Hi, this is my first thread here. First of all i have to mention that english is not my first language, so some sentences here will sound pretty stupid. So keep in mind it's not because i'm (seriously) mentally ******ed.

I will play 1/2 live and NL20, NL25, NL50 online and track my progress here. I started playing Poker 2007 with NL5 SSS online. I played NL200 SSS when the minimum-buyin was changed, i then switched to NL50 Fullring Fullstack. Played a lot until 2010 on Full Tilt Poker - mainly NL100 FR Rush and was marginal winning player over 400k hands or such. After that time i played on some smaller platforms, won here and there, lost sometimes, lost touch.

Now i want to start again. My motivation: I hate the normal office live and getting up early, now i work 30 hours a week and it is still too much for me. Probably will get fired in the next couple months because i don't even nearly use my potential. So i want to build a solid BR in the meantime to be more flexible then. Note: My plan is NOT to become a pro, i just want to play on a regular basis and earn some money.

Motivation in general is my main problem: I'm one of the laziest persons i know. Will be interesting to see if i manage to update here regularly. It has been like this since my childhood. Whenever i make resolutions, after some days or even hours a voice says i my head "Life is meaningless and your existence doesn't matter. So just do what you want and stop worrying." And that's what i do then.. Maybe not this time. Goals: Eat healthier, do sports from time to time, spend less money on alcohol/drugs/food. Improve game online and live and play the best i can.

About my poker game: I obviously should have massive leaks, didn't follow the recent trends in the last 3-4 years, AND im bad at math. Also my memory is really bad, i don't know why. It happens that at a live table a villain asks my what i had in one specific hand half an hour ago and i don't even remember the hand anymore.

Lets see where this is going.

BR online: 705,4 €
BR live: 1000 €

Was running really bad yesterday. Still "only" less than one stack done in overall i found out, so now im feeling quite happy. Pretty sick was a HU vs a fish, was sitting there w/ 500BB in the end and was like breakeven.

Totay i will play some live 1/2.

BR online: 660 €
BR live: 1000 €

Obviously you all thought i quit. Ok well i quit some days, but then started again. And i spent most of my live-BR and stopped playing live for now. Can't even remember what i spent it for.. Obviously drugs and nice food.

Played online some more hands and will continue unless i get broke or got the roll to play 2/5 live comfortably.

Mostly NL100 but also NL50 and NL200, from HU to Fullring (mostly 3-5 Players)




When i look at this graph, its obv. to me i should tighten a bit up.. or call less on the river. thoughts?

BR online: Around 2K (cashed out about 300)
Br live: 0