Join Date: Apr 2023
Posts: 1
Hi,
I have a 4 year old experience playing poker, ability of 79, roi 32% at mtts up to $10 over a big sample. Overall a winning player in mtts. My problem is that no matter what I do I end up leaking them dolla on higher stakes cash games or casino or wtv.
This is literally what happens. I win a tournament for 2k people, win like $1.5k letÂ’s say after grinding $4 tourneys all day. I win it and the next day I get a bad beat, lose like 20-30 buyins, already not focusing on my game, my game moves from A to D E, then I fire up cash game for $1000 and even able to straddle it all in blind. I play poker reactionary from time to time, but I did consider going full time. I studied the game a lot actually, even signed up for RYE. But I know there is no going further with my lack of self control and gambling problems. I earn around $2.5k monthly( in my country thatÂ’s above average). I never deposited more than $100 but probably lost like 90% of my mtts wins on gambling. I once had $8k on my account and leaked $7k on short deck $10 ante. In like 20 minutes. Then I woke up the next day and and went about my day almost normally.
ItÂ’s like rinse and ****ing repeat. It doesnÂ’t affect me much at work or personal life, I donÂ’t go out to casinos to gamble, just once I get a taste of it and win some money, then lose 10% of it, instantly go on monkey tilt and gamble all of it away.
And ofc in order to not leak more than able to, I have self induced deposit limits. I have no strong will.
I love poker, enjoy learning it, am a winning small stake player, actually feel like I could move up stakes and start cracking medium stakes, only problem is I never had enough consistency and self control, so I never really found out.
Should I try? If so, how do I learn to control my ****ing emotions?
Thanks guys
