100% right. OP you and I are pretty similar. We both hated the corporate world and thought poker was our solution. In the end it didn't work out for either of us. Let's be honest here - poker is fvcked. Even the live poker fish aren't exactly handing their money out like candy. Maybe the games I played in were too nitty but try triple barreling TPGK vs your average live fish these days for thin value. It's way thinner than you think. I realized that even though I knew online poker was going downhill a long time ago, I stuck to it because I hated the thought of responsibility and facing the real world.

But in reality it was even worse. Had to put in long hours not just grinding but to study bs ideas like GTO to keep ahead of other regs just to make $25/hr which will slowly decrease as poker dies. And my actual hourly was much less than that because of all the time spent studying, talking poker on skype and watching videos. Fvck that. I refused to accept the fact that the days where any lazy dumbass reg who hardly studied could beat mid stakes were gone, because that was what I HOPED playing poker for a living would be like. Shorter and more flexible hours than a 9-5 and easy money because everyone sucks at poker. I couldn't be more wrong. Of course there are many regs who are smarter than me who don't have to work as hard and (at least for a few years) can still make a decent amount of money without putting in ridiculous hours. Unfortunately that's not the case for me.

I'm back in school and working a part time job while playing 10NL as a rec fish 5, 10 or zero times a month. And it feels great. Even though I'm making way less than I was grinding 50NL, I feel like a member of society again! I'm actually meeting people and building new relationships. Much much better than feeling like an outcast whose success depends on the failure of other people. And I'm going to have an actual career now where my income is INCREASING as I progress instead of DECREASING because of a dying market.

So here you are now basically in my position a few months ago when I was just sitting around bitching 24/7 because I knew the days of me being able to make meaningful money playing poker were numbered and I didn't know what else to do. And it just sounds like you're smoking weed all the time and not doing anything about it. I hope you quit weed because clearly it's not helping your current situation. Sure it brings instant gratification. But how does that help you tomorrow? Next month? Next year? It's just like my porn addiction, which I recently decided to fight.

Stop feeling sorry for yourself. Man the fvck up and take action. Have you not talked to your parents or friends back home? Wtf bro? Stop wasting time and do something. You're in your late 20s. You're not 18. It's time to get your **** together.

I'll lay it out for you plain and simple.

Either

1) get better at poker

2) face the real world

3) tell me to fvck off and continue what you're doing

I fear the worse. OP could be dead.

Confirmed drug overdose?

He was online yesterday so probably not probably just tired of 2+2 and needed to take a break from it like we all do from time to time

thanks for letting us know , hope you're right

It could've happened, I still wear some of my old college ts

OP wants to be a poker pro, but has never been anything more than an Uber driver with a poker hobby and a blog. Some might say a bad hobby at that. I'd argue the blog is quite entertaining, though. Sad OP has spent over a year on this site and can never quite stop butt fukking his own poker pipe dream with drug abuse long enough to ever actually have a chance to succeed.

OP would not kill himself, if he did he wouldn't be able to get high or have anyone to tell "poor me" stories to any longer. He will not taste success until he rids himself of the drug use and actually attempts to study poker. He was clearly not born with any god given talent and is going to have to work for every dollar of hourly win rate he achieves. Luckily for him the live games are still easily beatable and even a fukk up like him can make a middle class living if he ever decides to truly give it a try.

His poker play is screwing his chances to be a poker pro far more than his drug problems.

His play would vastly improve if he got clean and actually took the time to study/put in work. Plus, all the $$$ spent on drugs would then go towards building his bankroll as well. Like I said, he does not really want to be a pro, though. He wants to be an Uber driver or take any other side job that will be his primary source of income, then blog about being a "poker pro" when in reality he is just a wanna be, probably no better than the average $hit reg who may beat the game for a very small amount or break even.

I'm wondering if you're aware of how many poker professionals smoke cannabis. "Drug abuse"...come on man.

It is past the point of recreation for OP.

You guys are pretty fkn hard on op. Maybe lighten up a bit?

I didn't post anything but the truth, if OP had any balls he would kick the bad habits, put the work in, and become what he really wants to be, but he just likes to blog about it and not be about it. You act as if I am making fun of his problem, I am not, I am just calling it as I see it.

Finally got back to the tables after a long, looong break.
It wasn’t the most lucrative session, but I managed to end in the black. This session’s theme isn’t about the hands that I did play, it’s about the hands that I didn’t.

Full ring, blinds $2/5. 3 grueling hours in, no playable hands. The best hands I’ve seen so far are A5 in MP, and KQ in CO which I both open fold.

The hand where I folded KQ (with $150 behind),
It’s pre flop raised to $15 by a LP who seems like a grinder. heads up against BB to flop.
BB is a Chinese man wearing business suit, whose been running like fire, bought in for $500 total, and had about 1.2K in front of him. He calls.

Flop comes *Qc 7d 8h.* Great flop for me, I would have flopped TP GK. I’m crying on the inside.
Chinese man donks out $20.
Guy in LP, warily calls.

Turn comes another Q. Board is *Qc 7d 8h* Qd.
I cry some more on the inside. I could have doubled up on this hand.
Chinese guy bets $40.
LP guy warily calls.

River Jack. board is *Qc 7d 8h* Qd Js
Chinese business man checks.
Grinder guy checks back.
Chinese business man shows Q7 for a FULL house, and gets zero value from grinder. I could have gone broke on this hand.


I fold some more, all night, until I see T9 ($150 behind) on my BB. I want to see a flop, but some douche in late position raises to $24. I can’t call that. I fold. and of course, the flop comes

*KJ8.* I would have flopped a flush…

Overall I’m happy with all the folding I did the other day. My opponents were raising and calling $25 chunks, often showing down some pretty random holdings.
I ended up positive $60 for the session, and bought some white widow and amnesia with some of the winnings.

Yeah, this guy’s absolutely right. I just had to take a step back from a moment. If you don’t see or hear from me in like 3 months, yea, I’ve probably OD.

Thanks for the reach out and support bud. I just shot you back a message

TBH, I think I have played at your table. I’ll say hey next time

Fu** off

Dude, I literally drove for uber for like, 3 months last year. They off boarded me because my car doesn’t meet the year requirement and specs. It’s like, making fun of me for sh**ing my pants in 1st grade. I sustain by living a hyper minimalistic life.

KK, how long of a break did you take? You shouldn't be taking too long of breaks as a poker professional.

Don't waste time lamenting what you would have hit or missed, just an utter waste of brain power.

KK, if you do not have a real job and are still living out of a car drive to a place where you can play 100bb poker at $1/$2 NLHE, quit slacking/using drugs, and beat the game for $15-$25 cash a hour, forty hours a week. With one year on this site and access to all the strategy information you need there is no excuse to be where you are now. If you can't figure out how to beat the game for the above amounts you simply do not have what it takes to play for a living and should consider a real job while also maybe playing poker on the side until you get clean/give yourself a better chance to succeed. I will not say that taking a shot at poker for a year is a waste of time for most people because it is never a waste of time to pursue your dream, but for you it has been a waste of time as I don't really think you can say you are a better poker player now then you were a year ago.

WTF. Why? Oh right you're playing 30bbs A5s is not that great in that case. But KQs in the CO is an open fold? What the actual fvck?

open shoving KQs for 30bbs from CO > open folding

Open folding KQs from CO = Next level thinking, you guys wouldnt get it

are you still at the AirB&B place ??

this guy ain't even properly rolled, folding KQ suited, 10/9 suited..
You are playing 2/5 with $150? most casinos have a min $300 buy in for that game.
that's barely 75bb in 1/2. the weed must be affecting his math. guys are blasting him rightfully so because he can't get his sh*t together it's so apparent.

^

In LA the game is 3/5 $200 cap... Yea you read that right

If you paid attention to the hand history you would realize that KK didn't open fold KQ. He simply used the wrong terminology.

^ You're right but LP is CO and BTN only. If he folded KQs in the CO to a raise the raise did not come from LP. And even if he's part of the group that considers BTN-2 to be LP which is just weird, folding KQs CO vs that position is laughable. After two years of being a poker "pro" he still doesn't seem to understand the very simple terms "LP" and "open fold" or how to play KQs preflop. I'm pretty sure this guy's done a grand total of 0 hours of studying that isn't 2+2 or Twitch.