker coaches in the distant past. 2 were ****, 1 was good.

$$$$



i think a part of me wants to write about all the drug idiot **** so my character arc is complete when im updating this thread in 6 months absolutely massacring life. maybe as an inspiration to some, or just as a worthwhile read.

as it stands just got 2 more vials of test and a stizzy vape pen. stll on for quitting the weed come december!!!!



8.5/15 clp videos watched before next session

****ing killed it yesterday, to make up for my lackluster weekend

studied animate and poker for 2 hours each, utilizing the pomodoro technique. pomodoro is simply to set a timer for 20 minutes, do a solid study session until the timer goes off, then take a 5-10 minute break.

this complements my ability well as its hard as hell to concentrate for long, but i can easily accomplish the task at hand for the next 20 minutes. after 4 blocks of the pomodoro i take a decent break.

was just dialed in and motivated to learn!!!

mixed up some of the clp videos with reading a classic ed miller book that i got used on amazon for like 5$.

$#$%#$%

working a double today at the hotel. didnt bed any wenches yesterday so it's going to be one of those days following my whiner around. might hit up my favorite lay tonight and confess my love for her. the ol big tittied ex- moron.


$$$


excited for what the new year might bring.




10.5/15 CLP vid/ poker study hours until next session

alright mother ****ers, today is the day that it all begins.

December 1st, 2022: getting off the substances.

clean break from the distractions. and a hard wake up with a thirst for destruction. with no release i wake up diamond hard and have to take the edge off. a gamble that i don't blow and set back the timer, but to each his own.

current crypto stack:

622k REU
300 link
1650 DXP

might get into tracking many movements and habits and actions throughout the day, to get a better sense of what may be improved upon.

as of recent the "social challenges" have taken a backseat to the weed consumption, but alas, we're at the end.

also going to get back into poker soon! cannot wait

apologies this vlog is adhd right now byeeeee


13/15 hours of CLP /study before next session

hit the gym yesterday: did pull:

Dead lift warm up 135x5
205 x5 (2)
225 x4 (2)
245 x1 (2)

Weighted Chin ups warm up x5
25x5
25x4
45x3 (2)

Bicep curls
80x5 (2)
80x4
70x5 (2)

One arm rows bench
40x5
60x5 (4)

Dec 1st body:






worked yesterday as my first day not blazing in a while. felt good, clear head,energy boost, less anxiety around people/ bosses. was great got a lot done.

was hardly fienin for the weed too. my body just kind of expected to take a hit, especially after work, but mind was just like : no.

went and plowed a tinder hoe last night, she's my favorite: K, big tiddied, ex-mormon. super into ****ing and giving oral. i love it.

while we were foreplay i was thinking if i still have feelings for her after i ejactulate, ill tell her.



came pretty quick in the connie but it'd been about 3 days since id busted a load.

%%%%

on the last leg of my poker study before i go back to play, so this weekend expect some poker action!

going to try and track a lot of the hands. play patiently, really take my time with decisions. re-learn how to fold, etc.

have tons of ideas with regard to this blog and my life, so stay tuned

or dont, idc

14/15 hours of CLP video/poker study done before next session! next session tonight! going to focus on: putting them on a range, patience/taking my time with the hand/ making folds and taking a lot of notes!!!

not sure if im going to jump in to 2/3 (1kcap) for 5 or 600 or just 1/2 for 300 max.

hit the gym today: did legs. used to hate legs and half assed the **** out of it, now i enjoy it. it's definitely the most "brutal" or "primitive" of push pull legs, at least imo.

current weight: 171


Squat warmup 135x5
195 x5 reps ( 4 sets)
210 x3, x2

Unsure if in squat it’s ideal to hit 5 reps or more weight and lower reps, possibly mix?


Prone leg curl Warm 60x5
110 x5
115x5
120x5 (3)

Farmer walk
90 x4 laps

Bike 5 mins high intensity

Leg press
180x5
270x5
360 x4 (2)

Calf raise
90 x7 cramppppp
90 x7 cramp again fuxk


Took a pic of my legs post work out but that pic is better suited for my only fans.



When I’m not clouded by weed pushing social comfort comes natural. just adding a little more to conversations than i would have. a tad more comfortable in group conversations.

i can already feel the momentum slowly starting to build, and it's only been 3 days.

Howmever!!!!!
i get moody and angry as hell. worked at the hotel yesterday and long story short the management is trying to **** me out of 1 hour pay, and i was ****ing furious when i found this out. i didnt rage at them, i bottled it up and punched the **** out of a locker in the locker room.

i couldn't sleep for like 2 hours, just rolling around in bed thinking about how those pieces of **** are ****ing me over out of an hour.

i emalied them this morning and called out of today's double shift.

my moods could be a problem. the anabolics don't help!

really in the mood to talk to girls and go on a date, but for now going to crush 1 more hour, go **** whip it girl, then put in some solid grind. it's been 2.5 weeks, im ****ing ready!

$$$

couple notes from a barf hanson crunch life pokker episode:

in poker, at least have an idea of what you're doing.


in loose "weekend night game" pull back on cb blufs

# of players in the hand is the number one factor in determining cb blfufing

in a typical 2 blind game you can throw in some calls with AK on the button vs utg open if utg is tightish and no calls in between

if you're in a situation where you're supposed to cb 50% of the time, that should NOT be randomized. it should be based on your table image/ whether you're winning or lsoing in the short term

just becaue you don't have sd value in a situation does not give you the greenlight to just bluff at it

when value cb, if they're calling for 1/3, they're probably calling for 2/3, an adjustment you should make (an exploutable approach)

we love you, barf!

going to post some pokie hands next post-- believe it or not.... on a poker forum, no less!

patience, range those *******s, and quit if i tilt, that's it.

last night's results: -$350

i donked off the buy in as usual, true to form.

definitely tightened my game up, but all the nit regs are still sitting on my left cally/floaty. i guess i have to adjust to their callyness/floatyness by tightening my opening range and bluffing range and widening my value range? just value bet the clowns. but how goddamned boring.

some hands:
CO open limps, button calls, sb to 7, i to 25 with ako in BB
co and button call
467r I 30 F C
8 turn i ch/f


Utg opens to 15
LJ calls, i call in the CO with TT button c
AKx checked through
turn A utg bets all fold

called a $6 Utg open with 44 on the button. calls in between and after, we're 5 ways to the flop
246hhx utg 10, LJ to 30, I 3! 80 with my set all fold


a million limps im in sb with 25o and complete the $1. BB never raises without QQ+
523fd i lead 10 with my 2pair, a donk raises to 25, i call
turn Q bringing another FD i check donk bets 25 i tank fold.

he shows 88.

button straddle to $5 im in sb first to act with AKo i raise to 15, 4 calls!
QTxHHH i have no heart in my hand or chest
T turn checked to button who bombs $60 all fold


another hand i 3! AJo, recreational player 4! small i fold

final hand I bluff big on river after Cb flop into 2 on Q high flop, turn brings the flush and it checks through, i bomb riv for $100 with nothing and "reg" calls with Top top and turned the nfd, he didn't bet.

so i guess my goal for next session is to not bluff off all my chips.



have a pretty big crush on one of the dealers and was chatting her up at the table last night. she said something something I'm a single mother, and im like "oh you're single?"

First AK hand 3B to $40

44 hand obviously flat the flop

25 hand. Unless it is an OMC small bets are I think i have the.best hand but just in case I will make it small. Have to continue for $25

AK straddle hand. Raise to $25

Single mother hand. Ask for numbers

last night's profit: +$743


so upoon arrival to the casino at about 830pm im in a good moody mood after unloading some stress onto the belly of a milfy fwb.

i game-day decide to sit 2/3 instead of 1/2. i buy in for 500 +27 in chips i have left over from yesterday's charity event. max buy in is 1k, so most of the table covers.

my total vpip was probably less than 30, hell maybe even >25 yesterday. felt like i was a god of nits but it was probably pretty standard ****... begrudgingly open folding 64s utg and the like.

hand 1:

HJ Open 15. i 3! Kqo on button, Call

Hu to 985 with a fd, chekced through

turn was low he check i 45 he check raise huge i fold.

i think if i had TT+ id be betting flop. my turn bet didn't make much sense but checking it all the way down seems so weak.

hand 2
4 limps to my BB with J8hh i check.
Th7hx sb leads 10 I call utg call utg1 raise to 35, us 3 call

9h!!!!!!!!!! drilling the straight flush sb bets 40 (he's short maybe 200 behind) i call others fold
5h he bet 50 i shove for like 150 more he folds and we ship the high hand bonus for $250 in addition to the pot

hand 3
5 handed button straddle i open sb first to act with Ajo to 20
donk in co calls and covers.

AJx i 30 c
2 i 55 c
2 i 85 c

he mucks

hand 3
button straddle sb calls i utg to 25 with KdQx
Hj c button calls all cover
Q8Tddx i 35 co c , but f
9 i cf to 60

felt weak to me but im trying to fold. after the session i ask him what he had he says AJo. good fold me

actually hit another high hand bonus for $250 turning a boat after defeinding BB over a call. flop 2p turn the overfull, i bet, both fold. there were 4 seconds left on the high hand promo and a bit of commotion as to whether or not my high hand was valid for this round or the next round.

up $500 in high hand promos for the night and 243 in pure profit

i cash out after 2 hours 16 minutes, short ass session but goddamnit it felt good to book a win!

looked at my tracker and i lost 10 sessions in a row before last night. although at least 2 of these "sessions" were just sitting BS limit hold em waiting for another game.


^^^^^^^

killing it in other aspects of my life. hitting meditation every day, putting in hours in adobe animate, massacring the gym. flirty as hell with cuties. that momentum is starting to build. i can feel it.

i told last nights milfy booty call that i quit weed and she was shocked! "what are you going to quit next?... hopefully not sex..."

it made me realize i dont have much left to quit. i can tighten up some of the leaks on my free time where im browsing the internets, but no major bad habits to even quit. crazy how i compare two months ago to today.

between smashing her and my drive to the casino i was contemplating poker and whether or not it's something i really want to spend time on. that 25 hours a week could really be better spent focusing on music or something else.

but it seems like every time im in between on poker i have a session that makes me want to continue. the poker gods are tricky like that.

fitness log: **** this is going to be a long post.

Push day!
Flat bench 135x5
155x6
165x5
175x5
185x5 (2)
190x4

maybe after my warm up i should just put 180 on and do that 5x. i don't do much flat bench, usually decline, it feels a lot better on my shoulders and i can do a lot more weight! plus it looks cool as hell.

Incline
95x5
115x5
135x5 (2)
140x5 (2)

again should just go straight for the higher weight after a warm up set

Dips
25
20
20
20
15

****s with my left should a bit, unless i use the dip machine. i don't do these to often either.

Cable cross over
40x 10 each arm
60x5
70x5 (3)

Tricep cable pull down 70x10
110x7 (4)
X5


@#$!@#$!@$

the baby mama drama is gut wrenchingly horrible! got served last week as i was walking out of my house going to my cousins' memorial. baby mama is trying to move jurisdiction to her home state as opposed to AZ where baby was born.

she usually allows me to facetime baby a few times a week but hasn't responded about this week. if the tables were turned i couldn't imagine not allowing baby to see her other side of the family, in all but the most extreme of cases.

as of now her attorney has accused me of: stalking baby mama, abusing her, being an alcoholic, and my father is a child rapist.

it actually gets worse, but this is all i feel like writing about right now.

part of me just wants to move to baby mama's state and fight her in court there. but AZ is wayyyy more father-friendly.

just ****ing sick all around.

AK 3b seems huge, but makes sense. i shluld probably start 3b way bigger since i get called so much with my image, especiallly now that i'm trying to tighten up preflop.

44 is this a flat to the flop raise!? i guess it is if im on my A-game. kind of drawing toward a safe turn. that 3b killed the ****ing action for sure.

25 hand yeah i should have called the turn. i just have so many bad memories of overplaying the mother **** out of 2p.

im down so much with lower 2p and AK in my live experience over the past few months.

agreed i need to be opening more.

single mother hand i agree. although i dont want to do it at the table while she's dealing. and in between downs she's always running around the room. she's consistently the hottest girl in the room and gets a ton of attention. but she seems into me. i saw her last night and only nodded at her while she was dealing at another table

thx for the reply tho!

oh yeah and the night before last when i donated 350 i stopped by whip it hoe's place to get some snuggles and a wet piener.

she relapsed and is back on the whip its, even after she swore it off ~2 weeks ago.

she goes and picks up 6 boxes when we went to get some food. she said she got 6 boxes the night before as well. has some disposable income because she's getting a new roommate in her empty 3 bedroom house.

we watched terminator 2 and i indulged in some whip its as well. felt slightly disappointed in meself, but not beating myself up over some dumb ass whip its. if i drank or smoked weed i would feel wayyy more hopeless with regard to my recent dedication to hopping on the wagon.

pic:

That was depressing, there is no new roommate. You're doing great, this person will only drag you down.

yesterdays' results: -288. -188 if counting a $100 non-poker promotion..

played a mix of 2/3 and 1/2 yesterday as the games were breaking. felt like i played well in the 2/3. the 1/2 just drained me slowly but surely.



First hand i sit at 2/3:

an old big stack open limps. i (600) raise 25 JJ in co, donk on button calls, limper calls

T73sss I have js
Big stack leads 25 I raise 80 ff

2nd hand:

Old bad reg open limps, big stack c I call but T8o, sb c
ATx fd old reg 7 f I c sb c
8 x x I 25 c f
Riv q x I 45

he mucks

3rd hand:
an open limp in LP, sb completes i check BB K9dd
Jxx hhh check thru
9 big stack 11 into 7 I f


4th hand:
open Red AA Lojack
Donk but calls big stack in bb calls
Qj8ss x I 25 c c
9 turn brining BD fd x x but 50 f i fold

is cf this turn standard? not too weak right?


5th hand:
Utg straddle folds to my BB Ako to 25
A42dd I have no d, I 25 he 75 I c
Kd x x
Riv j
I 75 c
36dd



6th hand:
I post in LJ, utg c c c I raise 20 more QTcc
4 calls I have position
QxJx5c
X 35 c I call c f
Jc x’d thru
A x 35 I fold c

AT called 95s

Should I bet turn with tp and fd when 2nd pair pairs up?

been on top of my meditation, fitness, writing/blogging,

could read a bit more, could put more evolutionary pressure on my social/dating aspects, tighten up the notches on my free time a bit.

still pretty lukewarm on poker. just feel that this time could be much better spent on something meaningful to me than sitting in a casino smelling these old schmucks. the more charitable my recent session have been, the more i feel this way (ldo)


fit log:

Pull
Dl 135x5
225x5 (2)
245x4 (2)
265x2
275x1

Cable rows
Wu 70x5
120x7
130x5 (2)
X7
140x5 (2)

Bicep curl
80x5 (5)

First time doing that!

Shrugs
70x20
90x15
95x8 2
X9

Lat cable pull down wide grip
Wu 70x5
100x5
105x7
110x6
115x6

yeah my life is a bit ****ed but comparing today to wher ei was a year ago im in a much better head space.

December usually gets me down. last year i moved from los angeles to AZ to be a dad, expecting to be able to spend the holidays with a new little baby. but baby mama ran off and cut all ties with me and my family (before i could get her process served through email).

went from november to april without so much as seeing a picture of my daughter. now that was depressing.

at least now i can facetime with baby 2-3 times a week and have visited her in their new state a few times.

dont tell anyone but im even kind of in the christmas spirit this time around. possibly a tad too much for a straight guy.

Yesterday's Profit: +774

Was on my way to work at the hotel yesterday and I get an email from HR. " Your resignation notice has been received. Effective immediately."

Um... Ok? I just said I wanted to be paid for the hour I was owed. Talk about miscommunication, my gosh. It is somewhat of a relief, as that place was a horribly toxic and draining environment.

They literally waited until I was on my way to the job, too. **** em.

So I pulled over to rack my thoughts, pondering my next play.

Then Lebowski's bro popped into my mind. **** it, let's go bowling.

Except I don't bowl.

Replacey bowling with poker and you're getting warmer.

Time to check out Desert Diamond. It's pretty far from me, a 40 minute drive, but I haven't ventured out there yet.

It's a nice newer casino, pretty ****ing loud slot machines, I realize as I wander around until I can find the grind room.

The list is long so I get on 1/2 and 2/3. It's the season of giving so I donate $20 to a slot machine.

Walk back over to poker and jump into anything

! 3/6 it is.

After about 3 rotations at 3/6 Limit they start a new 2/3. Hallelujah. I'm first to the table and in for the max. The buy in is 1-600. Once the table fills everyone else has max 300.

I VPIP the first 4 hands. Don't think it was anything I shouldn't have done, but it gets my table image nice and lag.


Hands of note:

Hand 1-

UTG open limps, folds to SB who calls, I'm BB with AA, 15 on top.
F, SB (solid reg with about 400) Calls.

QTTssx, I have the Ace of spades and we check it through.

5 He 15, I call.
9 He 50, I call, his flopped full house with QT is good.

Think this is standard... Can Ivey or Tim Dwan fold this river?

Hand 2-
UTG 1, a tight MAWG with about 350 makes it 15. I decide to flat AKss Low jack, BB loose recreational with about 250 to start Calls. I stacked him earlier with better 2 pair, I feel like he's after me a bit.

Q94 with two spades.
Utg 1 30, I call, BB xr to 70, UTG1 calls, I shove about 350 effective with two overcards and nfd.

BB calls, Fold

turn 9, riv x
I show my AK high, he has 44 for the underfull.

Line check???

Hand 3-
Donk CO with 150 opens 15, same solid reg from QT (700) 3! to 40. I cover and 4! to 100 from the BB with JJ. Donk folds, reg in SB calls.

K7755
we check it to the river when I value bet his face for 50. He calls and said "Kings full good."

I proudly table my JJ to get value from his 99/TT.
He shows QQ.

I'm not thrilled about 4! my JJ pre but wanted to gii vs donkey and flat calling his 3! seems so face up with JJ.

Hand 4-
Theres a Straddle to 6, I'm first to act with 99 and make it 25.
Two calls from two other reggy seeming guys, both with about 4-500. Donk in BB ships for 205. I tank fold my 99. They both fold. Great odds but was worried about the others behind.


All in all, I really enjoyed the action at Desert Diamond.

But It doesn't seem the most grinder friendly. You can literally hear the slots from the back of the poker room. They don't serve food in the room.

Walked over and got some Asian food from the food court and came back to the poker room to eat it.

I got the Mongolian beef and asked for hot sauce, an ABC standard play. "We don't have hot sauce...." um wat.

Took a bite and it was honestly the most atrocious Asian food I've ever had.

I was hungry as hell and not one to complain about food. But holy ****! It really was that bad. Took two bites and tossed it.

the fact that DD is not grinder friendly is kind of a benefit. Like Bovada/Ignition or whatever they call that site this week. Unfriendly to regs = Better action.

$$$$

So I guess poker it is for now, since I'm officially without a part time job. Going to focus a lot more on learning adobe and get some side gigs going. I'm not going to be the 50 year old full-time grinder (hopefully).

Seems like the more I bitch about poker, the better my results.

So lets get on with that:

Powker mean! variance sad! smelly regs! shitty food! aces no hode! i victim pity pity pity meeeeee.
$$$$$

Meditation up to 7 minutes daily, didn't hit the gym yesterday but will today.

Gonna study at the library before I go grind it out. 1 hour of : Animate, Premier, and Barf Hanson vids.


Also was browsing my past posts itt, and goddamn that's some sloppy jalopy writing. More intention and less sloppy posts from here on out.

Feedback, commentary, bumps, FU's, and whatever else all highly encouraged.

Oh and just got news that jurisdiction from the Baby mama drama remains in AZ, so that's good.

Happy ****ing Hannukah.

Enjoying the read!

Yesterdays' results: +215

So check this out. I was in bed the other night, asleep and was snapped awake by a thought...

What does my profit look like during the month I subbed to GTO Wizard???



hashtag yikes

I'm not ready to say that studying GTO directly resulted in a major downswing. But the coincidence certainly cannot be overlooked.

Total results for reference:



Subbed to GTO Wizard on Oct. 25:




My game feels a lot better. Poker is a lot easier when you're not opening 50%+ of hands and getting yourself into shitty spots on a clouded mind. 2/3 is so much more of a gentlemen's game than 1/2, which feels like a bingo variance fest. It might have to do with the fact that the money is bigger and "raises are respected more," both by myself and other players. The memes are real!

The 2/3 was decent last night, but although the sample size is limited, Desert Diamond has better games than Lone Butte.

Hand 1-

Open 87s to 15 from the CO, Bb defends, we're about 500 deep.

JT7Ax, we check it all the way down. Can't get value from worse or better to fold. His whatever pair is good.

Hand 2-
Open black 66 UTG. Button, SB, BB call.

TT4ddx I 40, two calls.

K checked through.
Kd Sb 50, I fold, C.

JT is good.

think this is an ok Cb on the flop?

Hand 3-
Open JTss utg, 3 calls
KKx two spades. Checked through.
8 I 40 cally donk on my immediate left calls, F F
Riv 6 I 55 with my busted FD he calls with 77.

Feel like he's after me a bit. Prob not a good spot to bluff against this player.

Hand 4-
Ep opens to $20 over a UTG straddle. I call sb with AKss to let the BB cally donk in. Should probably just be 3! this.
TT4ssx checked through.
8 I 40, BB donk raises to 120, F, I fold....?

Played this one bad.

Also spades have been ice cold for me recently. I know that doesnt really matter but it feels like it does!!!!

Hand 5-
Reg opens MP to 15 I call behind with 54cc. I call here because there are some big donks behind and a old guy sitting on like 1500 in the blinds, I have about 900 at this point. Two calls behind me including deep old donk in the blinds.

367ss
Old guy donks for 20, reg folds, i call, donk behind me calls.
8x Old guy 40, I raise 140, F, old guy calls.

7 old guy x, i 150, old guy calls, im good.

Should probably go a lot bigger on this river. Was a tad bit scared of a boat but goddamnit that's not poker. 275/f allll dayyyyy. He snapped off my river bet and didnt show.

I'm doing well on exploiting more and not playing like a robot. Although my game is a lot tighter and better, I did make a few poorly thought out bluffs vs. the two table stations.


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MLOG:
Meditation up to 8 minutes now. experimenting with coffee before meditation as opposed to after

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FLOG:
Leg day gains! was a bit rushed as I had a Facetime scheduled with babby.

Squat
195x5
200x5 (3)
205 x5 (2)

Prone leg curls
110 x5
120x 5 2
X6
125 x5

Farmer walk incline treadmills 52.4 lbs
2 mins x3

Calf raises
45x10
90x 8 (2)slight cramp the ****!?
115 x5

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slog (social/sex log):
tinder and bumble are a ****ing waste of time. Want to go on some hot dates with some cuties! Need to grow some balls and approach IRL for actual results.

thanks buddeh!

Yesterday's results +~800

Bought in to the 2/3 yesterday for 600, the game broke after about 30 minutes and got into some 1/2 action after taking a break to eat.

Second hand in 1/2 I 3b squeeze KQo from sb over a reg's iso.

UTG calls, reg folds, button calls.

KT9r i bet 60, call and button calls with about 30 behind.

Turn is a 7 and I shove. The Utg player is tanking and they call my name for 2/3. Reg eventually calls and short stack calls.

Riv is J and my straight is good.

I'm racking up chips and reg is friendly talking ****. Like 3 players are talking to me at the same time as I'm stacking and racking chips, including at least $70 in white chips. One's like You gotta at least tip the dealer!! UTG donk kept repeating how he had an 8, as if that were ahead or made any sense. Dealer and another player buy a stack of Whites off... Reg is friendly but like FU FU lol!

In between buying in for the 1/2 for 300 and having chips off the table next to me by my side and then walking over to 2/3 and buying in for 700 and then cashing out with a chip runner I kind of lose track of how much I have.

So I get to the 2/3 and the action is just cRaZy!!!

Huge whale donator and some fish reg are going at! Fish reg gets keeps hitting and goes from min buy in (300) to about 2500 in 4 hands! just flush after flush to getting all in on a flop of T97hh with K9hh and binking.

Fish reg is not even stacking his chips, just has a pile in front of him and is calling out his bet and pushing in a pile. He's in a wheelchair and possibly paralyzed in one hand so Solid reg to his right is helping him stack his chips and count them out.

Eventually the whale has had enough and is about to leave to go play black jack.

Solid reg and huge whale decide to flip for 5-600 and solid reg wins.

Action dies down a lot after whale leaves, fish on a heater colors his monster pile of red into black and leaves after about 30 minutes.

I could hardly see a flop with all this action going on as my cards were pretty trash. But just watching made me wet.

Another solid reg sits down in whale's place and is like "is this 2/3 or 3/5?" So much money on the table for a 2/3!!!!!

The game plays a bit more reasonable for the next few hours, but there's still a Native fellow who's drunk and trying to give his chips away.

I finally get QQ utg and open to 15, 4 callers and x/f K high flop. Bad reg says he has a set of Kings.

An open and a few calls and I call with 64o sb. At least five ways to the flop and we're all really deep

236fd checks through

6 turn and I lead for 40. Solid reg, probably the best in the room, calls.

A riv and I snap block bet for 35, he snap bumps it to like 175 and i call

He makes a friendly comment about how "I haven't played a hand and he should have known." (The turn might be wrong but I no longer had the nuts).


Hand 2-
Open JJ from utg after button straddle and blinds fold to me.

Other solid reg calls.
Q44, I 40, he calls.
6, I x, he 60. I call
Riv Q I x, thinking how face up my hand is and I have to call any bet. He checks it back and JJ is good.

I should have taken more notes on hands but was frazzled with everything going on.

Another hand from very early on in my session:

Hand 3-
Folded to my sb, I open J9o. BB with about 250 calls. My read is that he's a fun player but still has a clue.
QTx I 20 c
K on the turn, I 35, F

Should i possibly check the turn to exploit? He probably bets this turn 80% of the time...

All in all, glad to book a win on the day. Felt a bit nitty at this table but I guess that's the play with all this action and some solid regs.

I'd rather be called a nit and book a win than "fit in with the cool kids" and donate.

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Smashed out big tiddy, ex-mormon after the session. Sex is so hot with her, she get so wet and squeals!!! arrggg

We practice safety, but our pillow talk is usually like:

Next time i'm going to come inside and impregnate you.

"No, you're not."

Why not? I'll marry you tomorrow if you give me 10 kids.

"Um, I think I'll have to pass for now," she responds politely.

(I'm half joking but half serious)

SUPER NSFWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW:

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Fitness log:

Push
Decline
195x6
205x7
210x5 (2)
215x5 (2)

Incline dumb bells 45 degrees
40 each arm x10
50x7
55x6 (2)
60x5 (2)

Shoulder press
45x5
60x7
75x5
80x5 (2)
85x5

Perfect push-up (meme??)
Wide X15 x2
Narrow 10 x 2

Tri cable pull down
110x5
X4
105x5 (2
X4


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Still tightening up some life-leaks but it's pretty crazy how I can just go from a full blown all day stoner to being hungry to just be better.

Like when i'm getting in my car I want to put on some tunes but then convince myself to put on an educational podcast and learn for 20 minutes instead.

Putting in a couple extra minutes of meditation at night, not even on the clock. Just because it feels good.

Dragging my ass to the gym is no longer a chore, it's exciting and quenching.

I feel like I have an addictive personality, but I can easily substitute some shitty addiction to something healthy like reading, learning, meditating or xyz.

Gradually the stoner mindset and comfort-seeking becomes more and more disgusting to me.

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Now go take on the day.

Addictive personalities are also prone to being addicted to good things and it can absolutely be an advantage, happy to see you making it work for you.

Don’t let short term variance distract you from getting better at poker. You might be down since buying gtowiz but nothing bad comes from learning more about the game. Just understand that a lot of the time you want to adjust your strategy when your opponent deviates from equilibrium (which is mostly always the case in live games)